Time passed quietly, another year, Zheng Yan and Xiaomin, who had retreated to the position of friends, were already accustomed to being friends, but, as usual, as friends, Zheng Yan was still the one who took the initiative to contact. Although the contact between the two is not very frequent, Zheng Yan will call Xiaomin almost a month, and Xiaomin has gradually become accustomed to the situation of often being accompanied by phone calls, and sometimes she feels that it is good to be friends.

Xiaomin was still a little cowardly, and wanted to ask Zheng Yan what day his birthday was countless times throughout the year, but he didn't ask. The scarves knitted in autumn were not given away until the weather became hotter in May. Xiaomin counted with his fingers, his birthday is coming, he should come back again to celebrate his birthday, so should he give the scarf out?

In the awkward position of a friend, it didn't feel appropriate to send a scarf to Xiaomin, but somehow she knitted a scarf for him, imagining that he was slender and wrapped in a scarf that he had knitted by himself. To send, or not to send, is an esoteric question.

Zheng Yan didn't tell Xiaomin about his lovelorn, Xiaomin didn't ask, thinking that he had been in love all along. The two who are not honest continue to misunderstand.

When his birthday came, he arrived as promised.

Left Bank Coffee, the location by the window, was the table they had eaten here for the first time, and Zheng Yan reserved a place in advance, as if time had returned to the day they met here.

I haven't seen you for a long time, and the best greeting is always: long time no see, are you okay?

In a blink of an eye, Zheng Yan arrived at the graduation season, thinking about work, Xiaomin also inquired about his situation.

Zheng Yan's eyes were full of excitement like a dazzling light that could not be hidden, and he said happily: "A state-owned enterprise in X City initially planned to admit me, and I heard that the company is quite strong and has a good salary. ”

Xiaomin's eyes moved slightly, and she said unexpectedly: "Why do you suddenly want to come to X City, Shiwen is not in B City, don't you stay in B City?" ”

Zheng Yan said indifferently: "We broke up last year. ”

Xiaomin said with a shocked face: "I don't know when it happened?" ”

"Last year, April."

Xiaomin remembered the days they spent in Xitang in April last year, and asked timidly, "Does it have anything to do with me?" ”

"It has nothing to do with you, it's my own problem."

"Why did you break up?"

"Maybe she doesn't think she's the most important person in my heart."

Xiaomin fell silent. Now her mood is very delicate, watching Zheng Yan fall out of love, she is a little frightened in her heart, afraid that it is because of her own reasons that they broke up, and her heart is ready to sprout some hope, as if the words that were originally unspeakable are not a chance to be said.

Zheng Yan stared at Xiaomin, who was sitting quietly opposite, he didn't want to break the friendship that the two had built up so hard, he was very happy that he would have the opportunity to live in the same city with her in the future, breathe the same air, and stand on the same land. This simple wish seems very easy, but it is very difficult. Everything is perfect in X City, but there is an expensive heart hidden under the beautiful appearance, and it is not easy to gain a foothold in X City in an extremely ordinary family like Zheng Yan. In a way, he and she are people who live in the same era but are not in the same world.

Zheng Yan never lamented the injustice of fate, he thought that God was fair to everyone, although his family was poor, but this could not wipe out his fighting spirit, not to mention that he had hard-working hands and a wise mind, he believed that he deserved a good life in the coming days.

This trip Zheng Yan stayed in X City for two days, and Xiaomin told Zheng Yan for the first time that her family had something to do in the evening and would not celebrate her birthday, and this was also the first time Zheng Yan celebrated Xiaomin's birthday at night.

Xiaomin, who had already sorted out the relationship with each other, was confused again at this time, how to define the relationship between them? She doesn't understand.

Zheng Yan's heart is much brighter than Xiaomin, after a long painful choice, after recognizing the difference between the worlds of the two, Zheng Yan has quietly buried this love for Xiaomin, and strives to cultivate a small tree of friendship in the grave of love, and carefully care for it to thrive. When facing Xiaomin as a friend, Zheng Yan did not feel inferior, and his mood was more calm and calm, which made Zheng Yan feel happy. He likes that Xiaomin can remember his good side, instead of becoming cowardly and cowardly once he faces her. Occasionally, in a midnight dream, when he examined his heart, he still knew that he liked her and liked her deeply, but reason told himself that I liked Xiaomin, just a friend's like.

At night, the sea breeze is cool, Xiaomin steps on the delicate sand on the beach with her bare feet, and the soft sand gently rubs the soles of her feet, and there is an indescribable joy in her heart. Zheng Yan helped her hold her shoes, quietly accompanied her, and carefully felt her happiness. She's happy, he's happy.

