Sometimes, however, it doesn't work out.

Sometimes the more beautiful things you see on the surface, the more things that exist behind are often disappointing.

Xinrou thought that she had not been firmly chosen that year, so she was lucky at this moment, so she cherished everything she got her hands on, which was hard-won luck.

The following is Xinrou's inner statement: I was originally a person who longed for the redemption of others, because I was unbearable, because some things that seemed to be nothing in the eyes of others would become a shackle on my salvation road.

Tell yourself to open it, but if you do it, it will be different, and it won't be so smooth at all, and even the fortune of a mobile phone software can be easily predicted, and obviously there are more people around who have predicted it.

Envy those who can be themselves, some people can't even live themselves......

Some people say that self-confidence is what they want to give themselves, but why are they so unable to get their hands on their own things, how can they live the most authentic way.

After the boss left, her face was stiff to death, although it was a good thing, but she couldn't be happy, even if she changed a few more expressions, this is a defect or the inherent nature of some people's fear?

She doesn't like to be alone, but she likes to talk to herself, and since that year, it has been like this, no matter how much she changes, these inconspicuous things will become strange people in someone's mouth.

Walking alone on the way home, the empty streets seemed like a chic way to welcome, Xinrou sneered.

Some people have a stiff face on the surface, they will be extremely sensitive because of some things, and when no one is around, they will return to the essence and lose to the extreme, but at this moment they will think about why this is happening.

It's just something she's used to, but that doesn't stop her from liking the scent of flowers, the sunset, the smell of the earth after the rain, the clouds drifting by......

There is a lot of good things in life, but they are so small that they don't work at all compared to the overwhelming burdens.

A person who likes flowers, carefully cares for the precious flowers in his hands, but there are always people who want to wreak havoc in it, and it is righteous to say that it is because this flower is not good-looking will destroy your aesthetics, so it is he who helps you improve your aesthetics, you should not only not be angry, but also should thank him.

At that time, there was no reversal, the flower that was destroyed by him was once a treasure in the palm of his hand, how could he let others destroy it, this is immoral.

Some people don't like to stay up late, but they have dark circles under their eyes, he said it's not that I don't want to sleep, but that someone is forced to stay up late...

In fact, I know it in my heart, so why bother looking for reasons.

I went back and thought about it for a long time, if I want to stay here, I must have a place to stay, but where I can stay, how can it be so easy to find a good place, always think about everything too simply, life is full of infinite challenges, and some people can't stand the challenges.

Immediately after, the call came again, leaving no respite in the slightest......

"It's been so long, don't you know that you should call home? We're all worried about you here.." Care? Is this true?

Xin Rou was a little moved, could it be true that someone would change dramatically overnight, he didn't know, but he was looking forward to it in his heart, at least the memories before the age of nine were a warm memory, but after that...

"It's not that you don't know about things at home, you can't stay out of it, we spent so much money for you to go to college, shouldn't you reciprocate, don't always think about yourself like that, it's too selfish, right? Your mother is dying of illness at home, and you don't want to come back to see it, and you don't make phone calls, don't you want to send money to your family? "This kind of language followed, it was really unexpected, and it was difficult to adapt for a while, I thought I could talk to my family, but now I found out that some words are unspeakable, for him, what does he represent? Is it just a product that no one cares about at all?

Perhaps this is too humble to say so, but it is true, who can think from their own standpoint? All they care about is them, and they will completely lose a little girl's attitude towards family because of this incident.

"It'll be there in a while, and I haven't been paid yet" When he said this, he was also forced to helplessly, and it is true, if the money is really in place, it is impossible not to call them.

"Don't forget, that's what you're saying now, but then it's your own problem to change the hexagram, how much effort has our family paid for you, you have hard wings now, and if you want to let go, regardless of us, it's absolutely impossible, you see that the daughter of the village manufacturer is so good at driving back every day, and I don't see you being able to remember more money, why is there such a big gap with other people's daughters?"

They always like to compare themselves to others, and if they like others, then why not be their parents? Oh, maybe good people naturally won't agree, but at this point they can be regarded as self-aware, maybe they don't have the courage, or maybe they don't dare to take this step at all.

