"What I want you to do is very simple, if I leave and a doctor or nurse comes to do rounds, you just have to pretend to be sleeping." Zuo Han didn't have much hope for Chen Ge: "You don't have to say a word, no matter what he asks you, you just say you don't know." ”

"It's as simple as that?"

"Well, when I come back, remember to open the door for me." Zuo Han lay on the hospital bed and no longer paid attention to Chen Ge.

Ten minutes later, Zuo Han glanced at Chen Ge, then got up and walked to the door of the ward.

He quietly opened the door a crack, and when he saw that there was no one in the hallway, he slipped out.

"This man is paranoid, and his symptoms are indeed very similar to victimization paranoia." Chen Ge sat up from the bed: "Do I want to help him?" ”

There is no need to think hard, Chen Ge has already felt that Zuo Han's departure tonight is not as simple as going to visit the hospital, this is also a kind of temptation for him.

He didn't trust Zuo Han, and Zuo Han didn't fully trust him, in the eyes of the victim with paranoia, the whole world was dangerous and a potential enemy.

Maintaining his original posture, Chen Ge sat on the edge of the bed for more than ten minutes, but Zuo Han still did not come back.

He looked at the door that had staggered a slit, dragged the plaster leg, and slowly walked to the door of the ward.

Pulling open the door, Chen Ge looked outside, the corridor of the hospital was not dark, and the lights were on at the corner of the corridor and the nurse's station.

"It's completely different from what I remember the hospital looking like, is that eerie and dark midnight hospital really my imagination?"

Chen Ge can now grasp a good degree, he will not think deeply about anything, as long as it does not stimulate the memories of the past, there will be no pain in the brain as if it is about to be torn.

"I don't have a headache when I think back to what happened during the day, but when I try to think back to what happened before I passed out, the pain hits me suddenly, which is strange in itself."

"What does the memory of the past really mean to me? Why does it hurt me just thinking about it? ”

After taking a large dose of medicine, his body was extremely weak and suffering from pain, but in such a situation, Chen Ge still maintained the ability to think independently.

"To a certain extent, I am quite similar to Zuo Han, he thinks that everyone in the world is harming him, I think everyone in the world is lying to me, are we really sick?"

If the symptoms are so similar to that of a mentally ill person, it is an indirect indication that he may also be mentally ill.

"Being aware that I might be sick shows that I still have a sense of illness and that my self-awareness has not diminished...... Self-awareness? The three words that popped up inexplicably in his mind made Chen Ge stunned for a moment: "Why am I so familiar with the three words self-knowledge?" This thing seems to be very important to me, I need self-knowledge, I need something with self-knowledge! ”

The pain hit like a tide, Chen Ge seemed to touch his previous memories again, and countless memory fragments collided together in his mind, and he almost fainted in pain.

Chen Ge gritted his teeth with both hands and gritted his teeth.

His teeth were bleeding, but he still didn't make a sound.

"Why am I so impressed by the word self-knowledge?!"

His consciousness began to blur, and if Chen Ge continued to think, it would not only be a headache, he might faint directly.

Taking a deep breath, Chen Ge tried his best to calm himself down, he tried several times according to the breathing method taught by Dr. Gao, and the pain in his brain was finally relieved.

In just a few minutes, Chen Ge's back was already wet with cold sweat, and his body became even weaker.

"If I faint, will the other me show up? Will I be able to talk to him? ”

When Chen Ge was about to go back to his hospital bed, footsteps suddenly sounded in the corridor.

"Zuo Han walked without a sound, it should be the nurse who came."

Chen Ge still remembered Zuo Han's words, he lay down on the hospital bed and began to pretend to be asleep, and after about ten seconds, the footsteps stopped at the door of the ward.

His eyes narrowed, Chen Ge stared at the door, he was not nervous, let alone feel any uneasiness, only then did he realize that his psychological quality was outrageous.

"Bang."

There was a gentle knock on the door, followed by footsteps and the people outside the door left.

"What do you mean? Run over at three or four in the morning and knock on the door and leave? Is this a prank by a caregiver? ”

The people outside the door did not come in, and this became the most confusing point for Chen Ge: "Who is the person who knocked on the door?" Caregivers? Left Han? Doctor? Or other patients in the hospital? ”

After a few more moments, the ward door was pushed open, and Zuo Leng walked in with a cold face.

