Some people can't help you; There are some things that cannot be turned back.

Hua Lin didn't know how to comfort her.

Earlier, she even envied Shu Yu's parents who were divorced, and she even secretly outlined the "blueprint" in her heart:

She had to live with her mother and find some kind of job as a gatekeeper, and usually there was a small house next to the gate to provide accommodation, and they could move there.

It doesn't matter how hard the days are, as long as you can avoid your father's violent fist and live an ordinary life with your mother.

The flowers are looking forward to leaving, but Shu Yu is looking forward to the closure.

Shu Yu was very angry: because in the node of all things, he is always the last to know;

She was also disappointed that a fluke that had been hidden in her heart for many years was gone in an instant; She is also sad, her mother used to be her own, but now? no longer belongs to oneself, so that oneself will become an outsider, and thus truly lose;

She was also worried that her mother's remarriage would mean that her father could exercise the same rights, and that one day in the future, she would suddenly bring a strange woman to her home.

If so, wouldn't he even have a home for his own place of residence?

The heart of Shu Yu, the heavy rain is majestic.

"Even if you get married, it won't change the fact that she's your mother."

Shu Yu scoffed.

"What about my mother? Is she competent? What obligations did she fulfill? Just come to see me occasionally, give some money, buy some food, and give alms is mother's love? ”

……

Shu Yu remembered something again, endured it, didn't hold back, looked around left and right to confirm that there were no classmates, and said to Hua Lone:

"You know if she wasn't there for me when I needed her the most...... I've started to have that...... I was scared to death, you know? …… No one has ever told me what this is, but who can I ask? Ask my dad? I can't even open my mouth. I don't know what kind of buy, what is the difference between day and night, what brand is there, how to operate, how to use, I still have to call my aunt, where is my mother at this time? ”

Shu Yu's grievances accumulated to a certain extent, and tears burst out of his eyes.

Later, she thought that she was crying in the classroom, and she didn't want too many inconsequential people to find out her vulnerability, so she immediately wiped it clean and took a few deep breaths to adjust her state.

As a girl, Hua Lin instantly understood.

She looked at Shu Yu, who was still pretending to be strong, and felt very distressed, and wanted to reach out and hug her, but she felt that this action was too numb.

"Do you think your dad knows?"

When Shu Yu heard this, he reacted, and his body couldn't help but sit up straight immediately, with a little suspicion in his eyes, and said, "You reminded me." Does my dad know? ”

There are two levels to this question:

First, in the end, the husband and wife, although I don't know what caused the relationship between the two people to break down, Shu Yu is not sure whether his father's feelings for his mother are still there; Dad has never said a bad word about his mother, nor has he restricted himself from meeting his mother, it's just ruthless, so what if it's affectionate?

Second, if he knew, he always knew, or he knew earlier, why didn't he tell himself, he also hid it from himself! A raccoon dog, that Shu language can't be forgiven!

"When is your dad at home?"

"I guess it'll take two days."

Master Chaplin once said, "Up close life is like a tragedy." ”

But in Hua Lone's view, there is far more than one, it is simply a farce staged in turns.

If the tragedy of Shu Yu comes from the spiritual level, then the tragedy of the new life of the Hua Lin family is related to the material foundation.

In the past few days, dark clouds have been thick, and the clouds have been overwhelming.

Hua Lian's father was "fishing for law enforcement" by the traffic department, and the small truck that the family relied on for survival was impounded.

It is clearly stipulated that pick-up trucks are resolutely not allowed to pay to carry people.

Originally, small trucks could not make much money carrying passengers, but in an environment where business is difficult to do, it is like a fly with meat on its legs, and it is a point to earn a point.

This time, it was Hua Lone's father who was negligent and not vigilant enough.

The guest said that he was going somewhere, but he didn't take it seriously, but when he drove the car to his destination, the man jumped out of the car and strode away.

Hua Lone's father immediately opened the car door and jumped down to chase, "Hey, you haven't paid yet." ”

I already regretted it a little when I spoke.

