For a moment, the whole flower shop was silent. Nan Nan, Gu Yun, was silent. Nan Nan felt a sense of emptiness, as if this flower shop was actually very large. There are no white flowers, cold walls, nothing, no flowers, no glass doors, no wind chimes. It's just empty, like a whole piece of sky, a whole ocean, no matter how you look at it, how you feel, there is no end. There was no margin at all, it was empty, and people were left alone in this central area.

helpless, in fact, Nan Nan still didn't feel much in her heart. It's ridiculous, after revealing himself, although it is tactful, it is straightforward enough. After relaxing physically and mentally, there is a feeling of being left behind, everywhere is empty, the body is too, and the heart is too. But I can't feel anything. She was tired, tired, and inexplicably involved in her previous state of mind again. Obviously, the past few days have been quite good, even happy, a little happy, because of the fact that I can eat something, I always feel that I still have some hope of living.

But I just felt the desolation I had before, and I didn't know what it was for, for the sake of others, in fact, I couldn't say it. After all, his closed heart, his own tightly wrapped himself, excessive self-protection, did not give Nan Nan the courage to step out, let alone leave room for others to step forward. If it was for herself, Nan Nan felt sarcastic, she didn't understand it from beginning to end, and she didn't know why she became like this. Like a scarecrow, everything is fake, even a heart is hypocritical. It's long been difficult to distinguish whether it's to deceive others or to fool yourself.

It's not despair, it's just that I don't feel anything. It's not numb, and even if it's numb, it will bring more or less pain to people. Nannan, she is just quiet, quiet like a fish out of water, but not struggling. Blinking her own eyes is also to prove that she is still alive and able to breathe. It's not clear whether it's telling yourself that you still have a day to live, or if it's to show others that you're still panting. If this can be called alive. That's it, everything, it doesn't seem to matter to Nannan.

Somehow, Nan Nan suddenly remembered that Tan Yu was coming. Maybe it's because it's so quiet now. "Rustling", "Bang Bang Tart", there is only Gu Yun putting the insulated box in the canvas bag, and the sound of tea cans. It's also strange, obviously there are only these two things, Gu Yun is still acting as if he can never finish it. Her movements were slow, slow, as if she were in slow motion, holding something in her hand, lifting, lifting, staying in the air for a long time. But after a set of smooth movements, it is put in a canvas bag, and the hand is stretched out, and the time taken for this action seems to be longer.

It's good that there is such a period of time, and there is such a mutual silence. Nan Nan also emptied her brain freely, and she was thinking about it with peace of mind. She thought of Tan Yu, her psychiatrist, who always resisted. I don't know why, I just refuse to cooperate with him, knowing that I am sick, psychologically, physically. But she refused to accept it, she could admit that she was sick, but she couldn't allow others to tell her that she was sick and needed treatment. When I heard these words and thought of this, I felt weird in my heart, contradictory, and refused to admit it.

In fact, most of the time, it is still because of resistance. Nan Nan didn't want to be treated, she always thought negatively that she couldn't get better, and she didn't want anyone to point fingers at her. Even if she didn't mean this, her sensitive self-esteem came out again, and she resisted, and she was stunned to isolate herself from Tan Yu. behaved to him in a cold manner, deliberately, insensitively, and always brought him a touch of deep despair. However, Tan Yu is a conscientious doctor, and has never given up Nan Nan's thoughts, the more she resists the cold, the more gentle he becomes, deliberately, and has always kept a certain distance between them.

But now, Nan Nan remembered him, as if, suddenly, she wanted to be treated. But it was also sudden, there was no hope, and there was no despair. Everything seems to be running over and over again, and the previous hope and motivation to survive are gone in an instant. It's okay, I'm not so desperate, and I make myself uncomfortable. But it's also the worst, there is no despair left, there is nothing left.

"You know what?" Abruptly, it was Gu Yun who opened his mouth first. As soon as Gu Yun's voice appeared, the empty feeling that Nan Nan felt just now also dissipated and disappeared. The wall is still a wall, the flower is still a flower, and the glass is still transparent, as if nothing has changed. Actually, nothing has changed.

