I wanted to say goodbye, but I never had the courage to leave.

Maybe it's because the emotions and warmth that exist here can't be dispersed for a long time, and some people don't want to leave.

Some grievances face the world, full of endless melancholy.

Some people like the clichés of the world, some people envy people who sparkle even when they are not standing in the light, some people like to sit on the edge of the bed and smell the smoke wafting outside, some people like to wear socks that don't dry, and some people like to wash their hair every hour.

Strangely enough, in the end, it was not possible to conclude that even if some of these people like to smell other people's cigarettes but do not like to smoke, even if some people like to wash their hair often, they do not often use their own shampoo......

Sometimes we care too much about our own opinions, but ignore the feelings of those around us, but some people say that we should live for ourselves.

Some people are so entangled in existing opinions that they don't even know whether to swallow or not when the doctor tells them not to drink water, and some people are really at a loss.

Now, Xinrou has become a girl who lives alone, and her daily life is not much happier, but it is better than that time, because there is no one to restrain and no one to nag, as if time flies quickly.

I found a place to eat and live outside, and I plan to come to work part-time during the winter vacation, so I came to feel the living environment a few days in advance.

Squeezed into a small square of more than ten square meters, even the sun outside can't shine in, in this narrow window, the room is always dark, but she is reluctant to turn on the lights for a few dollars of electricity....

Sometimes I am lonely, I don't know who to talk to, I sit alone in the room, as if I have been abandoned by the whole world, and I think back to the bits and pieces of my previous life, as if there is no point that makes people feel happy.

She thinks about life too sadly, and she doesn't know what the meaning of living like this every day is, but the truth is that she doesn't fight for many things by herself, and in the end there is nothing left.

It's like everyone on the phone is in the same group chat, when someone posts a message that has something to do with anyone, someone always rushes out first, but even if someone sees it at first sight, they will pretend not to see it, and will not reply to the message until the end, because they are afraid, because they don't know what to do....

"I don't know how long these days will last, but I'm really lonely sitting alone in this small room" Who do you think of when you're lonely? The brother didn't know what was going on, so he was determined to go back to that dark place, and he never contacted him again.

He knew it wasn't the life he wanted, but why did he want to go back? Even if a moth fights a fire, it's because moths like fire, but what is it? Throwing yourself into the net? It still shows that there are tigers in the mountains, and the bias towards the tiger mountain is not a fake tiger, but a real tiger!

"I thought it would be better if I came out alone, I thought that as long as I worked hard, my life would improve, and I thought that as long as I could stay in this city, I could completely detach myself from the original dark place, but now ..... "It seems that it is still a pool of stagnant water, and nothing has changed."

Xinrou was talking to herself in the room alone, as if the room was a little empty, and her speech seemed to have an echo, I don't know what kind of people lived in this room before, and what kind of life she lived? What does the future hold?

A person's fear of an uncertain future can only be borne by one person, no one can tell the answer, and no one even seems to be able to know....

We are always looking for a way in the dark, some of us are accompanied, and some of us are always alone, because this is a virtue or an attitude that should be had, as if this is not the case.

Finally someone knocked on the door, but today is a rest day, so it doesn't seem normal.

First, I didn't buy anything, so there was no express delivery, and second, I didn't order takeout, so there would be no takeaway brothers.

"You are?" Xinrou asked.

"It's open, there was a boy who lived here before, all kinds of food and drink, if you don't give it to him, you're going to smash the store, and now I finally want to put an explanation, you're his girlfriend, right? You have to talk about this today, or I won't let you go" A big man with a lot of chest hair was carrying an axe in his hand, but his hands seemed to be shaking a little.

"I don't quite understand what you mean, I just moved here, I don't know who you're talking about, if it's okay, please leave!"

Xinrou thought that who was so kind and willing to lend a hand at this time, but she didn't expect that it was just a person who collected debts from the wrong door, which was funny when she thought about it, but it was actually sad.

"Don't tell me it's useless, no matter what your relationship with her is? You must give an explanation for this matter today, otherwise I will not let you continue to live here! The man looked around, as if he didn't see anyone, as if he seemed to become more confident, "I know you don't pretend to be garlic with me, what is the relationship between you, I know better than anyone else, there is no need to pretend to be stupid at this time, right?" ”

Does this big brother not understand human words? How did they meet? It's the first time we've met, so don't deliberately say it like this in order to collect debts, right?

