"Do you know N, how do you feel?" "Know, Gansu, the good can't be better." "Unpretentious and comfortable. There's also a little bit of cuteness, just look at it and you know it's a good girl! ”

I didn't write an early bedtime diary for the past two days, not because I went to bed early or stayed up late, but because I suddenly wanted to become lazy and didn't insist on writing. In fact, there are still many meaningful things that can be recorded. I just played the third LOL Smash Bros. and decisively closed the game and started writing for the day. Usually on weekends, I deliberately indulge, and I go to bed late even though I have to go to work normally the next day.

Just now I had been chatting with N on and off, she said let me bring her the split chicken breast tomorrow, I went to the refrigerator to take a look, and found that it was very hard frozen, the chicken breast had been stored in the refrigerator for two weeks, it seems that N is eating very slowly. N went to the university town with my roommate AH today, and I got off work normally today, and I was already out preparing to eat when N messaged me, saying that AH invited me to dinner. I lied and didn't go to the appointment, because this was what AH promised me, and after the exam, I was invited to a big dinner and then the two were cleared, and I always felt that it was the last dinner, and I didn't have the courage to go.

I went for a physical examination the day before yesterday, and I am very happy that I haven't stayed up late recently, and it has been fruitful for so long to quit sex. There is no abnormality in the functions of various indicators of the body, but during the otolaryngology examination, the doctor said that I had a stone in my right ear and asked me to go to the outpatient clinic. Today, after work, I casually made an appointment with an ear picking business in Meituan, and the evaluation was good, so I went to find out, I had never picked my ears before, and I was still a little looking forward and nervous. Fortunately, the technician's technique is superb, and the ear calculus was taken out in a short time, although there was some pain, I still endured it, and by the way, I cleaned and disinfected the ears, and I was instantly refreshed and much more comfortable, and I felt that the stone hanging in the bottom of my heart fell to the ground.

More embarrassing things happened one after another in the past two days, I don't know that guy knocked off the mirror of my electric car, manual is not tight no tools, yesterday overtime ended to go to the repair point at the intersection of the wind to repair, the boss is very enthusiastic and simple, every time is a small problem never charge money, help me do it for free and easily. Thinking that I hadn't eaten Lanzhou ramen for a long time, I went to order a fried noodle sheet as usual, and was about to scan the code to pay after eating, but accidentally dropped my backpack on the ground, I secretly felt bad, just a few minutes ago, the office sister also sent a message to ask me if the canned food was taken away, and I said that I took it in my backpack. She brought one to everyone in the office that day, and I don't know what she brought it with, but it was very sturdy and safe. I picked it up from the ground and touched it, knowing that the glass bottle had broken to pieces and the water from the can had begun to seep out, so I had to grab my backpack and run away to avoid further embarrassment.

Suddenly I remembered Mo Fei's law, if something goes in a bad direction, it may happen. The physical examination that day was also, tangled in whether to ride an electric car the next day or whether to get up early, I learned that N did not go to the physical examination on Thursday, I decided to ride, but I forgot to be fully charged, from Intime City to the wind, more than ten kilometers of the journey, almost stranded in the middle of the road, only one electricity is left when sometimes looming, I dare not ride fast, the speed did not exceed 20km, fortunately finally made do with the company but slower than usual, to the workshop is almost ten o'clock. Just when I entered the door of the company, the speed bump could not rush up, the doorman asked me to refuel, I said that the power was almost out, and the body temperature was measured in a formal way, so I said to ride over and charge it, the doorman had a really good attitude today. It may be that the electricity is excessive, and it was not full after work that day, and it was charged again today for a day. It's strange that usually riding is very smooth, at a station in the big slab building, I am generally very careful when riding on the train track, and I am slowly sliding on the ground with both feet, today I should be thinking about N saying AH please eat, I accidentally fell to the ground, fortunately I reacted quickly, and abandoned the car directly, I found that the front wheel of the electric car fell into the tracks, this should be my third time wrestling, but this time there is no danger and no big problem, I also brought a helmet today, because yesterday the episode of canned yellow peaches, I washed the backpack and hat scarf all without drying. I found that the quality of my electric car is really good, although it is Pinduoduo, and the batteries and tires have all been replaced.

N just went to the physical examination with AH today, went early in the morning, but miscalculated, sent me a message saying that today is not our company's special, do not give priority to the physical examination, she came back at twelve o'clock after the end of the two queues of physical examination, just in time for lunch, originally N told me to go to the workshop in the afternoon to make up the shift, you can get off work early, but too tired, the afternoon is still spent in the office, today should be the last day of N internship in the oil, next Monday she will come to our workshop, half a day of internship in the morning, the time is very fast, the holiday returns a month and over.

