Gu Xia cried enough, so she went home, didn't call, didn't complain, just a person, didn't have the mood to pack her luggage, lay on the bed for a long time, her eyes were dull, during which she drank a glass of honey water on the bedside table that she didn't have time to drink in the morning, she shivered cold, and the winter in Beijing this year was extremely cold.

The company has always been working at full load for Lu Yiyang's affairs, and now that the public opinion has passed, it can be regarded as being idle, Su Yihuan knew that Gu Xia was going on a business trip, so he thought about asking Gu Xia to come out to eat and drink, and Gu Xia's phone was turned off.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, Gu Xia bounced up from the bed and went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables and cook, all of which were Liu Yang's usual favorite dishes.

"Cooking?"

Liu Yang smelled the fragrance of vegetables at the door, and saw Gu Xia's busy figure in the kitchen, the dining table was already full of delicious food, Liu Yang tasted it, it tasted good, today the result of his manuscript came out, he won, and it can be regarded as a light finally in the recent tangled days.

"It tastes good."

"There's still a soup later, it's fine, eat right away." Gu Xia was very calm, like a brief silence before a storm.

Seated.

"It's all right, eat."

"Why do you want to cook today, your feet can't move for a long time, these things, I'll do it."

"Today is different, I bought a beer and want to drink some."

"The injury on your foot is not healed yet, you can't drink, I'll drink it myself." Liu Yang stopped Gu Xia, who was about to open the lid.

"It's okay, drink less, leave me alone, okay?"

Gu Xia opened a can of beer and drank it all.

"You drank too fast, what's wrong today?" Liu Yang saw that something was wrong with Gu Xia, but he couldn't guess it.

"In the past, you cooked for me, I never cooked a meal for you seriously, in fact, I can cook, you taste, how is my craftsmanship."

"Okay, but don't drink any more, okay, I'll drink it."

Liu Yang tasted every dish and gave Gu Xia a thumbs up.

Gu Xia opened another can of beer, and drank it in one gulp, this wave of operations really frightened Liu Yang.

"What's wrong today?"

Gu Xia didn't seem to be able to hold back,

"Liu Yang, am I good to you?"

"Okay, why are you crying? What's wrong, unhappy today? ”

"Since I'm good, why do you have to look for her, you said that you won't look for her in the future, you said that I will be your sunshine in the future, you gave me a promise, you said that you will have me in your future life, why?"

Liu Yang's expression was sluggish, he couldn't think of why Gu Xia's words were, there was only one possibility, the paper couldn't hold the fire.

"Gu Xia, I'm sorry, I didn't know things would turn out like this, I never thought of leaving you, so these days, I'm not having a good time, I don't dare to look you in the eyes, I'm afraid, I drink every day, I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep, I'm paralyzing myself, escaping, I'm afraid you will leave."

"Liu Yang, I am a person who has been abandoned by love, promise you, do you know how much courage I mustered? I thought you were the rest of my life, you were late, you didn't come home at night, I didn't question you for all your reasons, because I think that to accept this love, you have to accept this person, you have to trust unconditionally, so, in this love, I have been humble and undignified, but you, I really can't believe it. ”

"Gu Xia, don't cry, okay? I'll end it as soon as possible, I choose you, okay, you don't want this, I'll solve this matter as soon as possible, it's all my fault, okay. ”

Liu Yang tried his best to stabilize Gu Xia's mood, but it seemed to be to no avail.

"How do you solve it, do you let your child never get the love of the father, or, deprive him of the right to contact the world, do you want to be the executioner?"

"Gu Xia, what do you mean, I'll lie to you about this one thing, I don't have children." Liu Yang was already a little incoherent.

"It turns out that you don't know yet, but what a coincidence, she is pregnant, your child, it's been a month, it's a fresh little life, I met Jiang Xiaoxi in your mouth today, she begged me, begged me to let her child have a father, do you think I should promise her."

Gu Xia felt so ironic, so ironic, it turned out that he was this fate, and he would never be able to escape being abandoned.

"She's pregnant? It's just that one night, no. ”

"It's good if you ask her, you said that I should be a good person and give you back to him."

"Gu Xia, don't cry, it's all my fault, it's my fault, I'm a scumbag, I'm sorry for you, don't you punish yourself with my mistakes, okay?"

Liu Yang is really distressed, Gu Xia is a good girl, he has always thought so.

"Your mistake, no, this is my fault, I don't deserve love, I should know, but I just don't have a long memory, I just want to touch it, something I can't touch."

"Gu Xia, don't drink anymore, don't drink anymore, don't feel sorry for people like me, okay?"

Liu Yang was already in a begging tone, he had hurt such a good girl.

Gu Xia finished venting and cried enough.

