When I went to work today, I suddenly found that the computer couldn't be turned on, and I worked overtime yesterday and walked late and didn't have time to turn off the computer. I took off the back cover of the main engine and took it to the workshop to blow soot with an air gun, and then slowly wiped the magnetic stripe with an eraser, and after reinstalling it, it was really good to turn it on again. Many times, the computer boot does not respond to the problem of the magnetic stripe, either the card slot is damaged or the magnetic stripe is loose or dusty, of course, the failure of the hard disk or power supply is not ruled out.

After turning on the phone, after the little messenger logged in, I received many messages at once, all of which were inconsequential and directly skimmed, but when I saw the message sent by AH, I paid special attention to it, so I opened it and looked at it. I thought it was sent to me early in the morning, but when I saw that the time was almost four o'clock yesterday afternoon, it was a message inviting me to go to dinner after work. I'm actually a little surprised, a little happy and a little regretful, why didn't I have time to read the news yesterday, if I saw the news, I would definitely refuse the leader's request to work overtime, and go to invite AH to dinner. I feel like I've missed a great opportunity to win 100 million, and I didn't turn off my computer to read the news at half past six after work yesterday, otherwise even if it was late, I might have gone to dinner with AH. I'll reply immediately, either I'll treat you to dinner tonight, right? The last time I had dinner, it was AH who was with her roommate N.

It didn't take long for AH to reply to me, I won't go out to eat after work today, I guess she doesn't want to go today, so I didn't say anything. I asked her again what else she wanted for breakfast, and she should be tired of eating egg scones for almost a month. She did reply to me that the main dish was a bit salty and didn't want to eat it anymore. I asked if the porridge was okay, two cups normally. She said that porridge can still be normal, anything can be done for me to watch, no chili, no leeks, no coriander, no pickles. I thought about it for a while, but I hadn't figured out what to bring to her tomorrow, a breakfast she liked and could eat well.

It rained after work today, I didn't ride, I followed the workshop master's hitchhike home, and by the way, I ate a bowl of trouser noodles near Hongye Village that is not very authentic is spinach noodles, not how delicious, the kind that can be eaten. Tomorrow will be a little earlier than usual about ten minutes earlier, one to find a new breakfast for AH, and the other to catch the bus earlier without riding, I am afraid that I will be late accidentally, not every time I am so lucky to meet the workshop master's hitchhiking. I'm going to continue to bring egg scones to AH tomorrow, but I'll change the flavor and try how their food tastes, as long as it's not salty. AH's taste seems to be relatively light, and there are more taboos, so I can only take care of her if I am very careful. AH's attitude towards me seems to have changed a lot, and I basically reply to my messages.

In one of our common WeChat groups, I received a notice of training tomorrow afternoon, I thought I might see AH, we are no longer WeChat friends, the only contact is this correspondent's WeChat group, AH added my friends through this group in the past. Once, I re-added her WeChat through this common WeChat group. After just adding a few words, I promised AH to abide by the agreement, and I deleted AH's friends again. Now I don't take the initiative to add her friends anymore, I have indeed tried to let go, and I am no longer so desperate to get to know her and talk to her, etc. The most direct and reliable contact between me and AH now is the opportunity to deliver breakfast every day and overtime meals on weekends, except for these, I have never taken the initiative to disturb or try to contact her, and I have become accustomed to this sense of distance, distance produces beauty, I have begun to get used to the kind tone of AH's words, thank you or something. By the way, she won't participate in the training tomorrow afternoon, and she will take a leave of absence in the group, so I guess she doesn't want to go or has other things. I sent a message to ask her, I guess she misunderstood, saying that she didn't ask for leave in the afternoon, I said that it was okay I made a mistake and today's contact with AH ended like this, and there was no news of AH until I got off work.

N has always asked me to be normal and not to put pressure on her like everyone else, since I brought her food that day, she knows that I am not only a fellow, but also a suspicion of being ready to like her, she seems to have deliberately alienated me as a fellow, I may really not grasp the distance to put pressure on her, I think she should be aware of liking her. Or maybe she knows that I used to like her roommate AH, and I may still like it now, she deliberately does this, she hates scumbags, and I seem to have disappointed her. She basically stopped contacting me and texting me, and every reply was very simple. She said she didn't want to take advantage of my kindness to her, so she did this, and I promised her that I would take good care of you while you were still in this city, and I was willing to do my best. She said that she didn't need to do what she didn't want to do, and told me not to do it, she would be unhappy and afraid that she couldn't afford it, so she kept refusing my approach and care, and I knew all these changes. Therefore, I also try not to disturb her, and basically no longer take the initiative to send messages to her, I know that she doesn't need me so much now, and I understand this.