Gu Yun's voice was a little cold, but it was also soft, like a stream of water, cold water that had just melted into ice. It looks clear, but there are still some ice ballasts floating on the surface, and when you touch it, you have to retract it immediately when you reach out. It turned out that it still had some ice temperature. However, in Nannan's ears, it is extremely comfortable to listen to. It's a bit like revenge, self-revenge, but it's very happy.

Nan Nan noticed that Gu Yun had put the thermos box in the canvas bag along with the tea caddy at some point, and now she was putting her hands on the top edge of the canvas bag. With a little more effort, the top of the canvas bag has been sunken a little, looking at the nest and grievance, as if it was shrunk up and about to leave tears.

Nan Nan didn't look up at Gu Yun, she just lowered her head like this, looking at the canvas bag and Gu Yun's hands. Somehow, her attention was coldly focused on the severed finger of Gu Yun's right hand, and she still had no special feelings, no sympathy, no pity. She suddenly realized that these feelings seemed to be slower than those that pretended to come. However, it was too late.

At the same time, Nan Nan felt that Gu Yun didn't look up at herself, and she was also drooping her head at the moment. However, looking at there, Nan Nan didn't know, maybe she was also looking at her severed finger. Gu Yun's voice was very slow, very slow, as if she had just loaded the tea cans and thermos boxes, as if she couldn't finish saying anything. But in the end, the canvas bag is now full of all things, and although Gu Yun's words are eloquent, they are still coming to an end.

"I'm actually very lonely, though, I don't want to admit it. But ......" Speaking of this, Gu Yun suddenly paused, as if she didn't know what she was going to say, and she didn't know what she should say, "So, I like to talk to myself alone." Looks weird, doesn't it? You, you should pretend not to care. Just like before, when you looked at my face, you deliberately pretended not to care. Pretending to treat me as a normal person. Gu Yun continued to say a lot of words, but he was still a little incoherent. Moreover, she did not inherit her last unfinished words. She didn't know how to speak, as if it was hard to speak, and she spoke slowly. But little by little, the feelings that seeped out of it were sad. Maybe it's because the state of mind of the person who said this is like this, and the sadness is only this sadness. But on the contrary, Gu Yun's tone is still gentle, and it is still for Nan Nan, so it will seem so gentle. Gu Yun seemed to understand that for Nan Nan, it didn't seem to be just for her special performance to herself, Nan Nan treated herself as a normal person, even if she was pretending. Gu Yun naturally understands a little bit by now, but she also found that her closeness to Nan Nan doesn't seem to be just stuck to this. It seems that from the first time she saw Nannan, she was special to herself.

There is also such a person, who is unreasonable, just by first sight, it is inexplicable, and when the other party does not know it, she is identified. But there is still no reason, inexplicable, as if it was predestined. It is a kind of envoy bond, not love, just an attraction, attraction, not mutual, just one-sided. This is also destined, it is to bear it silently alone, to bear, this love, this special love.

Gu Yun's words didn't seem to be finished, she sighed, it was silent, Nan Nan didn't hear it, she just felt it. And, too, I saw her hands trembling slightly. Successively, the canvas bag seemed to shake slightly, trembling, shaking, continuously, but the amplitude was very small, and it was not very visible.

"However, I still want to thank ......" Gu Yun really continued, but her voice sounded a little unnatural. The speed of speech increased slightly, and the tone of voice suddenly rose, but it was very deliberate, so deliberate that people knew that it was deliberate as soon as they heard it. Gu Yun said, taking care of himself, as if he was deliberately making his voice and tone sound careless, and he didn't care too much. But on the contrary, she wanted to cover it up, Gu Yun covered it up, but it became darker and darker, the sadness in her heart, the discomfort. It's like a bubbling spring, flowing down continuously, no matter how you can't stop, and there is no end, but slowly, gently, flowing, spreading.