Early Bedtime Diary (23)
I just finished watching the crime suspense drama "Hard to Escape" from iQiyi Fog Theater, which has been updated to the eighth episode, and the films that like this style have the texture of a movie, each episode is only more than 30 minutes, but it is not redundant for a second.
The actors' acting skills are all online, a rare masterpiece. I'm watching the video while chatting with fellow N N, she seems to be in a bad mood today!
She said that she would overeat when she was in a bad mood, and she would be like this today, and she used to drink or something, and this was the first time she told me her story.
I asked her to ask her roommate to play table tennis to release stress and improve her mood, and she said that her roommate didn't like to play table tennis.
She said that she had eaten too many snacks and had a stomachache, and I didn't know how to comfort her. She's punishing herself for other people's mistakes, and I think she's so stupid.
I advised her to stop all snacks, and I wanted to talk about learning from your roommate AH, but I still didn't, maybe it wasn't appropriate.
In the end, I didn't help much, she should have played ping pong with a few colleagues. Exercise is a way to release, forget about unhappiness, and let the mood be better.
Is AH a chance to speak freely and enlighten N, after all, girls have common topics and some things are convenient to tell.
Overtime on weekends will be very tired, generally working in the front line, a whole day, feeling a little tired when I go home at night, I don't want to cook by the way to eat something outside, today I ate the loin of the baked cake near Hongye Village and Malatang.
When I got home, I wanted to play LOL Smash Bros. Bros. after playing three and winning two of them, and I only needed one victory on the night of the battle, so I decided to retire.
Today at noon, I sent an overtime meal to AH, and she gave me fruit again, is it a mutual gift or thanks, this time I gave me an apple and an orange, I usually like to eat oranges, and I also like to eat sour.
I brought it home, the oranges have been eaten, the apples have not been eaten, and I am too full for dinner tonight. I sent a message to her before getting off work and asked her if it would be breakfast tomorrow, and she said yes, let me slow down on the way from work and pay attention to safety, etc.
I've noticed that AH's attitude towards me has improved a little bit lately, maybe it's my delusion again. I am obsessed with the feeling of being cared for and the warmth that can give me contentment and peace of mind.
In a huge world, no one really cares about your health or life or death. If there is such a person, I must remember it.
By the way, she refused to accept the brown sugar I gave to AH this morning, but I at least had the courage to give it to her, and I think I had more courage than before.
I know she doesn't like sweet things, but I think it might work, so I'll do it, it's as simple as that.
I don't know what AH told my roommate N, right, about me giving her brown sugar? Anyway, I think AH is an unusual girl, and she doesn't need brown sugar.
N chatted and said that I was so stupid, I was good to every girl, so it wouldn't end well, is this the reason why I've always been single.
She may have misunderstood me. I say I'm only unconditionally good to people who are good to me, and AH is definitely one.
I'm definitely not a central air conditioner or something, I'm a warm man. I am a righteous person, and I can stick a knife in my friend's ribs without hesitation.
I said that if I had a female ticket, I would definitely be wholeheartedly good for her alone. I won't worry about my girlfriend beating me up or something, because liking someone will make me selfish and narrow-minded, but I can also be tolerant and understanding, which is important.
I send brown sugar to AH, I just think she needs it from a friend's point of view, and I will do it regardless of the consequences of right and wrong, this should be my life creed!
Of course, if I really have a female ticket, and AH is not single, I will definitely grasp the boundaries, because once some boundaries are crossed, even friends have to be done.
After fellow N finished washing her clothes, I chatted with her intermittently for a while. While chatting with her, she wrote "Early Bedtime Diary".
She's also a girl with a lot of stories, and she told me some things about her and the male ticket today, and I've been listening, and I like to listen to other people's stories, and I feel like time will go faster.
I think N's story doesn't have the ups and downs of AH, but it's also weird, and I'll try to write it when I have the opportunity in the future, and of course there won't be any real information.
chatted with her for a while, and her mood seemed to be better, I don't know where her relationship with her male ticket will go?
As a fellow countryman and friend, I just want her to be happy. I can't help the rest.
After all, people are very strange animals, and they often don't know it when they are in it, and they fall deeper and deeper. She has always been too soft-hearted and has never been able to let go.
Although I haven't been officially in a relationship, I don't understand the experience of getting back together after being lost, but I believe that how can their relationship for many years be so easy to let go.
Take AH as an example, I've always liked her, and after that incident, I couldn't let go of her even more, I thought that girls would be very ruthless, and they could pull out and put it down immediately, at least I found that N was not, she was too emotional and easy to pay, so she had no initiative in the emotional world, and she would lose herself.
Perhaps, liking and loving one will lose oneself, including dignity, make oneself not oneself, become humble, give up on oneself, torture oneself with the other person's mistakes, anyway, I have experienced this kind of pain but only for a short time.
If love is really easy to let go, will there still be so many drunk people on the streets of late-night bars? If you like someone who can control yourself, why not let yourself be depressed and insomnia late at night?
I feel that although I have no experience in love, I have found what I think is the right answer as an outsider, using the idea of dialectical materialism to think and analyze the problem.
These answers may not be so precise, but they are all slowly understood by me through the stories and experiences of AH and N.
I will slowly write it down, and if I have the opportunity, I will like or love someone well, so as not to go astray or lose myself.
N's mood seems to be much better, I don't actually know how to chat and comfort others, I guess she figured out a lot of things through her own story, and she has a choice in her heart that she thinks is right.
I love listening to other people's stories because I'm a crippled person, my life seems to be blank, and thirty years of life are too uneventful.
It's past ten o'clock now, AH should also go back to the dormitory, I usually go to bed late on Saturday night, but it's not too late, usually no more than eleven o'clock, because Saturday night is the quietest and I want to write more words to make "Early Sleep Diary" more fulfilling.
I like to write articles casually here today, tomorrow I will still get up early to bring breakfast to AH, and devote myself to the craze of working overtime on Sundays, it is very fulfilling to think about, I have not rested for the fourth week, but I am still very motivated and motivated.
Good night to yourself!