Chapter 1161: A Sick World?
Chen Ge is separated from the outside world by a window with barbed wire, standing in the window, he can smell the flowers, feel the sun, be blown by the breeze, and see the people in his heart, but he just can't go out.
The outside world is beautiful and real, but the world is for those people outside.
Fingers grabbed the barbed wire, rust rubbing against the skin, Chen Ge silently stared at the haunted house on the west side of the park, looking at the actress dressed as a ghost.
Although the other party wore ghost makeup, Chen Ge could still recognize her at a glance.
"You can get treatment well, and when your symptoms are relieved and you can be discharged from the hospital with the approval of the dean, you will be able to go to her." Dr. Gao is very good to Chen Ge, he knows Chen Ge's tragic experience, in addition to the doctor's responsibility to the patient himself, he is also very sympathetic to Chen Ge.
"Can you go out when you're sick?" Chen Ge longed for the outside world, he couldn't take his eyes off the actress, and the actress who was selling tickets in the park also seemed to sense something, and turned his head to look at the hospital.
The eyes of the two met, and Chen Ge subconsciously wanted to dodge, but he soon found that the actress was not malicious, there was no discrimination and disgust in her eyes, just a curiosity.
may have seen Chen Ge's cramped and uneasy appearance, and the actress wearing ghost makeup showed a shallow smile.
In just a second or two of staring at each other, the actress went to work again, handing out flyers to passers-by, holding billboards, and recommending her haunted house.
"Is it that I used to be like her, or is she playing the former me......"
Chen Ge always had two opposing thoughts in his mind, and he couldn't tell if it was instinct or a disease.
He didn't dare to think deeply, the kind of sharp pain that seemed to tear his head apart was not something anyone could easily bear.
Seeing Chen Ge standing by the window again as usual, Dr. Gao sighed softly and left quietly.
The light on the horizon slowly softened, and the dazzling sunlight had a touch of orange, and when the sunset was obscured by tall buildings, only fiery clouds remained in the sky.
It's beautiful, it's beautiful.
Chen Ge stood by the window for an afternoon, the temperature slowly became lower, and the cool night breeze penetrated his neckline, and he shivered.
"It's dark."
Touching his heart, Chen Ge's mind flashed the surveillance picture that Dr. Gao had shown him just now: "Is the person who looks like a beast in the video really me?" ”
Surveillance doesn't deceive people, Chen Ge subconsciously feels that the surveillance screen is trustworthy, and he seems to have determined a lot of things through monitoring before.
"The other one I'm called Xu Yin? If the doctor didn't lie to me, then when will he come? ”
Looking at his body, Chen Ge actually felt a little strange, and he sat on the bed with his support for the wall.
It was already dark, but Chen Ge did not choose to close the window, he always felt that he would be upset after closing the window, and he felt that the whole room had become depressed, like a labyrinth without an exit.
"I really want to get out of here."
Outside the window, the park is closed, but the lights are still on in the haunted house.
"Didn't she come home? Could it be that she has been living in a haunted house? ”
"It must be hard to clean such a big haunted house by yourself, if only someone would help her."
"No, why is she alone? She should have her own parents as well......"
Thinking of this, there was another tingling pain in Chen Ge's head, his parents seemed to be a taboo in his heart, as long as he thought of something related to his parents, he would feel a sharp pain in his brain.
Holding his head with both hands, Chen Ge roared in pain, his hands twisting the sheets into a crumpled manner.
"Bang, bang, bang!"
There was a knock on the door, Dr. Gao pushed open the door of the ward, and when he saw Chen Ge's appearance, he immediately ran to the bedside and guided Chen Ge to resume breathing.
After the pain in his brain subsided, Chen Ge collapsed on the hospital bed.
"Empty yourself, don't think nonsense, and get some sleep." After Dr. Gao finished speaking, he stepped aside, and Chen Ge only realized that there was another person standing behind Dr. Gao.
The man was not very old, with a cold face, and seemed to be suffering from affective deficit disorder.
"Your two previous patients have moved out of this ward for various reasons, this is your new roommate, his name is Zuo Han."
There were a total of three beds in the ward, and the patient named Zuo Han did not communicate with Chen Ge, with a cold face, he directly chose the bed near the door.
"I hope you all have a good time."
Dr. Gao briefly introduced Zuo Han, during which Xu Wan sent the food to the ward, and after Chen Ge and Zuo Han finished eating, Dr. Gao took out the medicine bottle in his pocket.
