Today is the seventh day of thinking about her, and it's been a whole week, and time is starting to slow down. I could have been very, very missed, I was missing everything that had happened before, but today I was surprisingly calm because I was gradually finding a way to distract myself. Today is also the fifth day of my cold, I drank a few packs of 39 cold spirit is not cured, the night she left home, when I returned, I rode too fast and blew a lot of cold wind to catch a cold, at that time deleted her WeChat, desperate to the extreme. Promise her that she will go to bed early, find some sustenance and goals in life, or hobbies and be able to stick to them. I started to pick up my hobby again, and I started writing, recording in a diary that I thought about her every day, every moment, and how I felt and felt. Last night was my first attempt at writing, and there was no outline or draft, all of which came from scratch. There is no way to write where you want to write. It's just that there was a small accident and I may not have updated my blog for a long time, I just want her to have a chance to see my blog as soon as possible, the text I wrote, the likes and thoughts of her.

She said that I promised to go to bed early so that she would have a chance to watch. That's why I have an early bedtime diary, and I'm sure to fall asleep by 10 o'clock every night. I slept well last night, and I fell asleep around a quarter past ten, and I probably wrote everything I wanted to say to her, and I didn't have so many words in my heart, and my mind was not heavy, so I could have a wild dream by the way. I tried many times with the mobile client early this morning, and it was finally successful. Spend an hour or so every day, write more than a thousand words, calm your heart and ease your thoughts and likings for you.

Watch which TV series has a line, it seems to say that falling out of love is like a bad cold, and after getting sick, life will be the same as before. I haven't been in a relationship before and haven't experienced this feeling. This time, however, I felt like I was out of love. It's really inexplicable and uncontrollable to like, it's involuntary, and it's going to be forgotten. I am most afraid of sudden care and warmth, and I am most afraid of sudden loss. You said that you would promise me three things, watch a movie together, eat Haidilao, and give me a birthday, I believed it all, and I always looked forward to and fantasized about it happening, because I had done these things by myself before, and it was really a lonely experience. I just want to experience what it's like to be two people together, will I still be lonely? I took it seriously, of course, I couldn't accept the Last Supper or the sudden deletion of WeChat.

I thought that as long as I didn't delete you, I would have a chance, maybe you would add it back. I always deceive myself with illusions, and I'm really afraid that without WeChat you will disappear from my world. And this time, it was I who took the initiative to delete you first, in order to give myself some determination, and no longer have illusions about indecision. I'm afraid that I can't help but go back to add you, I'm afraid that you will refuse. Fortunately, I have other ways to get in touch, small messenger public phone, etc. When I couldn't help it, I finally dialed your office, and I guess you're still reading at that point, so you should be off work right away. I just miss you, I just want to hear your voice. Fortunately, it's really real, but I don't know what to say, for fear of affecting your reading, so I have to hang up in a hurry.

Every day in the future, I will always want to dial that phone at this point, but I will always hold back, thinking back to your sad and crying face, my likes are too selfish, giving you too much pressure and self-blame, I can't bear to feel guilty too. I haven't seen you for a day, like every three autumns, it's true, this week has passed too slowly, and I've been self-inflicted but uncontrollable. It seems that after returning home, I have entered a different time and space, my time at home is infinitely slowed down, and I can clearly hear the ticking of the clock hands, not for a second but for eternity, like the endless darkness outside the window, devouring my lonely self.

Just now when I was writing my diary, you actually replied to my call, you are still alone in the office now, in fact, I am really worried about you, it is very late. I'm so happy to hear your voice again, and I'm relieved that I've been thinking about you all the time. In fact, today's mood started from the moment you asked me to bring you breakfast the next day, and you gave me the opportunity to take care of you, which I will cherish very much. I'll get up early tomorrow and line up to buy your favorite breakfast and bring it to you, and I'll do it well and remember what you don't like to eat, what you like to eat, and know it by heart. Writing in a diary, the mood is extraordinarily cheerful, a week has passed, I still haven't let go of you, I still don't miss you all the time.

I have such a good memory, I want to write down this feeling, I'm afraid that I will forget this throbbing after a long time. You say that chasing girls should be cheeky and careful, and you must be able to speak to please girls, I seem to be studying and not very good, not good at expression, unspeakable, I use the way of early bedtime diary to record, thinking that one day you may be able to see, I am very motivated to stick to the afternoon. Really, you compare you to the fireflies that appear in my dark night, illuminate my world, make me no longer lonely, let me have changed my thoughts and thoughts, let me start writing again, let me find the joy of being human, let me understand the truth that the world is worthwhile, you have taught me not only these, but also many unprecedented experiences, positive energy that is positive, optimistic, calm and introverted. Laugh at life, start from going to bed early and getting up early, I will gradually get out of my own abyss and learn to like someone seriously. At the moment, my heart is at peace, there are no distractions, I just miss you. Good night, yourself, good night, like you!