Silence does not mean that there is nothing to say.

In the face of Ge Taisheng's monologue of "partly fact, partly biased", Hua Lin only listened and accepted.

In any case, Hua Lin understood it.

Different seas have different currents, different roofs have different moods, they have to look at the flowers, judge and conclude that they are leaving her, this is not asking her opinion, it is that they touch their chests worthy of their own true feelings, just to inform her, what else?

Let Hua Lin pull the corners of their clothes, cut open their hearts and stuff them into their hands, let them know their grievances, sorrows, struggles, and longing to be understood and rescued by them? Flower Silence can't do it.

Zhang Ailing once said:

"If you knew me in the past, maybe you would forgive me now."

When you are close, you can't talk about getting close to me to warm you, so why talk about this moment?

Time has long divided their past memories into two parts, one is beautiful, and only remembers warm pictures; The other part is black and white, some people are destined to be gradually forgotten, and Hua Lin stands in that shadow.

The love is far away, the people are wrong, the things are wrong, and the past cannot be traced.

It's just that she continues to face the upheaval of her world alone.

At least, now Ge Taisheng has also solved the mystery for Hua Lone, and there is no need to be nostalgic about the process and ending of Bai Xingyi.

There is no resentment in Hua Lone, who does not have a cool side in their nature, if there is a better one, how many will not exchange it?

Say a blessing? It's not so noble, in the age when Hua Lonely is powerless, she just wants to lick her sad wounds, reflect on what she did wrong, and comfort her wronged.

Knowing everything, you are much more calm.

After returning from the playground after doing radio gymnastics during class, at the door of the classroom, she happened to be in and out with Bai Xingyi, and Hua Lian retreated and kept a distance of nearly one meter, letting Bai Xingyi pass first, she didn't want to get too close at all.

When she no longer regarded herself as special, she suddenly let go and gave up.

Passing through the seat, Xu Keer and the others were talking about Cen Lin and Zheng Chong, who seemed to have emotional problems.

Zhang Xin earnestly crossed stitched on the seat.

This is the new favorite of the girls in the class, the first generation of DIY works, the embroidered cross-stitch can be embedded in the transparent acrylic material ring, hanging on the key, is a unique ornament under everyone's hands.

Limited by the size of the space, you can generally only embroider a surname, which is suitable for your own use, or given to your favorite little boy.

When she has itchy hands, she takes the rags at home and tries to embroider with needles and threads while her parents are not at home.

Zhang Xin's "Zhang" strokes are too many horizontal folds, Zhang Xin has no patience, embroidered a little irritable, originally carefully embroidered, but the back is knotted, untie back and forth, left and right, simply throw it on the ground.

Hua Lin regretted that she hurriedly picked it up, and said, "Don't worry, I'll teach you, in fact, you can do this-"

Before he finished speaking, he heard Zhang Xin say angrily: "You threw it away for me!" ”

Hua Lin was so embarrassed that she stopped in place, she didn't expect Zhang Xin to be angry.

I saw her apricot eyes glaring and said, "If I can't do it well, you just want to do it well?" Shall I be instructed by you? ”

Hua was lonely, she didn't think Zhang Xin would say this, and she didn't know where her temper came from; reacted, and Hua Lin immediately put the cross-stitch that she had just picked up from the ground back in place.

This matter has been remembered in Hua Lone's mind for a long time, not because of Zhang Xin's inexplicable attitude, but because she realized that in the future, she should consider more from the position of others, be low-key in life, and not always teach others to behave and do things, and don't make others feel uncomfortable.

Perhaps, this is the early stage of the establishment of the "people-pleasing personality" of Hua Lone.

She is so afraid of rejecting or hurting others, afraid of leaving a gap in other people's hearts related to herself, afraid that she will not be able to heal.

Therefore, even if her ears are about to sound calloused, she will still patiently let Cen Lin repeat her love-hate entanglement with Zheng.

They broke up again.

Solemnly criticize Cen Lin and boys, such as the fat man, they play too well, Cen Lin will also put his hand on the fat man's shoulder to speak, very inattentive to proportion;

And Cen Lin is angry that this is just his distrust of her, and he doesn't understand that she is such a big personality, her friendship with the fat man, Lu Yinuo, junior high school and high school is a very pure classmate relationship, isn't it solemn and small-minded?

