At night, Shi Tong's surprising spirit, has been looking at me, not the kind of eyes full of desire, but a very expectant look, I looked at him suspiciously, touched his forehead, the body temperature is normal, it should be fine, but why don't you blow the lamp at night, don't lie down, just look at me with a smile, as if waiting for me to say something.

"Xianggong, you see that I've been all night, do you have something to say?" I finally got tired of it and asked.

"I didn't have anything to say, I thought you'd have something to say to me."

"No, everything is normal at home today, Mei Niang's poetry has been read, and the story has been memorized, Liniang will memorize the ninety-nine table, and there is no problem with reading the accounts, by the way, Qiang'er will call her mother, I am teaching her to call grandma, so that her mother will be happy." I thought hard about the big and small things that happened at home, and it seemed that there was nothing worth reporting to my husband, so I glanced at him suspiciously, "You don't want to take a concubine, do you?" ”

"If I want to take a concubine, shouldn't I report to my wife? How can you ask Madame if she has something to say to me? He gave me a blank look and lay down in a huff, but still turned to look at me, "Really have nothing to say?" ”

I saw him lying down, so I had to get up and blow out the vertical lamp next to the bed, and then crawl back on the bed and lay down, but I still faced him, looking at his big dark eyes, he seemed to really think that I had something to say to him, and I smiled, "What do you want to hear from me, and I will tell you?" ”

"I just want to listen, I can say anything." He said softly, a bit like kidnapping, and I laughed again.

"Hmm......" I muttered, his expression more focused, his body felt tense, it seemed that he was looking forward to something, I was really curious, "what's wrong with you?" ”

"It's fine." He was deflated and shook his head vigorously, and I giggled into his arms, my broad, warm chest was my best mattress, except in the summer, of course.

"Want to sleep?" It's my habit, and when I snuggle in like this, it means I'm tired and want to sleep.

"Well, do you still want to talk?" I closed my eyes, thought about the topic, thought about it and asked, "Don't you think I'm troublesome?" ”

"Why?"

"Knowing too many things that women shouldn't know, reading too many books, and having too many opinions...... Anyway, it's annoying. I muttered, I had always wanted to ask, it was something I had been wondering about for a long time.

"I don't bother you, many of your views are more incisive than those of the so-called scholars, and it is very beneficial to talk to you." He said softly, after a long moment, continued, "I like to see your radiant demeanor, I have never seen a woman in the world so proudly raised as you. ”

"I also love to see you like that, and I feel that the complacent feeling belongs to me, because trust and love are so debauched in front of me." I fell into a light slumber and whispered softly. Suddenly, I heard his whisper in my ear.

"I love you."

I fell asleep, and before I went to bed, I remembered what he wanted to hear, I was a fool, he wanted to hear me say that he loved him first, and he made up his mind in his dreams that he would tell him early in the morning.

Before breakfast, when we went to the hall for breakfast hand in hand, I remembered, so I pretended to stand inadvertently, and took care of his clothes that he didn't need to tidy up at all. ”

As soon as I finished speaking, I was picked up, in the garden, Shi Tong picked me up and turned around several times, when I was put down, I was unsteady, or he grinned and supported me, the girls covered their mouths and peeked at us, as if they thought we were very strange, the "old husband and wife" of the three children, but they were still so 'ignorant of advance and retreat'! I hammered him hard and pulled him forward, spring had really come, and the garden seemed to be full of the smell of grass.

I'm pregnant, and after we've been living in Lizhou for three years, we don't have any complete contraception, not to mention, we're all very healthy. In the past two years, my in-laws have hinted more than once that I should see the doctor, but I and Shi Tong are like glue, but I don't see my stomach moving, which in itself can drive me out of the door. So when the doctor loudly announced that I was happy, my in-laws didn't need to say it, so they almost knelt down on the spot to thank God. And my husband laughed like a fool, and kept asking if it was true? Is it true? The children are also very happy, and Qiang Er says that she is finally a sister too; Li Niang was the biggest, and she said that she wanted to have a younger brother, but Mei Niang came to hug me and said softly: "Great." ”

"Why?" I asked softly, everyone is so happy now that no one pays attention to us.

