No.180 What is the experience of being hurt by someone you like
It was already one o'clock in the morning, Meng modified the plan that the customer had repeatedly returned several times, and after sending it over, he took out the mobile phone in the drawer as usual and refreshed the circle of friends.
She watched today's circle of friends back and forth many times, was stunned, put down her mobile phone, turned on the laptop that had just been turned off, pulled up the resignation letter that had been prepared for a long time from the folder, sent it to the leader, and then went to take a shower.
32-year-old Meng Chan looked at the person whose skin was still firm and her body was still light in the mirror.
I suddenly remembered that when I was 27 years old, I changed one set of clothes after another in front of the mirror, and my eyebrows and eyes couldn't hide my smile.
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27-year-old Meng Chan is in the relationship with the person she likes at the age of 17.
Lucky and wonderful, right?
Sort of, anyway, at that time, Meng Chan felt that her birthday wish for ten consecutive years was not in vain.
Meng Chan has always been invisible in Xu Zio's life, Xu Zivow can't see her, but she is indeed there.
In the small corner of Xu Zi's life.
When Meng Chan was just born, her grandfather named her Meng Ni, and later when she went to middle school, her mother thought that this name was not good, so she changed her name to Meng Chan, perhaps in response to the word "Ni", Meng Chan has been a cautious person since she was a child, quiet and sensitive.
So when Meng Chan, who has a boring but stubborn personality, unilaterally likes a sunny and hearty boy, she is destined to pay silently for a long time.
In fact, at that time, I liked someone very singlely. Just because in an atmosphere that can be exciting, a person can make a small movement to himself, or a glance is enough.
Xu Ziow is the one who walked into the atmosphere.
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Meng Chan transferred to Xu Zixuan's class in her sophomore year of high school, and on the playground at dusk that summer, a clean and refreshing teenager walked towards her with his back to the sunset, and said with a smile, "Hello, new classmate." ”
made Meng Chan's heart move a youth.
was originally liked when she was a student, and Meng Chan was a timid person, so she never said she liked Xu Zio, but throughout the third year of high school, she would always deliberately pass by Xu Zio's position and pay attention to his conversations with friends, and finally one day Meng Chan heard them discuss their favorite university, so she applied for the same city with Xu Zioy.
The city is so big, and the schools of the two people are on opposite sides of the city, so they didn't meet by chance until their junior year.
In that Internet café, I learned about his life dynamics through Xu Zixuan's space and Weibo.
At this time, Meng Chan always thought: Fortunately, he pulled down his son and asked the class to fill in the class directory, so that Yinsi wanted his contact information.
Meng Chan also quietly went to Xu Zisao's school, she was a little short-sighted, every time she met someone similar to Xu Zisan walking towards her, she couldn't help but beat her heart faster, but the people who approached were not him.
Meng Chan ate all the snack bars on the side of Xu Zizhe's school, and she silently wrote down those small shops that were more delicious and had many students, even if she couldn't see them, she could eat snacks that Xu Zizhe might like, and Meng Chan was also very satisfied.
Sometimes Meng Chan thinks she is very funny, and she doesn't even have the courage to appear in front of Xu Zioy, but she is that kind of person, she is humble by nature, like a short wildflower on the side of the road, and is always ignored by many people.
In his junior year, several high school classmates came to the city for a tour, contacted Meng Chan, and said that they wanted to get together together.
Meng Chan doesn't like to dress up, on the day of the dinner, she changed a lot of clothes back and forth in the bedroom, and they were all skirts, and her roommate teased her when she saw her, "Is Meng Chan going to meet someone she likes?" I usually buy dresses, but I don't see you wear them much. ”
Meng Chan doesn't like too many places on her body to be exposed, so she rarely wears skirts, but the girlfriend Xu Zixuan talked about in high school has all kinds of skirts, and Meng Chan guesses that Xu Zixuan should prefer girls who wear skirts, so although she bought a lot, she only wore them when she went to Xu Zixuan's school.
Meng Chan, who has always kept her roommate silent about her emotional life, nodded generously this time, and said seriously to herself in the mirror, "Yes, I'm going to meet the person I like." ”
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The roommates all asked to help Meng Chan dress up, although they reminded Meng Chan that it would rain tonight and that she might catch a cold if she wore a skirt, Meng Su still insisted on wearing a skirt.
The three roommates worked hard all afternoon, and finally said with satisfaction, "If the boy you fancy is unmoved, he must be blind." ”
Meng Chan blushed from her face to her neck.
When Meng Chan arrived, everyone arrived, and they all exclaimed Meng Chan's changes.
In fact, Meng Chan herself is very handsome, but when she was in high school, everyone studied hard and didn't pay attention to dressing up, so Meng Chan after deliberately dressing up was like a different person.
