Childhood

When I was 13 years old, I came to Brother Li Chen's house, his family was very large, and my parents were friends with his family.

Li's mother likes me very much and always tells me that there is a lovely little daughter at home named Li Luo, but I have never seen her in the past few times.

I remember that day, it was very hot, Brother Li Chen and I were playing games at home, and there was a crisp and pleasant singing voice in the yard, it was Li Luo.

I put down the game in my hand and ran out as I straightened my clothes and hair.

A girl with two ponytails and smiling eyes appeared in front of me, her face was dirty, full of sweat, holding a plastic toy shovel in her hand, and she was jumping up and down with Li's mother about the interesting things that happened with her friends today, which was very lively.

The big watery eyes, small nose, and soft face made people want to take a bite, and they also made my ignorant heart stop beating a beat.

On this day, she came into my life and into my heart.

"Who are you? You're so white~"

Li Luo turned her head and saw me, and ran towards me, like a dirty doll, she was a head shorter than me, interesting.

"My name is Leng Yanshuo, and I'm 13 years old." I was a little awkward in introducing myself to her.

"I didn't ask you how old you are... All right! Since you've introduced me to everything, I can't be rude. ”

"Hello~ My name is Li Luo, my brother's name is Li Chen, you can call me Luoluo! I'm 9 years old today. ”

Stupid, how can anyone say how old you are today.

The milky appearance of Li Luo's milk is pitying. Li's mother urged Li Luo to take a bath, saying that she was too dirty.

After taking a shower, Li Luo changed into a pink dress and ran out to find us in pink socks.

I'm a little overwhelmed by how she's so cute.

"Luoluo, you don't wear slippers!" Mama Li ran behind with her little slippers.

"Leng Yanshuo, you are the big brother, you will come to see Li Luo wearing slippers in the future." Mother Li put the little slippers in my hand, and from that day on, it became me chasing after her.

At the time, I thought I would be friends with Li Luo forever.

Li Luo no longer grabbed Li Chen to play, but pestered me every day and chattered non-stop, except for me, she didn't want anyone, she just wanted me to accompany her, and she hid behind me when she did something wrong, and shared anything fun and delicious with me.

Since I met her, Li Chen has fallen out of favor, the two parents don't think so, they have discussed it very seriously, and when we grow up, we will get married, which is a simple baby parent...

In fact, when I was 5 years old, my mother gave birth to a younger brother, cold words.

Born prematurely, in poor health, his parents' love for him is beyond my cognition, and even completely replaces my existence, I don't like this younger brother.

I never thought about fighting with him, but my father was worried that I would take everything from my brother, so I always ran to Liluo's house.

When my brother was five years old, he accidentally told his father that he wanted to manage his father's company and make the family business all over the world, and my father was very happy.

When I was 17 years old, it was the hardest year I ever lived, and my dad made me choose.

Leave abroad, give up the family business, and give it to his younger brother.

I stayed at home and tutored my younger brother to take over the company gradually, but he didn't give me any shares in the company.

I chose to leave, and until now I don't know if I made the right choice.

Before leaving, I quietly went to see her, and the appearance of being forced to learn piano by Li's mother at home made people laugh.

I also want to be by her side all the time and be her protector, but I don't have anything now, Li Chen told me that if you want to marry her sister, you must have some extraordinary skills.

That peeking is the last time we have to look.

I came to country M alone, I had no relatives or friends around me, although the school was first-class, but my heart was still lonely, I didn't like to make friends, because at that time I thought that the only one who could help me was myself.

I miss the girl who filled my heart and my life.

I successfully finished high school, and when I first entered my freshman year, I was looked down upon by my classmates, who looked down on people from country C, and I had fights and entered the game.

The more careful I became, the more I neglected the calculations of my friends who called me brothers.

When I first learned to smoke, I couldn't even hold a cigarette steadily, and I was stupid to death, and my cigarettes were bought by my friends.

It wasn't until one day I ran out of stock that I realized something was wrong.

This smoke is problematic.

Yes, I took drugs without knowing it...