Hey, isn't this the main entrance of the traffic police brigade next to it?

It's just that these words slipped to his lips and jumped out desperately before he had time to get past his head.

The man had gone to the door, turned around, and said on his high hand,

"Why, you still dare to collect money?"

If Hua Lone's father changes his words in time and drives away quickly, he may be able to escape the catastrophe, no wonder his uncle said that he will not judge the situation, and his EQ is too low to support Adou?

He came up again in his recklessness, and cried out:

"The price is negotiated in advance, and you can't deny it like that."

The man was happy, he had never seen such a stupid person, and if he didn't detain it, he would detain it.

So he showed his hole card as a traffic policeman, "impartial law enforcement".

In extraordinary times, Hua Lin didn't dare to cause more trouble, lest she be used as cannon fodder.

She locked herself in her room, but a door could not stop the fighting.

She heard her mother scolding screaming, scolding Hua Lone's father for not being able to distinguish between real guests and fake guests, and even daring to take passengers next to the traffic police brigade;

scolded the man who sat in the car for having no conscience and laying such a trap;

He regretted not being at the beginning, scolding himself for being useless and living an obscure life without hope.

Daddy refused to admit his mistake.

He blindly defended that the person was a fake public servant, and it was clear that he was going back to the traffic police brigade, deliberately pointed to a side address, and then relied on his authority to get rid of the road money, he couldn't swallow this breath.

Can't swallow?

That person just leaves you with no way to live.

Hua Lone's father was hesitant and begged Hua Lone's mother to find her brother-in-law who was an official, and only he could solve the problem.

Basically, it's the only way to do it.

But Hua Lone's mother was extremely tormented in her heart.

She knew that her brother-in-law looked down on her chosen husband to some extent, and it was already a great favor to pick up some things that leaked out of the cracks in their palms, and other sisters might not be able to catch some oil and water if they wanted to.

Therefore, she often goes to her sister's house to work hard and play the role of half a nanny.

Blessed is given, but who wants to be the one who pretends to smile and bends his knees to receive the reward forever?

It's easy to say anything else, but it's about my husband, and my brother-in-law has always been indifferent.

But even if he is indifferent, occasionally violates the red light or something, his brother-in-law still helps with a black face, although he says that he will not take it as an example every time.

Where was Hua Lone's mother angry, she couldn't help but be bitter and sarcastic, and sneered:

"Didn't you keep saying that my brother-in-law was official? Aren't you blind? So what are you looking for from my mother's family? I don't have the face to look for it. You go to your family, they are most active in using the car, you go and tell them that they don't have a car and can't use it. ”

Even Hua Lin knew about this, in order to raise money to buy this truck, the family begged his father to sue his grandmother, and his mother accompanied him to find many people to borrow money.

Mother's sisters, even if they are in trouble, they are sisters, 5,800, and try their best to help.

And this money, although it is in the name of borrowing, most of the sisters are prepared to pay it back, after all, no one knows if they can earn back the capital, in case they can't earn it back, they won't force each other to die again.

But what about the relatives over there? All kinds of delays, plausible.

Is it because they are struggling?

Of course not, they are all families in institutional units, and it is good to enjoy the shade with their backs to the big trees.

But they think that "saving the emergency does not help the poor", which is a matter of course.

If the heart is greedy, if it is borrowed once, it will be twice;

If you don't get your money back, what's the use of holding an IOU?

In the end, I pieced it together, and finally came up with less than half of the number of Hua Lone's mother's family.

It is also for this reason that Hua Lone's father is more than enough to buy a small truck, but it is too far to build a long-distance truck similar to a big truck, or a long-distance truck like Lin Shuyu's family.

Limited by the number of trucks and the size of the space, their own trucks are in an embarrassing position in the market, and it is difficult to meet the goods that can be loaded by a small car.

After all, who wants to find two small cars to pull twice?

It's better to go out with the whole cart at once.

After that, I drove a business, saved money to pay off debts, and lived a very tight life.

