Mother refused to raise her head to look at Nannan, she did not have the courage, so she had to keep her head down, looking at the pale yellow, fragrant three pink and purple roses. One or two tears came out of his eyes, and all of them fell into the flower tea, and merged with the tea water, and ripples rippled on the water, gradually expanding outward from a small circle, and scattered until he touched the wall of the teacup, and then he refused to stop.

The mother couldn't hold back her tears, but she never made a sound. After a long time, there were no more tears splashing in the tea, and then my mother began to say at the end of the year, her voice was a little choked, as if something was blocking her throat: "When my mother was in high school, she used to have a very good friend. At that time, my mother's family was not good, and she came from the countryside, and the place where she studied was in the city, and everyone in the class was city children, and they were well dressed, well-fed, and well-used. The worst ones don't wear clothes that are too old to be worn like their mothers, and some of them are even torn and patched. Mom didn't have money at that time, and she didn't dare to ask your grandfather and grandmother for money, for fear of adding to the burden on the family. The family had already paid a huge amount of money for their own tuition and accommodation expenses, and they also mixed in a sum of their own living expenses, which made the two old men even more sad, and they had already asked people everywhere to borrow money. I was often hungry and full even when I ate, let alone buy a few decent clothes. So, my classmates in my mother's high school didn't want to see me, they made fun of me and gave me all kinds of nicknames, nothing more than "dirt buns", "hillbilly", "poor beggar" and so on. But some people still want to humiliate me, saying that I never change my clothes, and that my body smells sour. There will be some people who give me what they have eaten, what they don't want to eat, and what they have leftovers, like a flower child, and let me finish it for them. If I refuse, they will insult me openly and secretly, saying that I don't know what to do. There would even be people who tore up my homework, scribbled foul language on my desk, and threw garbage and dead bug bodies into my desk. ”

When my mother said this, her whole body trembled uncontrollably, and the tea she was holding in her hand spilled out a lot, spilling left and right on the back of her mother's hand and pants. But the mother didn't seem to care, she just held the teacup harder with both hands, and the nails of the ten fingers were slightly whitened from the exertion.

Nan Nan saw her mother like this, her heart ached all of a sudden, she had never heard her mother mention these things, in Nan Nan's heart and impression, her mother has always been gentle and forgiving, she would not have thought that her mother would suffer these things. After hearing what her mother said, Nan Nan's mood suddenly became heavy, as if there was a large stone blocking her heart and pressing on her chest, making it difficult for Nan Nan to breathe and it was difficult for her to catch her breath again.

At this time, the mother was inhaling heavily, and her body was also lying down with her, and the mother seemed to be trying to calm her mood. After such adjustments, the mother opened her mouth again and continued: "Later, a new female classmate was transferred to our class, and that lesbian student was very good-looking, like a cluster of white chrysanthemums, new and moving. Moreover, it is said that the female classmate's father is a teacher, and her mother is a singer, so she is a very decent family, and the family background is naturally needless to say, it is excellent. The female classmate was also versatile, she could play the piano, play the violin, and sing, and she had learned bel canto. At that time, all the male classmates of Banli liked her, and countless love letters were written to her, and everyone was vying to be her lover. And those female classmates are jealous of her, no matter how good the female classmate's personality is and how sincere she is to others, she will still spit on her behind her back, speak ill of her, and make fun of her. ”

But the female classmates didn't care anymore and still treated them kindly, but they were not close. On the contrary, it was very good to me, and the female classmate expressed her kindness to me unabashedly from the time she first entered the class. I was already going crazy and nervous from being tortured by my classmates, and I couldn't trust anyone anymore. Therefore, at first, I always suspected that the female classmate was deliberately trying to make me happy and play with me, and I always maintained a vigilant attitude towards her friendliness. Can be taken slowly

I found out that the girl was genuinely good to me. ”

