Because my mother said that when I was lying on the sofa watching TV, I often couldn't see the movement over there. Of course, when Liu Guifang was studying in the room, her mother would open the door from time to time to raid and check whether she was playing or sleeping.

At that time, Liu Guifang didn't have a mobile phone, nothing, but the sound of the TV could always be heard outside the door, and many times this sound could be so loud that it disturbed her train of thought.

"Liu Guifang, Liu Guifang." Downstairs there was the shouts of her friends, who would often go downstairs to call her name and ask her to hang out with her, but...

"Mom," Liu Guifang knocked on the door, "a classmate told me to go out for a walk twice." ”

"Bang," Mom opened the door to her room, "what is there to do at school every day, can't you study hard?" ”

"But those are my friends, I can't go out every time they call me, can I?"

"Friends? Do you know what kind of person is called a friend at such a young age? They always run out to play day by day and don't study seriously, I think I'm afraid it's some fox friends and dog friends, and I still have less contact with them in the future, so as not to bring you to not like to study. ”

"Mom..."

"If you don't study hard, you want to go out all day long." Mom seemed angry, slammed the door shut, and left.

She's busy watching TV...

But... It's really annoying, annoying, annoying, sitting here like this every day.

I just want to get out and take a walk......

Forget it, maybe she's really angry, because she's always inexplicably angry.

Liu Guifang sincerely wrote a letter of apology: "Mom, I'm sorry I was wrong, I shouldn't have been studying hard and always thinking about going out to play, but Mom, my group of friends are very good, I really hope that my mother can stop looking at them with colored glasses." ”

After she finished writing, she put it under her mother's pillow, but she didn't expect to see her mother's gloomy face as soon as she got home from school the next day. Before Liu Guifang could ask, she took out the note angrily: "There are also colored glasses, it's a bit culturally amazing, dare to say that about my mother." There was a hint of sarcasm in her tone, and she threw the note into the trash in a rage.

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Because her mother forced her to eat a lot of things every day and didn't let her go out to exercise, she began to gain weight and was out of control.

She watched her pants slowly fail to lift, her clothes slowly unable to put on, and she watched her arms become thicker, her legs thickened, her waist thickened, her face became bigger, and she became fatter and uglier.

However, after gaining weight, she couldn't wear a lot of pants before, and most of the elastic pants that her grandmother bought for her when she was a child were those that didn't use belts.

"Mom, I basically can't wear those pants anymore." One day, Liu Guifang plucked up the courage to go to her mother.

"I don't think you're dressed well, are you?"

"But these pants make my stomach hurt so much, especially after eating..."

"It hurts, you can dress first, you also know that I don't have a job, my father is working alone, the living expenses of your brother and sister, the tuition fees, and the debt you owe so much to buy a house has not been paid off, your pants look fine, do you want to buy a new one?"

Liu Guifang knew that she couldn't move her mother, so she didn't want to waste her tongue anymore, she walked into the room and closed the door, and the tears fell.

Staying with her mom really made her feel very uncomfortable, and an indescribable feeling of depression made her breathless.

At home, she slowly became less talkative, anyway, everything was wrong, she didn't like to laugh much, after all, there was nothing to be happy about, but at school she jumped like a madman, and those friends were by her side, which really made her very happy, until that day...

"Gui Fang, are you here?" A classmate looked at her and could see that the person was trying his best to hold back a smile.

"That's right." She walked towards them step by step with a smile, they were her best friends.

"Liu Guifang, you have been recently... Do you have a big neck? One man seemed to be unable to take it anymore, so he laughed maniacally and said it.

"I..."

"Where is her big neck disease, it's obviously obesity hahahaha

They... Are you laughing at me?

Liu Guifang's heart was stunned, but... They're my best friends.

"What do you mean?" Seeing that the two people couldn't stand up straight with a smile, Liu Guifang asked a little angrily.

"It's okay, it's okay, we're kidding." The two men hurriedly walked over and patted Liu Guifang on the back, signaling her not to be angry.

Just kidding... But... She was really, really sad to hear that...

"It's okay," Liu Guifang put her hands on the shoulders of the two people, "Let's go, let's go to class." ”

When she returned home and lay in bed at night, Liu Guifang's mind flashed back to the conversation between her friends during the day.