And the most resentful thing about Hua Lone's mother is that just because they still paid a sum of money in the end, their relatives seem to treat the car as their own use.

Whenever there is a family to carry or pick up and drop off, it is not just a truck, as long as it is four wheels, he will always call his father to drive to help.

pretended to give money, but Hua Lone's father was too thin-skinned, and he really didn't give it as soon as he shirked it.

Hua Lin always hears her parents arguing on weekdays, why are you arguing?

Isn't that the case, Daddy Hua Lin is stubborn and old-fashioned, does not change his faction, and even thinks that his relatives can use him, at least it shows that he is still a little valuable, but what kind of self-esteem is this?

Hua Lone's mother is just powerful, who is reliable, who is unreliable, at a glance. Now this tricky thing is still cheeky to ask for the lonely uncle in the end.

My uncle was very angry.

In the political career, he cherishes his feathers very much, and if he does too much and stretches his hands too long, he will definitely owe favors and fall into the handle, and he is even more reluctant to repeatedly be a person who has no blood relationship with him.

"If you don't fit to drive, don't drive, if you don't make any money, it's all a disaster." How many times have this been.

Even if you don't open it, you can't help but take it back, and it's money to sell it.

Even if the aunt agrees with the point of view, she can't express it, so she has to follow his words.

Hua Lin didn't know if his uncle deliberately delayed time to punish his father when he used his resources, or if this matter was originally very tricky, so it was not handled smoothly, anyway, for several days, he didn't say anything about the specific fine, and he didn't lift the ban on the car.

During this period of flower silence, the safest existence is to hide quietly in the corner and not be a thorn in the eye.

She looked at her mother's back busy, going around and around, sometimes absent-minded, sometimes sighing, she thought, her mother's heart should be very bitter.

She wanted to go through her mother's body and go to that secret garden to have a look.

If she could, she would have liked to sweep away the dead leaves in the garden, water them and pull out the weeds.

is completely different from Shu Yu's mood, she feels sorry for her mother.

She had seen a photo album of her mother when she was young in the locked drawer where the money was hidden: a peach blossom tree bloomed, people laughed in the bushes, and they were more delicate than flowers.

She had read her mother's treasured diary, which contained young poems.

At a glance, it is difficult to associate the appearance of mom and dad when they raise the bar, and there is a lot of trickery under the resentment.

But she believes that her former mother is also a literary and artistic youth, who has pursued the breeze and the bright moon, and enjoyed the poetry and wine years with the grass and warblers.

She still has a secret in her heart, which should also be her mother's little secret.

In the vegetable market where they buy vegetables, there is a stall that sells tofu all year round.

Every time I went there, the uncle who sold tofu would smile and add a few more pieces to my mother, and every time it was a gentle and gentle sentence, "For you, naturally more." ”

Mom once said a few words with a few strokes, and the left and right were the intentional plots of the ruthless flowing water in her youth.

Later, my mother occasionally sighed, who let herself dislike people before was just selling tofu.

When I was in elementary school, there was always a parent-teacher conference, and the parents were better than anyone in the classroom, and the little classmates were talking about whose mother was the best looking from the outside.

But now?

There are no new photos to take as a souvenir, so as not to record this tiredness.

Hua Lin hated, hated that his father was incompetent and couldn't give a peaceful sky.

She was very ignorant and asked, "Mom, have you ever thought about divorcing your father?" ”

"What a stupid thing to say."

Listening to that tone, it was clear that she had never thought about it, but she still wanted to encourage her mother to be brave like others to jump out, not to be dragged down by life, to pursue herself, she can support her mother in all her choices.

We should forgive Hua Lin for her ignorance, she still doesn't understand, not everyone has the courage to stir up trouble in their own world;

Moreover, this courage is not necessarily worthy of encouragement;

Unintentionally fueling the flames, even if it is not malicious, is ultimately selfish and rebellious.

Hua Lone's mother just wants to pick up this life full of holes, make up for it, admit it and continue to live, this tenacity often needs more support.