"I, I have a secret." Xiao Ai shook his hands in the breeze, as if he was struggling with something.

"If it's inconvenient to say, you can not say it." "Everyone has secrets, and they don't necessarily have to share them with others. ”

Xiao Ai shook his head in the breeze.

"No, I want to say that I never wanted to hide it, but I don't even know where it came from. This secret makes me different from everyone else, and I don't even remember if this special is innate, and I don't know when it worked in me. All I know is that since I was six years old, I have been the object of everyone's scrambling to hide, everyone hates me, even my parents are unwilling to face me because of this secret, and it is not until many years later that I understand why I have changed from a pampered object to an abominated being. But at that time, I didn't know, I didn't understand, and no one ever explained to me, a little princess who was spoiled to the sky, suddenly became an orphan with parents that no one wanted to see, and the parents who gave birth to me, raised me, and loved me, but they didn't even want to give me one more look. Xiao Ai's voice trembled a little, this is the pain she has suppressed for many years, and she has been buried deep in her heart again and again, I don't know why at this time, it all comes to mind.

For his parents and relatives, Ai Mo's feelings are different from Mu Qiming's treatment of his uncle, at least before the age of six, in all childhood memories, little Ai Mo grew up in a honey pot, she enjoyed everyone's love for her, and she reciprocated with the same love. However, it seemed that it was only an instant, and the moment everyone had no time to react, the world was turned upside down.

As if feeling her pain and wanting to give her strength, one hand rubbed Xiao Ai's head, and the helmet Momo couldn't feel the power of those hands, but could feel the warmth transmitted through the device.

"I miss them so much." Xiao Ai still lowered his head in the breeze, and there was a little crying in his voice.

"I miss them, but I'm afraid to think of them. As I grew up, the impression they left on me as a child became weaker and fainter, and in the deliberate forgetting, I sometimes couldn't even remember what they looked like, everyone seemed to be covered with a thick veil, unable to see clearly, and like those memories, they were all broken. ”

"Forgetting is not an escape, and those engraved in the bones will not really forget."

"But all I remember now is their badness, they no longer love me, they gave birth to a younger brother, and poured all their love into him. They no longer care about me, they don't accompany me anymore, no matter what conflicts I have with others, they never ask why, they just feel that I have embarrassed them. I don't care about these, but they are actually ...... me" Xiao Ai's eyes were red, and she suddenly raised her head and complained loudly, it was the pain she pretended to forget, but she had buried it for many years and could not say it, but at this moment, she vented it in one go, and tears fell in big drops.

Mu Qiming had never seen such an emotional side of Ai Mo, the Momo in Ling Feng was always so soft and shy, except for An Xuan, I am afraid that no one had seen her emotional appearance.

Seeing Xiao Ai blowing in the wind like this, Chang Geng suddenly became a little overwhelmed, this kind of dazed made him a little confused, and wanted to help her wipe the tears on his face, but in the game, across the distance of the Internet, he couldn't do anything, so he could only wait quietly, watching her vent, and watching her gradually return to calm.

Taking a deep breath, still sobbing, Xiao Ai lowered his head again, looked at his wrist, and said in a weak voice: "They left, took my brother abroad, they said that they wanted to give my brother a better environment and education, in fact, I knew that they wanted to get rid of me, I always knew it, and I didn't expect them to take me with me, I just hoped that they could walk a little later and slower, so that I would have more time to adapt to their departure." However, I didn't expect that I would collapse first, and I didn't expect that they would completely withdraw from my life at that time, before I regained consciousness. ”

Dark Night Chang Geng looked at Xiao Ai's tightly held wrist in the wind, and his hands were trembling uncontrollably.

After a long while, Xiao Ai's stiff body relaxed again, and Chang Geng said in an extraordinarily soft tone: "Actually, you don't want to forget, even those painful memories, you don't want to forget, do you?" ”

Xiao Ai did not respond to the wind.

"Since you don't want to forget, and you can't forget, don't force it, say that you have forgotten, but it is also self-deception, forgetting their appearance, and you can't forget the mark they left in your heart. Instead of this, it's better not to blame, at least you're not having a bad time now, you have the current you because you lost them, and if you cherish the present, you don't have to regret the past. ”

Xiao Ai sniffed in the wind and raised his head again, the tears had stopped, but his eyes were still red.

"Then will you forgive the man you don't want to call uncle?"

"Uncle." Dark Night Chang Geng repeated the word, "I won't forgive, but I don't blame anymore, it's just that since the day I left his house, I have no kinship with him." My home was not destroyed by them, my fate did not take a turn because of them, leaving was my choice, and the only thing I could not let go of was their disregard for my parents' hard work. Wasn't it your choice to leave? ”

Xiao Ai looked at Chang Geng in a daze, she knew that with Mu Qiming's cleverness, she would definitely be able to think of what she meant at that time, but she never thought that she chose to end her life, in fact, she chose to leave them completely.

"It turned out that I gave up on them first." Xiao Ai pursed his lips bitterly, feeling that he should smile at this time, after all, this is also a kind of fulfillment for himself, but he really can't laugh.

She chose death not to threaten her with death, but to seek relief with death, and since she had chosen to leave that home in the most extreme way, she should not be expected to abandon their immigration plans because of this. Knowing that they don't care, why do you stupidly end it for them, and expect them to look at yourself more?

"Giving up on them after that doesn't mean that everything in the past has to be erased from your life, and they must not appear again in the future." Dark Night Chang Geng continued, "I'm sorry, I heard you talk to Xiao Cheng and mention your brother, I think I'm afraid your brother will appear again, which will make you look in a trance these days." ”

Xiao Ai nodded in the breeze, since he had already said it, there was no need to deliberately hide it on this.