Chapter VII

The Queen Mother raised her hand and stroked the red lotus between my eyebrows. Sad face. Smiled slightly: "This pattern of lotus. He was also on a whim. I used a snail Dai to draw it for the mourning family. His handwriting is beautiful. The fine brush is also well drawn. A thin pen. Gently and gently swim between the eyebrows. but tickles people's hearts. That's the only time. He looked at the mourning family so seriously. Then. He was also young. A green lotus. It's drawn on the left corner of my eyebrow. The mourners never forgot it. He ...... look like that."

After that day. The Queen Mother fell ill......

Suddenly. He was very sick......

I moved back to the palace from outside the palace. He lives in the Cining Palace. Just to take care of the Queen Mother's convenience. She is my grandmother. It is the warmth of my heavenly palace in all directions. She gave me the most protection. Spoiled. Take great care of it.

Now. It's time for me to do my filial piety. Although I know it in my heart. It's the end of the year. I'm going to lose her. But I'm really not willing to take it. This is a fact that history is written.

I wake up earlier every day. Wake up early to take care of yourself. I followed the old lady to prepare the queen mother's breakfast. She was reluctant to eat. We make it for her every day. Do everything you can to coax her to eat.

She seems to have suddenly become willful. Sometimes tantrums. Say no. I won't eat it.

But in the end, it couldn't withstand my tearful repeated requests. Eat some prepared food. Then obediently drink the medicine.

Three meals a day of decoction. Punctual and punctual than eating. I feel sorry for her and she doesn't get better after taking so many medicines. Behind her back, he secretly asked the quack doctor to prescribe some pills. Give her a daily dose. He also asked the quack doctor to prepare a list of medicinal food. Every day except to accompany the Queen Mother. It is to prepare medicinal meals in the kitchenette.

The quack doctor advised me. At all costs. She's going to go. It's time for the day. will leave. Let me not be too obsessed. So as not to be able to let go when you get it.

But how can I not be attached? I think of the pain of losing my parents. It is conceivable if the Queen Mother leaves. How painful I must be?

I know I'm just struggling pointlessly. I also know that I am clinging to an obsession that I shouldn't have. But how can you let go?

I'm not going to let go easily......

Such a deep, heavy warmth. Let me go.

No......

The Queen Mother is ready to leave. Or should I say. From the moment he got his relics. She has nothing to love.

She has this life. Firm and strong. For the Qing Dynasty and for Kangxi, he held up such a piece of heaven. Ultimately. In fact, my heart is all for him. For the figure that can't be dispersed in my heart.

If you talk about obsession. She's the one with the most obsession.

She began to teach me every day. Teach me how to balance harem forces. How to use subtle changes in the harem to influence the court. He even taught me to be in this harem. How to balance the lowly power among those palace ladies and eunuchs.

I listened intently. Learn seriously. But I couldn't help resisting. I have a childish idea in the back of my mind. If I can't learn. If I don't study well. Will she not be able to let go. Reluctant to go. It would be nice to keep her for an extra day......

But I tried my best to learn. Do your best to comprehend what she is saying. What she taught. Another thought in my heart is saying: study hard. Let's learn hard. At least let her go in peace. At least let her pursue happiness in the afterlife with peace of mind.

The daily chanting of the Buddha did not stop. It's just that we no longer let the Queen Mother personally kneel and recite the scriptures. Instead, I'll do it for you every day. She just sat on the couch. Read the scriptures quietly.

Sometimes she asks me out of the blue. The Buddha said that cause and effect are reincarnated. Then if she is reincarnated. What the next life will be like?

I smiled warmly: "Nature is calm and peaceful. Harmony between husband and wife. A house full of children and grandchildren."

She smiled. Nodding. Continue to look through the scriptures in your hand.

Suddenly one day. The Queen Mother asked me, "Child. You said. Causal reincarnation. Retribution is unpleasant. What will happen to me?"

"The Imperial Grandmother was merciful all her life. How can there be retribution?"

"No...... My life...... There was too much blood on his hands...... There are people I have people to kill. There are people. I knew he was going to die. But it doesn't stop it. Such a mourning family...... What retribution will be?"

I looked at her with a sad look. I can't bear it. Slowly hugged her: "Before the master leaves. Leave a letter to me. He said. A thought becomes a demon. One thought becomes a Buddha. There is goodness in the heart. and became a Buddha of his own. Imperial grandmother. Your heart is good. Everything that is done. It's all for the stability of the Qing Dynasty. Social tranquility. So. Only then can the people live and work in peace and contentment. Your great good. It will surely dissolve all the little evils. Tantra has a Buddha of joy. There are rakshasas. Rakshasas are all Buddhas. And what about you."

The Queen Mother sighed softly. Relax the body. Resting his head on my shoulder: "You kid. It's kinder than anyone else......"

Where am I kind. So much jealousy in my heart. So many vicious minds. I'm probably. Is it really the one who will be punished......

Later. The Queen Mother never mentioned this topic again. But sometimes. She'll still be there when I'm sitting next to her. Lean gently against me.

Such a reliance. It was as if she had been waiting for decades......

Maybe I've been waiting for decades......

