I came home late today, and it was almost half past nine after I finished washing, so I didn't have much time left to write, so I'll write a few sentences concisely today.

Early bedtime journals are mainly born for early bedtime, and if you stay up late to write, you will lose your original meaning.

Today is a special day, and I naturally lost sleep all night last night. Maybe it has something to do with the blind date, but I still think of her when I had insomnia last night, but I can control my thoughts now, and it's not so hopeless to divert my attention.

She had made a long decision not to bother her easily in the future, she was sad yesterday because she was separated from someone she liked, this is what she told me this morning.

I feel that she is a noble and passer-by in my life, and has taught me many things, but we have no fate, only moderation, but my concern for her has not diminished in the slightest.

Knowing that she's been reading books lately to prepare for her accounting exam, which is the most important thing right now, I don't want to distract her from my business.

She said that when she finished the exam, she would invite me to dinner alone, and she would definitely read the text I wrote, which made me very relieved and gave me a reason and motivation to continue writing.

I want her to be my first reader and fan. Let's talk about today's blind date, it feels very unsmooth, the navigation is not accurate, I have been looking for a place for a long time, and I will sweat after walking for a while because of the hot weather.

I've been to Fengyang a few times before, but I'm basically passing by, but I don't know anything about Fengyang. The name of the blind date is Beibei, cheerful and generous, wearing a pair of light-colored canvas shoes, old jeans, very tall and about the same as me, the kindergarten teacher has an approachable personality, and is the ideal girlfriend in my imagination.

I have a good impression of her, and I feel that this encounter was not easy to come by, and I am not sure if it is my crush, but at least I have the courage and courage to pursue the idea that she likes her.

Maybe she doesn't feel and doesn't know about me at all, but she doesn't seem to chat much, doesn't reply to messages much, and I'm not good at chatting, so I feel embarrassed.

I sent her a lot of messages just now, and she never replied to me, and the most she sent was the smiley face emoji.

Actually, it doesn't matter, I didn't have much hope, but in the morning I asked her, if I go on a blind date, will you bless me, and she told me to dress better, so I didn't perfunctory.

Thinking that Bei Bei is a kindergarten teacher and likes to travel, I deliberately brought a book - "100 Places to Go in a Person's Life" I have a lot of books at home, and I like to give books to people I meet for the first time, which may be a way for me to communicate with myself.

I don't know what the follow-up will be, anyway, I'm not very good at chasing girls, I can't talk about rhetoric, I'm not thick-skinned, I'm destined to be single for a lifetime, and I have nothing to worry about when I think of the worst outcome.

I didn't call AH again tonight, I don't know if she is still reading in the office, and I said that I want to let go of her, let go of my likes and misses, I think we should start by controlling the frequency of calls.

She has all my contact details and will definitely contact me if she wants to have breakfast. I said I was always there whenever she needed me, even if I could get up early to bring her breakfast every day.

It was because of her that I wrote this novel in the form of a diary, and it was she who guided me in the direction and made me find things that I could stick to every day, and I thought it was meaningful, and that was enough.

At first, I wrote about all kinds of things about her, but I don't know where I will write in the future, I think it should be a real life documentary.

Bei Bei sent me a message back just now, it seems that she doesn't know how to chat or does it on purpose, I don't know.

I guess at least she doesn't hate me, so let's talk about it and see what the follow-up is. I think I need to work harder, and the change will happen quietly, say good night to her, and get ready to rest, a day to remember!