Official Account: Wish Museum

Author: Museum of Wishes

(a)

I never thought there was anything wrong with forgetting, and the bad thing was that I always thought I had forgotten, but as long as I didn't twist my head and was willing to look back, everything would become clear, even with the sunshine and the wind and the crowd that day.

That means I'm not relieved, which is bad.

I met him when I was seventeen.

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(b)

The sun was good that afternoon, the mottled through the window was beautiful, and when he was tired of doing the test papers, he looked out the window and he stood under the tree with his head down.

With one leg against the tree and half a cigarette in my hand, I was in a trance and blinked.

The young man's delicate facial features seemed to be close in front of him, his dark eyes were smiling, and the full lips under the high nose bridge were slightly upturned, outlining the taste of carelessness.

My heart trembled suddenly, as if a stream of heat flowed through my heart in an instant, and I was numb and caught off guard.

I quickly looked away.

In the evening, the entire school building is bathed in a golden sunset.

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(c)

Later, he and I could always meet on the road, and on rainy nights, the wind was carrying rain, and the rain was shining on him under the street lamp.

On a sunny evening, the afterglow of the setting sun permeated the trees in front of the school building, and the golden light and mist shrouded the entire campus, hitting him warmly.

Unhurried, he will always appear in front of me.

I always dare not step forward, and I have to be careful about the shadow it throws.

If only I knew that I would not be tempted by others for a long time to come.

I must have made myself go slower, slower.

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(iv)

The school set up a math competition class, and because of him, I also added this improvised class.

The moment they met, I didn't notice much surprise.

On the contrary, the bitterness of tossing and turning at midnight that year suddenly came to my heart, and I knew that fate had begun to torment me in a different way.

Although we see each other every day, we don't have anything to do with him, and he mingles with everyone except me.

And I connected with everyone, except him.

In class, I always stared at the back of his head, at the way he turned his pen, and at the way he frowned and thought when he was doing the questions.

Will it be too close?

Even my heartbeat was afraid he would hear it.

I often lie on the table and pretend to be asleep after class, but in fact, I am eavesdropping on his conversations with his tablemates, sometimes listening too much, as if the person talking to him is me.

Until one night when the self-study lights went out, he actually raised his hand and asked me how many fingers there were, and that was the only time I looked into his eyes seriously without dodging.

- "Is it 5?" ”

- "No. ”

—-“2”

- "Not true. ”

- "Can't guess" I pretended to be a little discouraged.

- "Stupid, not a single one. ”

He smiled happily, and my mood also became happy, it turned out to be 0.

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(5)

After that day, we kind of crossed paths, but we still rarely spoke, and I couldn't always interject into his conversations.

That day, the teacher asked our target school.

I looked at him.

His eyes were hot and clear, staring at me deeply.

The early winter sun is still warm.

He smiled and invited me: Let's go to Tsinghua together!

My hands were shaking uncontrollably.

Flames burned in the depths of the soul, and a scorching heat swept through every cell of the body.

For the first time, I feel that all my all-night hard work in the past 18 years has been worth it.

Later, I often remembered that under the December sun, his eyes were clean and hot, and he said a word, but it seemed to accompany me all my life.

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(f)

On the day of the competition, he suggested that everyone go to the amusement park to relax.

In the middle of the way we went to the haunted house, there were a lot of people, the sound came and went, the environment was very gray, I accidentally bumped into a person and screamed.

The soft hand was squeezed by him, and then put it down, but it didn't let go.

A male voice sounded in my ears, and a faint breath sprayed on my ear: "Don't run around, just grab me." ”

The voice paused for a second, then added, "Don't blame me for not reminding you if a zombie pounces in a moment." ”

I didn't dare to say anything, so I had to keep my head down and snicker.

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(g)

The results came out quickly, he did very well in the exam, and I did averagely.

When he saw my results, he looked surprised and couldn't help but ask me, "Is it because I didn't play normally?" ”

I nodded, and shook my head again, leaving him confused.

I had no choice but to lower my head and whisper, "It's okay, I can still go to Tsinghua University." ”

"Haha," he smiled heartily

"So confident. That quasi-Tsinghua top student, I will have a barbecue tonight, do you want to enjoy your face? ”

That night, he and a few classmates from the competition class skipped the evening self-study and ate at a barbecue restaurant near the school.

I listened to him talk about the power of dreams.

That night, the fireworks were blooming, the midnight wind was a little cool, the moonlight covered the land, and the backs of a group of people overlapped.

On this gently breezy night, those who have watched the fireworks together will probably remember it for a long time, at least I remember it for a long time.

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(viii)

After the exam, we went back to our original classes, and there were fewer intersections, and I rarely even saw him.

Once, when I went to the administration building to pick up the test papers, I met him and his classmates on the way.