"If you do this again, I'm going to ask the security guard to come and solve this matter" A person is tired enough, so don't use these little things to add to your troubles, otherwise you really don't know how to live your life in the future.

"I'm telling you about today's incident, it's not easy for anyone to come? Someone has to solve it for me, or I won't let you live a life in the future."

Now I really want to ask what kind of habits the previous person lived here? Why have you been away for so long? Someone will come to the door, it's really weird!

"I've already told you, I have nothing to do with the previous person, I'm just a tenant of this house, there's no need to mess around like this!"

"The last time you deceived me like this, I won't let you and him go, if he doesn't come out today, I won't leave here" The man opened the door and walked in, sitting on the chair as usual skillfully.

It was as if he was sitting in a small room, and the whole room was filled.

This is not good, the previous tenant to a development of what kind of strange habits, will actually have contact with such a person, no wonder will immediately move out in a hurry, such a good welfare treatment, suddenly vacant a place, before was a little puzzled, now it seems to understand.

"There's no way for you to continue to stay here, I said that if you don't know, you don't know" Even if the king of heaven and Lao Tzu comes, he doesn't know it.

"Okay, you can pretend, I'll see how long you can pretend, I'll wait here, I don't believe he won't come back tonight"

Originally, when he was alone in the house, there was still some space, but now that he filled it, the whole room seemed to be even more uncomfortable than before.

Maybe being able to give yourself a handsome guy at this moment, sitting here is already a gift, there is no need to make it more difficult, right?

"I've already told you what I need to say, if you do this again, I'm really going to call the security guards"

Xinrou picked up the phone and called the security room, and a few minutes later, a few security guards came over, and saw him as if he was looking at an acquaintance, and greeted him with a smile.

"Why are you here today? You've sold out of everything in your store."

"That's not right, the man in this family owed us a lot of money before and didn't pay it back, and now our business is bleak, so we have to rely on that money to turn over, so we have to make this decision"

"But this little girl really has nothing to do with that boy, we can testify, you can rest assured of this, so we don't want to disturb other people's lives, what do you say?" The security guard was also very polite.

"Since you have said so, then I have to leave first, but no matter when, you must tell me as soon as you find that man appears, otherwise my family's revolving fund will not come back" The man's originally majestic face instantly became aggrieved, as if it was not suitable for his figure at that time.

After they left, Xinrou sat alone in the room, terrified, afraid to hear footsteps coming outside the door, afraid to hear a knock on the door, afraid to hear the sound of entering the password, afraid to hear the voice of the man who was about everything.

Some people say that this may be an encounter, but it seems that no young girl wants to meet such a person, right? Everyone has always become very sensitive, and the popularity of this topic is also increasing, and some people are even saying that it is not because of some emotional problems that they have deteriorated, so they have caused their inner emptiness, of course, this may not be an assertion.

"I really don't know how many unlucky eggs I ate in my last life" The furnished room that I had just lived in was rummaged through in an instant, and the already small room couldn't withstand such pressure, and I really don't know when it will be over.

But apart from this place, there doesn't seem to be a higher welfare package than this, and a student who has not yet graduated can find such a part-time job, which is also very powerful.

And some people don't know that they are not living well in the big city, they will only feel that they must be living a very comfortable life in the big city for the first time, and will not think about how many days and nights they have stayed up behind these glamorous and beautiful scenes....

We are alone in this lonely city from beginning to end, if we are really lucky enough to meet another like-minded person, it is really a blessing from the previous life, and we must cherish it in this life, otherwise there will be no such shop in this village.

"Don't be afraid, the person just now just wants to get back what belongs to him, so I won't come to pester you again after explaining to her," said the security guard.

"Thank you, if you hadn't come today, I really don't know what to do" Xinrou seemed to have found a life-saving straw, and wanted to hold on to it and didn't want to let go, but I really don't know how long this kind of life and life can last.

Some people seem to have superpowers, that is, they turn the shortcomings of others into advantages and turn them into a big piece of milk tea.

We live a bad life and use our appearances to hide the emptiness of our hearts, but in fact we can't get the emotions we want to have.

Xinrou just wants to have a love and future of her own, but why is it so difficult? Why is it so easy for others to get something? This is a very unfair thing, why can't God open his eyes and see that some people get something unequal?

Xinrou was at a loss.