Once again, she had nightmares.

It's still those pictures, about Li Jingyan, about children.

At first, it was still good, she was really smiling in the dream, and the scenes that appeared were the stories that Li Jingyan once told her, it was she who was Shi Huan and he was Lu Ye.

When she first met him, it seemed that she was incompatible, he teased her, and she became his subordinate three times and twice.

Later, it was she who quietly had a liking for him, and then he rejected him, and then something happened, he admitted that they had a lot of happy days together......

All the pictures seem to be as Li Jingyan narrates, completely emerging in her dreams, as if it is also her memory recovery.

However, happy days are always short-lived.

Especially those happiness is actually a dream that each has its own secret.

The happiness disappeared, the darkness took its place, and even the air in the dream seemed to be stained with a faint smell of blood, filling Mu Shihuan's ears and nose, and surrounded her impenetrably, until it was completely submerged.

She was like drowning and wanted to struggle, but the picture changed again, and it became the picture that first appeared in her dream-

She and Li Jingyan held guns against each other, there was a cry of a baby, and there was a strong smell of blood.

If so, she could tell herself that it was just a dream, but the next second the gunshot rang out, it was Li Jingyan who fell in front of her, and it was not herself who hit him in the heart, it was someone else.

She was tied up, her head was pressed into the water, and she couldn't save him.

Then she cried.

The fundus of the eye bursts.

Mu Shihuan knew that this was a dream, and she wanted to wake up, but no matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't wake up.

On the contrary, it is getting deeper and deeper.

She even saw the image of him being admitted to the hospital, and saw that the lights in the operating room were on all night and never turned off.

She was still crying, and in the end there were no more tears.

And then ......

It's the kids.

The child was crying and annoyed, unable to speak, but still questioning why she could not protect her, why she was separated, why she was suffering......

She wanted to explain, she wanted to hold the child.

waited to hug her, but found that the person in her arms had become a little star, and the little star could speak, grabbing her and saying non-stop, she was her child, why didn't she want her.

She tried hard to speak, but she couldn't make any sound.

Until, another gunshot rang out.

"Ahh

Mu Shihuan opened his eyes suddenly.

She gasped for air, her chest heaving violently.

It took a long time for her to really convince herself that it was really just a dream.

Look, the ceiling overhead, the soft bed left, and a faint scent in the air, not blood.

It's a dream.

She told herself over and over again that it was a dream, don't think about it, don't be afraid.

But......

Moist cheeks.

She felt the tears, and her face was full of tears, and she couldn't stop it.

For a moment, her vision blurred as if she could no longer see, and her breathing became difficult.

She couldn't control the sadness at all.

Tears fell drop by drop.

"Miss Mu!" Gao Jia wanted to come in to see her situation, but she didn't expect to hear the cry keenly, and she was immediately startled, and hurriedly ran to the bedside, "Miss Mu? ”

She carefully lifted her up.

Mu Shihuan is still crying.

Gao Jia saw this

, and hurriedly went to the bathroom to wipe her tears with a wet towel.

"Is it a nightmare?" She was worried, "Or is there something uncomfortable?" Miss Mu, if you have anything, you must tell me, okay? ”

With tears in his eyes, Mu Shihuan looked at Gao Jia in despair, speechless.

Gao Jia had no choice but to coax her with the child: "Miss Mu, the doctor said, you have to keep your body and mind happy, your emotions can affect the baby, you are sad, and the baby is also sad." ”

Baby......

Mu Shihuan's eyelashes trembled.

By the way, her child, she wants to keep this child.

The trembling hand subconsciously touched her lower abdomen, trying to feel the presence of the child, and she tried even harder to stop crying and try to control that emotion.

Maybe it was the child who gave her strength, or maybe the traces left by the nightmare were slowly disappearing, and gradually, the tears stopped falling.

Gao Jia paid attention to her situation and breathed a sigh of relief.

She thought for a while and said, "Miss Mu, you fell your knee at that time and had a high fever that night, do you remember?" ”

Mu Shihuan looked at her in a trance.

Gao Jia wanted to speak again and again, and finally seemed to have finally made up her mind, and said cautiously: "At that time, the family doctor said that your condition was not very good, and that you had a heart knot, Miss Mu, you had a nightmare, is it related to the heart knot?" ”

Heart Knot......

Mu Shihuan pursed his lips, and his breathing was a little heavy.

Gao Jia was worried.

"I'm sorry Miss Mu, I didn't want to know about your **," she explained, "I'm just worried about you." ”

She was in a hurry.

Mu Shihuan saw it in his eyes, and said hoarsely and slowly: "...... I know, thank you. ”

Gao Jia was silent.

Forget it, she thought, now that she said that, she didn't care if she said anything more.