He watched Chen Ge and Zuo Han take the medicine with his own eyes, and then left with Xu Wan.
The wind blew into the ward along the window, Zuo Han sat near the door, Chen Ge lay by the window, and there was a hospital bed between the two.
Neither of them spoke, and after about ten minutes, Chen Ge broke the silence: "If you feel cold, I can close the window." ”
"No, you don't." Zuo Han only replied with two words, he stood up, checked the door, and after the ward was unlocked, he lay directly on the bed with his shoes on.
"Don't you sleep without taking off your shoes?" Chen Ge vaguely felt that the name Zuo Han was very familiar, but his brain memory could not match this name with the face in front of him, and he had just taken the medicine, and his thinking speed had slowed down significantly.
Zuo Han stared at Chen Ge's face, and after a long time, he said coldly: "I don't take off my shoes so that I can escape from this room at any time." ”
"Why?" Chen Ge thought that he had also chosen to flee in the surveillance video, his brain became dull, but his senses were still sharp, which was like instinct.
"Because you're in this room, you're a dangerous patient." Zuo Han glanced at Chen Ge.
"Fifty steps and a hundred steps, if you weren't sick, you wouldn't be locked up here." Chen Ge didn't feel that he was in danger, he just felt that his brain was very messy, and he would feel severe pain when he thought about it a little, but if he stopped thinking for a long time, he felt that some memory fragments in his mind would disappear completely.
"I'm not sick, and there are a lot of people in this world who want to kill me. It's true, it's not that I'm sick. Zuo Leng smiled coldly: "Besides, even if I am really sick, it is far from you." ”
"You know me? Have you heard about me? Chen Ge's gaze changed.
Zuo Han shook his head, he opened his mouth, revealing the white pill pressed under the tip of his tongue: "The doctor only fed me half a pill, and I saw just now that he fed you two whole pills!" So even if we are both sick, yours will be much more sick than I am. ”
"You didn't take the medicine the doctor gave you?"
"The medicine is for the patient, why should I take the medicine if I am not sick?" Zuo Han got up and walked to the door, his fingers slid over the corners of his mouth, and took out the pill without a trace: "There is surveillance outside the ward, and they want to lock me up for the rest of my life." ”
Holding the half of the pill between his fingertips, Zuo Han grinded the pill little by little, and he was very cautious until he ground the pill into ashes.
"Can I ask one more question, what does the doctor say you have?" From Chen Ge's point of view, it can be clearly seen that Zuo Han is not a normal person.
"They said I had a serious delusion of victimization, but I didn't believe anything they said, because I knew that the doctors had bad intentions, they didn't want to treat me at all, they wanted to harm me."
"Why do you think so?" A person suffering from victim paranoia is locked up in the hospital, he refuses to take medicine, behaves strangely, and feels that the doctors are not saving him at all, but harming him, which is a symptom that shows that he is indeed suffering from victim paranoia.
"There's no why." Zuo Han paused: "My intuition tells me that things are not so simple, there are problems with many things in this world, I can't say the specifics, if I can leave this hospital, there are countless ways to prove it." ”
"Then come on." Chen Ge looked at his leg wrapped in plaster: "It's almost impossible for me to escape. ”
He has multiple bruises on his body, a badly fractured leg that has not yet recovered, his brain is sometimes awake and sometimes chaotic, and he feels severe pain whenever he thinks deeply, and there seems to be another beast-like personality hidden in his body.
In this case, Chen Ge did not feel that he could escape from the hospital.
"I'd love to leave, too." Chen Ge looked at the paradise outside the window, the paradise at night was pitch black, and there was no light.
The ward became quiet again, and neither Chen Ge nor Zuo Han spoke again.
Turning off the lamp at the head of the bed, Chen Ge lay in the dark.
Wrapped in darkness, he developed a very comfortable feeling, as if he was finally no longer being watched by others.
"I didn't do anything during the day, but why am I still so sleepy? Is it because of the drug? His eyelids became heavy, and Chen Ge glanced at Zuo Han's bed before falling asleep.
Zuo Han didn't fall asleep, he didn't take off his clothes and shoes, he lay on the bed like a cheetah, his eyes vigilantly watching the door, as if a bad guy would break into the door the next moment.
……
The sound of fingernails scratching the wooden board could be faintly heard in his ears, and Chen Gefan opened his eyes in a daze, and he found a person standing at the door of the ward.
