It's another weekend without a break, the reason for having dinner and drinking with friends last night, I didn't sleep very well at night, and I woke up a little dizzy in the morning. I drank some cold water and continued to fall asleep, feeling that it would be dawn for a while, it seemed that drinking alcohol was easy to make sleep shallow, and I didn't get up until the alarm clock rang all night. The alarm clock for the weekend is now set as usual, with the familiar slow rhythm ringing at half past six to kick off the day. This is also the second week of the weekend without rest.,No weekend to stay up late.,The weekend of successful quitting is of course still missing AH by chance.,Time is about to pass a month.,There may have been some changes in my heart.,But it's not deep and unusually calm.,Still insist on self-righteous and meaningful things.。

As long as you are willing, anything can always be simple. For example, getting up early every day to bring breakfast to AH, working overtime on Sunday to bring her lunch and overtime meals, seems to have become the most meaningful thing in my daily life, and insisting on writing an early bedtime diary before going to bed every day has become my habit and is very simple. There may be nothing wrong with continuing this rhythm of life, and I have found support and direction outside of life and work. In fact, many things seem simple and not worth mentioning, but it is not easy to persist in doing them day in and day out, and there will always be unexpected things that will change your own plans or goals. For example, a sudden heavy rain, an inexplicable phone call, or an inadvertent word can lead to unexpected results.

Fortunately, I dare to face my heart, my true thoughts, and I have the courage to express my thoughts. I used to like someone who was always silent in my heart, and the pain and unwillingness of that kind of secret love have long been deeply experienced, and I know that there is no result, so I won't easily fall into it, and I can get out of it at any time. There is no wave and enthusiasm in the heart, and a person is lonely and quietly enjoying all the trivialities of life. I didn't deny my own ideas or judgments at the beginning, at least I took the initiative and worked hard, and I had already guessed the outcome while seeing the current situation, so it would be wise to give up decisively. The appearance of some people is also a matter of momentary heat, and their position will not affect the continuation of life itself in the slightest. The days will return to the previous calm like water, only occasionally touch the scene or see things and think about people, that is just a moment of thought, time is really the antidote and the only correct way out, when you have no choice, just give the answer to time, time will always give an answer, or right or wrong in the end may not be so important, the important thing is that I can face everything calmly, this is the growth of experience, make yourself stronger.

After delivering breakfast today, AH took the initiative to send a small messenger to contact me and ask me to meet and talk about some things about her roommate who is also my fellow countryman. At that time, I was busy with the planning meeting, I didn't promise to be really free, and after the end of the SAP report, I basically stood on the assembly line for a whole day and installed the cylinder all day, knowing that it was over at five o'clock in the afternoon, and I was a little tired and didn't send a message to AH. She once told me that as long as a girl doesn't delete your WeChat, you still have a chance. And AH has long asked to take the initiative to delete my WeChat, I have tried to add it a few times, and the final result is also deleted. I will respect AH's choices and opinions very much, and I finally understand that if I like someone who wants to be good to her and take care of her, I have to listen to her, even if it is a lie to me, I choose to believe it. I don't pester, or threaten or anything, I think everything has to be for her good, think about her, do what is good for her, she just likes it, just like I bring her breakfast every day, I don't know how many days I can cherish, I know it won't be long. For AH, in addition to liking and wanting to take care of her, I want to be good to her, I am also grateful to her to repay her, it seems to be this kind of mentality. I am a lonely and boring soul, and it is AH that has brought great changes and surprises to my life, so I can't forget it and can't let go. But I can always let go, because AH my insomnia is basically cured, I no longer stay up late, I start to write a diary every day early to bed, my self-control has also strengthened a lot, I can control my desires, I can gradually stare into the abyss of my heart, understand my powerlessness, and be able to let go of those shackles and darkness that should not be carried.

At noon, I didn't stop the line, but also to support the spraying line, took the time to go directly to the canteen to get a copy of the overtime meal and overreport, and quickly sent it to the AH office in a hurry, thinking of a sentence to say to her, as if I hadn't seen each other for a week, although I delivered breakfast every day, I had never met. It's hard for people who have lost their fate to meet even if they are in the same company. I seemed to say that I had found the meaning of life, which was to get up early every day to bring you breakfast, and go to bed early at night to write an early bedtime diary. I don't know why, my mind suddenly went blank, and I didn't say to eat. Watching her watch a video on her mobile phone while reading a book, I said that it was very powerful, and the efficiency was good, but it didn't seem to express this meaning. Just say hurry up and eat, and don't be too tired after eating. Because there is still a hurry to work on the spraying line, I didn't stay when I arrived at the point, and I went back to work for almost half an hour before it ended, and then I didn't contact AH again, and she didn't contact me tonight. I wonder if she will talk to her roommate about me when I go back in the evening. Maybe it is, I don't know.

