Lao Ding can only pray now that she will have a faint flood of sympathy, otherwise there is really no way.

Don't look at Bai Ji on weekdays, he looks like he is very aggressive, but when he encounters emotional problems, his witty brain is instantly paralyzed, it seems that God has opened a window for his cleverness, but at the same time, it has also created a mountain road eighteen bends for his emotional route!

I don't know if the manpower will change in this thing that God has already destined for in the middle of the day, Lao Ding is looking forward to it.

Lao Ding sighed for this, if he could put in the same amount of energy during his relationship, he might be broken up...... He's always afraid to say these bad things, and even if Shiroji inadvertently mentions him, he will avoid it.

"Let's call this a knife in the ribs for friends!" Lao Ding comforted himself in a low voice, and he was afraid of waking up Bai Ji, who was asleep.

"You got up early enough" Lao Ding turned his head like a thief, and was relieved to see that it was manganese.

In Lao Ding's view, this plan is a top-secret operation, a loving rescue plan specifically to save the fragile little hearts of his roommates, but he can't let the parties know about it anyway.

"You got up so early, too?" Lao Ding pretended to look natural.

Mangni glanced at him, "Get used to it"

On the way to find a part-time job again, Xinrou met someone by chance, and she hadn't seen each other for several years, and that sense of familiarity still existed......

He is the person he met at the helpless night, even if so much time has passed, but the excitement in his heart still can't be stopped, Xinrou is afraid that at this time she can only take off all her defenses against the person in front of her.

He was an elegant gentleman in a black robe, and even his smile was extremely healing, the difference was too big from a few years ago, Xinrou was a little afraid to recognize him, but all kinds of signs showed that he was the person back then, the child who was not favored by his family back then.

"I didn't expect to meet you here, I thought we would never see each other again after I left last time," Xinrou said.

There was always a smile on his lips, and in his darkest days, the only light he had encountered was perhaps the little girl, and the two of them were each other's beacons, making the difficult nights much easier.

"I'm also very surprised, but you look much more beautiful than when you were a child, if it weren't for the name of the resume you submitted, maybe I wouldn't have chased you out, by the way, did you submit your resume to find a job?" He asked.

Xinrou nodded, but she was afraid that he would ask the next question, what is the reason for such a part-time job, she can't answer, it's not that he doesn't know the answer, but he doesn't know how to say it to the person in front of him.

However, he didn't ask the question, and Xinrou was relieved.

"When you went back that day, was everything okay?" He asked.

Maybe Xinrou can't even answer this question, whether it's good or not, she becomes hesitant, and the reason why she becomes hesitant is because she is afraid that when others know that they are not doing well, they will have a strong sense of sympathy, but they don't want sympathy to appear in this brother, but if the answer is good, this answer is obviously against the will.

Xinrou didn't answer, but this can be regarded as an indirect explanation of the answer.

"Actually, I can see from your emotions, after you left that day, my life has not changed substantially, and until now I don't dare to measure my position in their hearts, in fact, when I was a child, I couldn't understand, obviously I was the only child in this family, but they didn't show that they loved me very much.

I kept searching for answers, and I wondered if they loved me differently than other parents loved their children, and I would have missed something because of this, but in the end I didn't find any trace of their love for me anywhere, to be precise, I failed.

But after coming to a strange city, the only person I can rely on is myself, maybe it was the same when I was a child, I am used to this kind of life, and I have to get used to it, but I hope you can have a good time.

Sometimes happiness is also a necessary thing in life, we care too much about one thing, and naturally lose some very beautiful things, just like we care too much about our position in his heart, we will lose the opportunity to make ourselves happy"

He may have been a little more mature than before, but he still spoke in the tone of an older brother, as if he had returned to that night nine years ago......

Xinrou smiled bitterly, my brother always sees everything very easily, and some things can't be solved if you don't want to, just like the missed calls that keep receiving in this mobile phone, the unread text messages that you keep receiving, can you erase everything without listening to or looking? No, it's just a way to cover your ears and steal the bell, but what's actually the use? And what can be solved?

"So what's my brother's life like now? I think it's a lot better than before."

