Volume II, Chapter 37
Nan Nan first went to the bathroom to take a shower, but she didn't dare to take a bath for too long, she knew that she was extremely tired at this time, not only her physical exertion, but also Nan Nan's heart and spirit.
In today's short day, too many things have happened, and there are memories of the past mentioned by my mother. Nan Nan only felt that her mind was stuffed, and it was a mess, and she couldn't figure it out, and she couldn't even find the source, so she had no clue at all.
When Nan Nan was taking a bath, her brain and body couldn't help but relax under the filling of the heat. Nan Nan has been thinking about her mother and Aunt He Qin. Really, what her mother did really shouldn't be, she really couldn't slander Aunt He Qin, otherwise, Aunt He Qin would not have been ruined and committed suicide twice. But Nan Nan couldn't blame her mother ruthlessly, but to blame her and disgust her, her mother had been broken and suffered too much. Being bullied and humiliated by many people. Nan Nan couldn't believe that this was what such a gentle mother had suffered, everything she had experienced, and when she thought of this, Nan Nan's heart was in pain.
Under the warm moisture, Nan Nan remembered the appearance of Aunt He Qin in the same ward again, Nan Nan's first impression of her was a pure and cheerful appearance, she couldn't imagine that such a pleasant person had actually cut the skin of her wrist, and it was twice.
Nan Nan suddenly felt that her mother was very similar to Aunt He Qin, one was so gentle, and the other was so lively. But both of them had a painful experience, and this experience was caused by the two people intertwining together. The past years have tightly intertwined them, and the arrangement of fate has made her reunited again.
Nan Nan suddenly felt that in the dark, her mother, Aunt He Qin, including herself, might have more people. Just because of this reunion in disguise after many years, more and more people will be involved, so that they will be involved in this mixed wheel of fate.
Thinking of this, Nan Nan shuddered for a while, she patted her face in the warm water, wiped her body with a towel indiscriminately, and then got up, which was considered to be washed. Nan Nan didn't dare to stay in this warm and humid atmosphere for too long, she was afraid that once her body and mind relaxed, she would not be able to restrain herself from falling asleep in the warm water.
Nan Nan changed into pajamas and walked out of the bathroom. She walked to the door of her mother's room, and quietly opened the door. It was dark in my mother's room, and it was half past six, and when it was cold, night always came sooner.
Nan Nan took advantage of the light in the living room, she opened the door of her mother's room, so that the light shone into her mother's room, so that Nan Nan could still roughly see the furnishings in the room. Nan Nan carefully stepped on the bright light and approached her mother's bedside. At this time, the mother was already falling asleep, and there were still two tear stains on the mother's face, Nan Nan squatted down, and gently put her hands on the bed, she looked at her mother's frowning brows, and stretched out her right hand, put it between her mother's eyebrows, and gently stroked the deep wrinkle.
The mother's hands were placed on the outside of the quilt, at her sides. Nan Nan put her hand in the quilt for her mother, when Nan Nan's hand touched her mother's hands, it was cold and piercing, she hurriedly stood up, but still bent over.
After Nan Nan twisted the quilt for her mother and let her mother's whole body be surrounded by warmth, Nan Nan reached out and touched her mother's forehead, but she remembered that she was still in a low-grade fever, and she couldn't touch anything. Nan Nan couldn't, so she had to turn on the air conditioner in her mother's room, which didn't let her mother catch a cold.
When Nan Nan finished these things, she was about to leave her mother's room, but suddenly found that the curtains in the house were not closed. Nan Nan had no choice but to tiptoe to the window, she didn't dare to make too much noise, for fear of disturbing her mother's sleep, which was not peaceful.
Nan Nan held the two curtains with both hands and closed them in the middle little by little, afraid that the hook on the top of the curtain and the shelf that were buckled together would make a loud noise. It was during this process that Nan Nan saw the night outside the window.
The sky hung low, and the dark clouds filled the air, giving people the illusion that they could reach out and touch, under that large area of blackness. The stars are all over the place, but they don't gather, they scatter, and there are this, and that exists, and they are everywhere. They just shimmered and shimmered, very bright, and against the black background, it was as translucent and brilliant as a diamond in the light. The stars did not shine at the same time, but the one blinked, this one lit up, this one melted into black, and that one shone again. And they are all small ones, and they are really as rare as diamonds. Surrounded by these stars, there was no shadow of the moon, and it seemed to be hidden under the dark and thick clouds, without a trace, which was also in response to the words of the moon and stars.
