Volume II, Chapter 107 Final
Nan Nan looked at Gu Yun, there was no special expression on Gu Yun's face, and the gratitude in his eyes seemed to be like being separated by a touch of transparent plastic. It's a little indifferent, a little blurry, and some are blurred. Perhaps, because of the growing estrangement. It's always going to be like this, Nan Nan thought, still ruined by herself. Even if it is unintentional, even if there is something, what connection there is has has been quietly changed. Even if, his mood has been slowly warmed by it, even if he is no longer so strongly resistant.
But still, it was still cut off by Nan Nan herself. Strangely, there is no big feeling, and the loss has begun to slowly dissipate by now. However, I still deserve to panic. Perhaps, I will still regret it, but it is also bleak.
Nan Nan just kept staring at Gu Yun and didn't say anything for a long time. She opened her mouth, slightly, as if she wanted to say something. But in the end, I closed it unconsciously, and I felt uncomfortable, and I didn't know what I wanted to say. Nan Nan hesitated for a while, she looked down at the canvas bag, and then looked up at Gu Yun. At this moment, she found that she was not even qualified to refuse. At that moment, she felt a little lonely in her heart, as if she had obviously grabbed something, and at first, she didn't care much about it. But wait until it's off your fingertips. My heart actually began to become sour, as if I had tasted a very sour fruit. In the bottom of my heart, in my chest, I was very swollen. Even in the mouth, there is some sour water involuntarily. Astringent, but not bitter. But, somehow, it's even more uncomfortable. It's extremely uncomfortable all over the body, as if it's blocked by something, overflowing, and it's really unpleasant.
"Okay, then I'll take it." In the end, Nan Nan just accepted it, and her tone, inexplicably, carried a sad feeling. I don't know if it's for Gu Yun or just for herself. Nan Nan was weak, as if all the nerves in her body, all her strength had been drained, and there was nothing left. She knew that she wasn't the only one leaving. and Gu Yun's strong feelings for himself, too, have disappeared for most of his own sake. However, it can only be helpless, silent, and accept it.
After Nan Nan finished speaking, she lowered her head and stretched out her two hands, wanting to take the canvas bag. But Gu Yun pulled his hand and stopped him, "I'll come, pretend for you." At this time, Gu Yun didn't look at Nan Nan anymore. She pulled the canvas bag closer to her side, and spoke to herself, her tone as gentle as ever. But it is not as abundant as before, and it is always like something separated by a layer, thin, but very distant. Nothing, and ethereal, if there is nothing, very close and far away.
Nan Nan didn't shirk anything, she knew that there was no big need. So, she had to retract it and put down her two hands. Nan Nan didn't look up, and didn't look at Gu Yun again, she just lowered her head and watched how Gu Yun packed all the scattered things on the table into a canvas bag. Then, in silence, silent. After all, the alienation is getting deeper and deeper, and there is no need for more words.
Gu Yun pulled the canvas bag closer to his front and back, so he simply put it upright on the table, and his hands were pulling the end edge of the canvas bag one after the other. Then, there was a pull open, and the canvas bag was instantly opened, revealing its empty bottom. There should only be some white fabric left inside, but under the visual dislocation, Nan Nan couldn't see anything. The only thing I could see from the bottom was the black that surrounded it, black and swarthy, and there was no sunlight. Looking at it, it looks like a black hole, although I don't know how deep, but it looks shallow. Black Bulin is in the middle of winter, precisely because you can't see anything, but on the contrary, it gives people more illusions.
However, Nan Nan couldn't imagine anything. An empty heart, looking at everything is empty.