When two people get along, when they like you, any shortcomings can be regarded as advantages; After a long time, the reason why I liked it at the beginning became the reason for bickering.

Their Cold War also lasted a long time.

Cen Lin was so angry that she actually gave the scarf she had planned to weave to give to Zheng Zheng, and simply gave it to Lu Yinuo with a backhand.

In front of a solemn face, he ran outside the classroom, threw it at Lu Yinuo, and dropped the sentence "This is what I knitted by myself, if I don't like it, I threw it away" and turned around and left.

Lu Yinuo held a scarf and didn't know what it meant, and looked blankly at the fat classmates in Hua Lone's class, the fat man guessed the general reason, and could only wink desperately at Lu Yinuo, meaning "You don't care, just take it first, don't ask more." ”

Of course, Hua Lin understands the friendship behind this scene.

She thought that if she hadn't had a shallow friendship with Ge Taisheng, if everything went smoothly, she would have been able to have such a pure tacit understanding and intent that had nothing to do with love.

Envy is envy, but she felt that Cen Lin didn't need to engage in this magical operation during the cold war with Zheng Zheng, so Hua Lin said to Cen Lin:

"You are exaggerating, why did you bother to weave a big scarf and give it to Lu Yinuo? Aren't you looking for trouble? It's not a big enough misunderstanding, isn't it? ”

Oh, Cen Lin only thinks that the object of Hua Lone's heart is Lu Yinuo, is it possible that Hua Lone's heart is Lu Yinuo... I'm sorry, I'm sorry, and quickly explained that she and Lu Yinuo were very innocent.

What's the matter, now she is busy clarifying herself, she doesn't care, she doesn't care, she doesn't care, she doesn't care at all...... Forget it, it's useless to talk more, what's the matter with her, don't express your opinion anymore.

Zhang Xin discussed with Hua Lin in private: "Is Cen Lin really empathetic to Lu Yinuo, don't fall in love with you?" ”

Where does this start, Lu Yinuo has never been lonely.

"No, solemnly."

"Then do you think Lu Yinuo will like Cen Lin?"

"It should be more face-saving for Cen Lin, the person Lu Yinuo likes seems to have never changed."

"Who?"

Hua Lian's chin was a little towards Chen Hui's seat, and Zhang Xin seemed to react that he had asked a superfluous question.

These boys and girls have their own competitions, and now Hua Lin just wants to dig out an "enemy" and fight with each other.

Why?

I don't know who is instilling in her ears the argument that "number sequences can be self-taught", isn't this digging a pit and deceiving people? How did she find out that she couldn't read it? For her, the number series is simply a book from heaven.

Sure enough, her math unit test results came down, and the test paper for this chapter of the number series had to be taken to her parents for signing.

No matter how carefully she hid it, she was still seen by Cheng Xian.

"You failed?" Cheng Xian was angry and funny, "How simple is this question, which question can't be used, can you still fail?" ”

Fortunately, the voice of "simple self-study of the number sequence" in Hua Lone's mind was a girl's, otherwise she would have wanted to break off her friendship with Cheng Xian.

"You don't want Lu Yinuo to be long and short all day long, and care about some Cen Lin and solemn things. Why do you care so much? I don't take the class seriously, and the exam is a little bit. Cheng Xian was a little bitter and persuaded him, he sat in the back and heard them talking about these things.

Alas, I don't know if this flower silence has listened to it.

On the morning of the day when I signed and handed in the test papers, Hua Lin appeared in the classroom with three scratches on her face, and if you look closely, you can see that Hua Li's eyes are red and swollen, and the two sides of her face are not symmetrical.

Seeing this, the boy at Cheng Xian's table immediately glanced at Cheng Xian, and at the same time stretched out his two hands and dug them out in the air, guessing that Hua Lian was beaten violently at home.

Cheng Xian glared at his tablemate, he couldn't believe that in front of him, a good girl would be beaten, could it be that because he didn't pass the exam, it wouldn't be beaten to his face and hurt.

Cheng Xian couldn't ask if he wanted to, so he had to eavesdrop on Zhang Xin and Hua Lian's chat behind his back to see if they would talk about it.

