Volume 2 Chapter 101 Gu Ming's Darkness
"Shall I ask you what's wrong? I saw that you suddenly started to froze and called you several times, and you shouldn't either. What are you suddenly thinking? So fascinating? Gu Yun asked, her brows were still slightly frowned, and there was a little confusion and a little dissatisfaction in her eyes. I'm afraid I've called Nan Nan too many times, but I didn't see any response, so I started to pull a few times. Between the eyebrows and eyes, there is still a slight sense of worry.
"Oh me, I didn't think about anything. Do you have anything to say to me? Nan Nan replied hurriedly. She quickly changed the subject, trying to fool the past. It's just blunt, not tactful, and people will know that it is deliberately concealed when they hear it. After all, this was something that even Nan Nan herself hadn't explained, and she didn't know how to talk to Gu Yun about why she was suddenly in a daze. This is what happens to Nannan, she has had a long time to concentrate, and she is very easy to lose her spirits. When communicating with others, she will unconsciously shift her attention from time to time, and she will think about some miscellaneous things that she has and does not have. However, often, after Nan Nan comes back to her senses, she suddenly forgets what she has been meditating on.
Just like now, Nan Nan's contemplation was suddenly interrupted by Gu Yun, and for a while, her brain began to be chaotic again, and she looked confused and unclear. It was clearly what he had just thought, but now it began to blur. It is right to say that he deliberately avoided Gu Yun, but if it is said that it is unintentional, it is not much of a fault that it is caused by a moment of forgetting. That's why Nan Nan's reply is so stiff and deliberate. I can't explain it, and I don't know where to start, so I can only change the topic awkwardly, trying to change my attention.
"Hmm......" Gu Yun couldn't help but hesitate, she heard the turn in Nan Nan's tone, the meaning of roundabout. After all, my heart is not very comfortable, like a small pebble blocked in my chest, and I can't get out of my mouth or swallow it. If you can't go up or down, you should panic, and it's annoying. But Gu Yun only maintained such a mentality for half a minute, and her special attitude towards Nan Nan washed away these insignificant discomforts. Gu Yun thought that everyone should have their own secret corner, and they didn't need to care so much, so they didn't take it to heart.
"I'm asking you, do you want a large pot of rosemary or a small pot? Is it already half of the flower, or is it still green? Gu Yun evacuated the depression and confusion in her heart, and let go of her slightly frowning brow. Unconsciously and involuntarily, it is a happy look. Pleasant, relaxed, brisk, and incomparably close to Nannan. For Nan Nan, Gu Yun never thought too much, and she didn't think too complicated, she looked at Nan Nan frankly, it was also simple, not mixed with any impurities, pure, clean. This is her non-reservation to Nannan.
Nan Nan looked at Gu Yun with a gentle look, although the confusion in her eyes was about to overflow a few seconds ago, and the melancholy was somewhat mixed. She knew that Gu Yun could clearly recall. However, it disappeared in an instant, and it was immediately an extremely friendly appearance. When Nan Nan saw it, she had mixed feelings in her heart, and she was glad that she came with guilt and a little surprise. She didn't expect that, even so, even if she was very openly showing her concealment and scruples. But Gu Yun didn't have the slightest blame or dissatisfaction with herself, she still treated herself gently, giving her cold and fragile heart a trace of warmth.
But even so, Nan Nan is more of a guilt and shame. As usual, she could not be kind to her appearance, the mast she had built was too tall and too strong. The freezing cold cannot be solved in a day, not to mention that the warmth of this alone is still not enough to warm Nannan's cold and hard heart. Nan Nan knows this, and hates it, and always feels that she owes someone else something. Naturally, sorry is as it should be, compared to her, she can not give out any corresponding emotion. For Nannan, this is unfair and to be ashamed.
But all this, Nan Nan couldn't say it with Gu Yun, not only because she couldn't embarrass others, but she couldn't open this mouth, and ruined that fantasy in vain. Nan Nan's selfishness, the deepest dark corner of her heart, prevented her from telling the truth in this reverie. So, Nan Nan had to put these aside for the time being, leaving everything behind, not thinking, not thinking, no soul, and empty brain. This is the best way for her, to be a kind of redemption for her, and it is also a kind of deep self-torture and destruction, of course, there is no lack of a kind of mental distortion.