"Did it go well?"

"This hospital is very large, it is a general hospital, and the third ward where we are located is only a small part of it." Zuo Han walked to Chen Ge's bedside and stretched out his hand to gesture: "If you compare the hospital to a pillow, we are probably in this corner." ”

"Do you have the confidence to escape?" Chen Ge was more concerned about this, the inexplicable knock on the door just now made him feel a sense of urgency, it seemed that if he stayed here for a long time, something even worse would happen.

"Nope." Zuo Han's answer was very simple: "There is a monitor installed at the entrance of the building, and there are three nurses and two nurses in our building to watch over them 24 hours a day, and the door to leave the hospital is also locked, and I don't know who the key is." ”

"Keys?" When it came to the key, Chen Ge seemed to have a lightning bolt in his mind, and he was like a drowning man suddenly grasping a straw: "I need a key!" ”

"Yes, we can't get out without the key." Zuo Han felt that Chen Ge's tone was very strange, he didn't continue to communicate with Chen Ge, and returned to his hospital bed.

"Aren't you sleeping?" Chen Ge found that Zuo Han was still wearing clothes and shoes, lying on his side on the bed, and he had no intention of sleeping.

"I don't want to die in my sleep." Zuo Han closed his eyes, he hid a hand in his arms, and there seemed to be something hidden in his palm.

Knife? Not quite like it, it should be some kind of sharp thing, he got it from the outside?

According to the doctor, Zuo Han is a patient with severe paranoia of being killed, such a dangerous guy, holding an unknown object and being in a ward with himself, feels terrible to think about.

Reason told Chen Ge that he should be afraid, but to be honest, he didn't have any waves in his heart.

Changing into a comfortable position, Chen Ge closed his eyes and fell asleep.

……

The sound of the door opening sounded, Chen Ge slowly opened his eyes, the morning light outside the window shone on his body, and he stretched comfortably.

"It's a good life, as long as I don't think about those bad memories, I don't look like a normal person."

Chen Ge turned his head, Zuo Han was still lying on the bed, and he didn't seem to fall asleep until dawn.

"Looks like you had a good night's rest." Dr. Gao stood at the door, he didn't go to see Zuo Han, but walked directly to Chen Ge's bedside: "Did you have a nightmare last night?" ”

"Nope." Chen Ge shook his head, the face of Dr. Gao in his mind coincided with the face of Dr. Gao in reality, perhaps because he had seen too much, and the two contradictory memories had a tendency to begin to merge.

There seemed to be a force in his mind that was slowly changing his perception, allowing him to see reality clearly, and helping him to peel off those pains.

"This shows that my treatment is still working." Dr. Gao was very pleased: "I won't let Xu Wan continue to bring you food today, you have been in the ward for a long time, it's time to go out and walk around, which will be of great help to your recovery." ”

"Getting out and about? Can I go to that park? Chen Ge immediately came to his senses.

Dr. Gao smiled dumbly: "Do you want to see the female boss of the haunted house?" I'm afraid this won't work, you can only move around in the hospital for the time being. ”

"Okay."

"I'll get you armpits, wait a minute."

After Dr. Gao went out, Zuo Han, who was originally unconscious, suddenly woke up, he gestured to Chen Ge, and whispered, "Don't believe his nonsense." ”

"Why haven't you slept yet?"

Zuo Han didn't speak again, he didn't move, as if he was still asleep.

A few minutes later, Dr. Gao returned to the ward with his armpit crutches, he helped Chen Ge up, and the two walked out together, and Dr. Gao did not say a word to Zuo Han during the whole process.

I don't know if Dr. Gao is worried about disturbing Zuo Han's sleep, or if there are other reasons.

After breakfast, Chen Ge and Dr. Gao went to the garden outside the ward.

There aren't many flowers in the garden because I missed the flowering season, but it's still nice to be here.

The wind blew through the treetops on the face like a pair of gentle hands.

The sunlight falls on the ground through the gaps in the leaves, like swimming goldfish, and the grass and trees on both sides of the road are neatly trimmed, like a calm and beautiful green lake.