"Liu Yang, what you said, can I still take it seriously?"

"Okay, as long as you don't feel so upset, okay? I don't deserve you like this, I'm not human. ”

Liu Yang said and began to slap himself in the face, scolding himself for not being human.

"You said that when you are free, take me to see the city of Beijing, the best view, does it still count?"

"Count, I'll accompany you whenever you want to see it."

"Now, I want to see Chang'an Avenue at night, Guomao in the early morning, and the whole of Beijing, I'm not so greedy."

"Now?"

Gu Xia wiped a handful of tears with his clothes,

"I'm going to change my clothes, or I really don't deserve this scene."

Liu Yang hasn't had time to drink yet, so he can drive, and in Beijing in the depths of winter, people will always be wrapped in clothes and stuffed with thick scarves.

The atmosphere in the car was extremely embarrassing, Gu Xia put on a song, love was like a tide, hummed along, sang and sang, felt sarcastic, and began to cry again.

At the overpass of the International Trade Center at about eleven o'clock, Gu Xia sat on the ground and looked at the passers-by, without saying a word, Liu Yang also sat next to her, silently accompanied, she didn't cry, she didn't smile, her eyes were dull, which made Liu Yang feel even more terrible.

That's it, watching the flow of people slowly decrease, from eleven o'clock until three o'clock in the morning.

"Liu Yang, do you like this kind of Guomao? Love this icy city? Gu Xia suddenly asked.

"I don't like it."

"Then why are you here, is it just because of a dream?"

"Maybe it's young,"

"I told you, I was because of a dream, but I didn't tell it, I was broken up when I graduated from college, my ex-boyfriend also came to Beijing, and then he didn't want me, I didn't like the city at that time, a year ago, I read a note from a blogger in Beipiao, she said, Beijing in the early morning is very beautiful, there is busy like daytime, where you can smell the smell of dreams, just that article, I came to Beijing despite the opposition of my family, but so far I have not smelled the smell of dreams."

"I thought that meeting you was my greatest hope, I thought that the city was much warmer, but all of this was what I thought, you see the International Trade Building at three o'clock in the morning, it is still brightly lit, you say that the people inside, what supports them to work overtime so late?"

"Survival."

"It's the responsibility of the family, I used to think that I could have it, but today, I was slapped in the face by reality, it turns out that I don't deserve it."

"Gu Xia, don't you say that, okay? It's not that you don't deserve it, it's that I don't deserve it. ”

Gu Xia won't cry anymore, because she has cried enough, and there are too many tears tonight.

"Liu Yang, I let you go, after all, Jiang Xiaoxi needs you more than me."

After Gu Xia said this, Liu Yang felt that his heart was empty, compared to the previous entanglement, he finally understood that in his heart, he loved Gu Xia more than Jiang Xiaoxi, for Jiang Xiaoxi, it may have been love before, but after a long time, it has become a responsibility and habit, just like Jiang Xiaoxi fell out of love when he looked for him, for Gu Xia, he felt more sorry for this girl, and he also loved him deeply.

"I'm sorry, I don't deserve to love you."

"Liu Yang, I'm very generous, maybe there is still no fate between us, Jiang Xiaoxi must love you more than me, go around and around, or you."

Liu Yang really didn't know what to say, except sorry, there was really nothing else to say.

"Thank you, you have accompanied me through so many gloomy days, if it weren't for you, I guess I wouldn't be able to survive, I really don't have this blessing to see such a beautiful scenery, that blogger is right, maybe there is really a taste of dreams here."

What Gu Xia said, Liu Yang didn't know how to pick it up, so he blindly accompanied her, because maybe after tonight, Gu Xia wouldn't give him a chance to accompany her, and he lost her completely.

"It's cold, let's go home, it's time to sleep."

"Put on my clothes, you're sick and can't catch a cold anymore, and you've been sitting for so long just now."

"It's okay, it's warm in the car."

Gu Xia rejected Liu Yang, if it was before, she would gladly accept it, and then she would praise him for being sensible.

In the early hours of the morning, Chang'an Avenue was still full of traffic, and she woke up completely.

This night, except for Liu Yang and Gu Xia, Jiang Xiaoxi was the most uncomfortable, and she didn't sleep all night, she knew that Gu Xia would definitely have a showdown with Liu Yang, but she wasn't sure whether Liu Yang would choose her and the child, because before looking for Gu Xia, Liu Yang hadn't talked to her for a week.

Lu Yiyang was very strange and couldn't sleep well, because the mastermind mentioned in the kidnapper's email was a woman he had loved to the bone before.

The noisy city of Beijing never stops even in the early hours of the morning, because it wants to accommodate and comfort the souls who have no home in the city. Maybe that's why so many people flock here every year.