"Xinrou:

If there were a choice in life, perhaps some people would not choose to be born at all

Because that's her greatest luck."

"How's it going, have you thought about it?" He looks so confident.

My father was pushed against the wall, and even his words became trembling.

"No.... No, you can't".

But that wasn't the answer those men were expecting, and the fist went over his father's face and turned red and swollen.

The nine-year-old girl shouted nervously and frightenedly, "Daddy, Daddy~".

But a few people next to her squatted down with interest and gathered around her, "Little sister, I'm going to change my name in the future."

"Daddy, Daddy, let's go!".

"Let's go? Where to go, this is your own volition, no one forced you, since you came, you should first negotiate the conditions, otherwise how can you let you go so easily."

The nine-year-old girl looked hazy in her father's direction, why did these people say that they would mortgage themselves for a few days? Isn't wanting money their ultimate goal? Or is your mortgage tied to money?

I heard the children next door say that some bad people will sell their children to another province and never return home, do they want to do the same.....

"No, Daddy, don't let me leave you, okay..... I want to stay with you and don't promise them "How desperate it would be if you never came home, a nine-year-old girl could realize this, she wanted to go home."

"The opportunity has been given to you, if you don't make a choice now, I'm afraid your whole family won't continue to live well, it's just a mortgage for a few days, why be so nervous?".

A stream of blood was already flowing from the corner of his father's mouth, and he couldn't leave if he wanted to look at so many people around him.

"You're not going to do anything to my daughter, are you?"

"What are you talking about? We're just going out to play with her for a few days, how can we do anything to her, now is not the time for you to negotiate terms with us, if you ask these boring questions like this again, I'm afraid even you won't be able to leave! ”。

Xinrou saw her father's nodding movement, did her father really want to mortgage himself to those people? Would he really do that?

"I'll pick her up in a few days, please be sure to treat her well."

Xinrou saw her father in the distance reluctant to look at this side, but in the end she turned around and ran wildly....

Did my father really leave like that? He is the dearest and most beloved father who has been by his side since he was a child, but in this moment of crisis, he didn't stand firmly on his side, is this the so-called family affection?

If this matter were changed to her mother, would she choose this way, is she really the most redundant one in the family......

Tears continued to flow from the corners of her eyes, and she stared blankly at her father's back, and he was gone.

"Little sister, since your father has made a choice, for the sake of your father and mother, you can play with us here for a few days, and your whole family will have a good life" Several people around looked at themselves with a very strange look.

"I don't want my father back, I don't believe that my father abandoned me like this...."The nine-year-old girl still couldn't believe her father, so she completely abandoned herself, the empty street, and her father never appeared again, is it said that she is a burden to the family?

"See? This is your home, you can abandon anyone's home, everyone's purpose is to live, and only by letting you leave this home can they live."

That night, they prepared a room for themselves, clean, and there were a few dolls in it.....

A nine-year-old girl, who has never seen these before, is this the favorite thing to play in the city, the latest doll is so cute.

Xinrou rushed over and held these dolls in her hands, which were really soft and fluffy.

There is also a princess bed in the room, I remember in the cartoon I saw on other people's TV, the princess's bed is like this, what a dreamy feeling.

There was no one else in the room for a whole few hours, everything around her made her curious, but she was still very disappointed, she still didn't believe that her father left like this, it was a choice made by his father.....

Then someone finally knocked on the door and walked in.

is an elder brother with the appearance of a scholar, he gives people a kind feeling, completely different from those people just now.

"Little sister, before you came here, I arranged the surroundings well, are you still used to the environment here?" He speaks in a gentle tone that gives a sense of security.

Xinrou is still scared, all this is unknown to her, unknown environment and unknown people....

"Don't be afraid, in fact, we have no malicious intentions, and we don't want to do anything to you, in fact, we lack a sister in our family, my parents have always wanted to have a girl, but in the end there is still no way, until you appear today, I believe they will be very happy to see you" said the brother.

Xinrou sat on one side of the bed, the soft sheets on the side of the bed were still pink, and the one at home was black, because it was dirt-resistant, and it didn't have to be washed all the time and saved water.

But black always gives people a very dull feeling, no lively temperament at all, and sits there every day doing some manual work.

