A person's memory is a city.

Time has corrupted all buildings, desertifying tall buildings and roads, and if you don't go any further, you will be buried in sand.

So we burst into tears and turned back step by step.

But

You can only go forward.

The place that once recorded countless good memories has now become a huge scar in Liu Siche's heart that cannot be healed.

As soon as he uncovered it, countless pains rushed out and overwhelmed him.

Even if the city of memory is all desertified by time, those scars have long been engraved on every grain of sand and can no longer be healed.

It was like a garden entangled in thorns, and whenever he tried to enter it, he would be punctured with spikes.

Everything happened unexpectedly, and he was not the slightest bit unprepared.

It's not that he can't accept parting, but not in this heartbreaking way.

The harsh reality shattered almost all of his beliefs.

"I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye to them......"

Liu Siche was drunk, his eyes were red and swollen, and his eyes were wandering.

"It would be nice if I could turn back the clock, I really want to go back in time, I will never grow up......"

"There are no ifs in this world."

"I know, but I just can't help but think about it......"

"Imaginary things never make sense." Lin Fan said calmly.

"You say, is it really just a dream, and I'm still in a dream and haven't woken up. When I woke up, everything was still the same, and they were all still with me. ”

"No, I'm real, not half-false, so you're real, and what you've experienced is real."

“...... It's true... Isn't it possible at all? ”

"No, don't fool yourself." Lin Fan didn't seem to have any sense of comfort.

Suddenly, as if he remembered something, he looked at Lin Fan fixedly and asked:

"Then you say, in this world, is there an afterlife?"

Lin Fan looked at his determined eyes and replied, "Yes." ”

"Can you believe it?"

"I'm sure, what about you?"

"That's... Will I ever see them again? ”

"I don't know."

"Then I will never have a chance to repay their kindness again?"

"No, even if you meet them in the next life, theoretically speaking, they have nothing to do with the previous life, they are a new person."

"You say, is there a place like Huangquan Road in this world?"

"Yes." Lin Fan replied seriously.

"Then if, now, rush to Huangquan Road, will I still have time, will I still have time to see them again?"

Lin Fan looked behind him again, "It's too late." ”

Then he continued: "But she... They won't want you to do that. ”

"I just want to meet them, I want to say goodbye to them, I really... I miss them ......."

"It's good to say goodbye in your heart."

"But I want to see them, I want to say goodbye to them in person."

"You look back."

"Turn back?"

Liu Siche turned his head with doubts, and saw that there was nothing behind him.

"She's right behind you, they're right behind you, silently with you. They want you to live well and want you to have a happy life......"

"Without them, how can I live well, how can I be happy?"

"So you have to live well and be happy. You can't live up to their expectations of you, because you don't have a chance to admit your mistakes to them, and no one will spoil you like that unconditionally anymore. ”

"I'm so unwilling!"

"You should not be reconciled."

"I... Hateful! Liu Siche's eyes showed strong hatred, "I hate that person for forcing my grandfather to death, if my grandfather is still here, there will be no next thing!" ”

"You should hate."

"Why is she so stupid......" Liu Siche's voice was hoarse, "Why did she go in when she was on fire?" ”

"Perhaps, she just wants to protect that home."

"She should protect herself first, she's really stupid......"

"So you can't be stupid, so you have to live well, you have to hate, you can't forget."

"I ......" Liu Siche's drunken eyes were hazy, "I really want to see them again......"

"You look back." Lin Fan repeated again.

Even though he knew there was no one behind him, he shook and looked back.

In his hazy vision, Liu Siche seemed to see an old man with a kind face, sitting behind him, holding a pu fan, looking at him kindly and with concern.

The pu fan was gently fanned, as if there was a cool breeze blowing on the face, blowing away a trace of wine.

Liu Siche was stunned for a moment, opened his eyes wide and looked carefully again, but there was still no one behind him.

Yes, delusion?

Smiling self-deprecatingly, Liu Siche turned his head back, took advantage of the drunkenness, lay on the table, and fell asleep.

Muttering in his mouth: "Fake, it's all fake......"

