After the third day of the Lunar New Year, Meng Yu and I embarked on a trip.

We went to the beach, I love the sea because it makes me forget my flaws, looking at the endless sea and feeling like anything can be forgotten.

I asked Meng Yu to take a lot of photos for me with the camera I bought, and a few days before the start of school, Meng Yu and I came back to the school I enrolled in happened to be in the same city as home, because of my physical condition, even if school started, I was at home.

College life is no different for me, it's all classes at home, and I'm still special.

In his sophomore year, WeChat became popular, Shang Yang changed from phone calls to videos, and he would call every day, he said that he wanted to see my daily changes, and I always teased him like an old father.

After the final physical examination of my sophomore year, for some reason, my mother directly applied for a leave of absence for me, and I stayed at home with nothing to do.

"Aoi Xin, let me tell you, it's interesting in school today......"

Meng Yu shouted into the courtyard from afar.

I sat on the swing and looked at her and laughed "slow down, what's the hurry?"

"I'm telling you, 'Ah! Aoi Xin, what did you steal to eat? Meng Yu stared at me and asked in surprise.

I frowned, "No, my mom hasn't made dinner yet."

Meng Yu took out a mirror from his bag and handed it to me.

"No, you see your lips are stained," I glared inwardly, and looked at my lips in the mirror.

"Aoi Heart, Aoi Heart, what's wrong with you?" Meng Yu waved his hand in front of me, and I looked at Meng Yu in a daze.

"Ah, it's okay, maybe I just drank blueberry juice."

"Oh, I didn't say you, don't drink so sweet if you have a bad heart," Meng Yu said like an old mother.

I looked at Meng Yu who was nagging in front of me, and a smile tugged at the corner of my mouth, after Meng Yu left, I sat there alone, and the phone rang again.

Shang Yang's video call request, I ran to the room, took out the most gorgeous lip gloss and applied it to my lips, and answered Shang Yang's call, "Kui Xin, what are you doing?" Shang Yang asked on the other end of the phone.

I looked at the video and smiled, "Nothing to do, I just came back from outside with Meng Yu." ”

"It's not good again, it's running away," Shang Yang said with a reproachful frown.

"Stinky boy! How can I talk to my sister" I glared at Shang Yang on the other side of the video and said pretending to be angry.

"Hahahaha, you're not my sister. Aoi Shin, you're a little different today."

Shang Yang suddenly stared at the phone screen seriously, I was a little flustered, looking at Shang Yang in the video, "Why is it different?" ”

"Your lip color is very beautiful today~" Shang Yang said with a smile I seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, and the whole person relaxed.

"Okay, I'm going to rest, and you're about to go to class."

"Well, good night, Aoi Shin" I hurriedly hung up the phone, clasped the phone, and cried silently with my hands trembling and covering my face.

After that night, I would dream every day that I was standing opposite Shangyang in a white veil, and he was handsome and tall in a suit looking at me with love in his eyes, but why couldn't my hand reach his?

Another weekend, Meng Yu came to our house with a handful of books and said that he would give me a good tutor to make up for the lessons I had missed.

"Kwai Xin, there was a painting competition at school recently, do you want to participate? If you win, you will get a prize. Meng Yu leaned on the table and asked.

"No, I'm already on absence," I said, looking down at the book.

"Oh, you can participate, the school said that as long as there are ideas and interested students, they can participate!"

Meng Yu continued to persuade me without giving up.

I looked up at the sunflower sculpture in the window, "Okay, I'll try."

Meng Yu helped me sign up, and since then I have been painting in my room every day, my painting is very simple, one yard and one autumn dry, two people.

Their yard was full of sunflowers, and each flower center was particularly beautiful, except that both of them were blindfolded.

My lips are getting darker and darker, and every morning I will wake up early to clean up as much as possible, still put on the most gorgeous lip gloss and sit there quietly, waiting for Shang Yang's video call, and face him in the best state.

The day before the painting competition, Meng Yu came to our house, "Kwai Xin, is your painting finished?" ”

I sat on the chair and turned my head to look at Meng Yu at the door and smiled, "Okay, please help me bring it tomorrow"

Meng Yu raised his hand and leaned mischievously against the door, "OK!

I took the painting off the drawing board and handed it to Meng Yu, "Na, here you are"

"Wow~ Kwai Xin, your painting really feels good," Meng Yu said in surprise when he took the painting.

"Okay, you're exaggerating" I teased Meng Yu,

Meng Yu stuck out his tongue at me, "Have you thought of the name of the painting?" ”

I was stunned, turned my head to look out the window, and whispered, "Shangyang's sunflower heart"

"Yo Yo Yo, your name is a bit of a story"

Meng Yu suddenly came up to me in a bad way and said that I pushed her head away.

"What nonsense, don't make trouble, go quickly, I'm so tired, I want to sleep for a while"

After Meng Yu left, I walked to the side of the bed and lay down to sleep, I had that dream again, only this time it seemed that I was a little farther away from Shang Yang.

I was woken up by thirst, and I got up from bed with difficulty, and when I was about to go out, I heard the crying voice in the living room, "Lao He, why is our family's Kwai heart so miserable," my mother choked up.

I gently opened the crack in the door and saw my father on the sofa with his head down, "Alas, the heart failure doctor can't help it, the child will wake up for a while, don't let her see you like this, and finally make her happy."

Mom covered her face on the sofa and cried bitterly.

Looking at my parents outside crying bitterly, I slowly lowered my hand attached to the doorknob.