"Tomorrow should be a good day." When Nan Nan completely closed the curtains, after Nan Nan took one last look at the quiet night sky, she thought silently in her heart.
After that, Nan Nan walked out of her mother's room with her steps, and at the last moment when she closed the door, she looked at her mother deeply for a few seconds. Nan Nan prayed in her heart that the sky would clear and her mother would get better, and she didn't want to see her mother become so uncomfortable and sad.
Nan Nan also blamed herself a little, if it weren't for herself, she wouldn't have said hello to Aunt He Qin, then she wouldn't have talked to her mother, and her mother didn't have to recall her past, her unbearable past, and tell herself.
Nan Nan closed her mother's room without making a sound. Then she turned on the light in her room, turned off the light in the living room, and went into her room.
Nan Nan closed the door of her room and locked it again. She walked over to her bed, saw the pills on the bedside table, and then remembered, and took out two boxes of pills, and the sheet music fell between the two boxes of pills and landed on the surface of the bedside table.
Nan Nan glanced at the sheet music, put it next to her pillow, and then opened the two boxes of pills, one for pills and the other for oral liquid. Nan Nan poured half a cup of water, swallowed the water according to the dosage requirements written by the doctor on the box of antipyretics, and then drank the small bottle of oral liquid, the taste was very bitter, Nan Nan couldn't help frowning, and tried to absorb it as quickly as possible. In the end, Nan Nan threw the empty bottle of oral liquid into the trash, opened the cabinet on the bedside table, took out the sleeping pills, and swallowed the little water left in the cup. After that, she put the sleeping pills back in the drawer.
Nan Nan turned on the night light, turned off the headlights in the room, and lay down on the bed, but not completely lying down, but leaning on the back of the bed. She took the sheet music from the pillow, put the quilt over her body, and just stretched out her hands and opened the sheet music that she had folded.
Under the warm lighting, this score also changed from dazzling white to pale yellow, warm and peaceful. Nan Nan looked at this score and hummed unconsciously, she wanted to know what kind of track this was, such a melody lingered in Nan Nan's mind, and it didn't disperse for a long time, bringing great comfort and tranquility to her heavy heart.
Nan Nan remembered what Aunt He Qin said, this pill was bought by her son, if Aunt He Qin's son is really Qi Yang, then,
It is highly likely that this score was written by him.
"Qi Yang." Nan Nan stopped her soft hum, but she didn't feel that she pronounced Qi Yang's name. Nan Nan's brain was empty, and she felt dizzy for a while, maybe the sleeping pills mixed with antipyretics played a certain role.
Nan Nan suddenly began to feel that her eyes were sore, and her eyelids were very heavy. When Nan Nan blinked her eyes vigorously a few times, her pupils were gone
There was a layer of mist in the middle, and everything in front of me soon became blurry, and nothing could be seen clearly.
So, Nan Nan simply closed her eyes, she still held the sheet music in her hand, just on her chest, she leaned on the back of the bed, trying to rest for a while, and her eyes were really painful.
Nan Nan closed her eyes, and because of the effect of the nightlight, what Nan Nan saw was not a piece of paint under her eyelids, but a little orange brilliance. Moreover, the tune on the score has always occupied Nan Nan's mind and refuses to disperse.
And in the same way, in Nan Nan's mind, Qi Yang's figure couldn't stop appearing, and it was the figure surrounded by the crowd when Nan Nan walked out of the hospital. and, in the bus book, she saw the figure in the police car.
An extremely thin tracksuit, a pair of ripped jeans, and a hat that would cover half of his face. Plus the white gauze on his face and hands. It's also very suitable for him, and he looks unruly and unruly.
But his image is in great contrast with the melody on the score, the tune is gentle and quiet to Nannan, and it is inexplicably able to heal her. And Qi Yang, on the contrary, Nan Nan was uneasy about him, panicked, and would do everything possible to avoid him. But Nan Nan didn't know why, she hadn't even seen him, so she was so scared.
But at the same time, Qi Yang seems to have known Nan Nan for a long time, and Nan Nan always feels familiar with him, but she can't remember it anyway.