Volume II: Chapter 127 Understanding
"Why?" It was still Gu Ming's voice, and he asked such a sentence for no reason. Staring down at Nannan, she was very serious, and she looked like she was hooking up. concentrated, it seems, as if he wants to see through Nan Nan thoroughly, see through it. Maybe, I really want to know something from it, whether it is Nan Nan herself, or about Bai Jasmine, these are unknown. Xu Yes, it is simply mixed together, which is more important, it only depends on how Gu Ming chooses. Only Gu Ming knows best in his heart what he has been thinking about. Is it a kind of uncomplaining and unrepentant dedication of Yu Bai Jasmine, or, in fact, he himself is not so generous. still, it will still be tangled in a dark corner in the heart. There is no light to reveal, secretly and silently fermenting, until, the final intensification, getting thicker and thicker. entangled, and there is no way to break free, so I can only let myself indulge without a bottom line, slowly, slowly. It has long been unconsciously integrated with it, and it is impossible to leave again.
Probably, Gu Ming didn't find this in the process. But, when he came back to his senses, he looked back. I had already reached such a situation, and then I wanted to get out, but I found that there was no room to turn back. So, simply, he indulged, making himself fall deeper and deeper. However, the hypocrisy of the heart is mixed with hypocrisy, and he insists on covering up his obscure side. On the surface, it may still be generous, but the fact is completely contrary to it, not at all. That may be the other aspect that Gu Ming wants to hide the most, no matter who it is, whether it is for himself, Nan Nan, Gu Yun, or even Bai Jasmine. Gu Ming still refuses to make her cramped and dark side public. In front of the crowd, he wanted to control all this very well, completely, and completely blocked. Gu Ming is very clear about this side of herself, quite clearly, even more than anyone else.
However, such clarity, such scruples. But on the contrary, it was involuntarily revealed at this moment. Even, even Gu Ming himself didn't react, even he didn't notice it. However, his eyes looking at Nan Nan were difficult to completely conceal, he stared, and the two pupils somehow became dim in an instant, gloomy and dark, and it was a pitch-black color. Suddenly, it was difficult for Nan Nan to find her own reflection in Gu Ming's eyes. The darkness of those two points is extremely dull. It was much darker than the starless sky. It's like a black hole, sucking in everything outside. However, it gives people a particularly strange feeling, as if they are about to sink with themselves.
Nan Nan looked at Gu Ming like this, looked into his eyes, and looked at him together. Gu Ming's eyes, because they have no brightness, make people feel particularly hollow, that they can't see the bottom at a glance. However, Nan Nan will not feel frightened and retreat from this. Even, she didn't have much reaction, and she just looked at it very plainly. After all, in Nan Nan's heart, he is such a person, and he should be so gloomy. It's like the kind of look he doesn't show at the moment. It's gloomy, and even, it can be said to be gloomy. It's the kind of person who stays alone in an extremely dimly lit corner, hugging himself and curling up.
Inexplicably, Gu Ming showed her true feelings on her face and portrayed them in her eyes. It's obvious, at least, for Nannan, it's completely possible to see it at a glance. But in fact, Gu Ming's eyes are still very complicated. There are still a lot of emotions mixed together. But it still didn't hinder the deliberate darkness in Gu Ming's eyes, which was simply impossible to let go. They can't be separated from each other and disappear for no reason.
It also included Gu Ming's expression, which further exacerbated his gloomy atmosphere. It's completely different from anyone's contact, it's imprisoning and shackling itself. Gu Ming locked herself in a small corner. First of all, he wrapped his hands and feet in chains, and tightly, he simply surrounded himself. Always in order to avoid being hurt yourself, the last resort is to hurt others. However, Gu Ming's personality is born like this, and she is cold. Or, it can be described in the words "unkind". Because, Gu Ming is very appropriate, and Yu Nannan conceived such an identical character. However, Gu Ming's indifference is not the same as this word. Such words are particularly hurtful, like a dagger, with a cold feeling, and very sharp, with a cold light. It was inserted into the middle of the heart, but it was still not enough. It spun back and forth, spun in circles, and slashed raw. It was a very painful pain, especially in my own heart. Naturally, there is no need to say anything more, and you will feel the pain to the point where it is difficult to breathe.
is unkind, Gu Ming is very similar. To be honest, in the final analysis, Gu Ming is not such a person after all. But in fact, it's not too much worse. Most. It's just a little more tenderness, a little more family affection, a little more social constraint on it, and it has to be continued. No matter how much there is, Gu Ming will be gone. It's a natural coldness, it's a natural lack of approaching anyone, it's a natural alienation. Born like this, like cold-blooded, like a person with a slight emotional handicapp.
Perhaps, only this is a crucial point that makes Gu Ming and Nannan very different. Gu Ming may have been like this since she was born, and she doesn't care about anything about herself. I don't have much emotional existence to the outside world, I have always been indifferent, I am separated from everything, I don't get close, I don't understand how close. It's just that I don't want to do it, and there's no big reason to sustain it.
But Nannan is different, she was not born like this, just because she suffered something that she shouldn't have suffered. It was the trend of the outside world that forced her to do this. Nan Nan is not without feelings, she is just too scared, afraid that she will be hurt a little. Therefore, Nan Nan began to close herself off in order to protect herself. In fact, in the final analysis, Nan Nan is not unwilling, but can't, and doesn't dare. She is not cold-blooded, nor ruthless, but the damage is too great, too heavy, and she just consumes these, polishes them, and wastes them. Now, Nan Nan doesn't dare to give all the emotions that she has left, all she can do is to keep it as much as possible. For yourself, to avoid getting hurt again.
These two differences suddenly appeared in Nan Nan's mind, and they were very clear. It's because of what Gu Ming said, because of his eyes, and because of his tone. These sudden, undisguised things, ultimately caused Nannan's keen senses to be able to correctly detect something.
In fact, Gu Ming only had the expression of his eyes, and other than that, all his expressions were one and the same. The face was still a sickly pale, except that the mouth was a little red. Fundamentally, it's an expressionless style, after all, there is no special expression to show Nannan.
And Gu Ming's tone was very awkward. It was clearly said in a gentle tone, but somehow I suddenly felt an extremely heavy feeling, which was heavy. It sounds like I unconsciously have a particularly depressed feeling, as if my whole body is tied up with some weight. It was so heavy that it was like being pressed to the point where I couldn't bend over, I couldn't breathe.
And it's not just the physical feeling of oppression. Even the bottom of my heart is extremely uncomfortable, as if I am surrounded by something. There is no outlet to be found. And in my heart, I am so depressed and uncomfortable. It doesn't feel any pain, it's not sour, it's not bitter. It's just that it's swollen badly, it's swollen, and it's accumulating in my chest, and it's swelling little by little. It's like a balloon that has been inflating, constantly getting bigger and bulging until it can't bear it anymore and finally explodes.
It's no wonder that this time, Gu Ming's emotions are too strong. Directly approaching Nannan, even if he is not the party concerned, he can't help but feel uncomfortable. It's infected, it's caused by the rendering of an emotion. Moreover, coupled with Gu Ming's previous concealment, it was suddenly revealed. This is a kind of contrast, and naturally, the impact is going to be stronger. Such an emotional catharsis impacted Nan Nan and forced her, so she had to understand.