1

He seems to be a dazzling presence from birth, he doesn't like to smile, his eyebrows and eyes are cold, as if I haven't seen him smile in a long time.

I always imagine that Ah Chen would be like this if he laughed, and just like that, there was a story about his youth in the blink of an eye, and there was no story between me and him, only my one-way crush.

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2

I was reluctant to see him, so I often pretended to be in the library where he frequented him, and when I met him again, he was dressed cleanly, and gently like a gust of wind that passed me and continued to walk.

My eyes followed the man in front of me closely, and he suddenly looked back at me, I don't know if it was my delusion, I actually caught a flash of laughter.

His eyes were beautiful, those eyes were shallow and bent when he smiled, and his eyelashes were long and quietly drooping.

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3

When I finished my homework, I was pushed forward by the sea of people, and he was so close to me that I could touch his hanging hand as soon as I reached out.

There are so many people, how good it would be to hold his hand secretly.

I tried to shake off the thought, but he suddenly turned his head, and I felt as if I had been seen into the depths of my soul, seeing through all the dirty and pure, and the thought was stillborn ever since.

"I've seen you before." He pretended to come closer to me inadvertently

Some, when talking to me, his eyes looked away.

"Ahh I was stunned, I didn't expect him to take the initiative to talk to me.

I've seen you before, he said.

Doesn't that mean that he paid attention to me?!

Suppressing the throbbing in my heart, I pulled away a smile.

"I've been here a lot, and I've seen you, after all, it's a grade."

I was afraid that because of him, the fact that I was forced to study here every day would be exposed, so I made a clumsy excuse.

"Let's be together next time." He whispered, in a serious tone, and I thought he was afraid of my rejection.

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4

From the beginning I just wanted to know his name, then we did everything together, went to the library together, ate together, he always waited for me after school, we always made an appointment to be together next time, and always said that next time we would say something like this.

It seems that we are born to love each other, even if we don't hold hands in the sea of people, we can see each other just by looking back.

After knowing him for a long time, I found out that he was very clingy, and at first I thought he was very cute, but I didn't think so, and when he was angry that I wasn't with him, I just laughed and rubbed his hair and said that I would be with him once.

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5

Because they don't have a suitable identity for each other, he and I made an appointment, and no one went out of bounds, but I always felt that I liked him a little more, so I thought it was good for me to confess first, but before I could do it, we were together.

That day he suddenly sent a message for me to come out, it was not a romantic rainy day.

As we walked in the wet city, the leaves of the trees around us were about to melt, and he suddenly kissed me hard, his tongue kept entangled, as if I would be with the person in front of me for the rest of my life, and I could never be separated again.

I was forced to accept the kiss, and he didn't say anything else, and we were together.

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6

At first, I was not generous enough to walk with him openly and kiss in the sight of passers-by.

But he always took the initiative to hold my hand, and when I looked at him, his eyes were calm.

It seems that this is the most normal thing between lovers, but I am too cautious.

I've heard other people's discussions, but I don't care about it, and over time, I'm not so sensitive, so I'm going to put it aside.

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7

Before I liked him, I didn't like the greasy thing of being in love.

But at that time, I thought it was okay to fall in love with the person I liked and give in to myself, and then we quarreled, and he would give in the end.

Later, at a friend's party, someone who had liked me for a long time took the opportunity to confess to me.

I subconsciously glanced at him, and then followed him out of the room.

With a cold look in his eyes, he pecked the corner of my lips, my wrist was twisted by him, and when I let go, there was a red mark, and my intuition told me that he was angry now, and I apologized carefully, but he pushed me away irritably and slapped me in front of passers-by.

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8

Later, we did it once in his car, and afterwards he smoked a cigarette, and he was born white, and his side face was as good-looking as ever, but it was very cold and hard, like a jade Buddha.

What about me.

I was loosely dressed, half-lying there in embarrassment, and I felt a lot of shame, and I suddenly realized that I was actually afraid of him sometimes, that he was horriblely paranoid in some way, and that I followed him most of the time, and I didn't know what it would be like to provoke him

He didn't seem to have the slightest intention of giving me a chance to explain.

"I really like you." When he finally looked at me, I quickly crawled over like a dog to explain.

"What about that person?" He patted my face with satisfaction, frowning.

"Haven't I spoiled you too much lately?"

"Yes, I'm sorry." I quickly apologized, for fear that he would regenerate

Gas.

"I really, I don't know him well."

"Good. In the future, your mobile phone will be turned on 24 hours a day, and I will call you and you must answer it, you know? ”

I nodded, relieved.

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9

When he called, of course I answered immediately, no matter what I was doing, he was very happy with it, and one day he got drunk,

Let me pick it up, he wrapped his arms around me and coquettishly said that he always felt that he was closer to me, but my first feeling was nervous,

He really scared me that time, and now I don't have the same sweet feeling when I'm alone in the car with him.