"You know, in fact, I was treated as a girl by my family when I was very young, they would give me a girl's little dress, and I had long hair, when I went to school, the teachers and classmates always laughed at me, I don't know why, my parents always didn't pay attention to me, just because I was a boy, I don't understand, the same is their flesh and blood, why do they want a daughter......" The big brother sat on the other side of the bed, as if telling his heart....

Perhaps because of her eldest brother's words, the nine-year-old girl relaxed her mental guard and was not so nervous.

"But I have never said this kind of words, only you have heard it, in front of them, I always show a lot of magnanimity and do not care about anything, but only I know best in my heart, in fact, I care most about my attitude, but they have never really cared about what I want, nor have I experienced the life I want, at that time I was very envious of other children, from them, I can feel the happiness of the family, but from my own body I can not feel anything, from beginning to end, I seem to be living alone, it's just a surname on the household register....." When the eldest brother said this, he looked very lost, but a few seconds later, he showed the smiling face when he first entered the door.

Xinrou didn't expect that a brother with such a sunny appearance would have so many troubles, and she didn't expect that his family living in a big city would not be as happy as it seemed on the surface.

"But you are still much happier than me, if it weren't for my father's lack of firm choice of me, I'm afraid I wouldn't have come here...."In the end, he still chose to leave, no matter how loud he shouted, he shouted his voice until he was hoarse, he didn't look back, his choice was so firm, or did he have a previous idea....

He was silent for a few seconds, then turned his head and smiled brightly.

"We couldn't choose the life we had before, but we can make our own decisions about our current life."

What this means, the nine-year-old girl could not understand.

"Actually, you're mentally strong enough, and if I hadn't made such a firm choice, I'm afraid I wouldn't have gone back to that home," he said.

"Can I go back again?".

"It's not whether you can or not, it's whether you want to, and if you want, you can stay in our house forever."

It's not whether you can, but whether you want to.

If there really is a choice, will people who have not been firmly chosen plan to go back? Even if I go back, will I be able to live like before? But is staying in the current environment really the life you want?

All this, a nine-year-old girl, can't figure it out, just hopes to be able to stay by her mother's side, at the very least, to be able to feel her mother's love.

"But I can feel that my brother is living a happy life now, but why is there so many things hidden in his heart, why didn't he make it clear to your parents at that time?"

He smiled bitterly, "There are some things that can't be explained clearly, just like those grievances suffered in childhood, you have to pay them back slowly when you grow up, alas, what's the use of me telling you this, you can't understand, but I still hope you can be happy, at least find something that can make you happy."

What can I do to make myself happy?

When I was a child, I was already very happy to be able to accompany my parents, but now I have not been firmly chosen, and I only see the back of my father's hasty departure.

She was angry, angry that her father was so resolute when he left, didn't she think that maybe this time she would have no return?

She cried, and she couldn't go back to the past in the future, the originally happy family was like a dream, and when she woke up, there was nothing left....

"Brother, I don't want to see my father again, and I don't want to go back to that home, can you let me leave by myself in a few days?" Xinrou didn't know what the future would hold, but her determination was still strong.

"You want to leave alone, but that's dangerous, and I don't agree with you doing that."

"Why didn't my brother just say that he was going to find his own happiness? I didn't dare to go home, I was afraid that when I got home and saw my father's face, I would be afraid, I would be afraid, I would remember the fact that my father did not firmly choose me, and I didn't want to stay here....".

"But no matter what, you are still related by blood, just like me, although I have never been loved by my parents, but I am still their child, and I always smile happily in front of them."

"Why do you pretend to be happy when you're not happy, brother, why do you do this?"

He smiled wryly.

"I used to think the same as you, just trying to express my emotions, but then I thought that even if they didn't care for me, they still brought me into this world, this is a fact that there is no way to change, I can only try to accept it, even if I pretend to be a smile" This is a very painful thing for him.

Who can understand the emptiness in the heart of a child who has not been pampered by the family?

"But I can't, I can't see him again, he does that, obviously he doesn't want me anymore, he just doesn't want me anymore, I want him to never see me again" The nine-year-old girl cried very sadly, and the favor she had received before suddenly disappeared at this moment.

If he had another chance to choose, would he still turn around and run away?