"Hurry up and find a girlfriend, I feel like your girlfriend should be very good!" "What's wrong, unhappy?" This is N mentioning that I am looking for a girlfriend again, I can't remember how many times, she seems to be more anxious than myself, I remember when I first met N, she was going to introduce me to the female ticket, but I didn't ask again, there was no follow-up.

Today is the first day of N coming to our workshop for internship, and she felt a different warm and friendly atmosphere when she came to our office. The girl's intuition is really accurate and terrifying, she should have sensed the enthusiasm of her office colleagues for intentional matchmaking. I'm feeling fine, I don't overdo it. After N came to report, the leader asked me to take her to the workshop to get familiar with the products and equipment, etc., and I gladly took N to take a walk. She had a meeting at ten o'clock and needed to go back to participate, and the time for the realization of the workshop on the first day of today passed like this.

In the afternoon, Liu Bu returned to the office after the meeting, and at about four o'clock, I sent a message to N to report. Today, Liu Bu and N chatted a little longer, and I heard N talk about it, Liu Bu mentioned my story about alumni. I knew that N noticed something strange from it, because after the meeting of the Liu Ministry, he specifically told me that N could not leave, and I helped you find out, so I am very grateful to my colleagues in the office, and I have no less worry about my life events, but I am always indifferent, a little abnormal. By the way, I introduced N to Master Shan, and said that she raised these flowers very well, and you can take away whatever flowers you like. Later, Master Shan said that if N also likes flowers, he can help her fetch water every day in the future, which is also a part of the internship.

N wore new canvas shoes today, pink, which was bought by her sister, Converse is a famous brand, the price is expensive, N cherishes it very much, although it is an old shoe, she washes it well, cleans and maintains it, and it looks exactly the same as new. N is really an amazing girl, she can wear canvas shoes so clean, I admire her so much. Maybe it's been a long time, and the shoes are a little worn out. When she asked me for a band-aid at first, I thought she was injured and was a little worried. It turned out to be used to prevent foot grinding, and I remember N once shared that she wore high heels and formal clothes to find a job and walked a long distance, and her feet were blistered, and it hurt to think about it. I didn't have it at hand, she needed two, so I sent a small messenger to Sister Xia, she directly gave me four to put on my desk, and asked me if I needed a disinfectant potion, it's really too caring and understanding, no wonder everyone likes it.

I'm proud that N is my fellow countryman.,Introduce her to familiar people in the workshop.,Team leader friends, etc.,Especially the second brother.,Specially waved to him.,The second brother also asked with his heart.,N replied that it was from the archives.,It feels very warm.,The big face is not big.,It's a joke.,But it's a very easy acquaintance.,It's worth commemorating.。

N attended the meeting, said that I met a boy who took the initiative to ask her good, with glasses white and clean, guessed for a long time, elimination, and finally determined that it was ZL Undoubtedly, I talked about my work experience, I stayed in the short cylinder workshop, fundamentally speaking, it was to take over his position, although there was a transition in the middle of the old Xia, and has been promoted, I am still ordinary and stand still, it seems that there is some failure. There are also a few graduate alumni, they are all dual-income workers, and they are also famous, and they are all relatively famous. It's just that when I said it, Liu Ministry's object N felt a little surprised at first, saying that it wasn't very good-looking, and I said that people were very good, and they were very happy. N also said that she probably doesn't know much about it, but she doesn't like it very seriously. I told her, yes, she wouldn't think so if she understood. N immediately retorted to me, "However, I can't listen to you, there are no bad people in your eyes." "I said, a little bit I seem to be relatively simple, but there is a person who is definitely a bad person, N laughed, we have a tacit understanding of this, coincidence, of course, it is also tacit.