After Gu Yun pulled the cart and drove the canvas bag, he supported the bag a little with one hand, and went to take the pot of rosemary that was placed not far away with the other. The rosemary was placed in the direction of Gu Yun's left front side, she leaned away, stretched out her arms, and carried the flower pot with a handful. Fortunately, the pot of rosemary is small, and it is estimated that there is no big amount of weight. Gu Yun easily lifted the pot of flowers, and slowly and leisurely put them in the canvas bag. However, when she put the pot upright and carefully placed it in the canvas bag, she was about to reach out. Nan Nan saw very clearly that Gu Yun's hand seemed to have stopped abruptly in the bag, very abruptly, very suddenly. It lasted about two or three seconds. However, it was very fast, and Gu Yun then stretched out his hand from the canvas bag. It was like she had suddenly thought of something. Nan Nan saw that her reaction ability had never been as fast as it is now, and she "chuckled" in her heart, a little flustered. It's like making a mistake and being caught red-handed. I was ashamed, ashamed, and felt a little panicked.
"Do you really like this rosemary?" After all, Gu Yun still asked. Her voice was soft, slow, and didn't carry any tone. But it still sounded a little trembling, although it was not obvious, although it was deliberately controlled. However, there is still a little bitter, bleak, and poignant feeling. It was like a cold raindrop that splashed on the same cold glass, wet, and hard. Unable to do so, it scattered and splashed, turning into a form of disintegration. In the end, there was just a wail of "snap". But it is small, and if you don't pay attention, you can't be found and heard.
For a long time, Nan Nan didn't answer Gu Yun's question. It's not that I don't know how to answer Gu Yun, it's just that I can't speak. A sense of guilt weighed on her heart, and it didn't weigh much, but it was extremely heavy. Nan Nan felt that her body was shackled, and the chains were tied to her hands and feet, which were cold and could not move anything. After hearing Gu Yun's question, Nan Nan's body trembled unconsciously, as if she couldn't help but shiver. Slight, nothing too much. However, there is no feeling of coldness at all. Actually, it's better to say that I didn't feel anything. It's not numbness, it's just that there's no sense of that point. Including Nannan's heart, it is also the same.
"It's lush." In the end, Nan Nan only replied with such a sentence. It seems to be a non-answer, with no beginning or end, but it contains too much. At the very least, for Gu Yun, Nan Nan has completely expressed her answer, although it is vague, but there is no need to think too much. Nan Nan's answer was naked enough, just like that, and the slightest thing was exposed.
Nan Nan's voice replied to Gu Yun very clearly, and the volume was just right, not too loud, not too quiet. But it is clear, so clear that it gives people an extraordinarily harsh feeling, and every word is heart-wrenching. She still couldn't look at Gu Yun, after all, she also knew that at this moment, Gu Yun didn't look at herself. She didn't want to observe any of Gu Yun's expressions, it was already useless, on the contrary, it would still be disgusting and disgusting.
It's strange that when Nan Nan said this, she felt very calm, as if she just said a very ordinary homely sentence. She didn't have much affection in it, indifferent, as if she was out of it. And, it's still quite comfortable, and I don't feel unwanted emotional bondage. Moreover, just after Nan Nan said this, it was obvious that she felt that her body was relaxed, very suddenly, but naturally. Nan Nan seemed to be relieved, her whole body and mind were fluttering, and there were no complicated and superfluous emotional entanglements. It was like a balloon filled with air, just floating in the air, flying wantonly.
"Oh." After hearing Nan Nan's answer, Gu Yun was only stunned for a second or two, and in the end, he just said such a word lightly and bluntly. When Gu Yun said, there was a feeling of unnature. It's like a forced voice coming out of the throat, and although it's not difficult to discern, it's still a little vague. It's cold, without any emotion, but it's like a lake with a thin layer of ice. Thoroughly, emitting a slight cold light, not sharp, just feeling the threat in it. But it's still shallow, stubborn, and paranoid to converge the edge. It's for Nannan.,The last point.,Not much affinity.。
In this process, Gu Yun still couldn't stop any movement in her hands, and she was still packing up the insulated box on the table, as well as the tea canter. Even her movements did not pause at all, as if she was expected, as if she had already guessed. Gu Yun didn't feel any surprise at all, she was just calm and frank, of course she wasn't stupid or stupid. As long as you think about it a little, people in their thirties will naturally be able to understand.