She spoke again: "Miss Mu, although I have only been with you for a short time, I don't know how you were in the past, but in my feelings, you are very unhappy, and you have something hidden in your heart, as if you will not vent. ”

Sighing imperceptibly, she continued: "You don't speak, you are silent, as if you have locked yourself in your own world, as if you are resisting everything, even if you have a high fever that time. ”

"Miss Mu," she squatted down beside the bed, gently grabbed her hand, looked into her eyes and said, "Mr. Li sent you here, he must be for your own good, don't blame him." ”

"You have to get better, for yourself and for the baby in your belly."

……

In the evening, Mu Shihuan sat on the balcony reading a book, and the words of Gao Jia's persuasion would pop up from time to time in her mind, although she was reading a book, but the page had not been turned for a long time.

There is a gentle breeze blowing, bringing a faint fragrance of flowers in the distance.

She lowered her eyes and looked at her lower abdomen for a long time, it was still very flat, but there was already a child belonging to her.

She should be fine, for the sake of the children.

This child, she can't live without, she needs this child.

"Tick-"

Tears fell on the page, and soon the water dizzed and blurred a piece of writing.

Mu Shihuan raised her hand, tried to wipe away her tears, tried to restrain her emotions, she told herself over and over again, don't think about it, it's okay, she will be fine.

She could.

She patiently did the psychological construction for herself.

However, in the evening, it was out of control again.

She had nightmares again.

This time, she actually dreamed of Yu Linshang.

Yu Linshang in the dream finally lost all disguise in front of her, the slightly cool saber was against her face, and he smiled warmly but also very cruelly

asked her to choose, whether to choose a child or Li Jingyan.

He said that the child did not die, it was in his hands, and asked her if she wanted to know.

He also said that her titular father, Mu Jingzhou, was indeed killed by him, and he described the scene in her ear, covered with blood, and Mu Jingzhou died to save her.

He also said that she could choose again, Li Jingyan or her only best friend Li Yan.

He just said, he didn't give her a choice at all, because, he shoved the knife into her hand and asked her to choose, reminding her viciously that whether everyone else was dead or alive was all in her thoughts.

However, she could only choose one to survive.

Li Jingyan, children, smoke, and even ...... There are also Chi Wu, and Little Star.

Yu Linshang asked her to choose and forced her to choose.

She didn't want to, she tried to resist, but he still grabbed her hand and stabbed it into Li Jingyan's body, just like she lost control of her emotions and hurt Li Jingyan with her own hands before the divorce.

The picture is so familiar.

He was bleeding profusely, and he looked at himself......

Soon, the picture changed, and it turned into Yu Linshang forcing her to feed a cup of poisonous tea into Li Jingyan's mouth.

He collapsed, and finally the lights in the operating room stayed on.

Mu Shihuan woke up, and woke up with tears on his face, panting, his fingers clutching his pajamas and couldn't stop his tears, and he could only be vaguely comforted when he stroked his lower abdomen.

For a long, long time, she slowed down for a long time before she stabilized her mood a little.

This time, she didn't call Gao Jia in, she didn't want Gao Jia to stay by her side day and night, and she couldn't sleep well and couldn't rest, so she lifted the quilt and slowly got out of bed, and slowly walked into the bathroom to wash her face.

The lights in the bedroom were on, and she didn't dare to turn them off, and she didn't want to turn them off, she didn't want to be in the dark.

After washing his face, he wanted to turn around and go out, but he saw the jacuzzi.

In an instant, Mu Shihuan's heart trembled fiercely, almost reflexively, the feeling of suffocation that was submerged in water poured into her chest, her face turned pale, and she hurriedly left and lay back on the bed.

Leaning on the pillow behind his back, his fingers clutching the quilt, Mu Shihuan forced himself to forget those dreams and forget the feeling just now.

The bedroom was quiet, except for the sound of her breathing.

Suddenly thinking that there was a soothing incense to buy when she went shopping today, she got out of bed again and found it, turned on the aroma diffuser, and after a while, a faint fragrance filled the air.

seems to be able to really calm his nerves, Mu Shihuan vaguely felt that his nerves were not so tense, and even the strength of holding the quilt slowly relaxed.

It's just that......

When the tension is no longer tight, the rest of the picture becomes clear.

For example, Li Jingyan.

She found that she was thinking about it.

In the dead of night, he would always appear in her mind, even in her heart, whether she admitted it or not.

Li Jingyan......

Mu Shihuan was in a trance, and couldn't help but think, what is he doing at this moment?

……

Her heart is extremely eager to need this child, Mu Shihuan worked hard to adjust herself, she worked hard to eat, walked hard, and tried to blend in with the excitement of the outside world.

It seems to be doing well.

However, every night is always difficult, always prone to nightmares, always uncomfortable, always ...... I think of Li Jingyan, but during the day it is a different scene.

Day by day, and so on.

Soon, another half a month passed.

One morning, Mu Shihuan began morning sickness, and the reaction was very strong, he vomited whatever he ate, he couldn't even smell a lot of smell, and his face turned pale.