N also asked me a lot of strange questions, such as what the tilting cylinder is used for, the principle of suction cup adsorption of heavy objects, our workshop does not have a team garden, how employees rest and eat, etc. With my scope of expertise and business, I am very embarrassed that I have no understanding of some questions and cannot answer them fluently. There is a specialization in the art industry, if it is, if it is undecided, I will ask Du Niang, which is a good study habit that I have always developed. For example, N asked me again, have you heard of the day of Black Friday in foreign countries? Isn't the first reaction Black Friday?,Which specific day still needs to be Baidu?,It turned out to be the first Friday after Thanksgiving.,This year, 2020, it should be November 27th.,I looked at the perpetual calendar and calculated it shouldn't be wrong.。

N went on to say, I may need your support the day after tomorrow, or will you chop off my hand tomorrow, right? Hee jokingly, chopping hands is absolutely unacceptable, but it is very happy and honored to support me. The day after tomorrow, Double 11, N said that the skin care products selected for his mother and sister are currently only paying a deposit, and he has no face water, and he didn't come to choose it urgently. I said that the most unfortunate thing is myself, and I must be very happy to buy some gifts for my family in the first year of work. I don't know if N Youmu is joking, anyway, I'm ready to support, as long as N needs me, it's my duty.

I don't know why, N suddenly changed the conversation and asked me to find a girlfriend quickly, and I was sure that my female ticket should be very good. Just when I was chatting with N, I was playing LOL, and the message reply was not timely, and tonight the second sister was chatting with her mother on a video because of personal feelings, and she hung up angrily as if it was unpleasant, which made her mother angry, and her body has been recovering poorly after surgery, which is really worrying. I sent a WeChat message to persuade the second sister for a while, but she seemed to be stubborn and angry, which was of little use. After a while,The eldest sister played two videos in a row,I didn't receive it.,After playing the game,,I immediately dialed back and chatted.,It's the second thing.,The boss knew and began to worry.,Just ask me for details and let me help persuade and enlighten it.,I said I didn't know if it had an effect after talking for a while.,Call home tomorrow and see the situation.。

When I'm done with this, I see N's message again, "What's wrong, unhappy?" "I'll admit that I'm not unhappy at all, every time I mention the matter about the female ticket, I'm extra happy and I don't know why, the feeling of being cared for and mentioned is really real, and I enjoy the illusion of being at this moment. It's too late for me to be happy, how can I be angry, I'm not angry with anyone, who makes me already like her?

N went on to ask me two more serious questions, and I also answered them after careful consideration, probably from the heart, without a hint of falsehood. The first question is "Do you think love is important, or is it important to be appropriate?" I immediately replied, of course it is appropriate, I have never encountered love, I don't actually believe in love. I just said what I really thought in my heart, I'm ready to be single for a lifetime, I'm a person with bad luck, and I'm a lonely soul, I may not have fate in this life, I may really not meet the right person! N replied to me, "Talking nonsense, I want to be beaten." "N has been trying to comfort me and make me believe that fate will definitely meet. Anyway, I don't have any confidence anymore, I give up on myself, there is no cure, I'm too negative and pessimistic.

Ask you another question, "Which do you choose to show up like and the right co-workers?" "I thought about it for a while, and there doesn't seem to be a right answer to this question, and I think the perfect answer is that the person you like is just right. But I still answered: "I may choose the person I like, because I meet a person I like in my life, this probability is too small and too hard-won" For the person I like, desperate, desperate, uncontrollable, such an experience is too precious, enough to make people forget, even if there is no result in the end, I have tried, I have worked hard, even if I am injured, I have never regretted it, this may be enough, I can always let go of relief, comfort myself, how boring it is to live a depressed life, Even if it's only a momentary moment, it's not sparing. That's probably how I like people!

"Do your colleagues in the office think the two of us are more suitable?" This is another question N asked me, and her intuition told her that she noticed it when she first came to our office today, and it was really scary girl's intuition. I was a little unconfident, I was still a little surprised or nervous, and I was completely speechless for a while. I tried to explain, "It's just that I don't seem to have met anyone who likes me or has a crush on me, so I'm desperate." "After all, we are fellow countrymen, blessed with unique talents, and close to the water" What a good opportunity, this is what my colleagues told me, and I do have the idea and action of chasing N.

"Ah, who did you tell you liked me", N looked very surprised, but it should have been expected, she should have understood that I wanted to like her. It's just that she has been refusing again, since the last time I was deliberately alienated and snubbed, I don't have so much courage and self-confidence, I'm really afraid of losing a friend of the opposite sex I want to like, I want to keep a good friend at a distance, I've been trying to do it for a while, I'm afraid I can't grasp the distance.

