Volume II, Chapter 38: Disappearing
Under the urging of the drug, Nan Nan began to feel that her body was extremely heavy, and it was constantly falling, falling. Her breathing was already starting to lighten. Nan Nan's brain was gradually empty, blank, and she didn't have the strength to think about something, and the only thing she could feel now was the deep feeling of exhaustion.
And before Nan Nan really fell asleep completely, when she could still maintain the last trace of lucidity. What came to Nan's mind was a bunch of rosemary, beautifully wrapped in blue paper packaging, and it was also the bouquet of rosemary that Nan Nan was in the hospital room and on He Qin's table, which was discarded at random.
After this picture disappeared, the sleeping pills worked, perhaps because Nan Nan took some other drugs, Nan Nan fell asleep earlier today than before, and was more calm than before, but she still dreamed.
The difference is that this time, Nan Nan is not in the dark. On the contrary, she was in that light, and all around her was the same bright white as ever. Nan Nan turned around and glanced around, she was looking for the person in white, or, alternatively, she could call him Qi Yang. Nan Nan looked left and right, looking for the figure of Qi Yang in the dream, but she didn't see it, around her, only that piece of empty white light. In the midst of this, Nan Nan felt very relieved, she moved, walked, and shook her head and glanced around
The place where Nannan is located seems to be very large, and it is impossible to see the end at a glance, without any edge. Bright and dazzling, but at the same time white makes people feel comfortable, the surroundings are very quiet, there is no sound, it makes Nan Nan feel a sense of tranquility. She walked slowly, looking around without stopping. Nan Nan wanted to know what kind of place this was, and at the same time, she was still looking for Qi Yang's figure.
"I will guard you in the dark, but I will also disappear in the light." Nan Nan suddenly remembered what Qi Yang said in her first dream. Nan Nan stopped, and she began to think back that Qi Yang seemed to be slowly disappearing in this light, becoming transparent. When Nan Nan thought of this, her heart felt empty for an instant, as if something was being stripped from her body.
At this moment, Nan Nan heard the sound of a piano, and the sound of the piano was playing the tune on the sheet of music that Nan Nan looked at before falling asleep. The sound seemed to come from behind Nannan, and she immediately turned around and walked in the direction of the sound of the piano. At first, Nan Nan didn't see anything, only the bright white in front of her, and as the sound of the piano playing got closer and closer, the distance between the two of them was gradually narrowing. Nan Nan found that there was a small piece of darkness in front of her, but Nan Nan got closer and closer, and the more she walked forward, the darkness became bigger and bigger, and it became more and more unfathomable.
In the end, Nan Nan walked to the near place of darkness, and it was only one step away. That pitch black is the place where Nan Nan appeared in the first two dreams, and it is the place where she has been desperately trying to escape. And this time, Nan Nan was no longer there, she was standing in the light. For the first time, I really saw the whole appearance under the darkness, which was the same as this bright place, vast and boundless. Nan Nan suddenly realized that the pitch black and the light were the same size, except for the difference in sight and touch, and feeling, there was not much difference.
But under this black, Nan Nan vaguely saw a white piano and a piano bench of the opposite color. But sitting on the piano bench was the man in white, "Qi Yang." Nan Nan whispered his name.
A second after Nan Nan called out the name, the hands that were sitting upright on the piano bench, straightened his back, and were playing the piano dexterously, but stopped. Qi Yang's hands gently lifted the piano keys, his hands were kept at a certain distance, and he was originally facing Nan Nan on his side. At this time, Qi Yang slowly turned his head and looked at Nan Nan.
With the light of his own body, Nan Nan was able to see Qi Yang's expression at the moment. Qi Fu looked at himself with a face, he was smiling, but his eyes were full of uncontrollable sadness, and the two pear vortices below the corners of his mouth formed a distinct emphasis, "Nannan." He opened his mouth to read, and Qi Annoyance's tone still sounded so gentle, "I'm so glad that you finally stayed in the place that belongs to you." Qi Yang said this, and when he finished the last word, he showed an extremely bright smile. The sunken pear vortex of the rain, and a pair of smiling eyes are crooked, like a crescent moon.