Lin Fan shook his head and sighed in his heart, it was the misfortune of the original family again.

Oh, in today's society, everything has to be examined, tested, and all kinds of certificates are taken for a job.

But being a parent, but you don't need any tests, you don't need any certificates, you just rely on your heart, selfish and self-interested.

Lin Fan looked behind Liu Siche again, and an old man was sitting on a chair in the back.

The old man was full of gorgeous hair, and the years had left many marks on her face, but it also made the old man more kind.

She was holding a puff fan in her rough hand, fanning the young man who was sleeping on the table in front of her.

Just like when he was a young man, he sat on a rattan chair in the small courtyard of his grandfather's house, looking at the starry sky and listening to the chirping of cicadas, while his grandmother was holding a fan next to him, fanning him and telling him stories.

The boy fell asleep in the summer night breeze.

The old man behind Liu Siche looked at his grandson distressedly, for fear that something would happen to him.

When she was alive before, she was sometimes sober and sometimes confused, but as time went by, she was confused for longer and longer.

But there is no way around it.

People, once you get old, you can't help yourself more and more.

I can't help myself, I can't help it.

But no matter how confused she is, she has never forgotten who this child is.

In the eyes of the old man, he will always be the child who doesn't grow up, and he is his favorite Xiao Che.

Even if, now the two are separated by yin and yang.

Now people are like lamps that go out, freed from the bondage of the mortal womb of the flesh, and have become much more sober.

But the more sober I am, the more I regret the mistakes I made when I was confused.

"Oh my God...... Why do you ...... me like this?"

There was a trace of tears in the old man's cloudy eyes.

People will make many mistakes in this life, and people will have many regrets in this life.

Sometimes, when we are lucky, we may be able to remedy it, but more often than not, we can only let it happen and be powerless to remedy it, or in other words, no matter what we do, it will not help.

Manpower is sometimes poor, manpower, often poor.

Helpless, helpless, the matter has come to this, the old man can only try to do some remedies, she can't let her grandson do anything else.

But she could only follow behind him, silently guarding him, but she didn't have much time.

No matter how worried she is about the child, she can't resist the law between yin and yang, no one can break this boundary, she has no power or intention, she can only go with the flow.

From the time Liu Siche entered the door, Lin Fan saw her, but he never said anything.

It's just that when Liu Siche said that he missed them very much, he asked him to look back.

Looking back, those who were once by your side never left, they existed in the time and space they once were, and they were with you.

Even if the years go by, things are wrong, and the traces of the past still cannot be erased.

They're watching over you.

No matter what they are now, in the time and space they once had, they wish you well.

So, you have to work hard, you can't live up to the expectations they once had for you.

The old man looked at Liu Siche like this, with a reluctant look in his eyes, her time was up.

"Don't worry, I'll watch it."

Lin Fan knew that she couldn't rest assured.

"Thank you......"

The old man got up slowly, walked out of the door, and turned back step by step, with all kinds of reluctance in his heart.

Standing on the side of the road, she took one last deep look at the boy, and then she never looked back, and walked towards the dark alley.

"Old man, I'm here, I'm with you......"

Then, a gust of wind blew, and the old man's figure slowly disappeared into the night, never to be seen again.

......

Lin Fan looked at Liu Siche, who was sleeping on the table, as if he was talking in his sleep.

"Grandpa... Grandma'......"

"Alas......"

Lin Fan sighed, and then, the black mist in his eyes surged.

If you want to see them so much, then I will fulfill you.

I will create a dream for you, and in the dream, say goodbye to them.

A wisp of black mist flashed from Lin Fan's eyes, and Liu Siche, who was lying on the table and talking in a dream, sank into the dream and stopped muttering to himself.

At the same time, the shadow under Lin Fan's feet seemed to become even deeper.

......

Squeak Squeak –

The summer is hot, and I know that I am chirping non-stop.

The sky is blue and cloudless.

In the distance are rolling lush mountains with lush trees.

Surrounded by fields, the green lotus leaves in the lotus pond are spread out in layers, connecting with the blue sky.

The slim lotus buds are in full bloom, and under the sunshine, they look particularly bright and delicate.

