White dots of light loomed in the trees, and as we got closer, the clearer the dots became, and the more they were revealed.

"What's that?" I asked.

"I don't know yet......" Du Youlan replied in my heart.

And in addition to her response, in my body, the golden heart also maintained the strange special feeling that it had before.

I pushed aside the last bushes in front of me, and in the sparse moonlight, I could see the whole thing.

It's a huge lump of meat.

It looks a bit like forty-nine, but it's much smaller than forty-nine. It seemed to be breathing, its body expanding and shrinking intermittently, and it was covered with milky white glowing dots of light, which flickered with that breathing-like behavior.

And at the same time that I discovered its true nature, this thing seemed to be aware of our presence.

The milky white dots that had been flickering began to close and open intermittently.

Only then did I realize that those so-called points of light turned out to be eyeballs without black eyes!

"It's ......" Du Youlan's voice echoed in my heart.

The tone seemed to have a clear idea of what was going on in front of him.

"You recognize?"

Instead of answering immediately, she instructed me, "Approach it." ”

My body began to be semi-alienated, but Du Youlan said to me in her heart: "Don't be so nervous, this thing shouldn't have any combat effectiveness." ”

"No combat effectiveness? I remember a few minutes ago, you seemed to be telling me that this thing has a powerful aura. ”

"A strong aura does not necessarily represent the ability to fight, just like Yao Qianwen, her immortal ability is the top among Gu worms. But who have you seen her beat? ”

"What is this thing capable of?"

"I don't know." She answered very simply, but I was inexplicably supposed.

I can't say where the problem is, it's just a strange signal from the golden heart to me, which became more obvious after Du Youlan's response.

At this moment, I am convinced that the Gu worm opposite Du Youlan actually knows quite well.

I shouldn't have touched it.

Now, I should spit out my tentacles and smash this thing in front of me, tear it apart, or use my right eye to drain its vitality, or even use Twenty-One's insect venom ability.

Anyway, it's time for me to destroy this thing.

It's a trap for me.

However......

I finally put my hand on the thing.

"What do you want me to do with it?" I asked.

Sure enough, in this world, I doubt anyone, not even Silent Night. But for her, there is an exception. I don't know whether this unconditional reason for trusting Du Youlan comes from me after I recognize my identity, or whether I have completely changed her at a certain moment.

People always seem to be like this, and in the process of trying to pursue something, they gradually forget the reason for the initial pursuit.

Even in the end, I don't know if I care about the feeling of chasing, or the original desire, or neither......

However, these reasons for headaches are actually not that important!

Because no matter what the process is, no matter what I think, at this moment, the final decision I make is still to put my hand on that Gu worm's body.

Why make everything so clear, it's people who are vague, right?

……

"Hehe......" she chuckled in my heart.

Somewhat satisfied.

It's also a bit of a real pleasure to listen to.

"What will it do to me?" So, I also asked bluntly.

"You really know I'm 'harming' you."

"If you want to get your ex-girlfriend back, you have to bleed somewhat, right?"

"Haha......"

This kind of laughter is the first time I've heard it from Du Youlan.

"Zoraku, you've seen a lot of memories of the past lately, haven't you? Maybe you can't remember the specific content yet, but it doesn't mean that they are not in your head. This thing is called a Hundred Eyes Gu, and it doesn't have any attack ability in itself, but its level is comparable to Yao Qianwen, just because of its outstanding ability. Those eyes are not looking at the world, but peeking into the secrets of people's hearts...... Everything about you will be remembered here. If you want to know, if you don't want to know, it's all here. ”

This is Du Youlan's explanation.

At first, I didn't pay attention to it, but after hearing the second half, I suddenly realized something.

"No way!" I'm going to stop.

I realized that this thing really didn't appear here out of thin air.

Before, Mina had been trying to know what my missing memories were. I thought so. After returning from hell, seeing the last scene of the silent night, and getting to know Mina again, I finally realized that it wasn't her who wanted to know what the secret I had forgotten was.

Rather, she wanted me to know.

She was sure that knowing that forgotten memory, I would change and that my position would coincide with what she wanted to do.

That's her reason.

I have always felt that the secrets I have forgotten are my mission, the right mission. When I remember it one day, I will correct the wrong thing for this.

But if my memory coincides with what Mina did, it seems to me now that everything is the complete opposite.

I thought I was a preventer of disaster, but maybe, I would be the promoter.

I have to stop!

"Don't move, just put it on this. I know what you're thinking. This is what she arranged, and she has always wanted you to remember the past. ”

"You understand you're still directing me to do that? You want me to run straight to her to help, do you? Give Forty-Two a whip to speed up his carrying, right? ”

"No...... It's me, and I've always wondered why you chose that day. ”

"I'll give you an answer sooner or later, but not right now. I can't let the world become what it shouldn't be. ”

"Do you love the world that much?"

I slowly withdrew my hand, ignoring what she said.

"Or do you not dare to look at it yourself. Or maybe you already knew about it, worried about me seeing? Some people will find reasons for lying to themselves, saying that it is far heavier to bear a lie than to say it, because carrying it is faced by one person, and speaking out will cause harm to others, and it will be much easier for oneself. Don't you think that's a fart? It's just that I'm too timid to say it, and I want to paint myself as a hero, which is disgusting......"

"I don't want to ruin the world."

"You're so distrustful of yourself?"

"Do you trust me?"

Instead of answering my question, she asked, "Don't you also believe that I 'give myself a reason'?" ”

Her words reminded me of that night.

About the choice of Wei Heng and Zuole.

Her "find a reason"......

I laughed.

I almost forgot that people change.

In the past, I was Wei Heng, but now, I am Zuo Le.

"If you don't even have the courage to face your own thoughts in the past, don't go to the desert. At least you won't die in the flames of Ayimu......" she added a final stab.

I, finally, still put my hand deep on the body of the hundred-eyed Gu worm.

The next moment, above the countless white eyeballs, there were fragments of memories that belonged to me and Du Youlan.

……