CHAPTER XIV
Yu Fangfang didn't know why her mother hated her so much, was it really because she restrained her. I remember when I was a child, my mother scolded her and said that she was too Fangfang like her grandmother, because her grandmother was not good to her mother at that time, and her mother hated her grandmother, so she hated her.
Yu Fangfang thought of Yu Xiaowei doing something wrong when she was a child, and her mother always scolded Yu Fangfang for teaching Yu Xiaowei to do it, if she and Yu Xiaowei fought, her mother would definitely fight Yu Fangfang.
I still remember when I was in elementary school, because my mother always let Yu Fangfang do all the housework, but Yu Xiaowei could play outside. Yu Fangfang quarreled with Yu Xiaowei because of this, and when the quarrel reached the most fierce, Yu Xiaowei said to himself, "Mom, you were born to work for the family, you are not convinced, you go to your mother". Yu Fangfang was angry but fought with Yu Xiaowei, since she was younger than Xiaowei, she was a head taller than Yu Fangfang, Yu Fangfang was not Yu Xiaowei's opponent at all, she was pressed to the ground by Yu Xiaowei and punched and kicked, because Yu Fangfang's crying finally woke up her napping mother. Mother slapped Yu Fangfang a few times without asking. Yu Fangfang said that she would do all the work at home, Yu Xiaowei didn't do anything, and her mother pointed at Yu Fangfang's head viciously and said: "You were born to work, you are a slave of our family, Xiaowei remembers, Yu Fangfang is a slave of our family, you treat her like a slave." After speaking, he continued to take a nap, and Yu Xiaowei pointed at Yu Fangfang with his finger and said, "Do you hear clearly, you are a slave of our family." Then he jumped out and continued playing.
Once Yu Fangfang mentioned this to Yu's mother before, Yu's mother said that you will make up your mother, you are really restrictive to me, when did I say this, you don't remember it, you just remember this, why are you so resentful, let outsiders hear and think that I am your stepmother.
I still remember a summer vacation when I was in junior high school, my mother and father were not there, the three of them were playing at home, for some reason, they quarreled, and they started to move their hands when they were arguing, Yu Wenwen would look at the faces of her family since she was a child, and knew that her sister was not liked by her parents, and her brother was the baby of the family, so she stood aside with her brother for everything. So Yu Wenwen not only didn't help Yu Fangfang, who had loved her since she was a child, but also helped Yu Xiaowei beat Yu Fangfang together.
And his mother would not think that he was wrong, and every time she was very proud in front of her aunt, she said that Yu Xiaowei and Yu Wenwen beat Yu Fangfang, and praised Yu Xiaowei for being better than Yu Fangfang.
When Yu Fangfang and Zhang Jianguo first got married, Zhang Jianguo said a sentence, I don't think you have a status in your family, and your younger brothers and sisters don't respect you.
Zhang Jianguo's words pierced Yu Fangfang's heart, how could this not be true.
Although Yu Fangfang's parents, younger brothers and sisters treated her much better than before after returning from other places, sometimes when they encountered some things, they still rejected Yu Fangfang like an outsider.
I remember the first Spring Festival when Yu Fangfang just came back, Yu Xiaowei hadn't gone to work yet, and was reviewing for graduate school at home, and Yu Wenwen had just entered the factory to work. On the twenty-ninth day of the Lunar New Year, the three of them cleaned together, Yu Xiaowei was responsible for the windows, Yu Wenwen was responsible for washing sheets and quilts, and Yu Fangfang was responsible for plastering and mopping the floor. Originally, Yu Fangfang thought that they were all cleaning up, but after a while, her mother was unwilling, thinking that Yu Xiaowei and Yu Wenwen were working, but Yu Fangfang was sitting on the sofa watching TV and began to scold Yu Fangfang.
Yu Fangfang said her reasons, and Yu's mother said that Yu Fangfang had been calculating since she was a child, and she felt a loss if she did a little more work. Yu Fangfang unconsciously remembered what happened when she was a child, so she quarreled with her mother, but she didn't expect Yu Xiaowei, who was cleaning the window, to suddenly run over and grab Yu Fangfang's clothes collar and pull Yu Fangfang out, pointing at Yu Fangfang and telling Yu Fangfang to get away, and then closed the door.
At that time, Yu Fangfang was wearing slippers and only wearing thin clothes and pants.
Yu's mother may have realized that the problem was a bit serious, so she went out and pulled Yu Fangfang in, and counted Yu Xiaowei again. And Yu Wenwen just did her own work from beginning to end. Later, Yu's father knew about this matter, and Yu Fangfang was not sensible.