But Nan Nan saw such Qi Yang, but she couldn't say how sad she was, "Qi Yang." But she had to repeat his name in such a whisper.
"Huh?" Qi Yang stood up from the piano bench, he turned his body to Nan Nan, but he didn't come closer.
"I'm a little scared." Nan Nan suddenly shouted in a loud voice, she really felt uneasy. For the first time, it was clear that Qi Yang was standing in front of him, but Nan Nan didn't dare or could go with him. Because, now Qi Yang is standing in the dark, surrounded by a black knot, which is what Nan Nan is most afraid of. But without the presence of Qi Yang around her, she was very unaccustomed to it, and she felt extremely frightened.
"Don't be afraid, I'm always going to be there. It's just that it doesn't happen very often, but if you need me, I'll be there for you right away. However, if one day you can really face everything independently, when you have this ability and this strength, you will not need my save. Then, I will really disappear. Qi Yang said this, he said it softly, and he still had that faint smile on his face. But between his eyebrows and eyes, there was a seriousness and seriousness that he had never had, but there was also a hint of sadness.
"I don't want you to go, and I don't want you to disappear." In fact, Nan Nan didn't understand the meaning of what Qi Yang said at all, but she just heard the words that he would disappear just like that. Nan Nan's heart swelled up with a strong sense of resistance, as if someone had deliberately taken away any part of her body, and Nan Nan was particularly resistant in this way. She couldn't tell, she couldn't tell, what kind of feeling this was, and she didn't understand what kind of emotion she had for Qi Yang.
Nan Nan knew that she seemed to be a little dependent on Qi Yang, and with him by her side, Nan Nan could always feel overly relieved, and it was natural. For Nannan, the word nature is the most appropriate for Qi Yang, the appearance of Qi Yang is natural, any move of Qi Yang is natural, and every word that Qi Yang says is natural. It's as if Qi Yang belongs to his own body, a certain part of his heart. At the same time, it is a special shelter for yourself. It was Nan Nan who was extremely reluctant to give up and opened it.
"At that time, I will not disappear until you have embraced the courage and calmness to accept everything and bear it all. But until then, I've always been there. Seeing Nan Nan's extreme refusal and anxious appearance, he had no choice but to be comforted, Nan Yang saw that Qi Yang raised his right hand, and when he was about to step away from his left leg, he hesitated. Nan Nan saw Qi Yang's feet pause in the air for a second, then retracted them again, and his raised right hand was also placed on his side again.
"No, don't you disappear." Nan Nan still heard it in a fog, but she still stubbornly rejected Qi Yang, just as she was saying that she was about to move her steps, planning to walk in the direction of Qi Yang.
"Nannan, you can't come here." Seeing Nan Nan's actions, Qi Yang stopped loudly, his body leaned forward, and he still refused to move his steps, as if he was fixed.
Just when Nan Nan was about to step into the darkness, she felt someone hold her wrist hard and exert force
Pulling back, Nan Nan was dragged back a few steps, and she returned to the light. Nan Nan turned to the side, and someone had indeed grabbed her wrist, which was a white bandaged hand that had been wrapped around it. When Nan Nan saw it, he raised his head in a panic, but he couldn't see the person's appearance clearly, he was hidden in the hat of the sportswear and the hat of the cap.
"Qi Yang." Nan Nan exclaimed, Qi Yang's appearance was unexpected by her, and Nan Nan immediately panicked and wanted to withdraw her wrist, but she was held by Qi Yang, and she couldn't break free.
"Don't go there." It was Qi Yang's deep voice, just like Nan Nan in the last dream, his voice still sounded like it had the ability to bewitch a certain subject. After Nan Nan heard this, she really stopped struggling.
Nan Nan turned her head and looked at Qi Yang's Fang Tong again. At this moment, Qi Yang breathed a sigh of relief, he seemed to be relieved, but his face was full of deep self-blame and guilt.
Qi Yang seemed to have glanced at Qi Yang first, and his expression was one of vigilance and dismay. After, Qi Yang looked at Nan Nan, his eyes were full of internal healing and sorrow, and he finally just said: "I'm sorry, Nan Nan." ”