Finding a reef, the two sat side by side, looking out into the distance of the sea, where the sun was rising.

Xiaomin pondered for a long time, and asked the doubts in her heart: "Zheng Yan, what do you think is the relationship between us now?" ”

Zheng Yan thought for a while and replied: "In my heart, we are best friends. ”

Xiaomin lowered her head and said softly, "I don't have any friends, you tell me what my best friend should be like?" ”

Zheng Yan pointed to the two reefs next to each other not far away, and said: "Just like those two stones, accompany each other, rely on each other, no matter how strong the sea breeze is and how high the waves are, they continue to understate that after the wind and waves, they are not far away or close to standing together." ”

Xiaomin frowned, couldn't understand what Zheng Yan meant, and wondered, "What is the difference between a couple and a good friend?" ”

The corners of Zheng Yan's mouth curled slightly, revealing a charming smile: "Couples have requirements for each other, such as you have to love me and be good to me, give each other a sense of security, have a sufficient material foundation, etc., good friends are more relaxed, there are no requirements for each other, and they are more right to accompany each other." ”

Xiaomin seemed to understand and asked, "What do you want from your other half?" ”

Zheng Yan said in a playful tone: "It's okay to be a woman." ”

Xiaomin said angrily: "You don't mean that I'm angry." ”

Zheng Yan said gently: "A kind girl who can accept my current poverty and is willing to grow up with me." ”

Xiaomin's clear eyes looked at Zheng Yan gently, she didn't know what was the poverty he was talking about, and asked seriously: "Isn't love not something that two people can know each other if they love each other?" ”

Zheng Yan threw a small pebble into the calm sea, looked at the slight splash, and said gently: "Material is the foundation of love, without the most basic material conditions, talking about love is a mirror, visible but unobtainable." ”

Xiaomin frowned and said, "Shouldn't love be two people who love each other working together to create a better future?" Is matter as important as you say? ”

Zheng Yan was speechless, scratched his head, and asked in order to change the topic: "What about you?" Did you meet someone you liked this year? ”

Xiaomin shook her head and sighed: "Everyone in college has their own lives, where will anyone see me as an inconspicuous ordinary little girl, but I like my current life, I am free and easy, I like the current plain." ”

"And what do you want from your future partner?" Zheng Yan asked.

Xiaomin thought for a moment and said softly: "I'm not good at socializing with people, I often joke with my mother, and if I don't marry in the future, I will stay at home with her." As for whether you can meet the right person, it depends on fate. ”

The two people with different tastes in their hearts each told their own words that were not sincere.

"When is your birthday?" Xiaomin finally asked the words that had been buried for many years.

"October 10th." Zheng Yan replied softly.

Xiao Min covered her mouth and laughed softly: "You are still a few months younger than me." ”

"Then I'll call you big sister from now on."

"Don't. will be called old by you. ”

"I'll give you a gift." Xiao Min took out a tightly packed bag from the bulging bag.

Zheng Yan happily opened the bag, saw that it was a scarf, and said happily: "The first time I received a gift from you, I am so happy, thank you." ”

Zheng Yan wrapped the scarf around his neck, and under the sea breeze, the scarf fluttered in the wind, although it was a little hot, but his heart was full of happiness. Zheng Yan quipped: "It's a pity that it's too hot to wear it right away, it's really a pity." ”

Xiaomin's slightly red cheeks were unaware under the cover of the night, this scarf that had been knitted a long time ago was finally sent out, and a stone that had been hanging in his heart for a long time finally fell to the ground, but he still didn't feel at ease, and his little heart seemed to be more active, like a deer crashing, and his mind was a little messy.

Zheng Yan packed up the scarf, folded it neatly, carefully put it into the bag, and didn't forget to pat it lightly twice, and put the bag away with satisfaction, looking like a treacherous villain who had succeeded in the TV series.

Zheng Yan took a deep breath of the wind with the fragrance of seawater, and said gently: "Soon after, I can also live in this city, it feels so good, I like this city." ”

When a person falls in love with a city, most of them fall in love with some people or people in the city. A city with people to care about can always make people haunt their dreams, this is the charm of their hometown, since ancient times, most of them are homesick.

At this moment, Zheng Yan and Xiaomin are full of beautiful visions for the future, the feelings in Xiaomin's heart are slowly sprouting, she wants to slowly change her cowardice, take the initiative slowly, and boldly say her mind. She felt that she was great tonight, and asked Zheng Yan for his birthday for the first time and gave him a gift for the first time, which was a great improvement for her. If it is in the future, the two can live in the same city, and Xiaomin is looking forward to that day.

In a hurry, Zheng Yan went home to see his mother, and then returned to school, waiting for the arrival of the graduation ceremony and the final notice from the employer.