Another time, Yu Fangfang was about to sleep until eight o'clock because she was resting on the weekend and was getting up, Yu's mother called Yu Fangfang to get up and make breakfast, Yu Fangfang said that she was sleeping for a while, Yu's mother went to the kitchen and didn't know what to say, Yu Xiaowei happened to be drinking water in the kitchen.
When Yu Fangfang was sleeping in a daze, she was suddenly pulled from the bed to the ground by Yu Xiaowei by grabbing her hair, and then pulled Yu Fangfang's head hard and smashed it to the ground.
Yu's father, who heard the voice, rushed over to stop Yu Xiaowei, and Yu's mother also ran over and punched Yu Xiaowei a few times.
Yu Fangfang cried and said to her mother, you are satisfied, this is what you have taught Yu Xiaowei since childhood. Yu's father scolded Yu Xiaowei, and said to Fangfang that if your mother tells you to get up, you should get up quickly, what do you provoke her.
Yu's father can't say much about Fangfang, but he won't be like Yu's mother.
Yu Fangfang has been very estranged from Yu's father since she was a child. Because Yu's father is away all the year round and rarely comes home, the concept of father is only literal, and it is somewhat unfamiliar. Every winter, when my father came back, he would buy them new clothes, new shoes, and good food, and bring back a lot of money, and my mother would rarely lose her temper at this time, and the atmosphere in the house would not be so tense. At that time, although Yu Fangfang was a stranger to her father, she was looking forward to him coming home, because her father would have a better time when he came back, and her father would stop her when her mother beat her and scolded her.
When Yu Fangfang was in junior high school, Yu's father began to work in his hometown. But for her father, Yu Fangfang still has only awe.
Since I was a child, my father and mother have quarreled a lot, and it seems that most of them are because of money.
In Yu Fangfang's memory, there don't seem to have been a few pleasant Spring Festivals at home.
Yu's mother will always have such and such unhappy things, such as his father loses playing mahjong at the neighbor's house, or loses playing mahjong with relatives, which will make the mother unhappy, and then quarrel with the father, and the mother will smash the things in the house. Yu's mother is unhappy, and the first person to suffer must be Yu Fangfang. At this time, Yu Fangfang always tightened her heart, for fear that she would do something wrong and provoke her mother.
I remember that in the middle of the night when Yu Fangfang was five years old and Chinese New Year's Eve, when Yu Fangfang was sleeping sweetly, Yu's mother suddenly pulled Yu Fangfang out of the bed and threw it into the yard, Yu Fangfang was frightened by this sudden action, got up in a daze, wearing a thin autumn coat, and stood in the yard barefoot. Yu Fangfang was so frightened that she didn't dare to cry, and said cautiously: "Mom, I'm cold." And the mother said viciously, "You will freeze to death outside." ”
Yu Fangfang, who was awake from the cold, saw that things were thrown everywhere in the yard.
The mother in the house scolded her father while dressing Yu Xiaowei. Yu Wenwen was also woken up and cried. Yu's father carried Yu Fangfang, who was shivering from the cold, into the house, and as soon as she put it in the warm quilt, she was pulled out by her mother and thrown into the yard.
Yu's mother said that you don't like to play mahjong, then you don't want children, let you freeze to death.
Yu's father had no choice but to take Yu Fangfang's clothes, shoes and socks, and carried Yu Fangfang to other rooms to put on the clothes.
Yu Fangfang, who had just put on her clothes, heard her mother hugging Yu Wenwen and pulling Yu Xiaowei out of the door. Yu Fangfang also hurriedly ran out, at that time she was afraid that her mother would not want her and abandon her.
Yu's mother hugged Yu Wenwen, Yu Fangfang held Yu Xiaowei's hand tightly with one hand, and tightly grasped the corner of her mother's clothes with the other.
It was pitch black along the way, and she couldn't see anything, Yu Fangfang didn't know where her mother was going to take them, so she asked her mother in a low voice, "Mom, where are we going?" ”
Yu's mother said that I will take you to death and jump into the river.
Yu Fangfang didn't know what death meant at that time, she only knew where her mother went and where she followed.
That day, the father finally caught up with them and wanted to take them home. Mother didn't go back, Yu Fangfang said Mom, let's go back, I'm so cold, it's dark here, I'm afraid. Yu Xiaowei also cried and said Mom, go back, I'm so cold. Later, Yu Fangfang didn't remember how they went back, she only remembered the warm quilt at home.