Chapter 10 Depression is not waiting for death

One day of vacation a week, although they can't go out, it is a rare respite for students, six consecutive days of overtime, the accumulated qi in the heart of the unknown to fill the negative emotions, if it can be released or relieved on this day, it is very good. Although Bai Hao is very resistant to the numb life of the school day after day, he can take a breather for a day every week, on this day he can sit on the lawn of the playground and watch the sunset quietly, occasionally take a book and pretend to read, but rarely be able to read it, most of the time because of the low mood, can only wander, let his thoughts drift all over the world.

In his freshman year of high school, he hated the social relationships around him, unspeakable friendships, deliberate ignorance among classmates, and often wandered when listening to lectures and writing, feeling that everything around him was full of malice towards him. At that time, a tablemate who had a good heart but didn't communicate much looked into his eyes and said in surprise: "I always think your eyes are so sad." Hearing this, Bai Hao smiled and covered up the past, and at the same time sighed in his heart, when he was numb and desperate for the life around him, this is probably it.

At that time, Bai Hao felt that his situation should be depressed, and he was very scared, so he consulted on the Internet until he added a QQ group full of depressed people. After contact, I found that my so-called depression is far from others, and the despair that can be felt just through words surprised him, but in this group, everyone encourages each other and comforts each other's wounded hearts, which makes Bai Hao feel very warm, and lonely people can warm each other and ignite the flame that is extinguished in their hearts. He was very relaxed in communicating with the people inside, and he also learned that his current situation was just a bad state of mind, and the sadness of adolescence was amplified in his eyes without a suitable outlet, and it turned out to be like this. Bai Hao also met a whale named 52 Hz on the net, his depression has recovered, and he still insists on enlightening Bai Hao, and over time he gradually became acquainted with each other, and often chatted together, at that time he persuaded Bai Hao in a big brother tone: "You have to be open-minded, in fact, there is no need to take many things to heart." If you think about it carefully, there are really a lot of happy things in the world, and it will be much better to take the initiative to communicate with others and say what you think in your heart, after all, there are still many good people in this world. It was from then on that Bai Hao made up his mind to change himself.

Although the situation is not much better now, someone is finally willing to invite him out to play, which should be regarded as progress, Bai Hao thought in his heart.

At this moment, everyone was standing under the missing wall next to the back entrance of the school, and the walls around the school were made of ash and brick, and they were so strong that they were two meters high, and it was impossible to climb them. But a few years ago, I don't know which group of gods made the already loose wall pick it up little by little with my hands, and sure enough, the so-called solid wall can't stop the heart of the youthful turmoil, of course, it may also happen to hit the tofu slag project.

"This wall looks so high, can you climb it?"

Ning Xin looked at the wall of this gap and asked worriedly.

"Someone below can hold it up." Ouyang Youqian said. "The girl climbs first and the boy supports, the canopy is tall, and he is behind."

"Recently, the school has been very strict in checking and running out, and someone was caught by the teacher last week, and he hasn't been allowed to go to school yet, and now no one dares to steal out."

He Xiao also said scaredly.

"What's the panic, I've inquired, the teacher on duty today is my cousin, my aunt has been unwell recently, he accompanied my aunt to the hospital for a check-up today, and it is estimated that he will come back very late." Ouyang Youqian looked confident, pointed to the wall again, and said. "Let's hurry up and flip it first."

When the people heard this, they immediately took action.

"Where is Lin Xiaoxiang?" Bai didn't look good and saw that there was no shadow of Lin Xiaoxiang, so he asked Zhu Tianyi.

"The teacher gave her a fake note, and now she is waiting for us at the Sweet Snow Ice City outside the back door."

Zhu Tianyi replied.

Zhou Qun saw that Ning Xin was holding He Xiaoye, was silent for a while, and said to Ouyang Youqian next to him:

"Do you think your cousin will find someone to replace him?"

"How is that possible?" Ouyang Youqian opened his mouth, stammered a little, and said. "Probably not."

"Damn, why is the old class here?" A man whose name he didn't know suddenly shouted, pointing his finger.

"What!"

Everyone looked behind one after another, Ning Xin was so frightened that he hurriedly pulled He Xiaoye down, and the two of them staggered and almost fell.

In the distance, there was a very slender figure, dressed in an ordinary professional uniform, and a pair of white sneakers running slowly under his feet. Really, that's over.

"Hurry up and disperse." Liu Ze hurriedly shouted.

The crowd nodded, wanting to scatter as birds and beasts.

"The fastest one in front, Liu Pang and Zhu Tianyi, I have seen all your faces, if you dare to go, I will report it directly."

Solemnly shouted to the front.

"What should I do?" Ouyang Youqian looked at Liu Ze, his voice trembling.

"There's no way, turn yourself in."

Liu Ze sighed and said to everyone.

......

