"A strong wind can blow up a blank piece of paper;

But you can't blow a butterfly.

For the power of life lies in disobedience. ”

- Feng Jicai.

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When the elders of the clan are dying, they can no longer deter the surging dissent of the ghosts in the family;

When the last fig leaf is torn off, it reveals the hypocrisy of the old and the young who are already in different camps;

When Hua Lin really faced his father, who walked on thin ice to please everyone for most of his life;

After understanding where his sense of vulnerability, sensitivity, and humility came from;

Flower Silence seems to have grown and become stronger.

She seems to be trying to mold herself into a mature person, so she examines herself, and constantly asks herself to remind herself, "You must strive for self-improvement, and you can't let yourself go down the path of relying on others to live." ”

This kind of flower loneliness, in the first period of school, is particularly serious.

Especially in the new semester, she and Zhang Wenli are at the same table, and there are other people such as Cheng Xian who are in the upper reaches nearby, as if they are surrounded by a well-taught learning atmosphere.

How can Mrs. Shi be so good, it is very likely that she should be taken care of by her aunt.

Therefore, at the beginning of the school year, Hua Lonely was highly motivated and could stick to a good learning attitude.

"Listen carefully in class, take notes carefully, rarely fight with classmates (Su Ya, Cen Lin) between classes, and ask the surrounding classmates if you don't understand."

The life of learning in this way is very peaceful.

Until, at noon one day, on the way to school, Hua Lin met Ge Taisheng.

How to say it's also an old friend, although it can't be said to have the hot feelings of a "childhood sweetheart", but after all, from the preschool school to study together, Hua Lin and Ge Taisheng have worked together in the class committee, this compulsory education in the 9 years, their intersection is very close, she obviously saw a surprise in Ge Taisheng's eyes, but in an instant, it was a cold eyebrow.

Originally, the two of them were riding bicycles in the opposite direction, and Hua Lone's first reaction was that the brakes stopped, and he wanted to wait for him to break the deadlock.

But she saw the indifference that finally revealed from this Ge Taisheng's expression, and thought of the words he said to herself a long time ago about "what is lost, not in any circle" and other words that made Hua Lin sad and irrefutable, Hua Lin forcibly held back the "long time no see" that was about to be said first, turned the car and prepared to pass him and leave.

Unexpectedly, seeing that she was leaving, Ge Taisheng hurriedly blocked it.

"What for?" Hua Lin asked angrily.

Ge Taisheng seemed to be particularly disappointed in Hua Lone, only to see him take a sharp breath, sigh again, and then say, "Are you completely different from us as friends?" I really didn't expect you to be so unkind. ”

This crime is so big that Hua Lin can't understand it at all, and she can't figure out the situation.

At this time, she was angry, why every time she saw this person, this person was accusing and blaming herself, could it be that there was no other affection except accusation?

"What do you say? Didn't you say that I wasn't from your circle? ”

"What about Lin Shuyu? Lin Shuyu is always your good friend? ”

What is this Guan Shuyu?

Hua Lin frowned, puzzled.

Shu Yu is naturally his good friend, but he is not in the same class, and there is Lu Yinuo in Shu Yu's class, each with his own classmates, if there is nothing to do, they really rarely meet together,—— but what happened to Shu Yu, it is his turn to stand on the moral high ground and sanction himself?

"So big things happened to Shu Yujia, why didn't I see you say anything?" Sure enough, Ge Taisheng looked indignant, like a messenger of justice.

But after his words, Hua Lin frowned even more, because Hua Lin couldn't understand it.

At this time, Ge Taisheng found that she was indeed completely unaware, and told angrily:

Shu Yu's father was in a car accident and his injuries were serious, but not fatal;

The crux of the matter is that the person who accompanied the car, there was also a woman, a woman who had been by his side for so many years, a woman whose daughter had resolutely not allowed him to remarry and remarry, a woman who had no name but had been with him for so many years, died in a car accident.

Hua Lin gasped, what?

Hua Lonely is not stupid, especially since she has a strong ability to empathize.

Even if you don't need Ge Taisheng to render the packaging here, Hua Lin is very aware of how much psychological impact this incident can have on the parties.

For Shu Yu's father, although it was an accident, it was definitely difficult for him to forgive himself psychologically.

If it weren't for the existence of Lin Shuyu, he still had the responsibility of guardian for this child, but he was afraid that he would be overwhelmed with grief and indignation and indulge in guilt and want to follow people to Huangquan, the injury would not be healed, and his heart would not be able to get out of the shadows in a short time.

At the same time, it will also have a great impact on Shu language.

At present, Ge Taisheng should be most concerned about Shu Yu's heart knot.

Hua Lin has never forgotten how Shu Yu was teary-eyed and poured out her heart to Hua Lin under the premise that her mother did not know that she was divorced and remarried, how she broke up with her father and fought for a few days and nights, and received a slap from her father who loved her the most, in exchange for her father's sincere apology and promise to "never marry again".

She may have felt that she had won at that moment, but now there is no way to investigate, whether Shu Yu knew at that time whether there was a specific existence of this aunt, or her guess, she always cut off her father's idea of remarrying.

I don't know, has she changed her views in the past two years, has she ever wavered in her heart, but she has never let go?

But what is certain is that Shu Yu's father is still unmarried, and it must be the reason why Shu Yu is caught in it and has not been fulfilled.

Shu Yu is also a kind little fairy, and she may have her emotional stubbornness, but who would have expected that things would have come to this point, presumably Shu Yu immediately fell into the abyss of remorse.

After all, this is the loss of a life, an irreversible process, and there is no way to make up for the damage.

