If life had a choice, would you choose the color you liked the most?

After all, life is always colorful, but some people always regard themselves as gray, blinding themselves and lying that they can only see the gray world.

Sometimes we only need to change our perspective, and we will find that the world is actually very beautiful, not as bad as it seems, and everything comes from our imagination.

Some people are trapped in it and can't extricate themselves, while some people are lucky to be able to get out early.

If you feel that your life is full of gray at the moment, and there is no other color, maybe you are aware of the problem, and you can solve the problem only by discovering the problem, and not finding the problem is the most fatal weakness.

But it doesn't matter, some people have been stuck in the quagmire and get a little relief from the side, which is like the warm sun in the winter solstice, the cool in the summer......

Luckily, Sponge found an antidote, but Xinrou was still struggling to find it......

Xinrou is still very idle in the company these days, and there is not much communication with the people around her, as if everyone is immersed in their own work content and has no way to extricate themselves, everyone has their own small group, as if no one from the outside world can contact in that small group.

In fact, there are also people who have tried to get closer to them, but slowly find that these efforts are in vain, and many of them are unrealistic ideas, because some stereotypes have been engraved in their hearts, and I am afraid it is difficult to change.

But eating alone in the company, I really feel so lonely, I haven't been to the bustling commercial street around me, and I'm a little timid, but I can't force myself to eat with others, which will always attract disgust from others, and she is a very sensitive person herself, and she is not suitable for all this.

She is an extremely delicate person, sometimes just relying on a look from others will come to mind, even if that look does not contain any meaning, but staying on herself for a few more seconds, it always makes people feel very uncomfortable, is it not something you are doing in place? Is there something wrong with everyone?

She is always reflecting on her behavior, and she doesn't know how to behave in front of everyone, as if it is difficult to stand in front of everyone and introduce herself.

I don't like to speak in public the most, because I don't know what to say, because I'm afraid to speak, because I'm afraid to say the wrong thing, because I'm afraid of everyone laughing, so I'm always afraid to show something in front of everyone.

I heard that the team building is going to be built soon.,It seems that everyone in the company is looking forward to this free opportunity to go out and play.,But.... Xinrou really wants to avoid it, work is work, why should it be involved with private life, and if you go out with a group of people who are already strangers and can't fit together, what else can there be besides embarrassment?

I slowly found that in fact, in the work, I am the only one who can't save anyone, even if it is those friends who come with me, although everyone is an intern, but in the end it will be a breakup, because everyone's purpose is different, everyone's role is different, and no one will always accompany you.

I'm glad I met a better boss this time, and I occasionally chatted with her, and I also felt that life suddenly opened up, and I always felt that he was a person who was kind to him, and he was a benefactor!

"Have you felt anything uncomfortable during your recent time in the company? If so, be sure to tell me first, after all, I invited you to our company at that time, so I can help you solve any situation that arises" The boss is always very enthusiastic, and suddenly it seems to feel fatherly love from him, which is really a strange feeling.

But what I lacked when I was a child, and what I crave now.

"No, I'm quite adaptable to life here" In fact, there is no way to adapt to the colleagues around me, I don't know how to communicate, I don't know how to communicate with the leader, I just sit alone in the position and look at this and look at that, bored in a daze, I get busy when I have something to do, except for work, it seems that I can't do anything, everything around me is too strange, but I don't want to tell him the truth.

"That's good, I thought you didn't fit in here just now, seeing you so adapted, I really breathed a sigh of relief for you, if you encounter any problems in the future, you can come to me as soon as possible, I will help you deal with it"

Xinrou thought that she had met a noble person in her life, and her eyes were full of hope when she looked at him.

"Thank you boss, you have helped me a lot, if there is anything, I hope I can still solve it by myself, there is no need to trouble you, you must also have a lot of work to help"

"You're so sensible! It seems that it was a very wise choice for me to recruit you to our company at that time, and you must work hard in the future, and I believe that you will make great achievements in your position."

The boss patted her on the shoulder, and Xinrou felt that her life was full of hope, and she was no longer so confused and decadent......