"I'm going to buy a small pot, it's better if it doesn't bloom." After Nan Nan chose to give up her inner self-struggle, her body and heart were naturally a lot easier, but it was also temporary, she knew very well that these things would quietly and once again, make a comeback. But, at least, not now. Therefore, she carefully considered the question raised by Gu Yun. The large pot of rosemary, Nan Nan thinks it is not worthy of He Qin, He Qin's temperament is mild, and the large flowers and plants are too exaggerated, which is unacceptable. Moreover, even if I bought it, there was no place for a small drawer in the ward. Naturally, rosemary must be planted by yourself, and watching it bloom can be considered a pleasure. This is something that Nan Nan doesn't have to think about, so she replied without any thought.
"Okay, you wait, I'll go to the flower library and get you a pot." After listening to Nan Nan's answer, Gu Yun nodded, it is a serious and serious attitude in his work, and a rigorous attitude, which is also a kind of charm. She promised Nan Nan, and after saying this, she hurriedly passed by Nan Nan's side and walked around to the flower library. Gu Yun's walking pace is very steady, and it is a particularly crisp and neat style, she took a larger step, and when she walked by Nan Nan's side, she even collided with the air, and a gust of wind rolled up. The wind carried a slight coolness, brushing Nannan's cheeks and gently brushing half of her body.
Nan Nan couldn't help but laugh dumbly, Gu Yun's unique charm was admired by Nan Nan. In addition to the involuntary physical resistance, there is also psychological rejection, which aside. Nan Nan still admires Gu Yun's courage and temperament. She likes Gu Yun's feeling of not putting everything in her psychology and seeing it in her eyes, what is is what it is, and she doesn't hide it, everything is put on her face frankly, she doesn't care, she doesn't care about anything at all. This is actually the character that Nan Nanding likes, because she doesn't have it. But it is precisely so, on the contrary, that Nan Nan will be so resistant. She is too twisted to have what she doesn't have, but she doesn't dare to think about it, or to crave it. It's just that they are rejected, and sometimes they even reach an extreme state, and they will still be disgusted.
But now, Nan Nan didn't think so much, and thought so complicated. She used to think too much in her brain, but now, she feels tired and tired, and she can't supply Nannan's miscellaneous thoughts.
So, Nan Nan simply emptied her brain and didn't think about anything. Unconsciously looked ahead safely. It was still the direction where Gu Ming and Bai Jasmine were standing. However, Bai Jasmine's figure has disappeared, and only Gu Ming's slightly shabby and depressed figure is left.
At this moment, Gu Ming is facing the direction of Nannan again, which is also the location of this flower shop. Still standing on that street, still a road away, he still looked hesitant. Cowardly, cowardly. There was no wind blowing outside, and Nan Nan guessed that at the very least, she hadn't been able to see the wind pat Gu Ming's two trouser legs, so as to hit his long legs like thin branches in a circle.
However, for some reason, it was obviously windless, but it still gave Nan Nan a feeling that at this moment, Gu Ming was in the autumn equinox, next to each other, enduring the feeling. Perhaps, he looks too thin, even if he has a little muscle, but he still presents a style that can't help but be blown by the wind and rain. Perhaps, he looked too lonely, lonely, standing alone, looking sadly at the place where he should have stayed. Sad, sad, and entangled, surrounded by these emotions, the bottom of his heart is constantly spreading.
Suddenly, Nan Nan felt that the heavy loneliness and powerless struggle on Gu Ming's body had all turned into a large black barrier, and a stream of gas tightly wrapped Gu Ming's whole body. Surrounded him, not a single crack was left for him. Overnight, Nan Nan could even see that Gu Ming's surroundings were all black, black, like piles of dark clouds before a thunderstorm. It's depressing, it's dark, it's so inhibited that it's hard to feel anymore, Gu Ming still breathes, and she's in the state of a living person.
Somehow, Gu Ming just gave Nan Nan a feeling of dead popularity, and she didn't have any characteristics as a symbol of life at all. He is as melancholy as a black curtain, constantly haunting, spreading, and surrounding. For a moment, Nan Nan looked at Gu Ming's appearance, and finally took pity on him. However, I felt a chilling feeling in my back, and my heart was also hairy.
Nan Nan has an intuition, Gu Ming, it doesn't seem to be as pure as Gu Yun. He is also an extremely extreme existence, and he is also very sensitive. However, his sensitivity is not the same as Nannan's sensitivity, his sensitivity is melancholy, and it exists in another extreme way.
At this moment, Nan Nan felt uneasy, a potential fear and fear for Gu Ming. However, it is still impossible to say why this is the reason. It is just a kind of stubborn and keen perception, which has no basis to speak of, but it is real, deep-rooted, and cannot be questioned. Like a tiny thorn, shallow, it was pierced in Nan Nan's heart, and he couldn't pull it out, and he couldn't care about it.