There is another interesting thing today, N told me that she met Lili during the physical examination, saying that her husband is so handsome and good at taking care of people, saying that Lili is so happy, I said yes, her husband is definitely a warm man, I admit that I am also envious, envy them is the same as the praise and exclamation issued by N. Yes, I am more or less alone during the physical examination, and I am alone to complete all the projects. N at least has AH with him, but AH is not patient, people want to go directly, I asked N to stabilize the roommate, hee hee finally finished the physical examination, said that I couldn't find a roommate. I said call her, maybe she's earlier than you, it turns out that today's physical examination is the teacher of the iron three elementary school, there are a lot of ultrasound girls, N took the number when it was already 133, I went to the late 100 yesterday, she didn't have time to eat breakfast, but also returned to take a taxi in the taxi to eat a little casually, missed the meal too hungry and no appetite. N asked me early in the morning if I could drink water after the blood draw, and I said that of course I could have breakfast. It turned out that she didn't hold her urine in the morning, and she was afraid that the final urine test would be embarrassing, so she needed to drink water, which is my guess.

Lili suddenly sent a WeChat message today to ask me about the post salary, I told her truthfully, it was only a little more than a hundred more than her, we are in the same class, and now we are all in the workshop, and the same is the backbone of the second level, but she is still a department, so there is such a little difference. I don't know that Lili just went for a physical examination today, and I asked her to say that she had miscalculated, and there were a lot of people today. I tried to ask Lili, someone also went to the physical examination today to see you, Lili replied which master in the workshop, she didn't see it. I said no, I meant my fellow N. It's an intern girl from my hometown, do you know me? I sent N praise chat to Lili, she should be very happy, saying that her husband died when he saw happiness, and he really envied them, you are so happy Lili.

I said I'm also envious, Lili back to me, come on, near the water, I understand what Lili means, maybe let me chase my fellow N. Do you know N, how do you feel? Knowing, Gansu's, the good can't be better. This is the first time I got it in the mouth of other girls, other girls' evaluation of N, I believe it is very true and pertinent, because Lili has never been honest with me, I have the bottom of my heart, I am very happy to hear this evaluation, "simple, comfortable." There's also a little bit of cuteness, just a good girl at first glance." I believe Lili, what you said to me is sincere, we are a sworn friend trust and tacit understanding, of course trustworthy.

"She looks good with her, her skin is white and clean, and she looks comfortable." In the short evaluation, Lili appeared comfortable twice. I'll just say that N has a natural affinity and a changeable personality, and I joke that it's an interesting soul that both the cat and I want to know. N said that I have been praising her, good and bad, I said of course not, I just seek truth from facts, I can't help but want to praise you, just appreciate you. I once suspected that you have multiple personalities, which is why you are more attractive and attractive. Yes, there is also a sense of mystery, curiosity to know about, etc.

I talked a lot with Lili today.,Lili should be one of the few friends of the opposite sex who I'm willing to open up and tell my heart.,This time it's about N.。 "Maybe I don't have fate, I don't seem to have self-confidence, I have missed a lot of opportunities, I don't have the courage to pursue anyone, is it hopeless?" Lili replied: "No, you were not suitable for your last crush." Lili is still so bold and unabashedly straightforward, I said: "Yes, I, after you said it, I took the initiative to give up, I still have self-knowledge." "Yes, I have low self-esteem and don't feel worthy.

"She also has a very good personality, and people with low self-esteem like us will like it." I don't know if Lili suddenly came out with this sentence, there is Zhong Tong is the illusion that the end of the world has fallen into the world, Lili will be inferior at all, she may be trying to comfort me before she deliberately said this. "Did you comfort me before you said this, Lili, you still have low self-esteem, I don't believe it at all. Actually, I'm ready to be single for the rest of my life, and I may not have fate in this life" "I lied to you puppy, I just had low self-esteem to make me what I am today." Lili spoke in such a tone, I chose to believe Lili's words, she actually has an inferiority complex, people are multifaceted, I am somewhat relieved, I think I have been unconfident alone, I have been trying to self-denial, self-defeating.

"Okay, if you've been single for a long time, you don't have any self-confidence at all, you've long since given up on yourself, how happy you are, you see how many people envy you, including me." My envy is from the bottom of my heart, I really feel happy for Lili, and how happy I am to meet a good husband. "Hey, everyone is envious of others" This is Lili replied to me after a while, I don't know how to take the next sentence, it seems that there are many seemingly simple questions without accurate and only answers, I replied: "Is it that people are so not easy to be satisfied, so they will always envy others" "Because what I see is a lot of other people's places" "Is that it, we all need to see more of our own benefits, so we don't envy others, can we understand it this way?" ”

"Yes, you just need to be confident." "It seems like I've been lacking in something." "I'm lacking, but I want to change." Lili told me that she had been losing weight before, and now she is back in weight. As a straight male cancer patient, I only understood the reason for Lili's low self-esteem, it turned out that she was distressed and inferior, and she had always been fat. I don't feel good at all, it's weird that all girls are struggling to lose weight, and they all take thinness as beauty, and take this as the goal of change. I suddenly remembered N, she had a physical examination today, although she didn't break through 60, she told me to lose weight back to college, the goal of 50, of course I cheered her up, unconditionally understood and supported her.