When I got off work, N suddenly messaged me, are you still working overtime today? I said that the wire body was not repaired today. I can't fit the cylinder, so I don't need to work overtime, I'm already off work. I found that I typed a lot of words, and she only replied with a few words, and I realized that this time I lost again, and I lost someone who trusted and relied on me, in fact, it was useless, I had already looked down, and I didn't force myself not to be obsessed with the beginning and the past. If life is only as it first sees, it should be good, but it can only be expectations, many things have been turned upside down unconsciously, and we must look at the problem with a dynamic vision, including everyone around you, of course, and yourself, and you will not have any complaints if you think clearly.

By the way, there is another episode worth recording today, my little sister JJ, who I met on a blind date for the first time, suddenly sent me a message today, saying that when I go out to play, take her to the outside world to see. I said that we haven't been in touch for a long time, how can you remember me, she is very impressed with me, although it is not a formal relationship, there is no holding hands and no other more in-depth exchanges, but we have watched the movie together and eaten lobster, she is still talking about it today, what a silly sister, it has been many years, I don't understand that I didn't know how to confess at the time and missed a person who liked me like that, in fact, I feel very good about her. I don't know that it didn't take long for her to get married suddenly, and I have always regarded her as a sister and have not bothered her life anymore. Now her children are more than three years old, and I haven't talked to anyone during this time, and I haven't watched a movie with other girls again. Maybe JJ's memories are like my first love, I always remember her inadvertently, such as the scene where I passed by Prawn Street one day and remembered to invite her to eat lobster, went to the Dadi Cinema to watch a movie alone, and remembered how she was sleepy and slept on my shoulder, etc. I admit that I have a good memory, these details are still vivid after so many years, by the way, JJ was the first girl to give me a gift, at that time in the department store to visit a lot of shopping malls, she gave a lipstick, I have not been useful, it seems to be expired, I don't know which day I moved to the dormitory accidentally fell there.

The past is unbearable, I was really stupid at that time, I didn't know how to like someone, I didn't know how to care and take care of a person, and I missed a girl who liked me so much. I actually regret it sometimes, if I take the initiative to take her hand and do something more meaningful, our relationship will definitely sublimate, but at that time it was too simple and didn't understand anything, she thought I didn't feel like her and didn't like her so I wanted to recognize her as a sister. She joked that she had a quarrel with her husband recently, she was getting fatter and fatter, etc., saying that sometimes the mood is not good, and I want to divorce and then I have a chance, I really haven't thought about hehe, it's just that we have missed it for many years, she got married and had children at the age of three or four, and I am still alone, I have been single for the past few years and have not met and dated other girls, so my emotional world is blank. But the appearance of Pisces seems to be fate, I can't like her, she has a male ticket bigger than me, she is like my bosom sister, the most impressive time is to go to a concert with her, and many memories seem to have been blurred, I can't remember what she looks like, anyway, she is not married, I think we are people with similar souls, so we are attractive to each other, but it has nothing to do with liking and love, nothing else. It's like two old friends who haven't seen each other for many years, they both go out on a trip but go to different places and see different beautiful scenery, but they can't help but share it with each other. It's just that after drinking, when you are lonely, you will call Pisces's phone, chat casually for a few days, and send a message to explain it the next day after you wake up. I know she understands what I'm doing, and we used to talk about everything, but because of her male ticket, I was asked to delete my WeChat, and my contact with Pisces was only Alipay except for the phone.

It's also strange to say, why did I suddenly write back to Pisces, she should be the perfect existence of the Holy Spirit in my heart, and I have always regarded it as a big sister to my heart. In this strange city, someone can take care of your feelings to give you warmth, such feelings seem to go beyond the normal feelings between people, nothing to like, no love, no desire, some are just trust and soul resonance, only hope that she is good, everything is so simple!

Time will smooth everything out, at this moment the heart is calm and lonely, we have to say goodbye to so many people, loved, unloved, all the time in the goodbye. Yes, there are people who teach themselves many truths, how to live in peace with the world, how to love themselves when they have the spare energy to love others! They left only to grow themselves, and these experiences are precious. Therefore, I will cherish everyone in my life even more and leave no regrets. Good night!