Meng Chan's position was opposite Xu Zioy, and the two of them nodded their heads, but when everyone praised her for her good looks just now, they didn't hear Xu Zioy's echo, and there was no special expression change on his face.
Meng Chan was a little sad, didn't he see the change in himself?
Everyone ate hot pot, and in the smoky environment, Meng Chan carefully stared at the somewhat blurry face opposite, not afraid of being discovered.
His face has been thinner, his facial features have become more three-dimensional, and his eyebrows and eyes are deeper than before.
At first glance, there is no change, but the temperament is much tougher.
Xu Zivowed to chat with everyone about some stupid things he had done in high school, and took everyone to play a few games, and the atmosphere was finally not so restrained.
Looking at Xu Zixuan's smile as yesterday, Meng Chan's smile spread from the bottom of her heart to the corners of her eyebrows.
After eating, everyone went to sing again, Meng Chan had just drunk a few glasses of sprinkling, groggy and dazed on the sofa in the private room for a while, and after waking up, she went to the door to take a turn.
It was really raining outside, and it was indeed a little cool to wear a skirt on a rainy night in mid-April, and when the cold wind blew, Meng Chan's drunkenness woke up a lot.
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Suddenly, there was a familiar voice beside him, and he turned his head to see that it was Xu Zioan on the phone.
He spits out of his mouth, when did he start smoking?
Meng Chan didn't know.
She was disgusted by the smell of cigarettes, and she didn't know if she was crazy. actually felt that Xu Zi's smoking was much more elegant than others, which made her hate it.
After Xu Zivowed finished making the call, he turned around and saw Meng Chan who was in a daze with him, and smiled, "Call back, I'm afraid you don't like the smell of cigarettes, I'll go back after smoking." ”
Meng Chan hadn't spoken face-to-face with Xu Zixuan for a long time, and she didn't know how to answer for a while.
He hummed softly, and looked down at his feet.
Xu Zivowed to extinguish the cigarette, didn't care about Meng Chan's indifference, and made an approving expression, "It's changed a lot, it's better than before." ”
Meng Chan blushed, stared at Xu Zixuan's clear eyes, and smiled. "Can you go buy some fruit with me?" Everyone should be tired of singing, and we must also do a little bit of landlord friendship. ”
Xu Zivowed to take off his coat and handed it to her, Meng Chan took it blankly and nodded.
Xu Zivowed to go to the front desk to borrow two umbrellas, and when he came back, he saw Meng Chan folding his coat one by one.
looked at her funny, "I don't want you to hold it for me, you are wearing a little little, and it may be cold when you go out." ”
Meng Chan looked at him in surprise, and said thank you after reacting.
wrapped his coat, took the umbrella in Xu Zioan's hand, and followed him quietly.
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was speechless all the way, and Xu Zivan recalled Meng Chan's way of folding clothes, which was very special.
It's a little familiar, but I can't remember where I've seen it.
And Meng Chan greedily hummed the smell of this dress, except for the smell of oil smoke that she had just eaten, she could vaguely smell another aroma.
It was the brand of laundry detergent that Xu Zixuan had used for many years, and when Xu Zixuan passed by her in middle school, he had this smell on him.
On the way back for the two of them, Meng Chan thought for a long time, afraid that everyone would misunderstand, so she returned the clothes to Xu Zioy before returning to the box.
Xu Zi didn't shirk it, and said sweetly like other friends, "It still smells good on girls, and my clothes have become fragrant." ”
It was this joke that made Meng Chan still use the laundry detergent and shampoo used that day for a long time afterward.
She wanted to keep the taste on her body that Xu Zi swore to like.
When we returned to the box, everyone was playing Truth or Dare, in fact, to capture the warmth of each other.
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After about two hours, the rain stopped, and everyone packed up and left.
Xu Zi vowed to help the classmates return to the hotel, so he asked Meng Chan to take a taxi back by herself.
In the car, Meng Chan stared at the number that had just been saved in her mobile phone and muttered, "It turns out that he has already changed his number........."
Then I knew another one in my phone by heart, and the remarks were also Xu Zioy's number deleted from the address book.
That was the contact information of Xu Zioy, who Meng Chan was going to arrive at when she graduated from high school, and she had been reciting it for three years.
But not a single time was passed.
Meng Chan walked on the path of the school, watching the green maple leaves dripping with raindrops.
I want to cry a little, but I don't have a reason. Xu Zi swore that she never belonged to her.
Xu Zi said, "I've been single for a while," he said happily with bright eyes, "Now I also have a person I like, and we can be together recently." ”
He also smiled and said, "Haven't you been in a relationship yet?" You can give it a try, there must be a lot of people around you. ”
Meng Chan looked at his unpretentious posture and smiled, "Okay, I'll try." ”
You see, your favorite person, with the most sincere smile, gently pushes you to someone else, who doesn't even know that he has hurt you.
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