I didn't even think about it before I replied, "No, I just told you that I liked your things, it's true." "Yes, I've always been careful about what I like, and I don't seem to be willing to take the initiative to share things about someone I like. But my friends and colleagues who know and know me well know it. I explained: "My colleagues in the office are more concerned about my life events and are interested in matchmaking. But I know that sometimes liking someone is just wishful thinking and can't be forced. It's just that you don't want to, I just hope you don't feel embarrassed, but fortunately they are not so gossipy. N replied: "I won't be embarrassed, I won't be embarrassed, and she will also take care of me urgently." In this way, she didn't promise that I liked her, but she didn't refuse the intention of others, does it mean that as long as I take the initiative to have a story happen, it will be possible, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, I have the courage to persevere.

I really can't guess N, what kind of girl she is, anyway, she exudes attraction and brilliance, and there is always an idea of wanting to get close and understand. But I don't know why, my intuition tells me that I can't get close, I can't get too close, I'm afraid that she will disappear, like a dream that I don't want to wake up from, short and fragile, impossible to find. If I lose her because I am close, I would rather wait for and protect her light from afar.

When N said that she was also anxious for me, I replied to her, why I didn't feel it anymore, I was numb and indifferent. People who have been single for too long may not have a little self-confidence, and they are always easy to deny themselves, give up on themselves, dare not try, and are not easy to have illusions or even expectations.

N profile replied forcefully: "I ...... I want to beat you up. I was mischievous: "Come on, come and beat me!" "She should be disappointed in my attitude towards life, helpless." If you don't feel ashamed, I'll beat you up in the office tomorrow. I then replied: "They all said that I was too thin-skinned, I didn't take the initiative, and I couldn't catch up with girls, and I began to doubt my life!" "It's a great opportunity to thicken my skin!"

N probably didn't expect me to reply to her like this, "Oh my God, I'm still ashamed, then I'll be famous!" I was so happy that I joked, "If it's true, I'll be dependent on you from now on, and you'll be responsible for me." "I secretly rejoice in my heart, if it really happens, in reality, N beats me, I will definitely not fight back, I like to pursue N This thing will succeed nine times out of ten, but it's a pity that the joke is just a joke, it can't happen, and I like N This thing is destined to have no clear result!

N finally replied to me, "It's beautiful to think about it!" "I guess she's not angry, do I really have a chance? How should I express that I like her, or how can I confess it, even though N has been rejecting my care and care for her, including liking. I sent her a self-made emoji, "There is still hope, what if it comes true!" She didn't reply to me again, and that should be the end of today's chat. Let's see if she's going to the office tomorrow and really beating me up, hehe.

I think I'm just too straight to be a detour, lazy or stalker. It's because of my low emotional intelligence and thin skin that I lack the courage to exercise. For example, if she asks her if she will drink porridge and bring it to her tomorrow morning, she directly refuses if she doesn't need it, if she still needs a band-aid, there is a whole box at home, and I will bring you what you can use tomorrow. It's a neat rejection again, and you don't need it. But I'm still always ready to bring it to her when she needs it, hoping that I can help her more or less. That's all I have to say! Such a boy without routines and scheming is really boring, and he may not get the favor of girls! What is the worst-case scenario, there is not much to worry about. Some things feel right to do it, not to ask for results, regardless of returns, hysteria, desperate, willing. For example, liking someone and being able to do everything for her is really too simple.

It turns out that liking someone is really too simple, I used to think about it too complicated, looking ahead and backward, and I didn't have the determination and courage to take action! Even if liking someone is a one-person thing, what's the big deal? How many opportunities in life can you really like someone, since this opportunity is now, the person you like is in front of you, you might as well try it boldly, at least there will be no regrets. There are too many regrets in life, I just hope that I like you and let you know that I don't have any regrets! This should be my self-righteous way of liking someone, maybe it's wrong, maybe it will put pressure on the other person, but liking a person really can't manage a lot, liking a person will also become selfish, incurable!

Go with the flow, don't force it, don't be paranoid, do it and cherish it, just do the simplest thing - like someone! Good night!