A sticky thing was placed in the palm of my hand, and I opened it to see that it was a sugar man. Qiang Er stood on the edge of the bed and smiled at me, "Mother, it's very sweet." ”

Li Niang stood to the side, looking cautious. I looked for Mei Niang, and she stood at the door, looking at me coldly. I smiled at Qiang'er, put the candy man in her mouth, and then turned my head to look at Liniang, she should have heard that it was Kong Ma who poisoned her, so I was afraid that I would hate them. I smiled at her, "Don't worry, my mother is fine, I will be able to go to the ground in a few days." ”

"Then take me to buy candy man?" Qiang Er asked vaguely.

"Of course, but you can't eat like this, your teeth are all broken." I smiled dumbly, looked at her teeth, and then looked at Liniang, "You have to stare at Qiang'er every day to rinse your mouth, and don't give her so much sugar, one is that she can't eat, and then her teeth are broken." ”

"Hmm." Li Niang nodded, looking relieved, I gently touched her face, "Don't blame Mother Kong, she really loves you, when my mother is well, take you to burn some paper money for her, okay?" ”

Li Niang shook her head, "Forget it, Dad will be angry." ”

"It's okay, my mother knows that she has no choice, and my mother doesn't blame her." I whispered. The door was slammed shut, and Mei Niang ran away. Liniang was anxious and chased out, Qiang'er was a little puzzled, but she couldn't play with her two sisters, and she didn't bother to pay attention, took off her shoes and went to bed, and played with me, although I didn't have the strength, but I couldn't bear to hurt her heart, so I had to let her play next to me and get tired and sleep. Looking at her chubby little face, I can't help but wonder, would my child be so stupid and only know how to eat, play, and sleep? It is not a blessing to be able to live like this.

Mei Niang came to my room alone at night, Qiang Er was taken down to sleep by Yahuan and Li Niang, Shi Tong was doing things in the study, and there were just the two of us in the room.

"Why are you drinking it if it's not a silver bowl?" She almost accused.

"I was careless." I leaned on the big pillow and couldn't refute, and I didn't want to refute.

"You know that Kong Ma is not a good person......

"Mama Kong is a good person, but she ...... It's just ......" I searched for the right word, and finally, looked at her: "What about you?" Not afraid at all? Are you afraid if I give birth to my own child and don't love you so much anymore? ”

"I'm even more afraid that my father will marry the second mother again! What if you get kicked out? She hissed.

"Fool!" A big hand was on Mei Niang's head, and Shi Tong came. I smiled and looked at him.

"If I don't have a son, will I be kicked out?"

"What do you say?" Shi Tong picked up Mei Niang and sat down beside me.

"No, you love me, and I love you, I love the children."

Shi Tong smiled and gently stroked my face, "I love healthy you, so get better quickly, if you don't talk or eat like this, I won't love you anymore, and Mei Niang won't love you anymore." ”

"I'm sorry, I should be careful, it seems like it's been too long." I covered his big hand over my face, tears rolled down my face, I found that I couldn't face his eyes, I killed the child. I knew how happy he was that I had a baby, and more than once he hugged me and laughed, whispering in my ear, "We have a baby, a child that truly belongs to us." "I couldn't make up my mind at that point, and I thought maybe I should have been born, maybe ......

"We have children, we have Mei Niang, you forgot, you told me, I will come back, because I have a wife and children, I will have children at that time, I have you and Mei Niang." He hugged me and Mei Niang like he did that time, "If you don't have it again, what will Mei Niang and I do?" ”

I cried loudly in his arms, and I didn't know why I was crying, so I wanted to cry a lot.

After three months of recuperation, Shi Tong told me that he had asked for leave from the court and took me home to save my family. I know, he wants me to go out for a walk to relieve my mood, I can also go home to see my named father, my in-laws are happier than me, I lost the child they seem to be ten years old all of a sudden, although I know that the fault is not me, but the atmosphere at home is very dull, Shi Tong said to take me back to see, in-laws immediately said to pack up things, go back together, I nodded, everyone is best together. It doesn't matter, as long as we all get rid of this haze.

There are only three years between leaving Shu and entering Shu, but there is such a big change in mentality, during the day I try to pretend that nothing is going to be normal and play with the children, only when we are with Shitong, we seem to be able to relax, we don't talk like before, just quietly snuggle up to each other, the guilt in my heart about him is about to crush me. And he felt even more pity for me, he thought that my silence and grief were based on the loss of my child.

As soon as I got home, I took the children back to the named mother, the children were taken down to play, the three of us were relatively speechless, the named mother already knew everything that happened to me recently, Shi Tong wrote to them very diligently, sent it through the official post station, they knew that I came back to be distracted, my child was gone, and the body and will collapsed.

"Is it so sad?" Daddy looked at me seriously. I knew what he wanted to say, I didn't want to hear it, and turned my head away. The nominee pushed him away, she had raised children, she thought she could understand my mentality better, and was about to say something to comfort me, but I stopped talking.

"I knew my responsibility, so when Kong Ma brought me the medicine, I knew what it was, and I drank it."

My nominal father had a heavy face, but he couldn't comfort me, so he could only pat me gently on the shoulder. The named lady finally understood, and let out a long sigh: "Facing your own inner torment every day, it's hard for you." ”

"I don't know how to face Shi Tong again, he wants children so much."

"I'm sorry!" The nominee can only say these three words for a long time, and all explanations are pale.

"Can you let Shi Tong leave you for a while, the headquarters means to let you go back and rest for a while, and do a detailed inspection over there."

"He won't let me stay alone, and besides, the old man hasn't been very good lately, so I can only stay for two days."

"You have to be ready, if your in-laws want to let Shi Tong take a concubine, what do you want to do? If it's just an old man's idea, you might have to make a gesture to come out. ”

"They told you?" I know that they went to the house to visit their in-laws, and this is a courtesy. Since my nominal father and mother can say so, it should be regarded as giving me a vaccination.

The nominal father didn't speak, but the expression was already very revealing, I smiled, didn't make a sound, it's normal, if I can't be born, they must have an heir. I didn't want to talk anymore, I closed my eyes and leaned against them, and suddenly I closed my eyes and looked at them, "I can't have children, can I?" ”

"You don't know?" The nominal father and mother were stunned, looked at each other, and looked at me.

I thought about it, yes, from my miscarriage to now, no one has ever told me that I am still young and will have another life in the future, including Shi Tong, I just said that we have children, and our children are Mei Niang, yes, why didn't I think about it? Quietly waiting, I knew he would come and have dinner with me in the evening.

Before the evening, the wife of the Jun family sent someone to invite me, and I asked the three children if they would like to go with me? As a result, only Mei Niang wants to go, yes, only Mei Niang knows the people of the Jun family, there are actually a lot of fun things in the name of the mother's house, I will forget it when they are happy, and I will take Mei Niang to the Jun family, in recent years, I have also sent someone to send some special products to the Jun family, and Mrs. Jun will also let the Jun master send us some gifts and letters on the way to do business. When the sedan chair approached the house, I saw that the door of the house was hung red, and it seemed that the Jun family had a happy event not long ago. A little happy, calculate, Miss Jun should be eighteen, marrying at this time, it is already too late in Datang, I really want to know what kind of Langjun can marry with such a tricky temperament?