In graduation season, some people are happy and some are sad.

In the sorrow of parting, at the breakup banquet, Li Shiwen walked to Zheng Yan's side, and with a slightly drunken mood, she poured out her anger in her stomach

And out, Zheng Yan just listened to her counts silently, as if returning to the day when the two first met. That night, when Zheng Yan was angrily scolded, Li Shiwen stood up for him, but tonight, the person who scolded Zheng Yan angrily was Li Shiwen.

Zheng Yan felt guilty about Li Shiwen, and didn't know how to answer her, the more Li Shiwen scolded, the more angry she became, scolding and crying, and sad tears rolled down her cheeks. She was extremely aggrieved and said: "In the end, you really don't love me, and you don't even want to respond to me when I mess around?" Do I really have no place in your heart? ”

Zheng Yan gently put down the wine glass and said gently: "I'm not good at arguing, you know." ”

Li Shiwen drank a large glass of beer and said sadly: "After so long, if I ignore you, won't you come to me?" Don't you know that I still love you? ”

Zheng Yan gently stroked her head and said gently: "I know, it's just that you said before that I have someone else in my heart, this is true, I don't dare to look for you again, for fear that it will be unfair to you." ”

Li Shiwen shook his head and cried and said: "I don't care if you have someone else in your heart, it's good if you are with me, I understand you, you will be good to me, Yan, don't go back, stay in City B, stay with me, okay?" ”

Zheng Yan shook his head and said calmly: "Let me tell you my story." Do you want to hear it? ”

Suddenly, Li Shiwen, who had been drunk for seven or eight minutes, had a much clearer eye and nodded obediently.

"She and I were high school classmates, and she wasn't really pretty, she was above average, and her grades were average. However, I don't know why since I first saw her in high school, I fell in love with her like her, and I have been silently watching her back in the last row. I don't know what magic she has, there are many boys who like her too. Originally, I was just one of those people who watched her quietly, until one day I couldn't help but write her a note and asked her to meet. And guess what, she came out, and I was so nervous that I didn't even hope she would come out, but she gave me a big surprise. Also, that day was the first time I saw snow since I was a child, and I still can't forget that day. However, the result was obvious, and she rejected me. Later, she repeated, I went to college, I left her three notebooks, hoping that she could get a good score in the college entrance examination the next year, and she did well in the second year. However, she missed the appointment, and originally agreed to come to City B together, but she didn't come. Later, we didn't have contact for a long time until she had her birthday, and I went to see her and accompany her for her birthday, which is what I promised her. At that time, we had just been together, and I didn't tell you. From that point on, I found that it was more relaxed and pleasant to be with her, and it seemed more suitable for us to let go of the heavy emotional burden and retreat to the position of friends. From then on, I made up my mind to be best friends with her and protect her in the position of good friends. Later, we would keep in touch with each other every month, and it gradually became a habit. Later, she fell ill while traveling in Xitang, and I rushed over overnight, so you know. At that time, you told me to break up, I actually couldn't justify much, in my heart even if I deceived myself, I tried to tell myself that I liked her just like her friends, but in the face of your problems, I knew that I could lie to myself, but I couldn't lie to you. Zheng Yan said eloquently.

Li Shiwen listened carefully as if he was listening to someone else's story, and was brought into the context of the story, and asked inexplicably when he heard this: "Are you together now?" ”

Zheng Yan habitually touched her head again, and doted: "I am a lifelong friend with her, although I have a love for her buried in my heart, but it is impossible for me to be with her anymore, friends are friends, so it is good for us." ”

Li Shiwen's bright eyes stared at him as if they were about to penetrate Zheng Yan's heart, and said calmly: "What about your feelings for me?" ”

Zheng Yan didn't avoid the sharp eyes, and said calmly: "I like you, but you asked me who is more important in my heart between you and her, this question makes me unable to answer, and I feel full of guilt for you." ”

Li Shiwen pouted: "Do you want to shirk responsibility for a sentence of guilt?" ”

Zheng Yan laughed at himself: "I don't look like a scumbag." ”

Li Shiwen said categorically: "Yes, iron slag." You're a good person, but you're emotionally indecisive and hesitant, which is unfair to me and unfair to her. You deceive yourself like this, and think of her as your best friend, but do you really think that in your heart? Would you just like to stand in your friend's position and watch her from afar? Zheng Yan, face the problem like a man, you didn't choose me, I will only keep cursing you in my heart, if you can't face your heart, after all, you yourself are unhappy. ”