I was quietly contemplating her life in the middle of the night. Original. She never had anyone she could really rely on, someone she could quietly rely on with all her heart.

A woman. It's been like that for a lifetime. It's sad to say. It's still a pity.

Maybe this is the royal woman. The sorrow of the mother of a nation. The greatest honor a woman can have. It also means the desolation and helplessness behind that can only be tasted alone.

And she. The most pitiful one. No husband. He had no sons. The mother-in-law just wants to take advantage of her. Her husband can only say that he cherishes her. Son......

Although Kangxi Ye is filial. But it's not biological. After growing older. Inevitably, there are some disagreements. The son can only say that he respects her......

The Queen Mother who was held by the whole country. Original. More lonely than the emperor who stood high.

It's cold in the heights. Kangxi Ye at least for so many years. And a mother who really loved him. But the Queen Mother. But it can be said that there is nothing.

I closed my eyes quietly. but he did not sleep all night;

Early the next morning. I got up and freshened up at my usual time lately. Once you've packed up, you'll go and prepare breakfast.

The old lady suddenly walked into the kitchen. Say to me, "Gege. I'm going to have to prepare a little more today."

"Ahh The Queen Mother eats very little every day. Do you need to prepare more? I thought it was the Queen Mother who finally had an appetite. I want to eat more.

But the old lady said, "The fourth master is coming."

Fourth Master......

I've been. I haven't seen the fourth master in months......

At the bottom of my heart, this feeling is mixed again. The Queen Mother's appetite is no better. It means that she is not in better health. It makes me feel lost and sad. But I can see the fourth master. This made me feel a little happy in my heart.

Can't say a word. I quietly prepared breakfast in the kitchen. Then he went in with the old woman. The fourth master was talking to the Queen Mother on a chair next to the small couch.

The Queen Mother loves the fourth master in the end. Today, the fourth master is here. There was also a different glow on her face.

Meals are all on the table. I beckoned, "Grandmother. Fourth brother. Let's eat."

The fourth master took the queen mother's arm and walked to the table and sat down. The Queen Mother smiled and picked up the bowl. Blew it. Took a sip of milk tea. Then raise the chopsticks. Sandwiched a piece of red bean and poria cake to the fourth master: "Try this. The mourning family has liked this one the most recently. Yu'er made it. Not too sweet. It's strong and refreshing."

The fourth master smiled and took a bite. Nodding his head, "It's not too sweet. The cook in the palace makes dim sum. Too much sugar is often used. The taste is either too dry. Either it's too greasy. Yu'er did this. It's just right."

The Queen Mother said happily: "I don't see whose granddaughter it is. The jade of the mourning family. He's the nicest guy."

The fourth master looked at me with a smile. The bottom of his eyes is so gentle that he can't speak. Instead, it made me blush. Bow your head. I'm embarrassed to look up at people.

Today this breakfast. The Queen Mother still used it more. I'm happy to see it.

Just after having breakfast. The Queen Mother suddenly said to the fourth master: "Fourth. The mourning family is an old man who will not be able to do it at any time. But the mourning family has a heart disease. This jade. It's the best and best child the mourning family has ever seen. Wait until the mourning family is gone. Who will take care of her in this house? Fourth. The mourners have entrusted her to you. Only entrusted to you. The mourning family is the most assured. Anyway. Whether you end up getting married or not. You're going to live your whole life. Do what you can. Take good care of her and protect her. Can you do it?"

I listened to her say that. Suddenly she burst into tears. Disgusted: "What is the imperial grandmother talking nonsense. You're going to live a long life. In this palace. Only you are my warmest support......"

The imperial grandmother took me in her arms and coaxed: "My good boy. Don't cry. Imperial grandmother. I've got to find someone to rely on. The imperial grandmother lived a long life. I will leave this world before you. When the time comes. Someone has to take care of you and protect you. Wholeheartedly to you. The imperial grandmother can rest assured."

I choked up and didn't speak. The fourth master stood up and knelt on the ground. Said solemnly: "Imperial grandmother, please be relieved. The grandson will definitely take good care of Yu'er. Anyway. The grandchildren will take care of her wholeheartedly. Protect her. Do the best I can. Life. Please also ask the royal grandmother to relax. Take care of yourself. Don't say these things that make your grandchildren sad anymore. You're going to live a long life......"

The Queen Mother smiled and nodded: "Okay, good. My good children are filial."

She sighed. Bow your head and help me wipe my tears: "Oops. The Imperial Grandmother's Careful Tips. Don't cry. Crying makes the imperial grandmother feel distressed."

I wiped my tears. pouted and coquettish: "Who let the imperial grandmother say something like that to bully people. Isn't this intentionally trying to make Yu'er feel uncomfortable?"

"Good, good. Don't say it, don't say it." The Queen Mother shook her head: "Where is the imperial grandmother willing to provoke the mourning family's little tip to cry."

"Hmph...... "I'm rare. Sprinkling coquettishly.

The Queen Mother smiled and patted my face: "You go to talk to the fourth child. Mourning family go rest for a while."

I saw her resolute expression. I can only get up and retire with the fourth master.