Nan Nan noticed something, she found that the color of Gu Yun's right eye pupil was very special, it was completely black, but the pupil on her left was brownish-black. If you don't look closely, you will really ignore it, and you won't be able to see it at all. However, now Gu Yun and Nan Nan are really too close, especially the distance between their faces, which is even closer to words, and they are only three or four fingers away from being able to stick together completely. Therefore, Nan Nan also had to look at Gu Yun's right half of the pupil more carefully.

Gu Yun's pupil was not only slightly different in color, but also flashed a little light in the middle of her eyes. Nan Nan didn't care about it before, because Gu Yun's pair of lychee eyes were already shining like fireflies, and they were shining brightly. However, now that Nan Nan took a closer look, she found that even these two kinds of light contained a slight difference.

The light of Gu Yun's left eye is very clear, clean and thorough, Nan Nan is quite easy to find her own image from here, and it is also a very clear appearance. The light in his eyes was like a clear light in the dark night shining on the cold moon. It was trickling, very cold, but also bright, only a small touch, but it was scattered all over her eyes. It's very pure, without a little impurity and filth, Nan Nan looked at this kind of eyes, looking at the little glimmer that seeped out of this eye. Nan Nan thinks that it is indeed excellent, and it is very rare. She was rarely able to meet the pure eyes of Gu Yun. It is precisely because of this that Nan Nan will feel very ashamed in front of Gu Yun, and she can only feel ashamed of herself because of this. In the final analysis, Nan Nan is still a little difficult to face such a thorough pupil, looking at it, Nan Nan always feels that it has seen herself through. With such a bright star, Nan Nan didn't dare to approach it. She thinks that this is like a nirvana, although it is bright, it is like a mirror, and without saying anything, she can't help but shine out the humility, the filth, and the fear in the deepest part of her heart. Nan Nan will always have a kind of self, what she sees in Gu Yun's eyes is not herself at all, but what she has been buried by herself, the one who has always been unwilling to face, the one who hides in the darkest corner of her heart, the humble self who can no longer be small.

However, the light emitted by Gu Yun's right eye failed to give Nan Nan this particularly strong and resistant feeling. The light gave Nan Nan a particularly unreal feeling, it was nothing, it was ethereal, and it was so fake that people could see through it at a glance. Although the pupil also emits light, no matter how you look at it, Nan Nan feels that this light is unrealistic. Like, like a sunlight at home. Although it is bright, it only lacks that bit of realism. Moreover, its light is too revealing, but it is also dim. It's like a black veil wrapped around a glowing light bulb, a little unclear, there is light, but it can't be seen clearly. Nan Nan wanted to see her reflection in that eye, but found that there was only a thin layer, as if someone had deliberately portrayed it. It's not clear enough, it's not clear enough, it's cold, it's a little bit of an unnatural diaphragm.

Nan Nan looked at such a pair, two completely different eyes. She seemed to have guessed something in her heart, and she couldn't help but feel a little surprised, mixed with compassion and admiration. But without showing her face, she knew very well that Gu Yun didn't need these superficial things at all, or any kind of emotion that was not worth mentioning to her. Therefore, even if Nan Nan saw it, she also noticed it, and she was surprised, sighed, and pityd, but she still had a calm look. It's still calm, as if it doesn't know anything, or maybe it knows, but it doesn't care. Her face was deliberately expressionless, and her expression did not change much. In fact, it's just a kind of inhibition in the bottom of my heart. But Gu Yun didn't know anything about it, he really naively thought it, and he also believed that it was all a special kind of Nan Nan.

"What's wrong?" Nan Nan asked, she took a small step back, still not very able to accept an intimate contact with Gu Yun. But Nan Nan's movements were always natural, and Gu Yun would not be aware of any kind of resistance from her. Although she was retreating, it was only a little distance, and she couldn't break free of Gu Yun's hands on her shoulders. But because Nan Nan could move, Gu Yun sensed it, and she let go of her two hands first, and also let go of a very uncomfortable confinement for Nan Nan.