I don't know what the status of that brother is now, it's been a while since he returned to his hometown, and there has been no news since then, will it become the way it used to be? But is that kind of life really what she yearns for? Obviously, he also said that he wanted to escape from that life, but he turned around and wanted to go back, could he have forgotten his previous life in this short period of time?

Xinrou was a little scared, she didn't know what the future would look like, but she wouldn't go back anyway, even if she was lonely here, she didn't want to live the kind of life she used to have, after all, the feeling of not being firmly chosen by someone was too lost.

If you are not lucky, then try your courage and maybe you can really stay in this city.

"Why do you have to stay in this city?" The boss asked the question.

Xinrou meets the noble person in her life, maybe there is no need to hide some words, in short, she thinks so.

"Actually, I wasn't very well taken care of when I was younger, so I had to take care of myself, because I didn't want to live the same life as before, so I planned to face life in a new way"

"I didn't expect you to be so strong, but do you know that a person wants to stay in this city? It's really difficult, and you may face a lot of challenges, including a sense of loss, have you ever thought about this? ”

Of course, if you want to get what you want, you must pay a certain price, if you can stay in this city, some bitterness must be eaten, otherwise there will be no pie in the sky, not to mention that you are a person who is not surrounded by good luck.

"I know, but nothing will be more painful than the previous kind of life, I at least have to mix it up, otherwise it's really difficult to get out of the relationship with the previous life, it's ridiculous to say, I thought I could get out, in fact, I don't have that ability yet" It's not that I don't have the ability to accept, but I don't have the courage to leave, leaving means saying goodbye completely, even if there are a lot of complaints in my heart, but in the end, I still remember the warmth that existed in the family before the age of nine, as if for so many years, barely survived on that trace of warmth.

In other words, who doesn't like to live a sunny life, the previous kind of days are really fed up, on the surface life is okay, but the inner pressure is extremely great, the memory of the nine-year-old has always been clearly displayed in front of him, how many times when they operate in the dark behind their backs, they can remember the scene of that day, and even when they called, even if they didn't meet, they could feel that depressing atmosphere.

In fact, parents and children are not born equal, this inequality, not only on the surface, if children can have the right to choose their parents once, maybe many families will not have children!

Xinrou grew up in a family that lacked love since childhood, and always wondered if she didn't have a firm choice that day, whether it was because she wasn't a member of this family at all, so many times she always doubted whether she belonged here.

If they belong here, why are they always so cold, not as warm and harmonious as other families, but if they don't belong here, why do they open the door and let themselves come back?

Xinrou is honest, it is a hatred for them, a cowardly confession for herself, if she could have been braver at that time, maybe this would not have happened now, maybe everything would have been different.

But many things are fundamentally different from what I imagined, and I know that the result is like this, but I still want to do it.

"I have several houses, if you don't mind, you can live in, and when the school has winter vacation, you can live there, and there will be no place to live, the housing prices here are quite expensive, you can consider it, I can not charge you any money, the things inside are complete and you don't need to spend any money"

This point is still quite attractive to her, there is a place to live for free, and there is no need to charge utility bills, it is simply a pie in the sky!

The winter vacation is coming soon, if you can't live in school, you can only go home, think about this is really a good place, instead of going back home to live that kind of depressing life, it is better to earn some money here to live the life you want, and you can also make your life easier.

"But wouldn't it be troublesome to do so, is it really okay if you don't even charge me a penny? The housing prices here are so high, you also need a lot of expenses, right? ”

"That's just the smallest one in my house, you can go and have a look, it's enough to live alone, so it saves you from wasting money to live in those bad rental houses, at least it's safer, you can think about it, if you can, I'll take you to see it next Saturday"

"Shall I get back to you in a few days?"

"Of course, no matter what you choose, our door will always be open to you, I treat you like this because I think you are a good seedling that can be molded, so you have to work harder and harder"

Xinrou heard that someone recognized her work ability, and she felt an inexplicable joy, as if she saw her own value.