If you want to trace back to the source, you have to start with Grandpa Hua Lone's surname not being "flower".

At that time, the grandfather's family was considered a squire, and his ancestors were officials guarding the granary.

In Hua Lone's impression, although his hometown is in a particularly remote mountain village and countryside, the house is quite elegantly built, with a front and back yard, and a patio, which is no different from in the TV series costume drama.

The house of the mansion is also a scholarly door, the grandfather has read a private school, and he writes a good calligraphy, and until the birth of the generation of Hua Lone, he always has the four treasures of pen, ink, paper, inkstone, and study.

said that he was educated, but his grandfather had done something very uneducated in his life.

He and his cousin are truly in love.

may be because in the countryside, it was that era, and the grandparents of Hua Lin could not talk about ignoring kinship and marrying without all difficulties.

They love each other very much.

In the beginning, a son was born, and he rejoiced;

Then, another daughter was born, and both were happy.

The joy of parenthood is almost full at this time;

The love of being a parent also pays a lot.

Later, Hua Lone's father was born, ranking third.

At this time, marriage and love life have developed, and there is no crystallization of love, in other words, Daddy Hua is a population of people.

The grandfather, who happened to have read books and engaged in culture, successfully took a foothold in the city, and in the struggle, he had a job as a manager in a state-owned enterprise.

At that time, the gold content of the "manager" was high, and it was not so perfunctory and casual that a "department manager" and "market manager" were printed on the business card in this era.

Managers, within the national establishment, can enjoy cadre treatment.

Grandma has never studied since she was a child and is reluctant to leave the countryside, so she lets her grandfather start a career in the city and contribute, while she takes her children and her newborn father in the countryside.

The rural population is dominated by men, and in the family lineage, the population of Grandma Hua Lone's mother's family withered, and there were no heirs to write a family tree, so the grandmother decisively changed the surname of the third son, that is, Hua Lone's father, to the Hua family, and since then his name has been written forever in another ancestral book.

If in his childhood, he passed on to other people's families and was raised by others as his own, it would be fine.

But that vein is almost severed, and Hua Lone's father is only a nominal successor, but he is still raised in front of his grandparents.

Some people might say that this is good, too.

But in fact, since childhood, the whole family knows that Hua Lone's father has a special surname, and in the eyes of the elder brother or eldest sister, this younger brother is an outsider and a child of "someone else's family".

And Hua Lone's father is not as good as his previous brothers and sisters, he rarely gets along with his father, let alone gets "affirmation of love".

Later, the grandparents gave birth to a fourth child, the little uncle of the flowers, which aroused the long-lost family affection of the grandparents, and the son was favored again.

The third child has become an embarrassing existence.

He was always sensitive, careful, and courted the family up and down because he was "unjustifiable" and stayed at home.

Grandpa used the connections he built in the city to help Uncle Hua Lin and Aunt Hua Lonely and gain a firm foothold in the city.

When it was time for Hua Lone's father, considering that his youngest son was going to study in junior high school in the city, he transferred him to his own unit as a clerk after being discharged from the army, and took care of his youngest son's daily life by the way.

At that time, the unit built several villas for the manager level, and the grandfather brought the grandmother, and the grandmother took care of the vegetable planting area inside and outside the villa, attracting others to follow suit.

If you can keep this state, maybe until Hua Lin is born, she can become a rich princess.

However, grandpa's career has taken a huge turn.

A cauldron fell from the sky, and without his grandfather's knowledge, he signed a document and became another group of gunmen in the unit who used his power for personal gain, how did this happen, who led it, the whole thing After so many years, Hua Lone's mother only heard about it as an outsider, and it was impossible to find out at that time.

Grandpa was demoted, but fortunately, his great leadership was guaranteed and his cadre establishment was kept, but he no longer had authority.

Qinggao's grandfather couldn't accept the stain on his body, and this untimely arrogance supported him to resign directly, claiming that he did not prove his innocence for a day, and did not look back for a day, and left the small villa without hesitation.

Oh, that little villa is still under the balcony of Hua Lone's house, with 4 townhouses.

No wonder Hua Lin played below when she was a child, she always looked kind, and she was also envious of the children inside, it turned out that there was such a relationship.

Grandpa waited at home, waited, thought that the old club, the unit would send someone to "invite" him to go back sooner or later, wait, wait, wait, from a few months, to a year, two years, three years...

If the earth is gone, and will it not turn?

After several years, the laid-off reforms.

Hua Lone's father was forced to be swept into the whirlpool by the torrent of society, and he had no sense of security.

And the disadvantages brought about by the marriage of grandparents and close relatives gradually show that several children are a little manic, and the eldest son and eldest grandson under the inheritance of the next generation really have a stupid side.

It was Daddy Lonely who suffered from it.

He is manic, irritable, beaten, and nervous, losing his mind and unable to control his hands and feet, and wants to output energy through violence.

This kind of character defect cannot be said to be related to the marriage of close relatives, but it is congenitally determined that its IQ is not high, its reaction is slow, and it is difficult to speak in a hurry;

This is also reflected in Hua Lone, she will laugh at herself for being a "little stammer", she never does anything to quarrel, because she knows that it is not that her brain can't turn, but that her mouth can't keep up, she can only speak slowly and keep word by word.

And Hua Lone's father himself is also a tragedy, he has never been recognized by his father, and because of the relationship between the adoptives, he has no sense of belonging in the big family, he has never even felt "loved", how can he know that he "loves" others?

The tragedy of the family of origin is nothing more than that.