However, the loss of any life, whether it is related or unrelated, as long as it is heard, it can always leave a deep mark in the heart, making people feel uncomfortable and lament the fragility of life.

Hua Lonely continued to ride his bicycle to school in despair, his mind full of Ge Taisheng's blame.

He said: "You still say that you are Shu Yu's good friend, do you treat her as her?" It doesn't matter if you are estranged from us, she is in the same school as you, and she is in the same class as you, what is there about her and you don't know? Have you ever cared about Shu Yu? Are you worthy to be a friend? We all went to Shu Yu's house, but without you, I still wondered, you won't be so ruthless, you won't come to such a big thing, I asked Luo Zhehan and he said you don't know, I don't believe it yet, I saw you today, I know that you don't have our old friends in your heart at all......"

The accusations of splitting her head and covering her face still did not give her any room for defense.

The flower is silent.

She was worried about Shu Yu, for sure.

How is Shu Yu now, what can I do for Shu Yu?

But she is clearly a mud bodhisattva, what can she do for others?

Hua Lin felt guilty.

She really didn't, she wasn't in a new school, she didn't maintain a close relationship with Shu Yu like she did in junior high school, it seemed that she often only went to the neighboring class to solve her problems when she was in need.

Among them, there are also neighboring classes that not only have Shu Yu, but also have a relationship with Lu Yinuo, she is extremely reluctant to go to the door of other people's classes to provoke gossip, do you know these Shu Yu? Can you understand?

She really didn't, she knew too much about Shu Yu after that, because Shu Yu had her own friends, she also had her classmates and friends, every day's life, school class and family, she was not as good as Shu Yu could get together with Ge Taisheng and his gang from time to time, and the situation at home had already made her cut off all contact with her junior high school classmates, naturally including Shu Yu, she was not completely unaware, but she always comforted herself, friends, maybe that's it, don't you have to be together all the time, There's always a space for you.

However, now Ge Taisheng has come to condemn again, and it turns out that she is wrong again? Is she really so determined?

If not her fault, why?

Hua Lone, who was distracted by the bicycle, didn't pay attention at all, and in the direction of the garage, he didn't find anyone coming, and hit a boy straight up, and the car was about to fall, and Hua Lin panicked and came back to his senses, and he was afraid that he would fall down and even the bicycle that came from behind him would suffer, but fortunately he was held up by the boy.

The boy was tall, with a little fat, maybe a white and fleshy face that looked fat, and a long slanted hair, a little like bangs thrown down.

He didn't get angry when he was hit, a pair of big clear eyes were clean, and after holding the girl's handlebars, he quickly flashed past other passing vehicles, and walked straight to the playground without looking back.

Hua Lin stopped in place and looked at his back, although the clothes he was wearing were mainly large and loose, but they were extremely full of bells and whistles in design, trendy and fashionable, like a gentleman, a good-tempered gentleman.

At this time, Hua Lin suddenly reacted, and she forgot to say to him, "I'm sorry." ”

Waiting for Hua Lin to park the car and return to her seat, because she had people and things in her heart, she kept looking at the people passing by outside, wanting to try her luck to take a look at Shu Yu from afar, after all, she didn't know how she was now.

Then, when it came to recess, she wanted to go to the neighboring classroom to have a look, but she hesitated and couldn't take a step.

Finally, under the coercion of Su Ya and Cen Lin, they went to the toilet together, passing by the neighboring class, she deliberately looked towards the four corners of the class, but she didn't see Shu Yu, and what was even more sad was that she didn't know where Shu Yu's seat was.

In fact, what can she do to things when she sees or can't see?

Others didn't know what she was thinking in her heart, Cen Lin smiled: "Ah, Huahua, have you rekindled your old feelings for that person?" ”

Hua Lin didn't have the heart to joke and waved his hand.

But for a day or two, she always searched outside in her seat and couldn't find anything, which made Cheng Xian also suspicious, "What do you see?" Is it that pretty? ””

Hua Lin said softly, "No. ”

"What's that? What are you looking at? Who's that? ”

As soon as these words came out, Zhang Wenli didn't turn her head to look at Hua Lone, Hua Lone didn't know that she was in the bureau, she was not the only gossip about Lu Yinuo, whether it was chasing the wind and catching shadows, whether she was misled by Wang Lei back then, about Liang Che receiving a love letter, in fact, there were more or less rumors in the class about her and Cen Lin, but the parties had no follow-up, and they had no intention of inserting willows, and these laces did not constitute public opinion.

But reading life is boring, especially like Zhang Wenli, who usually doesn't have access to any peachy news, and is still interested in listening to Hua Lonely.

Hua Li, who was in low pressure, still just shook his head.

Cheng Xian saw that her expression was wrong, and it really didn't look like she had anything to do with Lu Yinuo, so he didn't ask again.

Even if Wang Lei came to make jokes, Cheng Xian also helped dispel the ridiculous curiosity.

Cheng Xian left a space for the depressed flowers.

Frankly speaking, Cheng Xian is very friendly to her, sometimes joking, and can say a lot of things to each other in a pleasant atmosphere, and she regards Cheng Xian as someone she can trust in her heart.

It's just that the doubts and worries in her heart now belong to her and Lin Shuyu, and she doesn't know how to express them, and she doesn't know if people will understand.

Besides, Shu Yu's story is a tragedy, and she is unwilling to spread out the tragedy of others and state it to other people who are actually irrelevant.

There is only one Ge Taisheng who can guide in it, and all the partial Ge Taisheng gives to Hua Lonely is resentment.

He was like a hurricane that opened the sores in Hua Lone's heart, which made Hua Lone have strong doubts about his own life, and he only felt desolate.

It turned out to be lonely, constant as usual.