There is wine today, drunk today, and sorrow tomorrow comes. Although I always inadvertently remember that my time is running out because of a certain sentence, and then my mood suddenly becomes low, I still habitually use this sentence to force myself to live the present life happily.

I was standing outside the house with Song Mink that day, and she told me that she hadn't been back for a long time because she was afraid that she wouldn't be able to stand it.

After hearing her say this, I naturally took her hand and said to her, "Take me to see your parents...... ”

On the outskirts of the meadow, there is a stream about two or three hundred meters away from the two huts, where Song Mink's parents are buried.

I took Song Mink's hand...... At this moment, it should be said that Song Mink was holding my hand, and we were there in a few minutes. Two small tombs should only be counted as two small dirt bags to be exact. Song Mink told me that this was the tomb of her parents, because she was still very young at the time and didn't even know a few words, so she didn't know what to do, so she had to bury her parents hastily.

I looked at her and didn't speak, and suddenly felt in my heart that she was much stronger than me, and I was not as good as her. At the same time, my desire to protect became stronger and stronger.

I gently squeezed her hand and said to her, "It's okay, aren't I here now?" Leave these things to me. ”

……。

I was busy for a long time that day, and Song Mink said she was going to cook, and then I started to get busy. I first cleared the weeds around me, and then went down to the river to bring in some rocks to widen the two small graves.

I can't make them as beautiful as they were, but they're much better than they used to be. The tombstones were two oval stones that I had picked up from the river, flat, not small, and correspondingly heavy, and it took me a lot of effort to carry them.

Before I knew it, it was getting dark, and I was almost done, and I just had to fill in some more soil. Because I don't have the tools, that's all I can do.

At this time, Song Mink came, and she was holding a towel in her hand, which I thought should be used to wash my face, because although I couldn't see what was going on on my face now, the sticky feeling told me that it was obviously very dirty.

So I reached out to pick up the towel handed over by Song Mink, but I didn't think about it, but I grabbed it. I saw Song Mink bypassing my outstretched hand and helping me gently wipe it up.

My body shook, and my muscles tensed all at once, because of nervousness.

The towel was wet, Song Mink helped me wipe my face carefully, the sticky feeling was gone, but very refreshing.

Song Mink lowered her head, and she said to me, "Are you hungry?" Let's go back to dinner. ”

I ate a delicious meal that night, the wild fish in the river were fresh, and the fish soup was very delicious. Especially the cherries after the meal, they are really sweet.

Maybe it's because I'm tired, or maybe I have an inexplicable love for the mountains in my heart, so I slept soundly that night, and I didn't even have the dream that I never missed for 365 days. When I opened my eyes again, the sun was already high and I took out my phone and took a look, it was half past ten in the morning.

There was some slight movement outside the house, and I rolled over and got out of bed and walked out, and saw Song Mink cleaning up the house and now cleaning the dust from the windows outside. At this time, she didn't know where to get a simple set of clothes to wear, with a gray headscarf on her head, just like the rural women in the forties and fifties in the TV series. Although I have to say that it is a bit old-fashioned, it makes me feel very simple and realistic.

Yes, this place is too dreamy, and if you deliberately imagine all this as a dream, it seems that the more you think about it, the more you feel that it is a dream.

And now after seeing Song Mink's dress, I suddenly have a sense of reality and tranquility of a man ploughing and weaving.

What is my biggest dream in life? When I was a kid, I wanted to be the president of the country, when I went to school, I wanted to be a scientist, and now, I just want to live an ordinary life. Find someone you like, have one or two children, and rest at sunrise and sunset, and that's enough.

And at this moment, I actually had the illusion that my dream could be realized, and looking at Song Mink's quiet appearance, I was a little sluggish for a while.

Song Mink felt that I was looking at her stupidly, and said a little embarrassed: "There are no clothes at home, this set is still stolen from the mountain by playing in the past, and it is a very appropriate ......." ”

I smiled, nodded to her, and then washed up briefly and helped Song Mink get clean.

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A month, a month later, Song Mink and I went back to school.

In the past month, I have helped her repair the dilapidated places of the two thatched huts, although the technology is very poor, and the more and more the repair is getting worse, but in the end, with my perseverance day after day, I finally repaired all the places that can be repaired.