Left Han?
Chen Ge didn't speak, he pretended to be asleep while moving his gaze.
On the hospital bed near the door, the quilt was bulging, and Zuo Han seemed to have put the pillow under the quilt.
Not daring to make any sound, Chen Ge quietly stared at the figure in the dark.
After about a few minutes, the figure suddenly turned around, and he walked directly towards Chen Ge.
There was no sound of footsteps, the man moved slowly, and then stopped beside Chen Ge's bed.
"Are you awake?"
Zuo Han's voice came out of the figure's mouth, and Chen Ge knew that he had been discovered, so he didn't continue to pretend: "What are you doing?" ”
"Preparing to escape, of course." Zuo Han whispered: "From the first time I saw you, I felt that you were very familiar, did I see you somewhere?" ”
"Why are you asking this all of a sudden?" Chen Ge's voice was also very low.
"When I first moved in, there seemed to be someone standing outside the door, and I suspected that the doctors and nurses hadn't gone far, so I couldn't talk to you about a lot." Zuo Han sat on the side of Chen Ge's bed: "I must have seen you somewhere, that feeling can't be wrong." After all, the first time I saw you, I didn't think you were dangerous, which was almost impossible for me. ”
"Why do you take the initiative to say that you didn't take the medicine when you know that the doctor might be outside? Aren't you afraid that they will hear it? Chen Ge was a little puzzled.
"They knew I wasn't taking my medicine, and I said this to deliberately expose my flaws so that they could relax." Zuo Han stared at Chen Ge's face: "Use the flaws they know to numb them and make them feel that everything is under control, in fact, they don't know my inner thoughts at all." ”
"You're pretty smart." Chen Ge instantly understood what Zuo Han meant, and the initial conversation between Zuo Han and him was not completely honest.
Zuo Han suspected that the doctor was outside the door, he deliberately said those words and did those things, and did not hesitate to expose some small details to confuse the doctor.
"When I see anyone in this world, I feel a sense of wariness in my heart, including the doctor and my parents, but you are the only one." Zuo Han frowned: "It's strange, it's the first time I've opened my heart to a stranger like this." ”
"Maybe it's because I'm good-looking?"
"Maybe." Zuo Han's voice was lowered: "It's difficult for me to escape from this place alone, I need help, if you are willing to help me, I can take you away." ”
"Are you sure we can escape?" From time to time, Chen Ge's mind flashed the surveillance footage that Dr. Gao asked him to see, and the self dominated by animal nature made him feel terrified.
"I'm not sure, but I know I'm going to go crazy if I stay here any longer." Zuo Han sat on the hospital bed in the middle of the room: "It's three o'clock in the morning, and the nurses change their guard at midnight at midnight, and they will inspect the hospital at zero o'clock and three o'clock in the morning, respectively, and each inspection lasts about half an hour." ”
"How do you know that?" Chen Ge looked at Zuo Han with a hint of doubt in his eyes.
"You're worried I'm from the hospital? Are you worried that I'm tempting you? Zuo Han was not only not angry, but the cold expression on his face softened a lot: "It seems that you and I are indeed the same people, and we both doubt the world in our hearts." In fact, it is not us who is sick, it is the world, you and I have realized that we live in a sick world. ”
Hearing the last sentence Zuo Han said, Chen Ge felt a chill in his heart for no reason, as if there was some kind of strong psychological hint in the words of the sick world, and he instinctively had an extremely disgusted feeling for these words, as if only a mortal enemy would say such a thing.
"Is the world really sick? Am I the one who is sick? Or is it this world? Chen Ge's head began to hurt again.
"Are you alright?" Zuo Han frowned, what he was looking for was a helper, not a burden, Chen Ge's body was too weak.
"My head often hurts inexplicably, do you have similar symptoms?" Chen Ge reluctantly calmed himself down, he combed his emotions, and then found a very strange point, what he hated in his heart was only the words of the sick world, and this disgust was not aimed at Zuo Han.
"My head never hurts, and I have to stay awake all the time to deal with all kinds of dangers." Zuo Han returned to his bedside and kept a distance from Chen Ge: "At half past three in the morning, I will leave the ward, and I would like to ask you to do me a favor when the time comes." ”
"I'm not in a very good state right now, I'm afraid I won't be able to help you with anything." Chen Ge felt that it was better not to be impulsive.