It rained heavily today, and the rain didn't stop when I got off work, rolled up my trouser legs with an umbrella, ate a fried knife cut at the wind-moving Lanzhou ramen, and then took the bus home.

Maybe it's because I'm not in a good state today and I'm more disappointed.,I don't want to do anything.,Go home and take a shower and then remember LOL.,I've been losing and playing until I won a handful before turning off the game.。

While looking at UZI's happy wind man, he wrote today's early bedtime diary. I always feel that being addicted to the game will make me lose self-control.

It's okay to play games to decompress, but it's okay to play endlessly, there's no point, and more often than not, it will affect sleep.

In the future, play games as much as possible before 9 o'clock, and leave the rest of the time to write and prepare for rest.

By the way, today's learning powerhouse has not yet had time to learn all the points. I shouldn't have called AH last night, she was angry and didn't want to ignore me anymore, she didn't need me anymore, and wouldn't let me bring breakfast.

I mustered up the courage to think about the beginning and the end, and today is the last time, as long as she says she is not angry and wants to have breakfast, I will definitely take it with me as always.

But today she did not reply to my little messenger, I saw that she opened the message, I guess she may not have eaten breakfast today, she really has to make up her mind.

I thought that I didn't need to dwell on it, to fantasize about what to change, I seemed to be very disappointed in her, how she asked me to chat with girls, how to chase girls, I didn't learn, I gave up a long time ago.

In other words, hard work may not have results, but giving up is very comfortable haha I only laugh at myself like this, if I can insist, it is necessary to persevere, and if there is hope to persevere, who will give up lightly?

AH didn't contact me at night, I didn't call the office again, I was sure it was true this time, she wasn't joking, she didn't need me at all.

Because of the rain today, I didn't ride an electric car to get off work, put it in the factory, if it rains tomorrow morning, it's inconvenient to take the bus, the time will be enough, so I won't bring breakfast tomorrow, look at AH's reflection, if she continues to ignore me, I will completely let go, no longer have any illusions, so I even lose the opportunity to lick the dog, there is nothing worse than this.

I was too lacking in courage and indecisive, maybe this time it was AH that gave me the courage and strength to make decisions that made me completely give up.

I've never met a girl like AH, I want to cherish and take care of her, I want to insist on doing anything for her, but I don't know how to like someone, so everything I do seems to be useless.

But I don't regret it at all, I also liked a girl, brought her breakfast for many days, she changed my view of happiness and joy, and gave me the courage to accept other people's introductions to blind dates, all of which I tried to do, but the ending was a mess.

In the future, AH's name may never appear in the early bedtime diary again, and my life may really lose touch with her completely, but I want to keep her in my words at the last moment.

She had promised to read my writing when she had time, and after she finished the exam, I would take what she said seriously.

In fact, it doesn't matter if she looks at it or not, I really have nothing to do with me after I lose her, this feels really a sad and sad thing.

All the memories of her, I will bury deep in the back of my mind, everything she has told me, this will eventually be our secret to each other, my honesty and undisguised heart, my vulnerability and overwhelm will be hidden, I will still bring back the mask of the past, be a self that I don't know.

I feel that I may not really be suitable to exist in this complex and embarrassing world, no one needs me, I have no value to exist, I am just scribbling through the world, carrying a mission or a burden, I have a responsibility and cannot be desperate.

If I can really be carefree and see through the red dust, I should become a monk and cut my hair haha.

I don't think too much, I think too much and I'm afraid that I will be depressed, and insomnia and nightmares will come back. I have to let go of a lot of things to make my body and mind relaxed, in fact, sometimes I think about it, there is nothing wrong with a cookie-cutter life, I am not happy or sad as before, I am not happy or sad as before, I have no pursuit and no loss, it is very good, I have no desire and no desire.

I'm going to get back to my old life as soon as possible, come on!