At this moment, it was as if his heart had been thrown to the ground and trampled on it, rubbed and shattered.

I recalled in my mind that not long ago, my face was also thrown away carelessly, and all kinds of sourness suddenly emerged, with self-esteem and sadness. It was a one-week summer job in the studio, so the salary was only a few hundred yuan. I bought a Chinese meal for my parents, and I knew my mother's character, so I specially organized a hotel Chinese food, originally thinking that the dishes and service would be very good. As a result, it happened that there were several weddings in the hotel that day, and the speed of serving food became very slow, and my mother was very impatient. Even when I think about it now, I feel a tingle in my face.

"Why come so far to eat? Why should I come to eat with you in such a place? Waited here for a long time like begging! Mom scolded loudly in public, "I'd rather drink porridge at home than come to a group purchase with you, don't call me for the next group purchase!" ”

Then my mother frequently called the waiter and the manager, and angrily scolded me for not being enjoyable. didn't wait for the dish to be served, and left with his bag. There is no doubt that along the way, I can only listen to my mother angrily scolding me for choosing the wrong place and making her lose face, and my father can only sigh beside me. And on the street, I couldn't stop my face from burning with my head down.

And now, not only do I feel that my face is burning hot, but I also feel like my heart has fallen into the abyss, and I can't find it back.

I picked up the card that had just fallen off my clothes, squeezed it in the palm of my hand, and went back to my room. Lying on his stomach at his desk, his face resting on his hands, fiddling with the card, the only thing that proved it had just existed intact, and now it was broken, discarded in the doorway, not knowing when it would be picked up by the cleaners, lying with the foul-smelling and rotting garbage.

"Am I going out in clothes like yours?! I can't get out! It's so rustic that it can't be more earthy! I think you did it on purpose! I heard me say that I don't buy anything other than living expenses. So you deliberately bought some garbage and came back to me off! Mom rushed in and pointed at me angrily.

"Nope! This is something I had planned before! I just didn't tell you! I want to buy it and talk about it when it arrives! I stood up and cried. At this moment, I shouted so loudly that I didn't even care if others could hear me.

"You're still arguing with me? Do you want others to hear you shouting so loudly? Do you just want everyone to think I'm bad? Mom glared and rushed in front of me and waved her fist, "Are you so kind?" I only took this thing out after I scolded you, right? ”

I can't justify that, who made me want to surprise at the time, so I didn't say it? Even a hundred mouths can't turn my mother's mind around now.

I bit my lip and it seemed to be swollen and my face was tense.

"It's too late! Can you not treat your parents like this?! Without me, would you be where you are today? You're deliberately scared! If I scolded you, I deliberately bought garbage and came back! Why is it so vicious? So bad mind? It's all up to your dad! ”

I didn't know what I bought, my mother didn't like it, so I became a vicious bad person?!

"Mom, do you have persecution paranoia?" I shook my head, discouraged, and gave up struggling. I know it's going to be stormy, but I think it's paranoia.

"What do you say?! You're sick! You are sick to your family! ”

My mother hammered her fist on the table, and it was obviously the table that vibrated it, but I felt like a hammer in my heart, and all my internal organs shook.

This day is destined to be difficult, I have no classes, there is nowhere to go, and every minute and second passes like on the tip of a knife. My classmates and friends are all at work, and there is no one to make an appointment. Even if I can go out for a walk, I'm ..... I don't think I'm embarrassed to go out. It was a sunny day, but I felt like a night with no place to go.

Twenty hours left, nineteen hours left...... I stared at the time below the computer, wiped away my tears, and after a while my eyes blurred again.

"Do you want to waste electricity? Turning on your computer without having to prepare for class? If you pay for your living expenses, you have to use it, right?! As soon as I told you, you found another place to start, didn't you?! ”

Mom is on fire again.

Silence and turn off the computer.

Find a book, read it and you won't hear it! Look inside! Look inside! I pinched my thighs to remind myself to focus.

"Pretending again! Reading?! You don't take the exam! What books to read?! Holding the book and pretending to ......, "Mom's lips kept clicking and clicking countless words.

Eighteen hours to go......

Endure! I can't bear it, and there are countless hours to come.

Seventeen hours to go, sixteen hours to go......

When I wanted to refute, I pinched my legs, and watched the white skin gradually pink, red to the point of hot, with blood spots, and a trace of blood......

Now I longed for the night again, so that I could sleep justifiably, even though I fell asleep with the sound of scolding.

Early in the morning, the school has a meeting. It was a lifesaver for me, and I was like a refugee.

"Meeting? Will there be money at the meeting? Either you are deliberately hiding, or you are hiding your overtime salary, and you don't even explain your salary to your family! Do you still have a mother? "My mom poked me in the head when I went out.

With a sigh, where did I go to conjure up a sum of money?

"Where is overtime pay? I'm going to work normally for a meeting, do you want to hide from me yesterday? I retorted.

"Get out! If you deliberately hide and don't listen, don't come back! Mom pushed and gritted her teeth.

When I left the house, I breathed a sigh of relief, as if the big stone in my heart had been removed, and the air felt fresh.

It's very sunny outside, the sun is like a knife, it can puncture people like balloons, and everyone tries to hide under the trees and walk. However, I feel that it is much more comfortable than the air-conditioned room at home, and it is so rare to walk in the sun and live in the sun.

The phone vibrate, and Mu Liang's call came.

"Why didn't you answer the phone last night? There was not much reply to the text messages. Mu Liang's voice sounded lost.

"It's nothing, it's just...... So sleepy, asleep. ”

"Oh, I thought it was my aunt urging you to go on a blind date again."

Listening to the voice, you could feel that he was pouting again and hanging his head at this time.

"Hey! No! Really fell asleep. I tried to get interested, and I smiled in response, glad he couldn't see the tears rolling in my eyes at this point.

"Really! It's good if you don't have it Mu Liang's response was also brisk.

Listening to Mu Liang happily talking about what he had seen and heard in the day, my mood seemed to be clear.

Standing on the bus stop and looking at the people coming and going, it seems that the world is just me and the wood on the other end of the phone.