"Haven't I been out of the ward in a long time?" Chen Ge leaned on his armpit crutches and moved his body a little.

"Why?"

"This feeling of relaxation seems like I haven't experienced in a long time." Chen Ge touched the tree beside him and found a quiet place to sit down.

"It's not like you haven't experienced it, you've just been trapped in a lightless room and forgotten what it feels like." Dr. Gao sat next to Chen Ge, and he seemed to enjoy chatting with Chen Ge.

"A lightless room?"

"This opaque room is your heart, you locked yourself in the bottom of your heart with the key, all I can do is find a way to get you out of that room." Dr. Gao looked at the sky, not knowing what he was thinking.

"As long as I can get out of this house, will my illness be cured?" Chen Ge asked very seriously.

Doctor Gao shook his head: "Mental illness and psychological problems are not the same, mental illness cannot be self-corrected, and it needs to be treated with medication, so that you can come out of the house in your heart, this is only the first step." ”

"How can my illness be cured? In fact, I feel that I am no different from normal people now. Chen Ge leaned against a tree, his eyes slightly dazed.

"If you don't realize that you're sick, it means that you're still a long way from recovery, and your sense of illness and self-awareness are also the basis for judging the severity of a patient's condition." Dr. Gao and Chen Ge chatted.

"Self-knowledge? What is that? Chen Ge's hand grabbed the edge of the wooden chair, and he lowered his head, as if to prevent others from seeing his expression at this time.

"Self-knowledge is the patient's ability to recognize his own mental state, to see if he can judge whether his mental state is normal, and you obviously have no self-awareness ability in your current situation."

"But I still feel like I'm no different from a normal person, except for occasional headaches." Chen Ge raised his head again, he covered his head, as if he had a headache just now.

Doctor Gao didn't refute Chen Ge, he stretched out his hand and pointed to a man talking to himself next to the gazebo in the distance.

The man, in his early thirties, in a hospital gown, stood in the sunlight and muttered to himself in the gazebo where the sun could not find it.

This person, Chen Ge, also felt a little familiar, but he couldn't remember the other party's name for a while.

"His name is Zhang Toast, and he used to live in a ward with you, but later we found out that after he lived with you, his condition continued to worsen, so we moved him to another ward."

"Zhang toast?"

"Well, he is the son of the owner of a winery in Xinhai, he is not very old, and he has a great future, but unfortunately he has a mental problem."

"What's wrong with him?" After Chen Ge heard the name Zhang Toast, his expression became different.

"Undifferentiated schizophrenia." Dr. Gao stared at Zhang Toast, watching his every move: "This patient always thinks he can see ghosts. ”

"Ghosts?"

"How can there be a ghost in the world, in fact, we tested his senses and found that his five senses are completely different from ordinary people." Dr. Gao said casually, "He couldn't concentrate and always felt that someone was talking around him, even in a room where he was alone. And his brain has problems in processing sounds, I'll give you a simple example, after a normal person hears a sentence, his brain will think about the meaning of the sentence, and he hears a word, and all the sentences are fragmented in his mind. ”

When Dr. Gao was talking to Chen Ge, the patient named Zhang Toast turned his head and saw this, his eyes widened suddenly, and he rushed over quickly.

When neither Dr. Gao nor Chen Ge reacted, Zhang Toast grabbed Chen Ge's hand and tried to pull him up from the seat, but he ignored Chen Ge's injured leg, and the final result was that Chen Ge was dragged to the ground by him.

There was no warning, and Chen Ge didn't react.

"Caregiver! Come! ”

Dr. Gao and a visiting nurse dragged Zhang Toast aside, and when he was dragged away, he kept shouting at Chen Ge - ghost, ghost, ghost!

"Are you alright?" Dr. Gao helped Chen Ge up.

"It's okay, it's okay." Chen Ge sat down on the bench again, he felt a little strange, from the last tone of Zhang Toast, he could hear that he was very afraid of ghosts, since he was very afraid of ghosts, then why did he take the initiative to come up and drag himself?

After dragging himself, he shouted at himself ghosts, ghosts, ghosts......

Chen Ge lowered his head and slapped the dust on his clothes, and staggered his gaze from Dr. Gao.

"He must be reminding me that there are ghosts around me, and he thinks Dr. Gao is a ghost."