Today is another busy and fulfilling day, and the third Sunday without a break. It's been almost a month since I went to work, I don't feel the slightest tiredness, and I can rarely stay up late late, and sometimes I wake up early, look at the time, and continue to pretend to sleep until dawn. I have been loading the cylinder in the loading line for two days in a row, there is basically no rest in the middle, and my arm does not feel sore, I always feel that my endurance and endurance are okay, and I can stick to one thing for a long, long time.

I sent a message to AH at the same time this morning as usual, and delivered overtime meals on time at noon. She knew the news of my National Day homecoming, I said that I brought you and my roommate the apples I grew in my hometown are very famous and delicious, she said it was too far to be inconvenient to wait, I think I would still bring it, maybe not many but the friendship is heavy, after all, the road is far away. She finally asked about the progress and situation of the chat with her roommate N, and said that N cried again last night and seemed to have a quarrel with the male ticket. It's strange that N is her roommate she doesn't know very well. N chat and I mentioned that she overeats when she is in a bad mood, she is the kind of person who gives everything for her feelings, and the male ticket always backtracks and does not know how to cherish her. I haven't been in a relationship much, I don't know how to understand this state, and I don't know how to comfort me. I divided it into two with my materialist dialectical viewpoint, and analyzed it for her from her empathy, and she thought that she might suddenly figure out some problems and suddenly get out of the dead end, and her mood was better, and my efforts were not in vain.

Speaking of AH, she seems to be more sensitive and fragile than I thought, just like me. I've always been very careful about AH's feelings, because I care about her, I know where her abyss is, although she has already come out, but the past is unbearable, it will always make people sad. I'll just say, your roommate N doesn't seem to have any other friends at the moment, so you can spend more time with her when you have time. I haven't forgotten that AH has been reading books and has no time. AH replied to me, are you blaming me. I was embarrassed and scared, and I was afraid that I would upset her again. I have no right to blame AH, I can't blame her, I just want to express my opinion, maybe the language is inappropriate. Then I said that your roommate N needs a friend of a female girlfriend like you more than a boy like me, who can't help anything. Your roommate N is a reserved girl, she now has a male ticket, she faces his existence, and she will not go out with other boys or eat or anything easily. Your roommate is really lonely, and it's really boring to spend all day in the dorm on weekends! Although I am a fellow countryman, I can't help it. AH said, you mean I'm not reserved. I definitely didn't mean that, AH was really weird, I didn't know how to explain it to her at the time, for fear that she would misunderstand. Actually, AH may not know, but it is only relative. You have a favorite person or a male ticket, and you may not be reserved when you are ambiguous with other boys. But as someone who likes AH, I naturally like everything about her, so what if I am reserved or not reserved. I love them all. At that time, I didn't show my heart to AH and said what was in my heart, I just explained it, I don't know if she really cares about other people's evaluations or opinions about her, she is really angry because I am careless?

I'll send a message for a long text, AH You are definitely a special existence in my heart, always occupy a special position that no one can replace, even fellow countrymen don't have the weight. As a fellow countryman, I just want to help or take care of it as much as I can, because I empathize with the loneliness of being unfamiliar with life, and I have a deep understanding of it. It's just that AH doesn't seem to be very impatient, and he shouldn't have looked carefully at the messages I sent. It's just that let's talk about these things after she finishes the exam, I think there will be a good or bad result, and there will be an answer, I can gladly accept it. Time is running out, there is only a week left, and my intuition tells me that AH will not need me in the future, including bringing breakfast, etc., I will definitely cherish the only week left, and seriously bring the best breakfast to her, and there is no regret in my heart, at least I have worked hard for the person I like, and I can have a clear conscience. Sometimes I really want to travel to the future and know the final outcome in advance, at least there is a chance to change now. She kept insisting that she was reading, so I decided not to bother her anymore and never messaged again.

At noon, I deliberately stopped the line five minutes earlier than yesterday just to deliver food to AH. Because I went late yesterday, I almost missed the overtime meal that was packed. Fortunately, I am familiar with the owner of the canteen, and I got the meal today, and the boss handed it to me personally, of course, it is also a copy of the workshop to overreport. When the overtime meal was delivered, I was a little nervous, afraid that AH would still be angry with me, and it would be embarrassing not to eat the food I delivered. Today, the door of her office was unlocked, so I went straight in, maybe because it wasn't very hot. I'll explain, are you still angry with me, I didn't mean that, I don't know if AH understands what I mean. She didn't seem to be angry, she only said that today's meal was delivered very early, and I said that it was normal and it was a quarter past eleven, as if it was not very good to eat today's food. She was probably a little hungry from reading, and she was ready to eat. AH also gave me an orange today, the same green-skinned orange as yesterday. She doesn't like to eat oranges, maybe it's sour. She bought it for her roommate, I didn't expect AH to be very attentive and good at taking care of others, she was so good to her roommate, maybe I really didn't understand some misunderstanding. Since it was a fruit given to me by AH, it must have been delicious, and I started eating it while walking, and I finished eating it before I walked back, and it seemed that I hadn't eaten oranges for a long time. I really like to eat oranges, I will buy oranges every once in a while throughout the fall, and I don't like other fruits so much.

I feel a little tired when I come home from work today, I don't want to do anything, looking at the pothos and various flowers that are dying, I seem to have not watered for a week. Dirty clothes, including work clothes, have not been washed for a week, so turn on the washing machine and throw them all inside. I began to fiddle with my flowers, and found that a few more cacti had died, which I had watered and died, and there was also a pot of tiger pills with rotten roots, and I had watered too much, and I had already raised several pots of flowers. I think I'm suitable for raising pothos, and the rest of the flowers are too easy to die. It's been almost an hour since I watered all the flowers, I hung up my laundry, I felt a little hungry and used to ordering a large portion of yellow braised chicken rice on Sunday, and today I was a little thirsty and asked for a glass of cold Pepsi. Watching the TV documentary channel's search for food column, the takeaway was delivered quickly, and it was still a familiar taste, medium and spicy was my favorite taste, and this time the portion was as full as before. I just drank the last sip of Coke, and I was already a little hot.

After washing up, I was ready to play two big smash fights.,Just chatted with N for a few days.,I didn't play the game again.。 N showed me a photo of her male ticket today.,How do I feel where I've seen it.,Anyway, I don't think it's the kind of scumbag in her mouth.,I'm not good at judging this.。 She said that she had paid too much and couldn't let it go easily, so she fell deeper and deeper. I don't understand any of this, I haven't experienced or experienced it, so I didn't comment on it, I just listened to her. N may really be lonely, but she thinks that my fellow is more reliable and trustworthy, so she is willing to tell me her story, I still have these self-knowledge, she just wants someone to talk to. Of course I don't have any delusions or anything. I've been single for so long, and denying myself is what I'm good at, and of course I don't have the illusion that others have a good impression of me. I still haven't let go of AH, and it's impossible to think about others anymore, except that AH doesn't seem to have a heartfelt feeling for anyone, or that feeling of loss and vacancy. Not before, not now. Maybe the moment I really let go of AH, I will try to find a new favorite target, or maybe it's still the same as before, and I don't know if I'm not interested in girls anymore.

Many of the questions are so complex that I can't seem to understand them with my current experience and wisdom, and I can't find the answers. Then leave it to time and let everything take its course! Time can change everything, and eventually there will be an answer. Good night!