On the side of the field, a boy was walking happily.

He was holding a huge lotus leaf in his hand, which he had just picked from the side of the road.

He gathered the lotus leaf, twisted it from the middle, and divided it into two halves.

The lower part is opened, and there is a large hole in the center of the round lotus leaf that can be passed through by the head.

The boy put it on his shoulders and put the other half over his head.

It was a parasol made of lotus leaves, and the boy had a lot of fun walking and playing.

Passing through the fields, at the end of the path is a village.

At the entrance of the village, an old man was standing there, and when he saw the boy in the distance, the old man shouted, "Xiao Che! ”

The boy beckoned and trotted all the way: "Grandpa! ”

"Hey, Xiao Che is good!"

The old man put his hands behind his back, holding a snack for his grandson.

......

In the evening, the old man prepared a sumptuous dinner for his grandson.

After dinner, the boy and his grandfather went to the courtyard, sat on a wicker chair, listened to the cicadas chirping and frogs, and counted the stars in the sky.

Occasionally, a gust of night wind blew, stirring the green grass in the rice fields, bringing a loud noise.

After tidying up the dishes and chopsticks, the grandmother also moved a stool and sat next to the boy.

The grandmother held a fan in her hand and told the boy a story while fanning the boy.

"Once upon a time there was a little boy ......"

The fan shook gently, blowing away the boredom of summer, and the boy looked at the stars in the sky and listened quietly to his grandmother's story.

Listening, listening, Liu Siche burst into tears......

Grandma took his hand, grandpa stroked his head, and said softly and gently,

"Xiao Che, be good, don't cry."

"I miss you so much......"

The boy became what he had grown up, looking at the kind and kind familiar faces around him.

Holding my grandmother's rough hand, like the last time I saw my grandmother at my grandmother's funeral more than a month ago, I held her hand.

In his ears, listening to his grandfather's voice, which he hadn't heard for more than a year, Liu Siche's heart was like a knife.

"Xiao Che, good boy, be good, don't cry."

"I really, I miss you so much......" Liu Siche suppressed his emotions and said in a trembling voice.

Grandpa stretched out his hand to wipe away his tears,

"Well, I don't want to, we're here."

This sentence was like a key that opened the gap in the river of pain in his heart, and sorrow and longing rushed out like a flood that burst the embankment.

He could no longer suppress his emotions and cried.

The old man just looked at him quietly and accompanied him, "Xiao Che, be good." ”

I don't know how long it took, Liu Siche was tired of crying, lying on the rattan chair, choked up and asked,

"Can we meet again?"

The old man sat beside him and said with a soft smile,

"Silly boy, you have grown up, we are old, one day, we are leaving, and no one can change this result."

"Look up and see the stars in the sky?"

"You have to remember that wherever you are, as long as you look up, we are in the sky, in this starry sky, watching you."

"Don't feel lonely, don't feel sad, we will always watch over you like the stars in the sky."

"You have to live well, you have to be happy, you have to be happy."

"As long as you live well, it is our greatest wish."

"You've grown up, you have to be sensible."

"There will be many regrets in this life, we can't do everything well, what you have to do is to hide those regrets in your heart, and then, live well, cherish everything you have at the moment."

"You know what?"

Liu Siche nodded heavily, "Well, I know." ”

Grandpa touched Liu Siche's head,

"Good boy, if you're tired, go to sleep."

"Okay."

He closed his eyes.

Next to him, his grandmother held a pu fan and gently fanned him.

Then, with a cool breeze and tiredness, Liu Siche slowly fell asleep and fell asleep, just like when he was young.

The old man looked at him with kindness on his face.

Sleep, sleep, wake up, and everything will be fine.

We will be the wind and rain of the world to accompany you......

A gust of night wind blew, and the old man's figure turned into a glimmer of light and drifted away, carried by the wind, and flew into the starry sky.

The stars are shining in the sky,

In the canopy in the distance,

Streak across a shooting star.

Liu Siche's consciousness remembered a sentence before he completely sank into sleep.

I know we'll meet again,

At the end of the world,

On the other side of life.

......