"Grandma doesn't have to give her father a concubine."

My heart was half cold, thinking that my in-laws had been talking in front of them for a long time, and there was no male in the family, which was a heart disease for the two old people. Am I going to give birth? Or rather, can I give birth?

Pregnancy has become the biggest thing in the family, and there are almost no fireworks in the governor's mansion to celebrate. Shi Tong seems to tell everyone that I am happy, so every day the door is full of gift-givers, they know that Shi Tong does not accept gold and silver treasures, so the house is full of all kinds of precious supplements, we are not false Taoist people, the water is clear and there are no fish, if nothing is touched, it will only make your path narrower and narrower, and following the flow is the foundation of survival. There were too many things to eat, so they were exchanged for the southern goods store, and let them deliver the rice and grain directly to the door, and the people of the yamen distributed it to the people for peace. In this way, everyone has nothing to say, and everyone will only laugh at Mrs. Dudu's thinking that her son is crazy.

But the hidden worries in my heart are not enough for outsiders, everyone seems to be looking forward to the life in my belly, I don't think it's possible, but......

"Madam, this is the tonic that the old lady asked the doctor to prescribe." Before dinner, Mother Kong served a bowl of black Chinese medicine.

I sighed, but felt a little wrong, and put down the pen, "How do you use this bowl?" "I finally knew what was wrong, after the death of Zhiqiang'er, I replaced all the tableware at home with silver, and at this time, Kong Ma served an ordinary lacquered wooden bowl.

"Oh, the doctor said that this medicine is special, and using a silver bowl will collide with the properties of the medicine." She bowed down and said, I couldn't see her eyes, thought about it, took a deep breath, and drank the medicine in one gulp, maybe there was no way to do it. I put down the medicine bowl and didn't look at her, took the pen and continued to work, writing and casually commanding.

"Mother Kong, I'll go out and buy a small sewing kit for the eldest lady in a while, the eldest lady's original one is a little old, by the way, I saw the sugar man and brought a few back for the little lady." She went down with the bowl, and I had given her a chance, and whether she could grasp it or not was her own creation. My hand gently placed on my lower abdomen, would it be what I thought? Will I lose? I gritted my teeth at the stinging pain in my heart, not thinking about the life that had not yet taken shape.

At dinner, I began to have pain, I endured it, silently, and when everyone finished eating, I finally took Shi Tong's hand, and didn't say anything, the girls saw the blood on the ground, and began to scream, the family was in chaos, the doctor called the doctor, and asked why, I fell into Shi Tong's arms.

When he woke up again, Shi Tong was the only one in the room, and he was next to the bed in a dumbfounded posture. I smiled and called out to him, and he immediately pounced, "How's it going, does it still hurt?" ”

"It didn't hurt much, what's wrong with me?" I don't know if I don't speak, but as soon as I open my mouth, I feel like I have touched the muscles of my whole body, and I have to exhaust all my strength.

He hung his head for a moment before he said softly, "Child...... The child is gone. ”

"Why?" I want to cry, and I want to be as hysterical as the women in the TV series, but I really don't have the strength, I want an explanation, and I want to know if Kong Ma was caught.

"It's Mother Kong, we found medicine and a letter in her room. In the past few years, she has been giving you medicine that you can't get pregnant, but I didn't expect it to ...... She had no choice but to make you take the medicine, and she didn't plan to live, so she committed suicide when she returned to the house. When we found her, her body was stiff. ”

My tears finally fell, not for myself, not for the cell that had not yet taken shape, not for the poor Mother Kong. I didn't say a word for a few days, staring out the window in a daze, did I kill Mother Kong? I let her go, no, I shouldn't have drunk that bowl of medicine, if I didn't drink it, she wouldn't have to die, I knew that there was something wrong with the medicine, but I drank it for my own sake, and it was all my fault that I was trapped.