Zhang Xin and Hua Lin go home together every day, and they are at the same table, so they naturally spend more time together than others, and they have only heard the words about being beaten before, but how can a child who grew up in a honey pot imagine the intensity of the storm?

It wasn't until he saw the injury on Hua Lian's face with his own eyes, the conspicuousness that seemed to be deliberately going to be seen by others, and the eyes that were not big and would be even more swollen, Zhang Xin's heart was a little awe-inspiring.

But as long as Hua Lonely doesn't say anything, her mood of not daring to ask more is the same as Cheng Xian.

What Zhang Xin can do is to carefully block Hua Lin with a book, no longer let others find out, and softly coax Hua Lin to eat lollipops, and make Hua Lin relax, because she is always afraid that Hua Lin will not be able to hold back and cry in the next second.

Hua Lin is not so fragile, she herself is also very hesitant, it is the norm for her to be beaten, although the incident is different, she failed the exam anyway, she no longer feels that she has any qualifications to cry and cry grievances, her grades are not good, and she deserves any treatment.

It didn't take long for the wound on Hua Lone's face to be completely closed, the school's spiritual civilization construction, and the school magazine held an essay contest, and each class in the school had to assign five students to participate, in the school's auditorium, according to the topic, on-site writing.

Chinese has always been the strength of Hua Lone, and it is the most pleasing to the Chinese teacher, so it is naturally assigned to it, hoping to win a good ranking.

But in the auditorium, the moment he saw the title on the screen, Hua Lone's heart suddenly cooled.

Theme: "A Hymn to a Father".

……

What is Hymn?

With the tense relationship between Hua Lin and his father, how to sing praises?

The last time I was beaten, it wasn't entirely because I failed the Hua Lin exam, in fact, as long as my mother read and signed the test paper, I didn't need to go up to my father.

The real fuse was the gift given by Wang Lei, among which there was a very cute little turtle doll, which was turned out by her father, and scolded Hua Lin under the pretext of scolding Hua Lone, saying that it was someone else who was mocking her for being a turtle with a shrunken head, and she didn't realize it, and she actually took the insult to her home as a treasure to treasure.

Dad didn't say a word or two, but repeatedly ridiculed. The partiality of Hua Lone's temper is also a little hard, this is something she doesn't agree with, she can't see her father distorting the facts like this, she couldn't help but argue a few more words, which caused her father to be angry and move.

Anyway, there will be no such unpleasantness, there will be such unpleasantness.

When I was in junior high school, Hua Lonely was still young, and once I was beaten, I would kneel on the ground and beg for mercy desperately; As she grew older, Hua Lin rarely cried out in pain, even if she was only standing, she didn't hide.

After the fight was too tragic, my father would say that he would simply publish a newspaper to declare that he would no longer have to care about life and death after the father-daughter relationship was dissolved.

Hua Lone's heart is cold, but she is happy to do so.

It's ridiculous that between the father and daughter, they really have to sign in black and white.

Hua Lone's mother reconciled very little in it, and there was really a reason for Hua Lone's bad grades.

Think of it this way, if it is a child with good grades, all the beating and scolding can be classified as domestic violence worthy of sympathy; However, it is complicated that there is a situation where it should not be used as a reason for being beaten, and there is a situation where it should be beaten.

Hua Lin listened to Zhang Xin say that she and her father were walking on the road, most likely because Zhang Xin was so affectionate that she held her father's arm; Cen Lin's father was called to the school by the teacher to say something solemn and didn't beat Cen Lin, for Hua Lian, all the depictions of the warmth between father and daughter, Hua Lin can't really put himself in his shoes.

Every time I was beaten by my father for a few days, if I met downstairs at home, one old and one young, I could live without talking.

How to write such a hymn?

Looking around at the classmates next to him were all struggling to write, she didn't move a word in front of her, and she couldn't explain it to the teacher when she gave up temporarily, Hua Lin took a deep breath, okay, make it up, just write something that the questioner wants to see.

What is the title?

Hua suddenly remembered that she had seen Zhang Xin's new Jay Chou album before, there was a song title in "Fantesi", and she remembered it very clearly at a glance: "Dad, I'm back".

So with this as the title, she wrote in the article, "Dad, I'm Back" is her favorite song.

But she had never heard the song before.

If she had known what the lyrics of the song were singing earlier, she would have chosen to give up the competition.