She asked me to chase her roommate, saying that there was a chance, and asked me to ask her out, talk to her more, and be nice to her. I just feel inexplicable, maybe AH is really under pressure to transfer my love for her to another person. Asked me about my impression of my roommate N, and I answered truthfully, after all, N is my fellow countryman who has a sense of intimacy and understanding of being a fallen person from the end of the world. But people are only ninety-seven years old, and there are male tickets, it is estimated that they will not stay here for long, a girl is uprooted in a completely unfamiliar city, no close friends, and her family is not at ease, let her go back to develop, I think she is really courageous, I admire her very much, she must be an optimistic and open-minded girl. I took the initiative to contact WeChat, told her about my National Day home to grab a ticket, she gave me an acceleration by the way, Zhixing train tickets are indeed very powerful, at six o'clock in the evening the train ticket grabbed another upper bunk hard sleeper, I feel very lucky to be able to grab it. During the chat, I learned that she was sick and had a cold and was not well and took serious care about it, taking medicine on time or something, it was all irrelevant greetings, I almost said to drink more hot water, and the essence of my straight male cancer was exposed, I just hope that she will get better soon with a cold. My instincts, which she has a talent for drawing, told me that she sent me drawings of her random graffiti, as if they were drawn with colored crayons, which were very realistic and meaningful, but I didn't understand that she didn't understand the idea that her drawings were trying to express. One painting drew a clip with a red pen, with a calm and faint smile; The other painted a book, a cup of coffee, and two leaves, and I seemed to understand the deep meaning of her painting. I'm afraid that I will misunderstand and speculate wrongly, so I only praise her for her good painting and talent! Two maple leaves, a cup of coffee, I thought of the word of the hill: the falling flower man independent micro swift double flying. Thinking of Jay's song "Maple", the slowly falling maple leaves are like missing, I lit a candle to warm the autumn at the end of the year, I don't know if she is a fan of Jay, or if she has the habit of reading Song lyrics. But I believe that she likes to read, and it is really boring to live alone in the dormitory, so I often read books or movies, etc., and enjoy quiet alone time.

And this weekend time has left me, I began to like the excitement, like to go out into the crowd, so I choose to go to work normally on weekends. I guess N's heart is actually very entangled, and she suddenly asked me a question, saying that I have a wood and want to quit and leave here. I told her the truth, I was like you at the time, I often thought about quitting and leaving, but since I became a house slave, I dispelled this idea, and I also gave up my ideals and bowed to life, in fact, I don't understand life at all, I don't have a clear goal and plan, I have to live a boring life every day, this is my current situation. I told her that my biggest regret in college is that I didn't fall in love, so I don't understand the entanglement and pain when I like or break up, I have no experience, I'm very honest, she is a normal major, and I am the opposite, she said that her biggest regret is that she fell in love, and now I can't answer, after all, I really don't understand, I can't empathize with things that I haven't experienced, and I can't comfort others. The chat came to an abrupt end, I didn't guess her thoughts and thoughts, she should have refused, I was just joking and tentatively asking, I think people must have a good relationship with a male ticket, I don't have a chance, at the moment I want to directly deny myself, although under AH's encouragement and advice, I tried to chat, in fact, I can't chat at all, this is my weakness is the same as I won't like a person, I don't know the appropriate and effective method. I don't know how to chat, AH said as long as the action is good for her, I don't know if it's a lie to me.

I always want to write more in my early bedtime diary on the weekend, and make up a few words, which can be regarded as a summary of the week. When I came home from work in the evening, I cleaned up the mess of last night's dinner, swept the floor and washed the dishes for a long time. Actually, I wanted to send a message to my fellow N, asking how the cold was, etc., what books I wanted to read, etc., but in the end I didn't send it. I think I might be disturbing people, and I can't be too self-righteous and embarrassed to think that others have a crush on me or something. I just want to send a message or talk to AH, but I don't have WeChat, and I don't have the courage to call, maybe she is tired on the weekend and goes back to the dormitory early to rest. I had to give up, I forgot one thing at night, called my aunt's house, thanked me for taking care of my mother, I should be able to go home immediately, and persuaded her to stay a few more days to recuperate, this is a WeChat message sent to me by my second sister who has not contacted me for a long time, I know that this matter is very important She is concerned, then make a video tomorrow night, it is late tonight, I guess I will sleep early.

LOL although I haven't played for a few days,But the live broadcast of the event didn't fall for a day.,After going home, let Xiao Ai turn on the TV.,I saw IG and LGD competing for the last place.,Today's game doesn't want to evaluate my favorite IG didn't go to the World Championship in the end.,It's a pity.,FPX is also last year's champion.,There's no chance this year.,It's embarrassing to think that the sudden change in e-sports has long been a thing.。 But it's worth mentioning the vampire of the shy song.,Dream back to S7 It's really too incomprehensible and exciting.,But in the end, it was still lost to LGD.,1:3 regrettable defeat.。 I am not very optimistic about the four teams that entered the World Championship this year, and the No. 1 seed will generally pull his hips and cannot enter the group stage. I don't think JD is also a team with moisture, and the teams I like seem to have missed the World Championships, and this game is going to be cool, which once brought me strength and light. Tonight's late-night cafeteria is not so good, and it is very boring and I don't want to watch it. Today is really tired of working overtime, this point can almost rest, tomorrow is the last day of August, it should be the busiest time of the month, the salary in August should be a new high, because this month's output is definitely a new record, I still have some expectations, hard overtime and pay will be rewarded This is very comfortable. I'll still bring breakfast to AH tomorrow until she doesn't need it anymore, my chances are running out, maybe a part of my life meaning will change later, and I will be looking for something new and meaningful to stick to! Good night!