"She will always be by my side, no matter how cold and alienated I am to her, she will always not care, but will stick to my side with a smile all day long. She knew that I often couldn't eat, so she would always get an extra meal in the cafeteria, and then give it to me, saying that she couldn't eat it herself, she was afraid that I would think it was an insult, so she didn't eat a mouthful, and gave it to me first, indicating that it was not what she was left over. Sometimes, she would buy a few more clothes in the clothing store and give them to me, lying to me that they were bought by my family, but the size was not right, and it happened to fit me, and she gave me new clothes. But she was worried, and I didn't accept it, and thought it was a charity, and offered to help her with her homework, which was counted as a kind of offset, so as to balance the cost of those clothes. ”

"On top of that, she knew that the people in the class didn't like me and wanted to bully me. She entered the classroom early every day, wiped all the curses written on the table for me, and threw away the garbage and dead bugs in the desk for me. In fact, she was afraid of insects, even a small caterpillar, not to mention some half-dead butterflies and cockroaches that had been trampled to death, and earthworms that were divided into several sections. I've seen a lot of these in the countryside, and I'm not scared much, but I'm a little disgusting. But what about her, she was taken care of very well when she was young, where could she have seen such a scene. But, since she's around me, my desk and desk are clean. ”

"At first, I didn't know it, and my classmates were tired of bullying me, and finally they didn't want to do it anymore. Until one day, I arrived in the classroom early, but I saw the person who had always been pampered, wrapping the dead body of insects in my desk with waste paper and throwing it away, and I was so scared that I couldn't stop sobbing. It was then that I realized that she had been silently helping me with all the malicious, disgusting things. Even more so when I was torn up my homework, she would always pack up my homework and put it next to her, but she told me that she needed to borrow it, and she still didn't understand some homework. ”

"But where did she need it, how could a headmaster's daughter, a person from a scholarly family, be so stupid. That is, I have been missing my homework for more than ten days, so why bother to take my homework as a reference, you can just ask Mr. Teach, with her intelligence, it won't take long to understand. ”

When the mother said this, she stopped again, she did not cry, she did not tremble anymore, she just sat still, motionless, as if she was contemplating something, she had reached the state of being in a state of delusion and self-forgetfulness.

"Mom... Fifteen minutes had passed since Nan Nan stood beside her mother, but her mother had never spoken a word. Nan Nan didn't know what to do, but she couldn't help it, and opened her mouth very quietly.

"That female classmate is really good to her mother, right? It's sincere. Mother whispered, she buried her head lower, but before Nan Nan could reply, her mother said again, "Later, I no longer doubt the friendship of that female classmate for me, and I slowly let go of all my guard against her." After that, we became each other's best friends. We stayed together all day, and the female classmates in the class were all squeezing out us and disliking us, but we didn't care anymore and didn't think so. She still has many male suitors, including some people in other classes, but she always refuses them all, and she has never opened a single love letter. It was also because of her presence that the male classmates in the class restrained their insults to me. ”

"That time was the happiest and most reassuring day for me in high school. She taught me to play the piano and sing, and I helped her with her homework and taught her to recognize some flowers and plants. Rosemary, on the other hand, was one of her favorite flowers I had ever known. She once asked me which kind of flower I liked the most, I said it was a yellow rose, she said that this flower is very similar to me, very kind, very gentle, Bi Jing The flower language of this flower is the meaning of good wishes, it sounds like having a benevolent heart and a big heart. Therefore, she would give me a yellow gem from time to time, saying that it was also to commemorate our pure friendship. ”

"If only everything had come to a standstill, she would have regarded me as my most cherished friend, and I would have regarded her as the most important thing in my life

of a person. Mother's tone sounded full of sadness and some remorse, she took a deep breath, as if her hand was making up her mind, she was making an important choice, so she comforted herself, "I want to continue, after you listen to what your mother said, you may hate me, and you may feel ashamed of me." But I'm going to keep talking, and I don't blame you for what you think of me, Bi Jing, this is my sin, and it's the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life. And it's something I can't make up for in my life. ”

Nan Nan heard her mother say this, and looked at her as her head that she didn't want to raise in the end, Nan Nan knew that her mother was afraid of something, so she said: "Mom, don't worry, no matter what you do, I won't be disgusted with you."

Mother picked up the cup of rose tea that she had been holding in her hand, her hand shook slightly, and she put the cup to her lips, just took a small sip, and then put it back on her knee.