When he passed by, he whispered, "Hello wow." ”

I ran very quickly, and my voice trembled a little.

Turning my head, I saw him purse his lips and smile, and replied softly, "Hmm." ”

At that moment, the classic phrase "Hello Wow, Li Yinhe" appeared in my mind, and I was thinking if I had to make it a conversation, what would the answer look like?

- "Hello Wow! ”

- "Hmm. ”

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(ix)

In the winter of my junior year of high school, the snow was falling, and rumors about early holidays in the grade intensified.

I will always remember it as Thursday morning, during the big recess, and I was lying on the railing of the bustling hallway looking outside

Snow scene, but inadvertently caught a glimpse of him helping a girl Zen down the snow in her hair.

How to describe the mood of that moment, I was in the midst of a huge bustle, but my heart was extremely desolate, and there was no snow more profound than this.

What is that girl's relationship with him?

I didn't dare ask.

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His grades took a sharp turn for the worse and I never had any contact with him again.

Little did he know, the light blue T-shirt he loved to wear was as clear as the sky.

But it's not a dark blue or a light blue, it's a blue with a little bit of green and white, it's cool and bright, and you can only see it at about six o'clock in the morning in summer, so I fell in love with it all summer.

He didn't know that on the way to school every day, the street that needed to walk for eight minutes, there were dozens of groups of street lamps that looked at each other, cold and summer, spring, summer, autumn and winter, they witnessed how I watched his back in the past two years, step by step through youth.

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(xi)

- "Master, can you make me look better?" ”

- "Little girl, you are already very good-looking! ”

On the day of the graduation photo, I deliberately dressed up.

I plucked up the courage to walk towards him, but I still stayed ten meters behind him, ten meters, the distance I left for me and him.

He was surrounded by the crowd, smiling and leaving the mark of his youth with everyone around him, except me.

It's a pity that at that time, I always felt that the future was long.

It's not the timing that's funny, it's the hesitation I can't count.

In the end, I still couldn't leave a photo with him.

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(xii)

He was not admitted to Tsinghua University as he wished, and he failed to come as promised.

I heard that he wanted to fill a well-known university in the South, and I changed my wish over and over again in front of my computer.

I had a terrible idea that I wanted to stay in the South with him.

I can't judge which is more important than the future.

When I hesitated, he gave me the answer, and I saw him coming to school with the girl, talking and laughing.

I heard that he went to a school with her, and I also learned about ........

The future is unknown, and I'm not sure what the future holds

But he is known, and it has nothing to do with me anyway.

In the end, he kept the south, and I went to the north, and from then on there was nothing to do with it.

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(xiii)

The night before I left for Beijing, I was so breathless that I ran to the area in front of his house and didn't see him.

When I came back, I took a small alley, with a fence on the right, and the building on the left was under construction, and it was so dark that even the moon disappeared.

I intuitively felt that it was him who was coming up to me.

This time there was no evasion, and I shouted out his name.

He took off one of his headphones and greeted me with a smile.

A moment of passing by.

Tears fell in large drops, and this sound seemed to be separated by almost half a century.

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(xiv)

The plane took off, and the city became blurred, shrunk into a ball, like a black dot, and finally disappeared from view.

The city that carried my best days, like that teenager, may be gone forever.

The story is very simple, but like thousands of girls, in the grade in school uniform, I like a boy who smokes under a tree.

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(xv)

Tsinghua is very good, the library is huge, and the people here are lovely and excellent.

The corners of my mouth and eyebrows are all confident charm, and even the cheesy me has become romantic.

But I still miss being 17 years old, nostalgic for the never-ending test papers, the blue and white school uniforms, the gardenias outside the window, and the teenager smoking under the camphor tree.

The stuffy classroom, the sunshine that wakes up from a nap, and the youth that will never be there again, my timid and inferior self-esteem.

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(xvi)

Later, goodbye, it was still the same old street, after many years.

I hadn't expected to meet him, but the moment I looked up and saw him, I was sure and sure that my heart was beating violently, never before.

But at that moment, there was only one word in my heart to hide.

He didn't see me, but I saw him and his girlfriend walking on the road with vegetables, feeling like they were in a different world, and I felt as if I had missed another life.

It turns out that the saddest moment is not necessarily when you can't love, but when you understand that you and this person really have no future.

That year, Marvel was very popular, and I also watched Avengers 3.

When Doctor Strange said that he had seen 14 million endings, I kept wondering if there was any of these 14 million parallel endings that I had something to do with him.

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(xvii)

Later, no matter how many times I walked that path, I never met him again.

Years later, he was pulled into the group of classmates, and no one spoke.

Find out his headshot once in a while, from the anime character he liked when he was young to a promotional poster for his workplace, to a wedding photo, to a photo of his children.

It turns out that ten years have passed.

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