It's easy to replay what you've experienced for future generations in the same way.

Unless, the person is self-conscious.

Obviously, under the condition of IQ and the limitation of the pattern, Daddy Hua has never woken up.

He worked all day, was middle-aged and unemployed, and had no confidence in his future or his family; The only one who has the backing in this life, but he lost everything overnight and has no one to take care of him since; He has no recognition, no one to guide him, like a headless fly that cannot find its existence worth.

He does like to express his thoughts when there are many people, and it is precisely because no one has ever listened to his opinion, and what he gets is always white eyes and indifference, that he wants to prove that his voice is justified, and under the vicious circle, it is nothing more than a burn in his heart again and again.

He panicked, he was afraid, he hated, he was unwilling.

Morality told him not to hit people, including his wife.

It's okay to beat your daughter, after all, she was born and raised by herself, don't you have the right to beat a dozen?

Besides, it is better to kill an unsuccessful thing than to be secretly abducted and deceived in the future, and it will be embarrassing and conspicuous, and it will become a scourge.

Playing a dozen is almost all of his way of emotional catharsis.

In today's era, when it comes to parenting, we say that we must learn to make the child cry, ask the child how he feels, and respect the expression of his emotions.

But in the childhood of Daddy Blossom, who asked this?

Who cares?

In the middle age of Hua Lone's father's hesitation, he was accompanied by endless ridicule and complaints from Hua Lone's mother.

This is also why, this man can't "take a step back and open the sky", he will only fight on the basis of reason, and never bow his head to admit that he has a problem no matter what.

Two people, one negative and the other negative, will never be negative and positive, it will only intensify, and the couple's huddle is never to keep warm, but to fight and hurt each other.

Using words to stimulate Hua Lin and beating Hua Lin with his fists is almost all of Hua Lone's father's way of emotional catharsis.

It is no wonder that in Hua Lone's eyes, Dad is negative, violent and sensitive, and hateful.

After all, in my hazy memory, when I was a child, before they were laid off, I may have felt a little bit of fatherly love, but in the days that followed, the teachings from my father tended to be close to zero, and more were insults, accusations, insults and real beatings.

In fact, when Hua Lone's mother saw that Hua Lin had suicidal thoughts, she just told Hua Lin about the marriage of her grandparents' close relatives, because she was like this, accepting that her husband was a generation that was harmed by "close relatives", or rather, she accepted her fate and accepted all kinds of things that Hua Lin was beaten, and she couldn't change it, the only change was that Hua Lin herself didn't give people a reason to be beaten.

She even felt that fortunately Hua Lin was a girl, otherwise maybe this gene would be passed on to him, and then to the boy, it would not be "beaten", but two "old and young neuropathies" to "fight".

It doesn't sound funny.

This afternoon, Hua Lin did not go to class.

Originally, because of an inexplicable punch and kick, the time was delayed, coupled with the demons in his heart, he was in a state of soul withdrawal, and his eyes were swollen to the size of walnuts, plus he listened to what his mother said, and then rushed to school, it was almost meaningless.

After a period of silence, my mother sighed, as if she was very reluctant to call her aunt, when Hua Lin was the best in primary and junior high school, she disdained to communicate with the teacher, too many parents went to the pole to please;

Now that Hua Lin is unknown in school, she disdains to have a relationship with a teacher, so she has no contact information for a teacher at all.

At present, I can only entrust my sister to ask for leave from the head teacher of Hua Lone, at least there is an explanation for absenteeism for no reason.

My sister will definitely ask the real reason, and when it comes to it, the family ugliness has to be publicized.

But what other way?

The phone still called, and explained the reason clearly in a few words, my sister would contact my daughter's teacher, but the attitude on the phone was very "speechless", which was nothing more than making my sister look down on her husband, look down on her own vision of choosing a husband, and look down on the rest of her life, isn't it?

Hua Lin and her mother, under one roof, are each gloomy.

At night, Hua Lone lies in bed.

She heard the sound of her parents talking in the next room.

Mom said, "... In the future, if you can restrain yourself, use less hands. ”

"Restraint? What do I need to refrain from? ”

"It doesn't make sense for you to hit someone today. I have to pay money to buy clothes, can I not buy them if the school says so? ”

"Buy a fart."

"When I came back, she turned on liquefied gas."

"Opened liquefied gas? It's looking for death, right? Looking for death and wasting my liquefied gas? …”

Hua Lonely's heart tightened, as if there was a movement of her father wearing shoes next door.

"Why are you going?"

"I'm going to tell her that if you want to die, you should die far away, don't harm a building, or jump off the roof, and be careful not to hit people and cause evil."

Sure enough, after saying this, Hua Lone's father pushed open the door and repeated it to Hua Lone's small bed in the dark.

Hua Lin was waiting in the bed, and she didn't know if her father would catch her down and beat her again when she got up the next moment.

But it didn't seem to be so bad, her father's temper was not so bad, and her mother followed him and pulled him back to the room, telling Hua Lin to go to bed early.

Hua Lin really didn't want to cry, but her tears were not angry, she kept telling herself that she wanted her eyes to be swollen, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry.

In this world, there are too many people who are born unfortunate and sad, like Daddy Lonely and lonely, like a grasshopper, so there will be many people who are the same as themselves.

So, how can you ask for it to give to others that they have never enjoyed?

Gibran said, "A great man has two hearts: one that bleeds, and one that is forgiving." ”

Hua Lin thought that when she could be tolerant while bleeding, it was never great;

It's just, "forget it".