"So that's the case, I suddenly realized that weight loss is a big project, and it's important to persevere, and you can't rush it" "It's very nice if you have a goal, and I haven't changed the goal." "If Lili succeeds in losing weight one day, it will definitely be amazing, so you must work hard!" At this moment, Lili made a laughing emoji, Lili then replied, I laughed in the seat as you said, I believe it is true, I am a straight man and I don't seem to have a sense of humor, but my speech is reliable and reasonable, what I say is true. I like to praise and praise others, especially those who are better than me, I have low self-esteem and no confidence. Lili said, "No one praises me for being good-looking, so I am dead to you, I have a vision!" "Give me a thumbs up, Lili should be very happy at the moment, I replied with an expression, I must be old iron. Today's chat with Lili ended like this, and this is also the first time that I have chatted with Lili for a long time. We're dead friends, buddies, I still want to tell Lili if I have something on my mind, although it's a matter of time and time, but Lili is definitely my trusted friend of the opposite sex!

After work today, N asked me if I would work overtime normally on weekends, and I said yes, I should load the cylinder for a day tomorrow, and I want to be lazy and take a day off on Sunday, I don't know what arrangements N Youmu has. She said that she wanted to go to Qiyan Temple for a visit, and it was estimated that the sky would change tomorrow to cool down. Today N swore that he must eat an ice cream after the physical examination, and it is estimated that he did not have time to buy it, and I inadvertently asked in the evening, and she said that she did not eat it today. I went to the university town to visit, everything there is very affordable, and her roommate also bought a nice dress, she didn't have to buy clothes and usually wear work clothes. She saw a white hairpin that looked so good, and bought it for only four dollars and five, and she liked it very much. She said she was very picky, and I said of course not, you should be very thrifty. I thought the hairpin that N bought was used when I tied a ponytail, and I said that I was looking forward to the way you wore it, and I didn't seem to have seen it before. She replied that it wasn't ponytailed, it was pinned to the side, and I thought it must be good-looking. After a while, N sent me a photo with a hairpin, her hair was not tied up, but it was naturally draped over the shoulders not very long, but it was very soft and black and bright, I guess it was just washed and dried for a long time, she wore a light lipstick, and the whole person's temperament is very compatible, very natural, with the X-shaped hairpin on the hair, she just bought it, I was short of words for a while, I don't know how to describe or praise, just say that you really have to look at me, and your temperament is very compatible, I may really be a straight man, I won't be rhetorical, Even the praise is so unpretentious.

Yes, N's hairpins and outfits amazed me again, and I still remember giving N grapes that day and seeing the light lipstick she put on, complimenting her on how good it looks. Seriously, I said of course. N doesn't seem to like heavy makeup and light wear before, but natural is what she pursues, and she has been teasing herself like this. N and AH are still eating fish today, and she should both like to eat fish. I asked if I had any sorbet and she said no. After eating fish and drinking milk tea, her stomach couldn't hold it, and she kept losing weight. I bought and ate all the way, and I bought a lot of things tonight, so I didn't spend much money, so happy. Yes, there are many cheap things for students in college towns, so I will have time to visit them more in the future. I did hesitate a little, I didn't go to dinner with her tonight, I was escaping, I didn't know if I would be embarrassed and uncomfortable in the face of the last meal of AH's treat, so I made no excuses. The two of them had a good time and ate well, so I was relieved and smiled. I said I should have told me in advance, I've already eaten after work, so I'll have to talk about it next time I have a chance. N said that AH is like this, often quite suddenly, and I can understand it. N joked, I should take you today, we lack one to pay, I walked all the way and ate all the way, and today I made a big purchase. I'm more than happy to have the next chance. N: Of course, you can reply. I don't know when the next opportunity will be, but I am a little hesitant and regretful that I didn't go to the appointment today.

The first time AH invited me to eat fish, I wanted to introduce N to me, but I didn't go, I was running away from something. The second time we ate together, it was fish, but we all knew each other, it seemed to be raining that day, I walked a few streets, bought multigrain toast for N, and AH bought skin care products, that was an experience that I remember deeply, and AH still appeared in my life and diary at that time. It's different now.,Occasional appearance is also N mention.,I didn't take the initiative to contact it anymore.,AH too.,Actually, it's pretty good.,I'm finally relieved.,But I'm still looking forward to it! Ride a donkey to read the record book, walk and see, and cherish it!