I was so angry that I confronted them with resentment and fought together, but they said that in this country, this is normal.

But I won't allow me to make such mistakes, I can't be imperfect, and I'm going back to marry her.

I missed, broke that friend, and almost died.

I also paid the price for this, taking drugs, negligently hurting people, and putting me in prison at a young age...

Three years in prison.

I was also treated unfairly in prison.

These three years are the darkest three years for me, I desperately think about Li Luo, and I replay the precious memories that belong to us over and over again in my mind, supporting myself not to give up on myself.

I exercised like crazy, tried with someone, and practiced my skills.

After three years, I left that dark place, I would definitely not be able to go to school, the house I had rented was repossessed, I had no money, and my proud pride did not allow me to tell my family these things.

But my dad still called, told me to clean up my mess, transferred me some money, and never contacted me again.

I put myself into work with the pain I had accumulated over the past three years.

In two years, I have made my company bigger, I admit that I have changed, I am no longer the cheerful young man, they all say that I am as my name, cold and unstoppable, but I still miss the girl who called me Leng Yan, but I dare not go back to see her.

In country M, I unexpectedly got acquainted with Murong Ran and Chu Xiao, and gradually became true brothers with them from simple business dealings.

They sometimes tell me about domestic affairs, but they rarely mention Li Luo, and I dare not mention it to them.

I'm afraid, I'm afraid that Li Luo will complain about my farewell, and I'm afraid that she won't be able to accept this person who has experienced darkness.

He Shengyu was known to me in prison, and a person in the same prison with me was named Li Feng, who was also negligent and injured people, and He Shengyu often came to visit Li Feng.

At that time, there were only two of us from country C who were in the same prison, so He Shengyu would also take some care of me, and often brought us some things to relieve my boredom.

Li Feng is a very dull person, and he doesn't have a deep friendship with people, he only does things for He Shengyu and explores something for him.

In the ten years of country M, I have experienced life and death, stepped through the darkness, been a beggar, and made people fearful, and suddenly one day, I felt that it was time for me to go back.

Just go back and see, quietly, like the day I left.

I never take the initiative to mention the past 10 years to anyone, because even if I say it, no one will really understand my experience.

When I went to country Y on a business trip, I unexpectedly learned from He Shengyu that the person he was about to marry was Li Luo, the girl I had been thinking about for more than ten years.

I have to admit that this world is so small that you can't understand the arrangement of this fate.

The day I saw her, I was so excited, I wanted to rush over and hug her, and ask her, do you blame me, do you miss me all these years.

But I didn't, there was some strangeness in her eyes and movements to me, and her heart lived in He Shengyu, no longer the girl who pestered me.

She still doesn't like to wear slippers, but the person who ran after her became He Shengyu.

The Luoluo that only I can call, he has replaced me, and it is no longer my exclusive use.

Time has passed, and everything has changed.

Memories become blurry.

Years of drinking and socializing have left me with a stomach problem that is extremely difficult to cure, and I have tried desperately to control its pain, but to no avail.

I secretly added something to the medicine and smoke, not poison, but also poison, which can make me forget the pain for a while, forget the girl who is full of He Shengyude.

But He Shengyu was not good to her, cheated, and even beat her.

I really wanted to kill He Shengyu that day, even if I plunged into the abyss, I wouldn't allow anyone to hurt her, my fall.

From that moment on, I swore to myself that even if I was in tatters, I would protect you.

I never expected that Li Luo would accept me and love me, and I was even afraid that she would be afraid of me, and I was afraid that she would see my dark side.

I tried to control myself and turn myself back into the little brother who accompanied her when I was a child and solved the mess for her.

I just want to be with her, to be by her side again, to watch over her, to watch her quietly.

The person I love, not my lover, every inch of her heart belongs to another person.

But I will not give up my love for you, and I will no longer deny that loving you and accompanying you are never two different things.

Maybe one day you will accept me like this, maybe one day you will hold someone else's hand and go to the future, maybe you are still the same you, but I am not me...

I love you, Liluo.