I can only fight in the nest at home, and I can take whoever I want to be angry, this is indeed an excessive speech, and my mother doesn't say anything on the side, as if she hasn't seen everything like this.

The pressure in this living atmosphere is too great, as if they are not their biological daughters, but just a tool to make money outside, the tool does not give money, then they have to whip the tool, they never thought that this tool followed them, so many years at least some feelings, how come they don't recognize anything in the end.

"I know"

"Let me tell you, the daughter of the village chief's family invited several families to dinner, the pomp and circumstance are so arrogant, I don't want to lose face in this matter, when the time comes, you won't be able to eat and walk around, you know the conditions of our family best, if you want to live that kind of life, it's not an easy task, but if you can't do it, don't blame us for being ruthless at that time."

Is it the first time they say such cruel things just to ask for some money?

This is not a father, for a child's tone, there is no father's kindness, nor the tenderness of mother's love, as if he is a child abandoned by the world, no one cares about the child's feelings, she is just a money-making tool in the hearts of those people.

It's ridiculous to say, a person who is regarded as a money-making job still longs to be cherished, and it's quite scary to think about.

"I just hope that you can take our family's affairs to heart and put them first, instead of thinking about yourself all the time, I can't be clearer about your careful thinking, we raised you to such a big age, we know what you think in your heart"

Do you really know everything? Can't you understand the inner struggle of a nine-year-old girl at that time? Have they ever thought about what they went through in those days? All of a sudden, when I came home, my attitude changed so much, it was still a familiar place, a familiar person, but some things were very different....

"Are you finished?" Xinrou is tired every day and has no strength to speak, but as soon as she gets on the phone, she is such a word, which makes people unhappy at all, and her already dull life does not add any color....

"What? Do you feel a little impatient to listen to me? This TM's Lao Tzu raised you so big, and now the wings are really hard, do you think this family has no nurturing grace for you? It's chilling for you to say such things now."

So what they care about is just themselves, as if no one can really care about themselves, whether they are dressed warmly? Eat well, are you not comfortable with life here? Do you feel like you're going home? It's ridiculous that no one asks such a question.

It seems that I am the only one in this big city who feels lonely, and it would be nice if I could spend it with other people at this moment! This phone wants to hang up.

"I'm tired over here, do you think I'll be very quiet here?" Xinrou didn't hold back her temper in front of them for the first time, after all, she had been tired for a day and just wanted to have a good rest, but she didn't let go of the rest time, why should life be treated like this.

It is said that family is a person's eternal safe haven. But why is it not just a place of disaster for me, because all the previous grief experiences started from that place, and until now, there is still no way to erase that grief experience, like an imprint that has left a deep trace in my heart.

If life could go a little faster, maybe everything would be different! No matter what, you must stay in this city, and you can't go back to that dark place, that place that fills you with fear, and you should face life well, not all your troubles come from that place.

"Do you see only yourself? Your mother is now lying in bed, there is no way to walk to the ground, and now I do all the work inside and outside the house alone, do you think you are as tired as me? If you really feel that you can't stay in the big city and can't mix up with your personality, now come back and farm for me, our family doesn't want to produce a bad seed, and we don't want to produce a poor ghost."

Miscellaneous? Pauper? Is this a word used by his own biological father?

"What do I want to do? That's all my own choice, why should I let you control it? If you really think that you are doing the right thing, then you can do it, there is no need to tell me, I am already an adult and can take responsibility for my own actions."

Xinrou sometimes doesn't know how to speak, but in this matter, she is already full of infinite depression, she longs to be free from this relationship, yearns for the outside world, and wants to escape from the little black house.

If life can really be chosen, maybe some people will not choose to live like this at all, life is unsatisfactory, every day is very tormented, I don't know what to do, and I am confused every day.

This kind of sluggish days made people have no fighting spirit, and finally had a little direction to move forward, but before they could take a few steps, they were beaten back to their places from the outside.

It is said that the family is the closest person to them, but why are they just for money? Except for this. Isn't there anything more important?