『Miscanthus:

I'll tell you the results so clearly

Why haven't you left?

Do you want to get hurt like that?'

Maybe some people have some things, and after going through a lot, they suddenly change their attitude towards them.

But often only when you are in the depths of it, you can't extricate yourself, and you don't even realize that this is a bottomless swamp, and when will you think of turning back.....

Bai Ji's frustration can be seen from the surface, some of the original hopes were disappointed, and all expectations were like balloons blown up by a gust of wind, round balloons, slowly began to deflat, until they were deflated by a hole in the cliff.....

He has been longing and looking forward to a beautiful relationship, but when such a person appeared in his life, he thought that there had appeared, and hope began to look forward to it again, but in the end he still couldn't accept this result, it was not the result he wanted, but life forced him to accept it....

This night I was drunk like mud, but I never complained about the unfairness of life, everyone has the same treatment, but some opportunities, some fate has not yet come, and others have come first.

"Why torture yourself like this, just for a girl who's only met a few times, is it really worth it?" Lao Ding originally planned to let him spend this matter on his own, but now.... It was clear that he still had no way to accept it.

After Bai Ji ingested alcohol, his face had begun to flush, and he smiled helplessly, "I seem to hear the sound of my heart breaking, this is the first time I have hoped for a relationship since I grew up, in fact, I shouldn't have been tempted in the first place, right?" ”。

"In the world of feelings, there is no right or wrong, how can we talk about right or wrong," Lao Ding comforted him on the side.

If I hadn't been so curious to go to the corridor and see what was going on that day, maybe things wouldn't have developed to the point where we are today, but there is no way to change the fact that I did go out that day and saw her.....

"Since you choose to stick to what you think in your heart and don't contact people who are related to Su Mu, you shouldn't regret it, it's all your own choice," Lao Ding said.

At this kind of moment, only Lao Ding is willing to stay by his side to talk to him about something, and Mangni is silent on the side, often the more he is at this moment, the more he can't interject.

Maybe it's not that I can't interject, or I don't know what to say, but just quiet companionship is enough comfort.....

"Actually, how much I wish there was no relationship between her and Su Mu, if I hadn't met Su Mu's previous girlfriend, I would never think like this, I'm not saying that she's bad, I just don't want to have contact with people who have a relationship with Su Mu.

Maybe you can't even understand this feeling, but it doesn't matter, maybe I'll be fine in a few days, just like before, nothing happened, throw all this out of my mind, and never remember it again" Bai Ji can only rely on this method to numb himself, and the feeling of self-deception is really uncomfortable.

It would be nice to take a preventive shot before the relationship comes, but the relationship often comes like this without warning, quietly appearing around you, catching you off guard, since it has happened, maybe the best thing to do is to try to accept it.....

"Do you know that once I also met a girl who made my heart move, but then due to various reasons, we were not able to be together, but the beauty she gave me will remain in my heart forever, maybe you should think the same way" Lao Ding has never said such a thing outside, just because this time my brother suffered a lot of emotional bruises, and he can only use his old things as a tool to heal him.

"Thank you for being willing to bring up the pain of the past to comfort me," Bai Ji said.

Bai Ji also noticed that Mangshi was sitting next to him at this moment.

Mangni is the god of the Department of Computer Science, the first place on the campus list, and the boyfriend who can't be obtained no matter how beautiful a girl is, he always appears in front of everyone with such an indifferent appearance, so that others can't guess what he is thinking.

But this time, I can feel the heat in his heart from his eyes, he is not as untouchable as everyone seems on the surface, in fact, she is the best person to contact.

It's just that such a silent companionship has already done the greatest comfort, he is really righteous, and it is quite comfortable to be able to not criticize himself or the girl at this moment, and not to say anything.

"Thank you for being by my side, and for saying so many words of gratitude to you, it's all in the wine," Bai Ji picked up the glass in front of him and drank it all.

This night was filled with endless sadness, and it seemed that there were many words that could not be spoken.

It turns out that fate does not arise for no reason, there may be an invisible red line between the faint and faint, and people at both ends of the red line do not know when the red line will be broken, how many days? Or is it a few months? Years? But the best answer is always there.

Sometimes I always hope to have someone by my side forever, when I bear the wind and rain, at least I can have a warm embrace, maybe the reason for thinking like this is that I am too weak, I will want to find a warm harbor, to put it bluntly, I am not strong enough.....