A heart is tight, I am really nervous, I please the person in front of me, for fear of doing anything more to annoy him.

"Why don't you speak?"

"Ah, okay, I'm sorry, I was a little dizzy just now."

In a trance, I seemed to see the young man who was smiling before, he looked at me gently, rubbed my hair with his hands, called my name, and said that he would treat me well in the future.

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10

Once I had a meeting, he called me and said that he missed me and wanted to eat the food I cooked, and the boss looked at me in surprise, but I didn't dare to hang up the phone and rubbed my eyebrows.

I quit my job and watched my phone every day.

Those days were too slow, I felt like I didn't know anything, and he asked me over and over again on the phone, you said that I am all in your life.

Finally, I couldn't take it anymore, I hung up on him for the first time, and I said, "You, I've had enough." ”

I clutched my hair and broke down silently.

Fuck the idiot.

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Can't admit love

Text/Eating fish is not stuck

My dad eloped with his dad, leaving me and my mom, and my mom hated my dad and his family so much, and so did his mom.

I hated him too, but I was attracted to him.

He was two years older than me, and we weren't good people, so how could we be a good person when we were born in such an environment.

He's tougher than me.

Because of that man's relationship, I always pay attention to him.

Watching him sweat like water on the court, wanton and flamboyant, watching him fight, fierce and ruthless, I don't know how to move my heart.

When I meet him, we fight, he hates me, I hate him, we are enemies.

I couldn't beat him, but I always wanted to find him, and I had a hard time accepting the fact that I liked him.

Hate and love coexist, they fight in the body, and it is I who is in pain.

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It was raining, my head had already been smashed by him, love and hate, I accidentally said I love you, regret occupied my mind for a while.

But I felt something lighter.

He looked at me, peach blossom eyes full of sneer, "Do you want to be like your shameless father, like men?" ”

I didn't speak, the tears kept staying, I felt that I had no strength, and I was going to leave this world in the next second, but the fact was that I was still standing steadily.

He slammed the stick into the trash can next to him and turned away.

I think he must have seen those two trash cans for the man and me.

I went home, and my mom was already waiting for me, holding a long ring ruler.

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She used to hit me a lot when I was a kid.

I know what awaits me.

I knelt before her and waited for her punishment.

She roared, "Why fight, why fight with him, why go to him." ”

I kept my mouth shut, the reason was unspeakable.

She got angry and hit me with a ruler.

kept muttering, "I told you not to contact him, he is the son of that slut, won't your dad be infected if he has more contact with his dad, he is also a disgusting thing, you will also be infected if you come into contact with him!" ”

"He's not, I'm—" I almost told my biggest secret.

My mom paused, then hit harder, even a little crazy.

I endured her anger, and I knew that she was tired and her anger would subside.

But I still couldn't hold back my tears.

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His dad and my dad ruined two families, but I inherited my disgusting genes, I hated him, I loved him, no one understood my torment, the double extreme kept me awake day and night.

I feel like I'm going as crazy as my mom.

But my mother was stronger than me, she raised me alone, although she often beat and scolded me, but she never lacked me food and clothing, but I fell in love with the son of her most disgusting and hated person.

She got tired and sat next to me and cried, I turned around and hugged her, she really was just me.

I felt like I had two souls in my body, one who knew I hated him and couldn't touch him, and the other who couldn't help but want to be close to him.

I watched him play on the pitch again, and he smiled at me and my heart was pounding.

We can communicate normally, we have been to the cinema together, we have drunk milk tea together, but we will also fight, like two souls tearing each other apart, whether we can communicate well depends on which soul has the upper hand.

He asked me to go to the river, and when I went, he took a bouquet of stars and asked me if I would like to elope with him.

After all, it was the second soul that took over, and I said yes.

He burst out laughing, tears coming out of his eyes, as if he had seen something particularly funny.

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"Do you really think I like you, how could I possibly like you, there is only hatred between us, you know

You know, who would think that you inherited that disgusting gene from your dad, you are so easy to deceive hahahahaha. ”

I burst into tears and laughed.

Again, he asked me if I would like to elope with him, as if he were serious.

I said, no.

He put on a crying and laughing expression, covered his face with his hands, and squatted down chokingly.

I know that he is suffering the same as me, we have no results, and our best future is to be with my mother and listen to my mother.

We never saw each other separately after this parting, and then he took the college entrance examination and went to another city, and I had a new life.

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My mom died when I was forty-one years old and I wasn't married.

It's really just me now, and I still often think about how he's doing, whether he's married, and whether he has a lovely child.

When I was fifty-one and he was fifty-three, I met him again, and I still recognized him at first sight, he walked towards me with a starry hand in his hand, and we hugged each other tightly.

He didn't get married and didn't forget me.

This is the best ending for us.

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