He smiled, not a very hearty smile, "What is the concept of good, is it better to be less stressed than before, or to stay away from that environment, in fact, you and I know that thing best in our hearts, since it has happened, it is difficult to erase it."

People say that time can heal all wounds, but after so long, how do I feel that the trauma is getting bigger and more painful, and who can understand it except those of us who have experienced it firsthand? ”

Xinrou nodded along, will time solve everything? Or will it make people forget the pain in their hearts?

"I have only said these things to you, because you can understand that perhaps talking to others about them behind their backs will be a kind of joke, a kind of after-dinner joke, and what is the point of being cheap yourself.

Maybe I'm better off now than I used to be, when I was a kid I was around them, and all I could do was try to be on the board and compete for their favor, but I found that no matter what I did, it was always in vain, and I wouldn't do that now, because I think that would be stupid.

I'm far away from them, I'm staying in this city, trying to change the pain I was hurting before, no matter how much time passes, I won't forget what you said to me that day, it will be our forever secret, right? ”

He is naïve like a child, the damage caused by childhood, it takes a lifetime to make up for it, parents often have a huge impact on their children, when a child tries his best to get a little care but doesn't get anything, sensible and dare not say anything in front of them.

"Yes, it's our forever secret"

"Whatever happens, it's important to see what you think, not to put yourself in their shoes in the first place, because sometimes it's not worth it, and I can understand that.

Especially when they appear in front of me and say something that makes me sad, they've been through this age before, and they know that those words are very painful, but they want to say it, so why is that?

I have thought about this question countless times, and I have been trying to find an answer, but when I find an answer, I feel inexplicable heartache, and instead of looking for an answer, I should look for myself."

Instead of looking for answers, why not look for yourself? Xinrou didn't understand, and she didn't know what her brother had been through in the past few years, although he smiled happily on the surface, who could understand the sadness in his heart.

No child is strong from an early age, without being cared for, not expected to be without the warmth of home, his heart has long become empty, and he has to pretend to smile on the surface.

"Be sure to pay attention to your own body, the body is the capital of the revolution, we will encounter more cruel things than this on the road in the future, no one accompanies the previous road, and no one accompanies the future road, the most important thing is to find yourself"

His words continued to ache in the depths of Xinrou's heart, Xinrou's experience during this time was also very unpleasant, no one around her could confide these feelings, if you told them casually, what you got was either sarcasm or ridicule, why bother.

"Thank you, brother, I will definitely take good care of my body, I will work hard to go on the road in the future" Xinrou could feel the vibration in the mobile phone, and the long-term vibration indicated that it was a call, but she didn't want to answer.

The last time I called was a few days ago, the content was the same as usual, but every time I called, Xinrou was always extremely panicked, always afraid that the phone would ring and it was their number that appeared on it......

"Have you been in trouble lately?" He is observant.

Xinrou pretended that nothing had happened, "No.... Nope! ”

"Tell me anything, I'll help you, there's no need to hide anything from me," he said.

"I.... Recently, something happened at home and I needed money, so I could only go out and work part-time everywhere to earn some money for the family, but when the family came, the phone calls became more and more urgent, and I haven't found a new part-time job yet" Xinrou let down her guard against her brother.

"So your family needs you to send money back now?"

"Hmm"

He didn't say anything, and immediately took out a black wallet from his briefcase, took out a small wad of cash from it, put it on the table, and pushed it in front of her.

"What is this for?" Xinrou asked.

"The family is short of money, so I told me, don't make yourself so tired, now I have a job position, at least I can support myself, you are still in college, if you spend all your time to earn money, what can you learn in school?"

"But... But if I take my brother's money, I will be very unhappy in my heart, and I can't delay your own life because of me! Aren't you living alone in this big city now, I know, it's not easy, so there's no need to do it for me."

"I hope I don't say anything to me again, I am already very glad that there are people in this world who can understand me, these things cannot be exchanged for money, and you can earn them again when the money is gone, but once some things disappear, you can never meet them again"

Xinrou cried in front of him again, just like that night a few years ago, she was a frustrated and helpless person again, and so was him at this moment.