Zheng Yan laughed at himself: "Yes, maybe I'm really not a man." You scolded right, but I have always had an inferiority complex for her, I used to be very nervous in front of her, my palms would continue to sweat, back to the identity of a friend, I feel much happier with her, no longer so restrained, more relaxed, and happier. In fact, from the moment I was with you, I gave up the right to pursue her. ”

Li Shiwen turned the wine glass in his hand and sighed: "What about the future?" If you are just friends with her, you will be single or have a new lover. If you are single, I am not worth it for you, and if you have a new lover, I am not worth it for her, it is really unfair to her. ”

Zheng Yan sighed: "Let the future be solved, now I have to solve the problem of food and clothing first, find a job to support myself, otherwise where will I have the strength to look forward to the future." ”

Li Shiwen and Zheng Yan clinked glasses, drank three glasses in a row, and said arrogantly: "Zheng Yan, from today onwards, I don't love you anymore, you are just a poor good person, I hope you can not be so pitiful in the future, I am bored to scold you in my heart." After that, Li Shiwen turned around handsomely, leaving Zheng Yan with a cool back that she will never forget for a lifetime, but the moment she turned around, her tears crossed her cheeks.

Zheng Yan was stunned at Li Shiwen's back, until she was far away, and in the direction she was going, he toasted glass after glass of wine until he was unconscious.

After attending the graduation ceremony, Zheng Yan received a notice from the company that the company's quota in City X was full, but in view of Zheng Yan's excellent grades, he could be admitted to the branch in City P. The senior faintly hinted at Zheng Yan that X City is a relatively popular city, and the places have been won by people who are related, but as a state-owned enterprise, the company's treatment is still good, and he hopes that Zheng Yan can go to P City to work, after all, it is also Zheng Yan's home. He asked Zheng Yan to think carefully about whether to sign a contract and gave Zheng Yan a day to think about it.

Zheng Yan's longing for the future was suddenly disillusioned again, and he sat on the hard bed board of the dormitory.

That night, when he was about to leave City B, he went to find Zhu Peng.

At the small barbecue stall, he asked Zhu Peng how he chose to work?

Zhu Peng gnawed on his big waist and said, "Then it depends on how you want to choose?" If you firmly want to be with her, you boldly refuse this job, and you will definitely be able to find a good job in X City with your ability. If you don't stay with her, you will go back to P City, break off the mind of being with her early, and live a down-to-earth life in the future, don't be sad for Xiaomin all day long. However, then again, this job is good, it's a pity to give up, I know your difficulties, it's hard for you to resist the temptation of this job. However, you still have to make your own decision, I can only say that if you don't want to mix in the system in the future, come to City B to find my brother, let's fight together, my father opened a new hospital in City B, let me learn management, but you know, I have no interest in hospitals, otherwise I wouldn't have gone behind my father's back and didn't choose a medical major and learned programming. I still want to wander outside more when I have the opportunity, and live up to the world in this life. ”

Zheng Yan nodded, he felt that what Zhu Peng said was right, but he didn't have as many choices as Zhu Peng, he first had to let his mother live a good life, and he had the answer in his heart when he thought of this. He envied Zhu Peng for being able to choose his own life, and envied that many people had many opportunities to choose, but in front of Zheng Yan, it seemed that there were countless paths in front of him in the future, but in the end, there were very few paths he could really choose.

Between clinking glasses, it is a brotherly friendship.

Zhu Peng seems to be strong, the amount of alcohol is pitiful, three bottles of beer are in his stomach, he is already drunk, and he said vaguely through drunkenness: "I really don't know what you think, I don't know why you like Xiaomin in a daze, what's so good about that cold girl?" Later, I don't know why I'm with Li Shiwen again, since I'm together, I'm still happy for you as a brother, but I don't know why you broke up again in a daze? You really make me can't understand, to be honest, I still like your arrogant appearance in high school, although it looks a little hateful, but after all, you are a young man full of vitality in your heart. You look lifeless now, and I get angry when I look at it. ”

Zheng Yan was not angry when he was scolded by Zhu Peng, the only person who would say this about him in these years was Zhu Peng, and he cherished it very much.

Zhu Peng continued to chatter: "Li Shiwen still likes you, these days when you broke up, several times she knocked on the side of me to ask for your news, I think she is much better than Xiaomin, at least she loves you sincerely, unlike Xiaomin, what she thinks in her heart, I guess you don't know." If I were you, I would have taken Li Shiwen, stayed in City B, and our brothers worked together, I wouldn't believe that I wouldn't be able to look like a dog. ”

As he spoke, Zhu Peng was drowsy, lying on the table, and muttered: "Let's go, let's go, let's go quickly, but in the huge B city in the future, I don't know who to talk to." ”

Again, Zheng Yan carried Zhu Peng back to the dormitory.