It's three o'clock in the afternoon on Sunday, and in the morning, I was caught by the old class and pulled to work as a coolie for the school's newly purchased experimental equipment.

"Originally, Mr. Cheng told me that he had something to do today, and asked me to help for a while, thinking that there was nothing to do, but I ran into a student in my class, do you say that he is angry?" Solemnly pacing back and forth in the office, she looked at the thirteen people in front of her, gritted her silver teeth, and said hatefully: "You guys are really capable, you can't get a leave slip and run out, do you have to force me to invite your parents?" ”

"Teacher, we were wrong, I proposed to go to the Internet café to play a game this afternoon, so I really want to go out, but this matter must be our fault, if you want to invite my parents."

Liu Ze lowered his head and said in a deep voice.

"Still want to be a hero? If you don't say it, I will also punish you heavily, as a squad leader, I don't lead by example, and I take the lead in committing crimes. He glared at Liu Ze solemnly, looked at the others, and was a little surprised when his eyes swept over Bai Hao, and said. You can't run away. ”

The willows outside had long since withered, and the remaining dry branches stood beside the school building. Autumn is over, and the humid air fills the school, making the already miserable heart even more irritable.

Everyone, including the old class, was silent, what was the purpose of silence? I guess I can't tell each other clearly, so I guess I don't know what to say.

One night, the whale at 52 hertz said to the narrators: "True friends give to each other, and if either party tries to be lazy, it will not succeed in the end." I haven't made any real friends yet, but that's true. ”

Bai Hao pursed his lips, glanced at the classmate standing next to him, and then looked at Liu Ze, his eyes flickering.

"Teacher." The boy raised his hand and stared into Lao Ban's eyes.

solemn eyes were surprised, and then nodded and motioned for him to continue.

"It's our first time going out, and I'm looking forward to it, because it's going to be a lot of work in the future, so there should be very few opportunities like this."

The boy's voice trembled, and his eyes gradually shifted as he stared at Lao Ban, and finally lowered his head and whispered.

Everyone looked at him in amazement, and they were surprised by Bai Hao's bad behavior. Ning Xin's eyes blinked, staring at the boy's side face, obviously interested in what he said.

looked at Bai Hao solemnly, watching him change from a serious expression to fear, and slowly lower his head in frustration, as if he saw a familiar shadow, and couldn't help but feel distressed.

This is also a child who needs to be gentle, she muttered to herself.

"If I'm not mistaken, you were the third-to-last pair in your class last time you took the monthly exam, right?"

He looked at the boy with a blank face and asked.

"Huh?! Yes. “

Bai Hao was a little confused, stunned for a moment, and then said.

"I got the bottom ten in the midterm exam, and you all have to give me ten places this time, so I agree." looked at everyone solemnly again, and said leisurely.

"What?!"

Not only is it not good for white, but even everyone else was stunned for a moment.

"What? Don't want to go out? Let's stay and move the equipment. ”

Everyone hurriedly shook their heads.

"Old class, I'll just say that you are so beautiful, how can you be like the other old stubborns in the school."

Chubby hurriedly flattered.

"Nonsense, how can other teachers compare with our teachers, just look at it."

Ouyang has money and has also stepped up.

"Okay, besides, it's almost evening, do you want to go out?" solemnly hurriedly interrupted them and said. "I'll take you out of school, and you must be back for me by eight o'clock in the evening."

"The old class is the best!"

.......

After leaving the school gate, everyone said goodbye to the old class, and it was already half past three in the afternoon.

ran to the gate of Tianxue Ice City first, and saw Lin Xiaoxiang sitting there leisurely alone at a table, and waved when he saw them coming.

A white long-sleeved shirt and white trousers, and a pair of white canvas shoes on his feet, he looks fresh and capable.

"I'm sorry to keep you waiting so long, everyone thought they wouldn't be able to get out."

Liu Ze looked apologetic.

"No, Xiao also sent me a message, I didn't have anything to do, just wait here to see, I didn't expect you to really come out."

Lin Xiaoxiang said with a smile.

"That's thanks to our vain, if it weren't for him, everyone would probably have finished playing."

Chubby hugged Bai Hao's shoulders and said proudly.

"Yes, white is not good, but it can be of great help." A classmate who forgot his name said.

Bai Hao smiled bitterly and couldn't say anything.

"Oh? What's going on? ”

Lin Xiaoxiang's eyes were bent into crescent moons, and he looked at Bai Hao curiously, and the corners of his mouth were thoughtful.

"Well...... "Chubby pondered for a moment before continuing.

"What time is it, and you're still grinding here? It's never too late to talk about it in the evening. ”

Ning Xin pursed his lips and said quickly.

"Yes, let's go now, I guess we can only fight. Xiao Ye, Zhen Tian, you go shopping first, and we'll send you a message when we're done. ”

Liu Ze looked at his watch and said to everyone.

Everyone nodded.