Is it that I am very ugly in the eyes of others now? Liu Guifang turned on the light and looked at herself seriously in front of the mirror.

It seems like... It's really ugly...

How could you be so ugly?

The more Liu Guifang looked at it, the more she felt that she was too ugly to look at directly, and she felt very uncomfortable when she thought that she was a short, ugly and fat person in the eyes of others.

She began to slowly realize that she was really fat, she was a fat person, and she was no longer the Liu Guifang who could no longer grow fat.

I'm a fat man, I'm a fat man...

When she looked in the mirror every day, Liu Guifang meditated in her heart over and over again, she wanted to let herself quickly accept this reality that she couldn't accept.

However, those friends did not give her time to accept her changes, and their jokes became more and more endless, seemingly endless.

"Eh, Liu Guifang." As she was about to walk to the classroom, a friend suddenly stopped her.

"Eh, such a coincidence?" As soon as I turned around, I saw a friend, followed by a large group of boys from their class.

"You know, I just looked at you from afar, like a ball of pink meat rolling, hahahaha, laughing at me..."

Liu Guifang suddenly felt embarrassed, and after the boys left, she asked the friend: "Why do you say this to me in front of so many boys?" ”

"I'm just kidding," the man looked disapproving, "I'm also joking with you because I have a good relationship with you, why do you care so much?" ”

Joke...

But why did she think this kind of joke was not funny at all?

"You were so scared that I was talking about you in front of the boys, do you have a boy you like in it?" She suddenly leaned over and said.

"Nope." Liu Guifang was momentarily frightened by her statement.

"Also, if you like them, they won't like you," the man said, nodding his head, "Let's go, class is coming soon." ”

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Pink Meat Balls... Pink Meat Balls...

After returning home and lying in bed at night, Liu Guifang couldn't help but think of a joke made by a friend, it turned out that when she walked, she squirmed like a ball of meat, right?

So is she really that fat and ugly?

"Also, if you like them, they won't like you..."The friend's voice rang in her head again, and for some reason, when she thought about it again, she suddenly felt a hint of ridicule in her tone.

But they're their friends, they're just talking and joking...

Liu Guifang tried her best to hint that she didn't care, those were just jokes, but when she thought of big neck disease, obesity, and pink meat balls, she felt disgusted with herself.

She didn't want to hear such a joke... I don't want it at all...

But why doesn't anyone understand her? Every time she resisted, she fooled them around with a joke.

Is it really my own problem, is it that I am too sensitive?

But how should this be changed?

Liu Guifang thought about it and felt inexplicably wronged, and her tears suddenly flowed. Why can't her friends understand her a little more? Why?

Also, what's going on with you? Why do you always cry when you go to bed at night?

But now it's past two o'clock in the middle of the night, and I still don't feel sleepy, I just feel very sad, and my tears can't stop flowing.

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"Look at you, you don't pay attention to eating, and the food falls on the table." At lunch at noon the next day, my mother's fierce voice suddenly sounded.

"I'm done eating, I'm going to school." The elder brother put down the dishes and chopsticks and rushed outside.

"Tell you to eat seriously." Mom slapped Liu Guifang's hand a little angrily, and her chopsticks were slapped to the ground.

"I'm really convinced." Mom also put down the dishes and chopsticks and walked into her room with an angry face.

"Bang!"

The door closed surprisingly loudly.

She's angry again, isn't she?

Liu Guifang picked up the chopsticks weakly, she just wanted to wash the dishes and chopsticks quickly and go to school to stay, away from here and away from her mother.

Oh no... She didn't want to go to school, she didn't want to go, she didn't want to face the ridicule of her friends, she didn't want to listen to their jokes...

I... Where do I go? Liu Guifang was suddenly stunned.

Why did I feel happy everywhere before, but now I feel... It seems that there is no place for yourself.

There is no place to welcome yourself...

Liu Guifang slumped in her chair, tears falling down again.

She is no longer frightened by her current appearance, although she doesn't understand how Liu Guifang, who was very happy and happy before, suddenly became like this, but she really can't find a reason to be happy.

I miss my mother to go back to work soon... Liu Guifang looked at her mother's room, with a slight hatred in her eyes.