On the day we left, Song Mink and I were standing next to her parents' graves, looking at the new graves, she suddenly turned her head to look at me, and said to me very seriously: "Xiaoli, thank you." ”

Although I have long been accustomed to Song Mink calling me Xiaoli, it is obviously inappropriate to call me by a nickname on such an occasion, and it is such an ugly nickname.

So I walked to the grave of Song Mink's parents and said, "Uncle and aunt, you don't know my name yet, do you?" Actually, my name is Chu Li, not Xiaoli ....... ”

After laughing, she walked to my side and stood side by side with me, and also said to the tomb of her parents: "Yes, yes, Mom and Dad, his name is Chu Li, Chu of the Overlord of Western Chu, leave...... Never separated. ”

……。

Never separation often exists only in ideals, and in real life, how can there be such an option as never separate? Whether it's a friend, a loved one, or a loved one, it's inevitable that the time will come when it's time to leave. We can't change reality, so we tell ourselves: we are leaving only for a better time together.

Looking at the beautiful, dream-like paradise, I couldn't help but look back many times before leaving, and this time I leave, I'm afraid I will never meet again......

Song Mink saw that I seemed very reluctant, so he said to me: "You said that you will accompany me here every summer vacation in the future, and we will come back in a year, don't be reluctant." ”

yes, I said that.

I let myself smile brightly, nodded and said to her, "Mm-hmm, we'll be here next time......." It's just that the tone involuntarily slowly becomes unconfident.

……。

If the isolation in the mountains made me involuntarily indulge myself, when I returned to school, it undoubtedly brought me back to reality.

The relationship between me and Song Mink returned to normal, I didn't hold her hand again, and I didn't go to her shoulder in a daze.

……。

Viagra checked the holiday homework as usual, and I also took care of the classroom hygiene for the first week of school as usual in the eyes of viagra hating iron and steel.

The school is my home, and in the last six months, let me contribute a little more to my family.

yes, I only have half a year left in my time. My grandfather became more and more crazy, and he even called Uncle Cheng and asked Uncle Cheng to mobilize all his relationships in the police station and look for his brother together.

It's a pity that the days have passed day by day, and there is no news about any relationship.

By the time I knew that Brother Bu was deliberately erasing his information, I had lost hope. Since he erased all his information, how could people find him so easily? Besides, he still has a Sanqing pendant on his body, so except for the legendary Sanqing divination, it is impossible for anyone to find him by any means.

Time flies, and I've said this more than once, probably because I really don't want to die subconsciously. Time is a fucking thing, and the more you try to grab it, the faster you find it slipping away.

Four months have passed in a blink of an eye, and it is snowing season again, and there is less than a month left before my birthday on the eighteenth day of the lunar month.

During this time, I have thought more than once that I have no regrets and want to do everything I want to do. But when I think about it, I realize that the only thing I want to do is to live, so I have no choice but to do it.

And Xie Min, the one I remembered deeply at first sight. Although I didn't mention her again, in the dead of night, I would always unconsciously take out my phone to take a look at her QQ profile picture. I don't know if I'm thinking about her, or if I can't forget her. There seems to be no difference between the two, but there seems to be some difference, but where is the difference? I don't know myself.

On the night after the exam, I opened QQ as usual and took a look, only to find that Xie Min replied to me. When I repeatedly confirmed that the beating avatar and name were indeed Xie Min, my hand holding the mobile phone suddenly trembled, and at the same time, my heart suddenly accelerated its rhythm like a beating avatar, and the thumping sound seemed to be able to reach my ears clearly.

The avatar, which had been silent for more than a year, finally moved, but I didn't have the courage to click on the message interface.

I remember the night I thought I would survive when I sent the message to Shemin, and I said to her, "You know what? I like you. You didn't answer me that night, but I want to hear you say to me that you like me too. Where are you now? ”

It's likely that the reply after more than a year will have the answer I was expecting, but that answer is what I'm afraid of now.

I'm afraid of having no part, and I'm even more afraid of being tricked by fate even more when I like each other. If she really likes me as I guessed, then can I still go without regrets? I guess I'm going to die.

Looking at the constantly beating avatar, I was a little expectant and a little scared.

Finally, I gritted my teeth, trembled and moved my thumb to the OK button, and pressed it gently.

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