Is it the last time?

That night, I was obviously very tired and wanted to sleep, but I tried my best to restrain my desire to close my eyes, I was afraid that I might not be able to open my eyes in the next second when I closed my eyes, and the next morning, I still packed myself up early and waited for Shang Yang's phone "Good morning~ Aoi Xin" Shang Yang still greeted me with a smile.

I smiled at him and said "Good morning"

"Aoi Koko, do you miss me?" Shang Yang asked me in a low voice.

"I don't want to, it's no good to miss you," I quipped, trying to hold my eyes that wanted to be closed.

"Aoi Xin, you wait for me, I'll be able to go back soon" Shang Yang said as he stared at the phone screen.

I froze there, not knowing what to answer. He could only nod and look at Shang Yang.

"Kwai Xin, you get up and see if it's okay, your painting has won the award" Meng Yu asked as she lay on the side of my bed with the prize money in a choked voice.

I was lying on the bed with a ventilator and turned my head with difficulty, "Meng Yu, help me.. … With this money... Buy a suit... All right? ”

Meng Yu wiped a handful of tears, sat up and held my hand, "Okay, I'll go, don't sleep, I'll be back soon." ”

I looked at Meng Yu and nodded.

After Meng Yu left, I looked out the window at Shangyang, can I still wait for you....... "Kwai Xin, do you talk to your mother, don't sleep, don't sleep." ”

My mother took my hand and sat on the edge of the bed with tears on her face and said, "Kui Xin, you get up and take a look, Dad bought you your favorite butterfly cake, get up and eat some, don't sleep" This is Dad's voice

"Kui Xin, I bought you a suit, you get up and see if it's okay, please don't sleep." Meng Yu lay on the side of my bed, these voices were so far away and felt so close, I felt that there were many people by my bedside in a daze, but I still didn't wait for the day when the person I wanted to see was lying on the bed, and I recalled a lot of past events in my mind.

I had that dream again at night, it was still the same scene, the difference was that this time the distance between me and Shang Yang seemed to be much farther away, I tried my best to reach out and try to grab it, but I didn't catch it in mid-air, and suddenly felt that my hand was being held.

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This feeling is not a dream.

I turned my head with difficulty and saw Shang Yang squatting on the side of the bed, I tried my best to pull out a smile and look at Shang Yang, "I... … It was in .. … Dreaming? ”

"No, Aoi Kokoro.... I'm back" Shang Yang held my hand with red eyes and said Shang Yang's facial features had grown, and his whole body had faded away from immaturity, but it was still the warm sunshine I was familiar with, and he raised his hand and carefully touched Shang Yang's face, "Shang Yang, I... OK.. … Hug.. You. Is it? ”

Shang Yang looked at me and chuckled, bent down and gently hugged me in his arms, and I smiled and hugged him back with my eyes closed. Feeling the warmth on my neck, I struggled to open my eyes and touch Shang Yang's hair.

"Shang Yang, accompany.. I'll take a picture.. "Shang Yang still hugged me, buried his head in my neck, nodded a little and said in a muffled voice, "Okay, I promise you"

I asked my mother to take out the suit I bought and give it to Shang Yang, Meng Yu didn't know when she went out to buy a wedding dress and brought it back, looking at the wedding dress, I stared blankly, "After Shang Yang came back, he asked me to run to buy it, and he told me that he wanted you to marry him once." ”

Meng Yu looked at me staring at the white yarn and said softly.

Meng Yu helped me up and helped me change into the wedding dress, looking at myself in the mirror, I stretched out my hand and took the gorgeous lip gloss and applied it to my lips, but no matter how I applied it, I couldn't cover the purple-black lips.

After changing his clothes and opening the door, Shang Yang was already waiting outside, "I'll help.... Tie it up, mine. It's so ugly," I took out a silk scarf and said, "I want to look at you."

Shang Yang shook his head and held my hand, "Tie it up, I think... Let you remember me., the best way to be."

I say firmly.

Shang Yang looked at me, stretched out his hand, took out a silk scarf and tied it to his eyes, I looked at Shang Yang who was blindfolded, held his face, raised his foot with difficulty, and kissed it gently, tears slipped down the corners of my eyes.

I asked Meng Yu to help me prepare a veil that could cover my eyes, and in the last time, I knew that I couldn't be nostalgic for him, and I would be reluctant.

The scene in the dream was restored, the difference was that both of us were blindfolded, but it seemed that we could still see each other, standing face to face Meng Yu took the small camera I bought to help me take a picture, I was tired, sitting on the swing and leaning on Shang Yang's shoulder.

"Shangyang, I'm sleepy"

"Don't sleep, Aoi Xin, can you talk to me, please, don't sleep ......"

Shang Yang looked down at me and sobbed, and I chuckled, "Okay, I'll talk to you... Chat"

"Aoi Koko, you know what? I made you paper fireworks, no sound won't scare you, let's set them off together for the New Year. ”

Shang Yang suppressed and said, I held my eyes and looked at the sky.

"That.., definitely.. Beautiful"

"Shangyang... My heart is moved, I like you... It's true.. I like you so much," I said with tears in my eyes.

"Aoi Koko, from the first time I came to this home, my heart only beats for you. So don't sleep, promise me you won't sleep"

Shang Yang looked down at me and whispered.

I recalled the day when little Shangyang, the first time I cried and begged me not to die, I laughed and slowly closed my eyes and said the last sentence with difficulty.

"I'm sorry.. … Shangyang, I lost my words. ”