"Xinrou:

The reason for the insecurity is that it has never been firmly chosen.

Especially at the age of nine, the back that resolutely ran away.

I won't be able to forget ...... for a long time."

"You should think about it, because if you miss something, you will never be able to come back," he said.

But it was obvious that he wanted to miss it, and he didn't have a firm choice.

She cried, crying about her own weakness, if she shouted a few more times at that time, would he turn back.....

He stayed with him, as if he was looking at himself as a child, the feeling of weakness and powerlessness.

"You said if you were given another chance to choose again, would he make the same choice?" Xinrou asked.

"And what choice do you expect him to make?"

"I used to want him to take me away, but now I don't think so, even if he didn't choose me, I should live well, right?"

"There is nothing wrong with living well."

After the brother left the room, the room was quiet again, and she cried again when she was alone in the big room, and she didn't forget, she was still a nine-year-old child.

The people around me are very kind to them, and they take care of them like family, but even so, there is still a sense of alienation that cannot be approached.

It's been two days, he hasn't come yet, maybe he doesn't want to come again at all, that family has lost itself, maybe it's better than before.

Without expectation, there is no loss.

Even though she breathed a sigh of relief in her heart, she was still looking forward to the next second that heroic father would appear in front of her.

But after so long, dozens of hours, more than 2,000 minutes, more than 100,000 seconds, he still didn't show up.

I am like a dirty doll that has been discarded, no one wants to pick it up and wash it again, everyone is willing to buy a new doll.

Finally there was a knock on the door, but it wasn't him.

It was a middle-aged couple who walked over with beaming faces.

"Oh, this little girl is really beautiful, but the clothes she wears don't fit well."

"Yes, the little girl is so cute, it seems that we really don't have this blessing, if we also have a girl, how nice it would be."

The nine-year-old girl could tell from this that the two people who said this might be the parents of the older brother.

"How are you doing here?".

Xinrou nodded, "Everything is fine" but she didn't feel at ease.

"That's fine, we're afraid you're hungry here, so we've got a lot of delicious food for you, and we've brought you a few new clothes, I don't know how you're going to wear them."

"Hurry up and get the stuff over there."

The brother also pushed the door in, holding a bunch of things in his hand, with a smile on his face.

"Come on, all your stuff is here," my brother said with a smile.

It's a couple of small dresses with doll collars, pink and tender, just like those drawn in the cartoon, princess clothes.

Xinrou never dared to expect that one day she would wear such beautiful clothes in such a situation, and it was all thanks to her father's decisive departure, for a nine-year-old girl, if she let these two options choose herself, I am afraid she still wants to live her previous life.

"Child, would you like to live with us? There is a shortage of a little princess in our house, and if you want to come, we will welcome you up! ”。

The nine-year-old girl looked at her brother who was standing on the side with a smile on his face and shook her head, she might be able to understand her brother's sadness at this moment.

"I'm used to my old life" is the reason she made up casually.

"Since you think so, we can't do anything, but we still hope that you can stay here, we will definitely pamper you more than your parents, and if you are willing to stay with us, we will give you all the good."

Maybe they will really do it, they have the money, and they don't need to do any manual work.

"If you want to give me these things, it's better to give them all to my brother, my brother is a person who needs love" Xinrou looked at the smiling brother on the side.

"He's fine right now, he doesn't need a lot of love from us, boys are different from girls, they don't need special care."

It turns out that this is the reason they used to reject their brother, and even then, the brother is willing to stay with them, is it really worth it?

A few days later, he finally showed up.

He didn't know what the nine-year-old girl had been through these days, and he didn't know what he had been through in the past few days.

"After so many days, you finally remembered your daughter, and thought you wouldn't come, what did you do this time?" It was still a few people with sticks pinned to him in those days.

"I'm here to find my daughter".

"Don't forget that last time, you chose to leave, we didn't force you to do anything, since you chose to leave, then why did you want to come back? I heard that your family is very poor, and if you have a daughter, you may have a lot less burden! I think you can see what I mean."

He hesitated.

Xinrou ran out of the house and stood right in front of him.

"What are you doing this time? You've obviously made your choice, which means that I don't matter to you at all, and that home is dispensable to me, right? "It is a great sorrow for a nine-year-old girl to have a wounded heart beneath her strong exterior, and she has not been firmly chosen.

He didn't know how to speak, but his daughter was intact.