Gu Yun let go of her hands, and her upper body had no choice but to step back, standing up straight with her own lower body. So, it was a little distance from Nannan. This seems to be Gu Yun's autonomous action, and it is her willing to retreat. In fact, it was only done under Nannan's hint and a potential boost from her. Perhaps, Gu Yun didn't notice it, and she still thought that she had voluntarily let go of Nan Nan's shoulder. But Nan Nan knows very well that the truth of the matter is not so.

Sometimes, Nan Nan also hates this aspect of herself. She would feel that she was no longer a teenager who was innocent enough to be dusty, she was clearly a girl of only eighteen years old. It is also an age of green years like flowers. Such a period should still be a little ignorant, positive, full of youth, pure and lively, like a bright sunshine. Clean and pure, warm and soft. But Nannan herself knows very well in her heart that she is not such a person at all, she is cowardly, she is timid, and even has her own dark side. She has a keen sense of insight and can clearly perceive and detect a mental activity of most people, and she can easily guess an emotional change in most people. Nan Nan has forgotten when she suddenly has such an ability, it seems to have been a long time ago, and even Nan Nan herself is almost about to forget about it. All in all, she is very perceptive. This point is good or bad.

Nan Nan sometimes rejoices that she has such a sensitive existence, and she has insight into people's hearts, so that she can protect herself from being harmed. But it is precisely because of this that Nan Nan feels pain, and she unconsciously observes other people's opinions about her all day long. In fact, it doesn't matter, and it's not worth mentioning at all, but it makes her want to be entangled in this and suffer from it. Because I can see through it, I will think more, and I will be conservative and tortured. In this way, how can Nan Nan not be disgusted with this point of herself. It's better to be a fool who doesn't know anything, who doesn't have troubles, who doesn't annoy.

Nan Nan has always known that she is sick, not only anorexia, but also her heart. Not communicating with anyone is resistance, rejection, and even more so fear and fear. She is willing to lock herself in a cramped environment, which is much better to come and get in touch with the outside world, at least, in a small corner, Nan Nan can feel a real sense of security. To her, the outside world is empty, the empty is beyond sight, it is empty, and there is no real sense of substance at all. In this way, Nannan will feel uneasy and anxious.

I don't know when Nan Nan gradually realized that it was difficult for him to communicate with anyone. She was reluctant to talk to anyone, she didn't know, and even the slightest touch would make her feel disgusted. If it weren't for all the need to speak, Nan Nan could not speak all day, she closed herself off and did not give herself the opportunity to communicate with others. Nan Nan felt that it was unnecessary, and she was very scared, and she did not know how to talk to others. Nan Nan has surrounded herself from head to toe, and it has been too long. After a long time, Nannan even had a kind of self that was gradually moldy, gradually corroding, gradually shrinking in a corner, slowly, alone, and kept festering.

Nan Nan sometimes feels anxious and depressed because of this, but more often than not, she is quite calm. Or rather, she just didn't struggle, she was very tired, and she didn't have the energy to do anything to resist. Nan Nan sometimes thinks that this kind of life may really belong to her, she accepts her fate and accepts it willingly. It was in such a gradually erosive day that Nan Nan gradually lost the innocence and purity that should have accompanied her.

The kind of ignorance of the world, the extreme seriousness and seriousness that Nan Nan sometimes shows, may be regarded as a kind of innocence, childlike childishness. But in fact, it's just because Nan Nan hasn't been in contact with people for a long time, she has forgotten, and she doesn't understand how to maintain an attitude of communication with others. All of these are things that Nan Nan can't understand and understand, so sometimes, she will show such a clumsy feeling.

But in fact, Nan Nan is not like this, she is a particularly complex existence. has a strong sense of self-esteem, but it is also very fragile, a little touch, "click", it will be broken, and it will be broken, no matter how sticky it is, it will not be completely sticky. However, she herself cherishes it very much, even more important than her own life. Don't let people touch, let alone let people have any contact, the opportunity to cross the line.

It is also such a kind of self-esteem, under the trend of this foundation, Nan Nan has erected a tall mast around himself over time. In this mast, she had abandoned too many things, and those beautiful existences had disappeared almost in an instant, little by little, and ceased to exist. At the same time, he was forced to accept some emotional changes that were contrary to him.