Chapter 19 Suicide note

"Dear Sophia,

If you'll allow me to call you that.

I know my days are numbered before I see you grown. Perhaps, this is because God deprived me of the right to protect your growth in order to make me pay for the sins I committed in the first place. I knew I wasn't qualified to ask for anything, and I didn't expect your innocent eyes to be so similar to hers.

I often wonder if I hadn't been there, maybe I wouldn't have met that poor child, let alone brought her back, and what happened to me wouldn't have happened. In that case, God may ask Michael to choose a better place for you to go and grow more carefree. However, history has no ifs, and what has happened becomes history that cannot be changed. Although the past cannot be changed, the future is still promising. I hope you can get rid of this "curse" and live your life in peace. I'll ask Cosimo to get you the best teachers and give you the same education as theirs. While unable to give you true status and identity - I am willing to pay with my life if I can.

When you grow up, you will definitely become a beauty, just like your mother did back then. When the time comes, let Cosimo find you a good husband. Or, you already have the right person in mind at that point. I think you're sure you're going to have your own thoughts, just like your mother. In any case, the Medici will grant your request, and your brother, if you will call him that, Cosimo will take you by the arm and carry you to the carpet of the church.

I don't pray for your forgiveness, and I know I'm not qualified to do so. You can blame me, but please don't hold a grudge against your mother, she is not at fault. She is like a pure white piece of paper, clean and dusty. And don't be angry with anyone, because no one is worth it.

All the sins are borne by me alone.

If you can, I hope you never see this letter. I'll give it to Cosimo and let him keep it, and if he goes before you, give it to Lorenzo or Elena...... Until one day, you also return to God, and let my grandson or great-grandson, that is, your nephew or great-grandchild, burn it to the ground.

May the mercy of Our Lady Mary be with you throughout your life.

Your incompetent father, Giovanni de' Medici."

- This is the end of the letter.

After reading it, Elena felt in a trance for a while, as if in a dream.

She handed the letter to Bella.

After Bella saw it, she was also shocked.

"This ...... Miss Sophia is Mr. Giovanni's daughter?" Bella felt incredible.

In this way, it is the aunt of Elena and Lorenzo.

If this is the case, it would explain Sophia's motive for committing suicide.

Originally, old Mr. Giovanni just hoped that Miss Sophia would be able to spend her life in an ordinary way. As a last resort, she won't be let know who she is. After all, illegitimate daughters are not a glorious thing, neither for the Medici family, nor for Miss Sophia herself.

However, fate always likes to joke so much, so that two people who can never love each other can't fall in love irresistibly.

It is no wonder that Mr. Cosimo, who has always been open-minded, will also go against the norm and try his best to prevent the relationship between the two.

The people in it don't know that they are innocent. But Mr. Cosimo, neither as a father nor as an older brother, could not sit idly by.

Nevertheless, the seeds of love, once germinated, will grow wildly, like a spreading flame, drawing the two into the abyss of pain.

If it weren't for this special relationship, they would definitely be a match made in heaven.

Perhaps, Mr. Cosimo could not think of a better way but to take out the old Giovanni's dying letter, a suicide note that should have been silent at the bottom of the box forever until it was reduced to ashes.

When Sophia learns that her lover has become a relative, what kind of psychological process does she go through?

No one can know.

Bella couldn't understand it, and neither could Elena.

Probably only the parties themselves really understand that kind of taste, right?

Judging from the results, Sofia should not have told Lorenzo about it, but chose to end it all by herself.

With his father's will, his own life experience, and his inseparable feelings for his lover, he left this world forever.

is a love that is destined to have no results.

"Sophia is so pitiful......" Elena muttered to herself, "brother is so pitiful......

Bella silently folded the letter and put it back in the envelope.

"Next...... Bella handed the letter back to Elena, "do you want to show Lorenzo?"

Elena frowned, her snow-white teeth clenching her lower lip as if she was tangled.

"This ...... What do you think, Bella?"

"I don't know." Bella shook her head.

She has never encountered such a thing.

"How did you decide when you encountered things that you couldn't choose?" Bella asked.

"I...... Will go to church." Elena replied.

After saying that, the two left the mansion together.

Two blocks lead to the Cathedral of Santa Maria del Fiore in the heart of the city.

The red dome stands proudly at the top of the building, like a staircase connecting heaven and earth.

Walking into the preaching hall and coming to the cross, a priest is praying.

Today is not a Sunday, and he is the only one in the church.

Seeing the two ladies come in, the priest nodded politely.

Elena crouched in her prayer chair with her hands crossed.

The priest drew a cross on his chest with his right hand.

"I'm not sure if I should let anyone know the truth."

"If God thinks He needs to know, then He will always know."

"But knowing it will make him miserable."

"Man lives always suffering."

"Isn't there a better way?"

"The choice is yours, and God will guide the right path."

"I'm confused."

"Then listen to God's teachings."

……

In the end, Elena decided to return the letter to her father, and it was up to him to decide.

Mr. Leonardo sent the results of the toxin test - poison hemlock.

Elena remembered that her grandfather had mentioned such a thing, so she went to her grandfather's room to look for it. Sure enough, the bottle of the charge was one less. Later, she and Bella found the remaining half bottle of poison in Sophia's room, next to the bottle of "Aegean Promise" in the small box that had previously contained the loose items.

At that time, Elena thought it was also a perfume or something, so she didn't look closely.

Anna had been taking a nap in her room all afternoon, and it wasn't until dinner time that she suddenly appeared in the hall.

Bella thinks that Anna's ability to sleep in addition to eating is also extraordinary. And no matter how long you sleep during the day, you can always fall asleep easily at night and never lose sleep. Just like no matter how many snacks you eat, you can unceremoniously eliminate a large piece of steak during the main meal.

"What an enviable fellow." Bella thinks so occasionally.