"If you don't have a relationship with him, if you are willing to be by my side, then how good it would be...."Bai Ji said this softly, without anyone noticing, as if it was for himself, and as if it was for someone who was not here.....

After Malt returned to the dormitory, she could always notice that Xinrou was different from before, but she couldn't tell what was different from before.

But looking at her appearance, I didn't seem to want to say anything, so I simply didn't ask.

The whole dormitory has been weird lately, as if everyone has something on their minds, and there is no more lively atmosphere as before....

Lying in bed, a little bored.

Perhaps faintly feeling the sound of crying, Malt sat up alertly.

The whole dormitory was stuffy, and everyone didn't speak.

"What's wrong with everyone lately, it doesn't seem to be as active as before," Malt couldn't help but say.

I'm still used to everyone talking, laughing, and noisy, and the dormitory environment is suddenly so quiet, it's really unacceptable, is this still the same dormitory before....

Wang Er sat on the edge of the bed and shrunk into a ball, looked at everyone cautiously, and lowered her head as if she was a thief, "Actually, there is something I haven't told you yet, this matter has been bothering me for many days."

"What's the matter?" Malt asked with concern.

"Actually, I broke up," Wang Er said cautiously.

"What? You broke up?? None of the people in the dormitory knew the news, and they were shocked when they heard it.

Obviously, they haven't been together for a long time, why did they break up suddenly, which made it a little difficult for onlookers to accept......

"Then why are you telling us now?" Malt asked.

Wang Er lowered his head, like a child who had done something wrong, "Actually, I wanted to tell you before, but because I have really received a lot of help from you in these things, I don't think I can trouble you with anything, and I always feel that I don't want to ..... it."

Mai Ma climbed out of bed and strode to Wang Er's bedside, "Why is this a trouble for us?" We're all happy to help you, what the hell is going on? When did you break up? ”。

Friends from several other dormitories also gathered around.

"Yes, we don't think you're bothering us by doing this, but you don't tell us, but you treat us like outsiders."

"What was the reason for the breakup? Some time ago, I saw that you were very good, how can you say that you will be divided? ”。

Wang Er bit her lip lightly, with tears in her eyes, "Actually, I don't think it's a good ..... between us."

"Why? Didn't you love him at that time to die or live, why did you suddenly feel that it was not appropriate? ”。

"What I may like is that he plays sunny and handsome, I didn't think that there are many things that I need to pay attention to in love, so I took the initiative to break up, we are not very suitable for each other, and there is no need to waste time with each other" Wang Er felt that he was really wrong at that moment, it turned out that liking was not only the feeling of liking, but more importantly, he wanted to be with him from the heart, but he never seemed to have considered this problem.

"Well, since you've made that choice, then we all respect you and we all support you," Malt said.

Tears finally slipped down from the corners of Wang Er's eyes, "But after I broke up with him, I found that I still want to be closer to him, I just like the feeling of being close to him, but I don't like to be closer to him, what do you say I am......" At this moment, she is like a contradiction, wanting to get close but afraid of getting too close, so does this kind of relationship really exist in the world?

"So do you want to live your future life with him? It's like having to live in the future," Mai said.

Wang Er shook his head, "I didn't think about it so much, and now I realize that what I liked was just a feeling he gave me at that time, but this feeling doesn't exist all the time."

Malt fantasized that if she and Senior Mangni could be together one day, would they be like them, what she liked was the feeling that Senior Mangni gave her? No, she can say for sure, it must not be like this.

"And how do you really feel when you leave him now?"

"I'm not as nervous as before, I feel like I'm a lot more relaxed, but my heart is empty, and I want to be closer to him, but when I see him, I feel very repulsed" For some reason, she seems to be living a contradiction at this moment.

Like it and dislike it, sure but not sure, close and want to be farther away, so what the hell is this?

If you really like someone, will you have this kind of rejection?

"Then what are you going to do with it in the future, this situation can't happen again, you can't let yourself get hurt no matter what, you know?".

"Yes, no matter what happens, you have to tell us that we are your dearest roommates and will always be on your side."

Wang Er nodded, but the contradiction in his heart has not been resolved, will this contradiction continue forever? Will it be reflected in everyone? Why does this contradiction arise? Is it because you don't accept it?

When will it be able to disappear....