"You say, at all times, you're going to do what you did that day, right? In that case, then I don't want to go back to that home again, just because nothing happened before" Of course, this is her angry words.

She didn't really want to leave that home, but she still had a breath in her heart, and she never swallowed it.

Seeing that her father did not speak, she ran away.

I often came here with my father to sell things, and I was familiar with the way back home, and I ran home.

It was a familiar place, but now every time I get closer, I am always very apprehensive, if I go back, will I still be firmly chosen?

That brother is right, once you lose something, you can't regret it, maybe you should go back.

Back in the yard, my mother ran out of the house, was stunned for a few seconds, and suddenly hugged her.

"You're back, I've been really worried about you these days, you haven't been hurt in any way, have you?"

"So the way you're worried about me is to wait at home?" Xinrou asked.

Maybe that's not what a nine-year-old girl should say.

"It's good to come back".

"Am I a dispensable presence for you in this home?"

"Don't say that, we all want you to come back. But you also know that your father is so weak, and there are many things we really can't do to make you feel wronged."

Mother hugged her tightly, but she could no longer feel the warmth of the past, and from that moment on, she became the same as me.

Maybe it's like that brother, who has a different way to cover himself.

She has always obeyed the arrangement of her family, but her heart is constantly dueling.

From that day on, home may not be called home, but just a place to escape.

And now she finally left that place, and never to go back.....

She had never mentioned it to anyone, and she had never met the brother she had seen before.

It has never been firmly chosen, this is the biggest knot in her heart, this knot has not been untied, and it has been there since she was nine years old.

They didn't mention to their families what they had experienced in those days, as if they had a tacit understanding, but the more they were silent, the more sad she became.....

Malt has been very irritable lately, I really don't know when that boy chose to leave, does he really want to be around him all the time?

"Brother, don't follow me anymore, don't you really have something you want to do?" Malt was no longer domineering towards him, and now it had become a begging style, praying for him to leave.

"Of course I have what I want to do, just like now, as long as I can be by your side, it is my happiest time, have you heard of a saying that it is better to demolish ten temples than to break a marriage, you can't discourage my enthusiasm."

"I'd rather demolish ten temples than one marriage, you're not using it properly, right? We don't have anything else to do with each other, so don't put gold on your face anymore!! "Malt is helpless.

"You see that you don't let me pursue my happiness now, do you just let me die alone for the rest of my life? Don't be so cruel! ”。

He tugged at Malt's sleeve and swayed from side to side, which was not like what a handsome boy could do.

"Let go!".

"No, if I want to let go, you have to leave, no matter what, I will be by your side, be the warmest little sun around you, and send you warmth all the time."

.....

"Go and send warmth to others, I'm afraid you'll torture me."

"Of course I won't do that, I'm just your sun, I'm very single-minded."

No matter what you say to him, he always jumps to a different point and finds a very peculiar angle.

In the end, he will describe himself as particularly pitiful to win sympathy, and the malt is really a little unbearable.

"You said that as long as I can catch up with Senior Mangni, you will never come to pester me again, do you remember this?" I really can't do it, so I can only use ruthless tricks.

"Okay, but I heard that you've been chasing Senior Mangni for so long, isn't it still fruitful, if you really can't do it, you just give up, or you come to chase me, I'll be easy to chase, especially you" He smiled and raised his eyebrows.

"Hmph, you obviously look down on me, why do you think I can't catch up with Senior Mangni, I'm really going to chase Senior Mangni, show you!!" The malt was immediately boosted.

"This gives you a lot of power, okay, okay, anyway, before you catch up with Senior Mangni, I will definitely catch you first, anyway, I have this confidence, I don't know if you have this confidence."

Malt gritted his teeth angrily, "You wait for me!" ”。

"Do you eat strawberry-flavored ice cream?" He changed the subject.

When did he also know that he liked strawberry-flavored ice cream?

"How do you know I like strawberry-flavored ice cream?" Malt looked him straight in the eye.

"You think I just play basketball every day when I play basketball!"

What does this mean? Do you still quietly look at others? He's really capable of doing two things.

"You won't..... Watching me all the time? Malt asked.

"I didn't observe you, I'm flirting with you, do you feel it, they all say that I have thick eyebrows and big eyes, girls will like it, and you will be no exception, right?"

He really has this confidence!

"I don't see, oh, by the way, I'm not a girl!".